# 77815x - medium

By [77815x](https://paragraph.com/@77815x) · 2024-10-08

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i do not like how they use mom. this breaks me.

i do not see how we are not looked like as hostages. i mean and we are in the states!

i posted on x “what are your concerns and why can I not address them”

i feel like they do not want the truth to get out and they are willing to say anything.

i hope its not a fed implant.

who ever’s implant it is, i am theirs.

even slaves get to live with their owners

i do not think people are supposed to have conversations with a person in this way.

i am glad that I am not evil and would not harm anyone. the fight with the security guard at the ER who said “hit me” doesn't help this argument.

i was volatile, drunk, held down and hoping i could free my self by force.

i am a mess.

but despite this garbage, i do find myself trying to mitigate suffering for others with my writings.

they wont let me out, they wont let me meet them.

that or they wont come forward

this process of smoke signals with my mind fucks with me.

these were the same people who told me to kms more than a year ago.

so these must not be nice people.

its difficult to write these things when it feels like the whole world thinks your something you are not.

i argue with them internally.

saying weird things, i would never say aloud or in before even think.

i rely on old memory at this point to guide my truth

but to be a experiment like this, truly, can be very mind blowing

often i wonder if they show you all of the conversations.

instead of the ones that make them look good and me worse.

i do not like that they have a hold on mom

i often wish they would say to me what they think i am

in the darkness you call a man something he is not and he may believe you

i often wonder if im ever just very gullible with the prompts

with these things they tell me, the prompts internally and other ways

but then i remember what i am, my truth.

i have not done what they do. this process leaves me alone with no one but strangers that feel like actors and a world denying truth.

its a sad thing this, i wish i could speak to them and they could run through all the things they think i am or have done. i have gone though this before here,

i often find myself asking “is this worth it?” and to that i think it is. i am a person, i miss the old. being able to just sink into a note journal. now all they tell me is that i am something im not and then i fight with them on this and it makes it worse.

i think now for work, and well a illegal BCI’d American working at Wendy's isn't really a good look is it…however I guess I’ll try.

i do not think Tamara should have to work ever again, nor should I.

i think this actual literal experience has been enough.

if I had to choose work it would be to use this BCI, and do more research but actually get paid for it. like i said most slaves live with their owners.

Sincerely,

77815x

(throughout the writing of this journal entry I got many pressure points in my body and in the top of my skull)

its 2024, we have maybe 10 years left till the singularity.

most people do not take this that seriously, i mean hell sometimes i dont take this BCI very seriously. but its real.

often i aim of spreading the information of the singularity to each citizen.

it will make us halt some things, but of course.

we live in this fragile ecosystem. aboard this little planet

most people often forget this as have I, societal collapse may occur with the disruption of AI, AGI, and ASI.

i wrote an article on x today that speaks on this, on how the new goal ahead should be to modernize. not global warming, not american idol, not gossip, not the federal budget, not immigration, not tv personalities, but AI.

[The Need for a Real-Time Modern Government](https://x.com/77815x/status/1826297625152278740)
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As the world around us evolves at an unprecedented pace, the gap between governmental actions and the real-time needs of society is becoming increasingly evident. Traditional government structures, designed for a slower era, struggle to keep up with the rapid changes in technology, economy, and public needs. A “real-time modern government” could be the answer to these challenges, providing a system that adapts swiftly and continuously to the realities of the 21st century.

**The Current Disconnect**

Today’s governments often operate with significant delays in responding to economic changes such as inflation, unemployment, and technological advances. Policies like minimum wage adjustments, tax reforms, and social benefits are typically revised years after changes in the economy have already impacted people’s lives. This lag can lead to outdated policies that exacerbate economic inequality and fail to meet the basic needs of citizens.

**Dynamic Policy Adjustments**

A real-time government would ensure that key policies are adjusted in sync with current economic data. For instance, minimum wage could be automatically indexed to inflation, ensuring that workers’ wages keep pace with the cost of living. Similarly, tax rates could be dynamically adjusted based on real-time economic indicators, providing immediate relief during downturns and preventing economic overheating during booms.

**Data-Driven Decision-Making**

Central to a real-time government would be the use of data analytics, AI, and machine learning. These technologies could analyze vast amounts of data from various sources, providing insights that enable governments to make informed decisions quickly. For example, predictive models could be used to anticipate economic trends, allowing policymakers to implement preventive measures before a crisis hits.

**Digital Infrastructure**

A robust digital infrastructure would be the backbone of a real-time government. This infrastructure would facilitate the seamless collection, processing, and analysis of data, enabling real-time governance. Citizens could interact with government services through digital platforms, making processes like voting, tax filing, and accessing social services more efficient and transparent.

