# Ugly Truths

**Published by:** [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/)
**Published on:** 2025-11-12
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2/ugly-truths

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Like the stuff that’s been at the back or the bottom of the refrigerator for way too long, I sometimes discover them. When I do, I shudder. I recoil. A chill goes down my spine and a feeling of nausea and revulsion swirls in my stomach. They are simply, well, gross. It’s the things about myself that don’t make me proud. That make me feel ashamed. Embarrassed. Full of self-loathing. Followed by self-admonishment. Disappointed that this part of me still exists, despite my desire that it doesn’t. But wishing they weren’t there is like wishing the fridge magically cleaned itself. Periodically, I just have to put on some latex gloves, get out the cleaner and a dish towel, empty the fridge, find the rotten stuff, and scrub things down. Then I just try to be more mindful of what I put in the fridge, when, and how long it’s been there. And, still, I need to accept that the ugly truths will, invariably, be there again. Thanks to my friend, Heidi, for inspiring this one.

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