# Meeting Negativity

**Published by:** [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/)
**Published on:** 2025-10-28
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/meeting-negativity

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Yesterday I was feeling kind of down. It doesn’t matter why. Sometimes this happens. It felt like I was wearing a layer or two too many. The colors of fall were gorgeous around me, particularly the reds, but I kept ignoring them, choosing instead to be aware of the malaise. In other times, I would run…hard…from this moment. Escape. Find quick “outs.” Bury it. Yesterday, though, I wondered what would happen if I met it. Just accepted its presence. Didn’t fight it. Accepted the shame of feeling guilty for even feeling that way instead of berating myself, making things worse. I can’t say it was fun, but I can say that I sense a spark of liberation. And I think it came from the fact that the rhythms and routines I have built that are constructive work, even when I’m not feeling great or positive. That habit infrastructure pushed me forward. The goal, it seems to me, is not a goal.

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