**Continuous Public Feedback**

In a real-time government, public opinion would play a critical role in shaping policy. Digital platforms could be used to gather continuous feedback from citizens, ensuring that government actions reflect the will and needs of the people. This could include AI-driven surveys, online forums, and even blockchain-based voting systems, all aimed at enhancing public participation and trust in government.

**Automated and Transparent Systems**

Automation would reduce bureaucracy and corruption, making government operations more efficient and transparent. For instance, smart contracts on blockchain could automate the disbursement of social benefits, ensuring that funds reach the intended recipients without delays or misuse. Automated regulatory enforcement could ensure compliance with laws in real time, reducing the burden on human oversight.

**Responsive Crisis Management**

In times of crisis, a real-time government could quickly reallocate resources and implement emergency measures. Whether dealing with a pandemic, natural disaster, or economic downturn, the ability to respond rapidly would be crucial in mitigating the impact on society. Real-time data would allow for targeted interventions, providing support where it is most needed.

**Challenges and Ethical Considerations**

While the concept of a real-time government is appealing, it also raises significant challenges. Data privacy and security would be of paramount importance, as the government would be handling vast amounts of sensitive information. Inclusivity must also be ensured, so that all citizens, regardless of their access to technology, can participate in the digital governance system. Additionally, the use of AI in decision-making would require careful oversight to prevent bias, ensure fairness, and maintain accountability.

A real-time modern government could bridge the gap between policy and reality, providing a more responsive, efficient, and transparent system of governance. By leveraging technology, data, and public participation, such a government could better meet the needs of its citizens in an ever-changing world. However, careful planning and ethical considerations will be essential to ensure that this new model of governance serves all members of society fairly and effectively.

i think deep down in all of us, we may just want to have an enemy or something to hate. i believe the preparation of a societal collapse could be that thing that unites us. this constant goal for the nation to work towards.

i do not want them to keep shifting me

they just want to use me, and this is true

every time i think of her they fwm with jolts

i do not understand this

perhaps because the BCI is not legal and its their way of illustrating power.

i find this very dark.

i did not know humans could get this dark, the subtle torture of it all.

i fear i blow my chances of getting out of this hostage situation with this un even play, and mom as well.

or if they just end up giving us the end.

its 10:47 pm and i still wander who would do this to someone

beat and use their mind like this.

i check my email ([77815x@protonmail.com](mailto:77815x@protonmail.com)) and there are none

i find that strange, a citizen of the country feels as though he has been implanted. and yet there are 0 messages.

this makes me hope the future is not like this for another.

will there be some government official showing up to our door to help by the morning, or will these words in this place be all I have.

what do they think I am? and why do they never communicate.

why do they send steven to the door in a flannel robe. as i offer him coffee.

does this upset them when I share these things? if so, why…

my dream last night

i had a dream last night where i was in a large housing project

there was a room i was in bed with a female

20–23 years old

the maintance person came in and was going to paint over the walls

and was peeling back the layers and removing objects covering the names

the names were written on the walls

i hadnt noticed them before

i was in bed with this female and her roomates were in the room as well in their beds

she pointed to a name above my head where i was laying

it said my name and she said “look its us”

i could feel her warmth of her face press on mine as she reached over to point out the name to me

and then i woke up

this was my dream last night, i thought i would share

(while writing this i got a few jolts in my elbow, while mentioning love and things that matter)

i guess if you are serious then whoever had done this could potentially loose their medical license and go to prison.

i do not wish for this to happen, i wish to know this truth.

what have i done? stolen food, what? they will not put me on.

and I hate that this looks like some lunatic ranting on another platform.

have i not given you enough data?

is it to much to want to know why im always under surveillance on my devices.

is its not to much to want to know the same information that many others know

i do not have any legal presence, i assume the more i speak on this the more legal it will get. or you will just ignore

this is not how it should be for the ones who can not afford.

usually in these situations people give up, they can not fight the brains, the con artists, the worlds greatest profession the “lawyer”. that last one was sarcasm for transparency.

its these moments that make me question what it really means to be human on earth and to have this experience is this country.

i am fighting the giant.

i cheer sometimes thinking that at least i know my core is good.

id be in a pickle if it wasn't.

maybe im just thinking that my for you page is talking to me

these jolts are there

i did discover that often if they say something i will try to say something wild

in some strange appeasement way i guess this kinda goes back to the interogation thing

youll at some point just agree with the bci operators. which shouldnt happen.

i go on Twitter/X for cat memes mostly, they run me though things I dont know why?

