# Free Fall poem 01 [are you still magical in the free fall?]

*'tell me, what's the story, dear heart?' your brain whispers. Anyone would be around when the podium is rising. But, everyone would leave when they know that all you love is just free falling. Free falling from the Castle of the Sky. Free falling into the dark bottomless pit. Free falling deep under the ocean of Bermuda Triangle.*

By [clionachee](https://paragraph.com/@chee) · 2024-04-28

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the Free Fall Poem series
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### ૮ℓเσɳα Chee Pui Khei 徐𣳽琪

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we would be healed after being the tortured poets ❤

### 01  
\[are you still magical in the free fall?\]

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why  
the ones  
who once clapped for you  
just wanna  
break  
what you build?  
  
For the BROKEN MINDS  
behind all the BRO - KEN  
$_y_$**T**_e_**m**$?  
or CLAWS of greed?  
or worse,  
in the **_\\/\\_**puppet-**_/\\/_**pulling**_\\/\\_** strings?  
  
you've been raised in the asylum,  
thinking that you're out of it  
by the time you've grown up  
  
but lil' did you know  
that every bias from the past  
haunt you like motion sickness  
when you look at your own story  
  
b  
e  
c  
a  
u  
s  
e  
  
you've been through every page  
you've been involved in every tech boom  
you've been trying to break the reality  
with a BROKEN mind  
yourself  
with your _l 0 $ T_ soul  
thinking  
that  
you  
might be  
forever EVOLVING  
while you're  
forever breaking,  
forever leaving, &  
forever hurting,  
whatever making the heart happy  
for  
yourself  
  
Your B R A I N's killin' your <h3art  
  
_again & again..._  
AGAIN AND AGAIN  
**_AGAINNN ANDDD AGAINNN ! ! !_**  
  
but still, your heart  
just hopes so much  
to be embraced by  
all  
that  
you could never understand  
just yet.  
  
YOU are annoyed  
by the fact that  
YOU TOO WERE ONE OF THE BROKEN MINDS  
when you wake up one day  
TO FIND YOU DESIGNING  
WHATEVER  
FOR YOUR DESIRE  
that are so confusing.  
  
YOU STILL AREN't FORGIVING  
YOU **_love 'em_** and YOU H A T E 'E M!  
when  
you look through  
all the loveliest clouds across the multiverse  
that they could've given you in the easiest ways  
instead of  
**_d_**  
**_r_**  
**_o_**  
**_w_**  
**_n_**  
**_i_**  
**_n_**  
**_g_**  
**_you into the sea of their broken pieces_**  
behind all their unnecessary masks.

THERE  
**their broken parts still broke you into**  
**p - i - e - c - e - s.**  
  
**Million gazillion of p - i - e - c - e - s within your soul**  
**as if you don't belong**  
**like the fish almost dying on the road without water**  
  
**THE PIECES**  
are just  
all scattered  
  
then,  
all trapped  
calling from(NOTfor) help within the **_lines_**  
in the books  
in the lock-up drawers  
in the concealed walls of a secret room  
in the tall castle, even taller than Rapunzel's  
in the hideaway of Wonderland that only you came to, following your dragon  
in the island of Motunui, that's faraway from all of the others, if we never sail  
in the Nova Incognita nobody has yet to discover  
in the branching timeline that nobody jumps into with their Tempads  
in the middle of the nights.

Look at all the things around.  
All the things  
shape shifted you surround.  
in this journey and beyond.  
how fascinating,  
yet, how pathetic?

Because you hope?  
Because you trust?  
Because you can't unsee what you saw, so damn much?

Do you belong?  
Do you surrender?  
Do you run away before you free fall?

'Cause  
that's what you do?  
that's what you feel?  
that's how you protect the heavy heart in you?

Just run away.  
And, away you go.  
Away, away, into a labyrinth you go.

Away  
from 'em  
who gave you thorns, stitches and roars.

'**Be your true self**,'  
you whisper to your heart.  
so true from the beginning,  
so true from the heart  
when you don't have any scars  
as you just gaze into the sky with all the lovely stars  
before your heart stayed behind all these shadowed bars.  
  
at the exact moment  
when you  
live with the **unicorns**,  
fly with the **fairies**,  
play with the **wizards**,  
  
when  
fall from the sky,  
you still smile from within thinking 'bout 'em.  
  
YOU'VE ONCE BELIEVED IN ALL THESE.

do you, still?  
  
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...,

the biomedical engineer  
at the tortured poets department

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*Originally published on [clionachee](https://paragraph.com/@chee/free-fall-poem-01-%5Bare-you-still-magical-in-the-free-fall%5D)*