the important thing is not "which" words come out, or in what order

it doesn't even matter if they make sense or not. there could be misspellings. or you may even not make sense

that is not the important part. believe me, dear reader

the important part of the process is just to face yourself using the words that come as the mirror

to witness the words that come out of you, yes, but more importantly, your relationship to them

to the process of those being the exact words that you chose in that exact moment

don't try to make sense of why those words came

i mean. you will do that naturally. that's just part of how the unconscious works (or at least mine)

but when you realize that you are trying to make sense of the words that came,

give that up. and allow yourself to rest in the awareness of how it feels to feel how you feel in that moment

is there any judgement? any expectation for the words that came to have been different?

just explore that. explore how that feels. and allow that exploration to be the vehicle to understand through your own experience how is your relationship with yourself. to feel it. to feel it all

do you love yourself? do you reject yourself? do you fear your truth? do you embrace your truth?

and don't escape the reality that arises. and inquiry into the nature of that exact reality:

is that real?

are those thoughts real?

are those judgements real?

is that who you are?

all of that, which naturally comes, which naturally arises, as a consequence of relating to those words that came out of you:

are those real?

i'm not giving you a definite answer, that is not the point

if you conceive anything of what i'm saying as a definite answer... you are missing the point

the point is just to rest in the awareness of the inquiry

to explore how it feels to be you in this moment

to feel how you feel

and to come up with a new way of observing your relationship with that which arises

it may be that you judge it as good. or bad. that you escape from it. that you want to walk towards it

it doesn't really matter. the only important thing is that it happens

the words that come out of you don't matter

the important part is that they come out

and that you use the process of them coming out as a vehicle for exploring your relationship with yourself

with your awareness

with the locus of that awareness

where does it come from?

how does it come from?

how is it felt?

and just rest in that

smile into that

breathe into that

it is a gift

the gift of awareness. the gift of your expression. the gift of the aliveness

the gift of life being expressed through you

as you

you are a gift. your life is a gift. and everything that happens to you is a gift

it may not be seen as that on the beginning

it may be that even the relationship that you have with the words that come out of you are perceived as something bad

but my invitation, dear reader, is to just let go

and breathe into how letting go feels