# Undelivered Letters 01

By [Choco.Feline](https://paragraph.com/@choco-feline) · 2022-09-26

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‘Undelivered Letters’ is a collection of musings, poems, and mini-fiction I used to write a few years back. They were tied to my mental state at that time, and while it was rough, the years becomes the foundation of what I have become today.

I separated the writings into a few posts, this part will contain my musing and short poems, and the next one will be a collection of mini-fictions.

Although short, I hope you enjoy this writing!

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**If humans weren’t born as social beings**

**Would we know loneliness?**

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**The mention of your name**

**raises an aching rage in the hollows of my ribs**

**and it is what keeps me safe**

**from the demon of my head**

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**but even sometimes the air weighs the lungs**

**and beating heart causes paranoia**

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**Loneliest in crowd be loved in solitude You are but a contradiction of truth and this is true for the best way for a candle to shine is to place it in the darkest room.**

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**I want to scream in poetry**

**like a storm above Tokyo**

**I want to bleed in painting,**

**I want to run, I want to crash**

**I want to cry, uncontrollably like a child**

**I want to violate the rule, the society**

**like bombs tearing apart towns and cities**

**I was born to fight with the sky**

**Made to love like the sun**

**Built to care like the rain**

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**When I see through a mirror**

**I saw no one but myself;**

**But,**

**Sometimes I could not recognize**

**These sorrowful eyes.**

**Then,**

**Perhaps it wasn’t me.**

**Perhaps it was my soul**

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**Is it strange to be drawn to chaos?**

**Like how I always think cigarettes are beautiful**

**even though I know it kills**

**Yes, they say, Yes it is.**

**So years pass and I believed so,**

**until you came and re-lit the thoughts.**

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*Originally published on [Choco.Feline](https://paragraph.com/@choco-feline/undelivered-letters-01)*