# The Millenial urge to ____

By [Lindsey Mills](https://paragraph.com/@lindseymills) · 2022-02-03

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gm!!!!!!! Why do I suddenly feel transported to my childhood bedroom circa 2004, up past midnight in the glow of my turquoise clamshell iBook, carefully crafting my first Livejournal post?

[\[This is my Livejournal ;)\]](https://ladyledvolta.livejournal.com/)

Maybe it’s nostalgia…

…maybe it’s the Millenial urge to find real love while making a fast fortune on the internet…

…but lately I see all things web3 with a holographic sheen. I’m lit up with the potential here.

If you’re reading this, isn’t it delicious? To be, as Alexis Ohanian so presciently put it, “**early and right**”?

!["The Hanged Microphone," 2017. Collage (5 pieces) by Lindsey Mills.](https://storage.googleapis.com/papyrus_images/02b49c2971e8db2ccc6ce6a066a5c8ca764f9875f0cf8f403f366d55b89dbfd3.jpg)

"The Hanged Microphone," 2017. Collage (5 pieces) by Lindsey Mills.

When I look back on my Livejournal days, I see a teenage fixation on identity. I see my true self, my inner goof, a dimpled smirk behind the screen, unsure if my weird belonged anywhere. Trying on angles and filters to see if they’d make my weirdness go away. Feeling I needed to fit a mold of…

_white thin hairless virginal good-girl-but-who’s-down-for-whatever_

…to be worthy of love.

(The Millenial urge to mistake _Mean Girls_ for reality.)

Sup I’m 32 now and idgaf what ppl think !!!!!

On this day

…02/02/2022…

I hereby claim these [weird wilds](https://www.cryptocoven.xyz/) within, and I call out into the æther for my kin - lemme know if you can hear me <3

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*Originally published on [Lindsey Mills](https://paragraph.com/@lindseymills/the-millenial-urge-to)*