# Who: Day 4

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**Published by:** [Who I am meant to be](https://paragraph.com/@be/)
**Published on:** 2024-07-31
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@be/who-day-4

## Content

today I'm forever letting go of my attachment to the pain of past failures. why do they cause me pain? because we wish I had the success of them now, but wishing for them stops them from presenting themself to me clearly. Why do I wish I had them now? It would be nice and I believed that I would. By believing it would happen and nice. I stole from future me by letting myself experience having it before it was real and by believing I would happen I lost connection with the reality of the moment lost the fidelity of what I was experiencing. Take nothing for granted even if you put everything into it and 'are doing everything' you are supposed to do. Don't bother with anything you are supposed to do again. Do what needs to be done, and know that you will act to the level of your focus. Hmm I'm prescribing to myself after I discover a truth. Observe the truth directly and come to a deep understanding. Prescribing again. There is no take away. it just was. I did that and that didn't work. Understood. Why would it be nice and why did I believe it would happen? it would be nice because it would have moved me closer to my destination. The destination being supporting a family and moving to the next phase of my life. Why do I want that? it's in my dna. These things chose me.

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