# Surrender

By [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2) · 2025-05-08

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It’s a two-sided coin.

It’s a sign of weakness, a sign of defeat.

It’s also a sign of acceptance, a sign of strength.

When I wake up in the middle of the night and I can’t fall back asleep, I feel anxious.

I feel a wave of tension sweep over my body, then there’s a jolt, like someone just administered an EKG.

Option 1: Surrender to the fact that I can’t sleep. I’ve lost. It’s going to be a rough day. Things are ruined. My mind races.

Option 2: Surrender to the fact that I can’t sleep. Relax. There’s nothing I can do about it. I’ll just do the best I can. My mind relaxes.

Then I drift off.

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