# Awakening

> The hunted becomes the hunter

**Published by:** [rayzhu.eth](https://paragraph.com/@rayzhu.eth/)
**Published on:** 2023-05-30
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source: @dws4me Something has changed within me. I feel more calm, more sure, more secure. Lucid even. I feel in complete control. I feel as though I could achieve anything I want to. It's as though up until this point in my life, I've been the hunted, but now I am the hunter. The world should tremble in fear for what I am about to do to it. Like a superhero who just mastered their powers, or a pokemon that evolved into a slightly bigger version of itself. No longer am I subject to the whims of the world, but I am the one subjecting the world to my whims. It's very subtle. There isn't a huge difference but I've definitely permanently changed. I not entirely sure what changed, but I have a theory based on dubious speculation. For the past few months, I've been sleeping naturally for an average of 2 hours longer than normal. Meaning, I would sleep for ~9-11 hours each night. As of a couple of days ago, I started waking up naturally after 8 hours. My theory is that my body was using huge amounts of energy to develop my brain and it's now completed. The brain stops developing by age 25 and I'll be turning 24 soon. Again, wild speculation, but this could be what it feels like to have a fully developed brain and it feels great. Perhaps my recent Eudaimonia is what triggered this growth, who knows. I would describe the main difference as being in full control of my actions. Previously, I was so much more subject to my primal impulses, it was hard to fight things like procrastination. But now I am able to recognise it and exercise my will to get out of it. When getting hooked on shortform content, I no longer spend an hour on it, but can stop after 10 minutes. It's not total immunity, but it's a huge step up in the level of control I can exert over my self. Thanks for reading Meditations! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work.

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