# Uncertainty Fear

By [jer979](https://paragraph.com/@jer979-2) · 2025-05-20

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Or maybe it’s really a fear of the ultimate question: “when and how will I die?”

I feel a sensation in my shoulders, my arms, and my stomach.

Then, I feel a shiver, like the cold of the slopes of Kilimanjaro.

It feels familiar. I’ve been here before.

I sit with it, feel it, notice it, but then, of course, I start to name it, identify it, categorize it.

It’s an anxiety about the future. It’s a regret about the past.

What’s underneath?

We want certainty, but the only certainty is uncertainty.

Our rational minds can never square this circle. No matter how hard we try.

The rational thing then is to not to try and be rational about it.

There is no answer. There is no certainty.

There just is.

Nothing more.

The hard part?

Accepting that.

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