# Home - It's Complicated…

> Writing for the Human Collective on musicto

**Published by:** [Moving Onchain](https://paragraph.com/@music2work2/)
**Published on:** 2025-08-31
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@music2work2/home-its-complicated

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It seems that most people come from somewhere - they have a family house or at least an area where their relatives live - when people ask "where do you come from?" they can simply answer with the location they grew up in. But I never had that: Singapore - England - Singapore - boarding school in England - Germany - University in London - Job that moved every couple of years - Los Angeles for the longest time - now in Scotland. So - which one's home? The longest I've spent in one place would be LA - while I often refer to it as home and indeed own a home there - I never took citizenship. It's hard to feel at home when you can be deported at any minute. And so here I am in Scotland - my ancestral home - generations of Baillies and MacArthurs blending with McCluskeys from Ireland - and you know what - it kinda does feel like home. I feel very connected to the land - to the rivers and bens, the lochs and inches, the age of the buildings and the vibe of the people. The problem is, I don't sound Scottish at all - I sound ridiculous. My English boarding school accent, combined with Californian pronunciation and a tendency to pick up the accent of whoever I'm talking to - confuses the hell out of people. I'm immediately identified as an outsider - a foreigner - and so once again - home eludes me. But I would like to know what home feels like - to feel rooted - to not feel like an outsider - rather to feel like I belong. And I'm hopeful. I think Scotland might be the place.

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