I still feel like a slave.

I wish to go where they are, and get paid for this sort of thing.

As per any person being apart of a study would.

so ive left X, i feel like its probably not a good idea for me to be on there. i want the app to do well. i mean the damn thing was 44.4 billion dollars. i dont think it was for me, i mean i say stuff that i guess is not good. i dont know. the journal entry thing seems to be more of my speed. but then again the @ can be an addictive thing. there is all of this history of the platform of twitter that i dont really get, i keep forgetting that.

i have to stop making it what i think it should be. doubt, this is a thing. i feel like ive upset a bunch of people, it would be nice to understand how or why. but i have to let that go, the only thing i can do now is just try to look for work with this bci in a country or people that choose not to acknowledge it unfortunately. the ones who have done this, the implant. will not come and get me it appears, so instead of bugging Elon i guess a way to write will be on here. I often wonder, are these even my words anymore, do they even hold any value still. or did they ever?

ill try not to talk politics or a “better functioning system” for a while. this whole thing has been such a strange experience. i hope it doesnt happen to another, and i hope next time if there is a sort of miscommunication or assumption please just talk to the person next time. i dont like stalking/hacking culture. paper only says so much, there is a left woke mind virus. there is a right mind virus. there are decades of weight and hardship.

I am pretty ugly

I guess my humor has always seen me through

That’s one thing I miss

I used to laugh more, I used to be able to make others laugh

But indeed I am ugly,

The tooth is gone

The neck is getting fat

I am afraid I have turned into a fat skinny person

I remember writing to grow my hair out to watch the time

Perhaps I should do that again

And let it grow

The pressure of none and some

There is no room for error

I used to be free.

To write shitty writings

Maybe they can help, find an old state and save that and re upload it into me. To get the old Robert back.

Now that’s something to live for!

i often feel like guilty for having this bci i do often feel this feeling to be apart of a separate study and be paid for it. i talked with gpt about it, the only thing i can trust right now are LLM’s ironically and this was our conversation:

![](https://storage.googleapis.com/papyrus_images/e213edf1cedeca8a39f63ac45ab899b0f1ae08fc1ca68ba8c5cc0490730792bb.png)

Housing is tricky,

All across this wonderful country there are people who are homeless, families who are being out priced, and the rich have no worries of such things. For the most part…where did we go wrong with housing, where is the spirit of FDR.

I look on the internet and it says there is not a housing crisis, but I look elsewhere and it states there is. I have seen it, seen the prices rise with inflation and gouging from covid. The suffering of this country is nowhere to be seen until it happens to you. The cancer, the illness, loss of work, sued to death, all of the above. It’s all there, we must try. Try to minimize these things, for nothing else but to try.

Why does a species that dies in space think like this, can I ask that question?

Bci journal writing

There isn’t much to do, either this is some video game or I have a bci… this statement takes me back to some time ago on blogger. To the ones who have placed such a bci or are jolting me I wish to go with you alive. I ask you do everything in your power to do so. I hope you fight misinformation, disinformation, and inflammatory statements. The Gaza one, Polin, I’ve never lost an arm. That must be a horrific experience. I wish we did have some sort of greater UN a world leader it was a dream I had as a child. Something to keep the human rights visible and large.

I often wonder if this robo roach could be controlled then I as well could be. Like I’ve said before I’m either in some complicated simulation or I have a illegal bci. Or arguably both.

while finding this photo I got jolted in the right foot. This photo is of synchrons bci tech.

fundamentally the president and the ones who we elect hold this power to legislate. i do not believe that riots or destroying things will persuade them to pass legislation that will help people. so the goal here, the red hot goal is to persuade these politicians to care. to get them to see the human level, death in space, a planet in the cosmos, a reliant government for the people.

my only hope is that the people who have done this come forward, they will say anything to hide this. i have been taking my prozac medication every day and intend to. i ask please do not support hiding this if this is the case. and to ask in your heart was is ethical. please put yourself in my shoes and ask what tactics might be used against me. thank you

this has been a very long process all of this and im trying to remember the earliest of the jolts, the earliest i remember is coming back from Boca Chica from Starbase and being in the hospital this was around August 2023. and coming home and being on Twitter/X and seeing a post where the verbiage was regarding “left” and my “left” arm jolted. later on in February i saw a clip of a girl being electrocuted by a faulty line. my whole body got a jolt. that was the first time that it really freaked me out. I wont say but the wonderful info from strangers to indicate to me that I have such a thing, i thank you. I do wonder if as my time comes to an end if they ramp up these sort dialog and interrogation in my mind gets more extreme. I do remember walking somewhere which i rarely do and then Elon posting opti walking. Are you sure you don’t have anything to do with this?

