# Cultivating Grace By [aloysious.eth ](https://paragraph.com/@aloysious) · 2023-03-01 --- ![📸 Portage Canal, Pt Townsend](https://storage.googleapis.com/papyrus_images/fd40b919980942877f80a798314febf4b098092d9aad4c0b1dc84197f90819ee.jpg) 📸 Portage Canal, Pt Townsend I’ve had myself a bit of a revelation… **I have come to believe that grace comes from my ability to make peace with my own suffering.** When I heal my wounded parts people will not be able to ruffle my feathers. I have become aware of another way I can take more responsibility for my emotions. I can proactively tend my wounded parts in an effort to continue to cultivate my own resiliency. **Mostly I’ve just been aware of all of my Trauma, but now I can go back and lick the wounds clean instead of just staring at open sores going “_yeah I know how that got there”._** The reason why I still take offense to certain things people say or do is because I have not healed certain parts of my being. There are parts of my identity and belief system that I am not yet fully grounded in. I have a responsibility to myself, others and my environments to invest in this critical social and emotional labor. I want to be able to correct moments without projecting my unhealed parts outwardly. \*\*Everytime I am unable to manage my own energy…transformation struggles to take root. \*\*I am acutely aware that I am not managing my energy in an efficient manner. ![](https://storage.googleapis.com/papyrus_images/192d63dedfa7f521bb0ea938625413785579443fd0f32006882dde2ca4f4d891.jpg) I will be deepening the intentionality for which I am holding in my work with specific parts, allowing them to become my primary personal development points of focus… \* My range and expression // feminine to masculine \[getting grounded in them both as well as the spaces between\] \* Indigeneity, continuing to retrace my lineage // Allowing myself to be influenced by elders of the good mind // Deepening embodiment practices and rituals following the guidance of the seasons \* My survivorship // resentments towards resiliency \* Self worth // Sense of pride \* Financial stability // Mutualism \* Covid — Host covid conscious events \* Ecosystem & Food sovereignty // Hydroponics experiments & wetland restoration efforts ![](https://storage.googleapis.com/papyrus_images/c9df52697e781faa476bd70994368e531475d756652cb345eea8414a6d782ea9.jpg) I fancy myself a South African and Indigenous Descendant. I am a Life Giver and a Land Steward. I am A Queer, Polyamorous, Autigender and Disabled Anti-War Veteran of Color who is also AUTISTIC AS FVCK (even if you can’t visibly notice) That’s an ever growing mouthful I’m feeling pretty comfortable leaning into and I trust it to evolve as I continue to learn more about myself. Naturally, like most folx these days, I am a trauma Survivor. There isn’t a day that goes by where I am not whole-heartedly practicing liberating myself and others beyond our experiences of oppression, marginalization and the colonization of our minds. **Healing is possible.** Thank you for witnessing me! ❤️ \- Aloysious --- *Originally published on [aloysious.eth ](https://paragraph.com/@aloysious/cultivating-grace)*