# 6:39 PM

**Published by:** [robertldaltoniii](https://paragraph.com/@robertldaltoniii/)
**Published on:** 2025-01-16
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@robertldaltoniii/6-39-pm

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the process in the mind that occurs is this: they tell me not to do something like stare at a face i then go into this mode where im fighting these people(the captors) who are telling me not to do something/to not do this thing someone in my mind tells me not to do something doing this is a feeling of revenge the motive then blurs into this level of disdain they then ask me a question during this they ask me do you want to do this the answer is then blurred because the feeling of doing is a feeling of something that i "want" to do and then my ocd where i end up thinking of things that have no resolution compulsively occurs and then i loop until i exit these memories are now scars *To add I have no history of schizophrenia or hearing voices in my head They also do one where they ask me if i like something and then i stare and then it feels weird

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