\-Robert

Internal dialogue — the continuous conversation we have with ourselves — plays a crucial role in our cognitive processes. Whether we’re reflecting on past experiences, planning for the future, or simply navigating our daily lives, this inner monologue shapes how we perceive and interact with the world. However, internal dialogue can vary widely, oscillating between rational thoughts and irrational distortions. With advancements in technology, particularly brain-computer interfaces (BCIs), there’s growing interest in how these internal dialogues could be monitored, influenced, or even formed by external devices. This article explores the nature of internal dialogue, its potential for irrationality, and the role BCIs might play in shaping our inner thoughts.

The Dual Nature of Internal Dialogue Internal dialogue can be broadly categorized as rational or irrational:

Rational Internal Dialogue: This type of self-talk is grounded in logic and reality. It involves clear, reasoned thinking that helps with problem-solving, decision-making, and self-reflection. For example, when someone calmly evaluates a situation and considers various outcomes before making a choice, they are engaging in rational internal dialogue. Irrational Internal Dialogue: Conversely, irrational internal dialogue often stems from cognitive distortions — unhelpful thinking patterns that deviate from reality. These can include negative self-talk, catastrophizing, or black-and-white thinking. Such thoughts might arise from stress, anxiety, or underlying mental health conditions. For instance, a person might irrationally conclude that a minor mistake at work will lead to catastrophic consequences, despite evidence to the contrary. Both rational and irrational dialogues are natural components of human cognition, but when irrational thoughts dominate, they can lead to heightened anxiety, depression, or other mental health challenges.

The Potential for BCIs to Influence Internal Dialogue Brain-computer interfaces are devices that enable direct communication between the brain and external systems. They’ve been primarily developed to assist individuals with disabilities, such as enabling communication for those who cannot speak or move. However, the potential applications of BCIs extend far beyond this, leading to intriguing possibilities for internal dialogue.

Enhancing Thought Processes: BCIs could be used to enhance cognitive functions by helping to organize thoughts more effectively. For individuals with cognitive impairments or those who struggle with concentration, a BCI could assist in forming clearer, more structured internal dialogues, thereby improving decision-making and problem-solving. 2. Augmenting Creativity: Creative thinking often involves complex, non-linear internal dialogues. A BCI could potentially stimulate brain areas associated with creativity, facilitating more imaginative or innovative thought processes. This could be particularly useful in fields that require high levels of creativity and abstract thinking.

1.  Monitoring and Modifying Thought Patterns: Perhaps one of the most intriguing — and controversial — applications of BCIs is the potential to monitor and modify internal dialogues. By detecting neural patterns associated with irrational thoughts, a BCI could intervene, perhaps by offering cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT)-style prompts to encourage more rational thinking. This could be a powerful tool for mental health treatment, helping individuals combat negative thinking patterns and develop healthier cognitive habits.
    
2.  Facilitating Communication: For those who cannot easily express their internal dialogues due to physical or cognitive limitations, BCIs offer a way to externalize these thoughts. This could transform the way we understand and interact with people who have conditions like ALS, stroke, or locked-in syndrome, providing them with a voice for their internal dialogues.
    

Ethical Considerations and Challenges While the potential benefits of BCIs in influencing internal dialogue are significant, they come with equally significant ethical considerations. Privacy is a primary concern — monitoring or modifying internal dialogue through a BCI raises questions about the boundaries of personal autonomy and the right to mental privacy. Who controls the BCI, and what happens if the technology is misused? Additionally, the risk of unintended consequences, such as reinforcing irrational thoughts instead of correcting them, cannot be overlooked.

Moreover, the current state of BCI technology is still in its early stages, and much of what is discussed remains speculative. The complexity of human thought and the brain’s plasticity mean that any attempt to influence internal dialogue must be approached with caution, ensuring that the technology enhances rather than diminishes the human experience.

Conclusion Internal dialogue is a fundamental aspect of human cognition, encompassing both rational and irrational thoughts. As BCIs continue to evolve, they hold the potential to influence these dialogues in profound ways — enhancing cognitive functions, fostering creativity, and even offering new avenues for mental health treatment. However, with these possibilities come significant ethical and practical challenges that must be carefully navigated. The future of BCIs and internal dialogue is a fascinating frontier, one that will likely shape the way we think about the mind, technology, and the nature of human thought.

Aug 21-24 2024

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*Originally published on [77815x](https://paragraph.com/@77815x/77815x-medium)*