# Hubris. Humility.

**Published by:** [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/)
**Published on:** 2025-06-20
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They are two sides of the same coin, aren’t they? They are days or moments when I feel “I’ve got this.” Which is basically a sign that “you’re about to find out that you don’t really got this.” And yet, though I’ve experienced this cycle a few times, it keeps happening. Why? By now, I should know better. Plus, I hate, no despise, the feeling of being humiliated. It makes me feel weak, vulnerable, and scared. Scared that it’s the beginning of an irreversible trend, like a snowball picking up speed as it goes down a mountain, past the point of no return. And that point? It’s the point of self-control of perceived self-mastery. Which is what I cling to in order to feel safe. But maybe that’s an illusion? And I’m just putting my arms around an invisible pole. Maybe the hubris is deeper. Maybe it’s thinking that it’s possible to be in control at all.

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