# Fear Comfort

**Published by:** [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/)
**Published on:** 2025-09-01
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/fear-comfort

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Sitting like a round stone, it pulls me down. Behind my solar plexus. Like the tension of a muscular knot. There’s an invisible weight that I carry. It’s a fear, a terror, of scarcity. Of not having enough. Of running out. And around me, there’s an energy field. Almost like you’d see in a movie. It’s an energy field of fear. Constricting me, it tells me…”you always need to be afraid, afraid of not having enough, of running out.” There’s a survival thing going on, I suspect. Some of its physical. But I wonder if some of it is ego? I wonder if the fear of not having enough is connected to a sense of dignity? Of identity? What I really wonder is: since that “stone” and that “energy field” are nothing more than figments of my imagination-they aren’t real-what would happen if I simply decided that I no longer wanted or needed them? I’m actually a little-no, a lot-afraid of that. It feels like it could be a type of freedom. Maybe even better than I could really even imagine. And, yet, I’m afraid of taking that step. Feels ironic.

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