# okay, let's do this.

By [Caden](https://paragraph.com/@cbxm-2) · 2022-08-18

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hi, I’m Caden.

and I have a thinking problem.

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I’m nearly a year into web3, and I still haven’t published anything on Mirror.

what the hell? why?

because I’m complicated! **_that’s_** why!

*   I want to write technical guides and practical breakdowns of social coordination mechanisms, but I doubt myself for lack of expertise.
    
*   I want to tell personal stories, but I'm insecure about the validity of my experience.
    
*   and I need to pay the bills, so I think I should be professional.
    

and, well...

that shit hasn't gotten me anywhere. it _certainly_ hasn’t solved my very core problem, which is that **_I. want. to. write._**

so!

welcome to my Mirror!

and it’s going to be exactly that: a reflection of me.

a glimpse. a glance. a momentary peek into my thoughts, habits, hopes, fears, and honestly: my sometimes altogether too enthusiastic opinions.

which I'm so **_very_** excited to share with you. 🌞

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I’m a writer. I always have been. I think in typewriter font and I draw story structure diagrams in my head when I go to the movies.

at home, I just draw them. 😁

I spend a lot of time writing long notes to myself about how I think things work, but I also really enjoy explaining them for other people, or just documenting stuff. and I _looove_ teaching. seeing someone unlock concepts they struggled with before is just… \***mwah\*.**

that, and I grew up in the age of MSN Messenger, so, like...

I know how to convey drama on the internet, that's all.

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I’m also a very private person. very introverted. very inhibited. so I don’t generally like to reveal too much about myself. I like to take my time. really iron out my thoughts carefully. and essentially only present myself in situations where I understand myself.

but I’m, uh…

… I’m very messy.

and that freaks me out like, _all_ the time.

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BUT I WANT TO WRITE!

and I’m tired of my messiness holding me back!

so I’m gonna follow every writer ever’s advice, and I’m gonna write what I know.

and that’s me.

I preach that this space could use more humanity, so I’m gonna **_be_** that olive branch. because I really do want to be a connection point. I want to share these brief, delicate moments with you—the ones that remind us we’re **_far_** more alike than we are different. and I want to normalize being a **_human_** on the internet. warts and all.

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so welcome to the adventure, friend! I’m glad to have you aboard!

there’s plenty of sea left to sail, and just as much treasure to be found. 🙂

now _let’s fucking_ **_write_**.

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*Originally published on [Caden](https://paragraph.com/@cbxm-2/okay-let-s-do-this)*