# idk, a public journal maybe?

By [bearTrap](https://paragraph.com/@beartrap) · 2021-10-06

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I can’t tell if I’m high or not so a disclaimer seems like a good idea;

**THIS IS AN EXPERIMENT THAT I’M TRYING TO RUN FOR SELF BETTERMENT. PLEASE KEEP A PUKING BOWL BESIDES YOU AT ALL TIMES.**

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OKAY, WTF IS HAPPENING?
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Ser, I’m trying to embarrass myself in the metaverse cuz the idea of taking my pants off in the real world in front of actual people, makes me wanna puke \*_grabs the puking bowl_\*.

OKAY, WHY TF ARE YOU DOING IT?
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Ser, I.. am a pathological liar, I don’t like the idea of people judging me so I lie my ass off to please them.

Knowing the damage it was causing me, I sat down the other day and thought about what the best way would be to get rid of this super-power(isn’t it?).

After 22secs of critical thinking, two conclusions were formed;

*   Firstly, my mind cannot stop playing that humming sound.
    
*   Secondly, I needed public humiliation to get over my fear.
    

By trying not to scar myself for life, I decided to not go for the real-world just yet and looked for other viable options.

Web 2.0? nuh-uh.. youtube lives there. \\n \\n Metaverse? sure, i can live with NFT version of my embarrassing moments.

OKAY, WHY NOW THO?
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**_“Just let people know already that you’re doing this for the airdrop :3”_**

How dare you ser? HOW DARE YOU? I am a trying for self-bette… yeah you’re right. I just checked the price of $WRITE and I’m like 90% sure it was the wrong one but my mind went into the _“I-love-free-MIM(magic internet money)-mode”._

Apart from the obvious greed, I did have a reason to change myself but more on that in the next write-up. For now, I’m hungry and there’s no food in the metaverse :3.

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*Originally published on [bearTrap](https://paragraph.com/@beartrap/idk-a-public-journal-maybe)*