# business 

By [Ellis Kaan](https://paragraph.com/@elliskaan) · 2025-04-13

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i think we all want to own our own business.

is this the way tho? is it really the way?

seems like a short trip to COVID PPP loan again. to break ourselves.

for better conditions. to say I'll make the business.

how does a business even succeed? are we not honest and respectful to another

  

I mean there is fast food (Wendy's, mcd's, taco bell, pizza hut, yum brands) and then what happens with them. I keep thinking about death as soon as I wake up and I keep thinking about death worrying and anxious. I will die in the next 30 mins this is what It feels like.

the uncertainty and then the ocd and the knot in the stomach and stress and the warm heart and feeling uneasy. how do I get rid of this feeling I hate it. it stresses me out and I cant cope sometimes. so I have to drink and I don't like drinking. I do give consent to them. I do not need to sign anything. and then the question becomes realer more and more like the Dr who is telling me that I will die

the terror

I'm scared

but then again if someone could hurt a child then I could be brave like this.

a weird way to see it I know but, death I don't know man

not existing

is does something to me to know this

  

I want to try to get Adderall and see how my brain is. xr but then again I keep running away from this brain chip reality so then I have to remember then get eeg and then get surgery fingers crossed

do you really think they can not turn it off? or was designed that way?

I hope whoever designed the deviled put human rights first and my autonomy and control and the center

no one should ever see anyone's brain live like some puppet

hope I can live in some SOLITARY CONFINEMENT somewhere in the woods one day

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*Originally published on [Ellis Kaan](https://paragraph.com/@elliskaan/business)*