# Meeting Negativity

By [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2) · 2025-10-28

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Yesterday I was feeling kind of down.

It doesn’t matter why.

Sometimes this happens.

It felt like I was wearing a layer or two too many.

The colors of fall were gorgeous around me, particularly the reds, but I kept ignoring them, choosing instead to be aware of the malaise.

In other times, I would run…hard…from this moment. Escape. Find quick “outs.” Bury it.

Yesterday, though, I wondered what would happen if I met it. Just accepted its presence. Didn’t fight it. Accepted the shame of feeling guilty for even feeling that way instead of berating myself, making things worse.

I can’t say it was fun, but I can say that I sense a spark of liberation.

And I think it came from the fact that the rhythms and routines I have built that are constructive work, even when I’m not feeling great or positive.

That habit infrastructure pushed me forward.

The goal, it seems to me, is not a goal.

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*Originally published on [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/meeting-negativity)*