# Distance to Self

By [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2) · 2025-07-23

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Underneath all of the societal, cultural, familial, and national programming, I suspect there’s an eternal core.

It’s a kind of energy that powers us. Like the core of a nuclear reactor perhaps.

I honestly don’t know.

But, every now and then, in the stillness of a moment, I sense its presence.

And I feel a kind of yearning, a calling, a voice saying “come home.”

And then there’s a frustration that aches in my throat and a sadness that descends into my abdomen.

I can feel how far away I am from home.

It’s a north star guiding me, but it’s so far off in the distance that it feels like forever or never.

Yet, I am drawn to it.

So I keep moving.

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*Originally published on [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/distance-to-self)*