# Stones

**Published by:** [Bianca Caruana](https://paragraph.com/@bianca-caruana/)
**Published on:** 2023-08-30
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@bianca-caruana/stones

## Content

I looked at her and she looked at me And said, “Why do you carry these, honey bee?” I’d collected them, unknowingly Year after year They were gifts from a curse That spat from their mouths Pain disguised in pain Those stones became my house Your calves, they’re so big Your hair, it’s too long Your skirt, it’s too short Your eyebrows, they’re too thick Your eyes, they’re so old Why does she have hair under her arms? Why does she wear makeup? Why doesn’t she wear makeup? Why did she paint her skin with a permanent marker? She should show less skin You should show more skin You’re beautiful, only if…. You’re pretty, only when… And these stones They stayed with me I didn’t even know that they lived with me Disguised as a permanent gift for me Until they weighed me down so heavily I could not stand Entropy No more! I said, breathlessly As I looked at her flowered in empathy With a fire that burned unrelentingly Deep within My skin Speaks of stories so vast And the essence of those can be found in my marks And these choices, they’re mine and not yours See these parts of myself are miracles, not flaws I am not a child, I let my hair grow long And my clothes represent the words to my song So if you’ve come here to edit, control or delete Or complain, or hiss, or share your critique If you’re not here with me to hear what I sing Then leave me be to spread my wings

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