# That You Had Left

> March 27, 2024

**Published by:** [SuctionX](https://paragraph.com/@suctionx.com/)
**Published on:** 2024-03-27
**Categories:** poetry, grief, loss, life
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## Content

Truth be told, any one of these illusions that ground us behold their delusions. That if I close my eyes just long enough time may stand still. And at this moment, right now, everything is ok. The universe will be ok. These delusions will manifest at any given time. After all, the universe is an exquisite paradox. I can see you and hear you clear as day, but you’re no longer here. I know that you exist(ed) so forever you shall exist. You dreamed of a broken palace, liminal yet alive, where I will always reside in the mind’s eye, or in the open plains. Our bonds remain unbroken, forever. Entropic. Chained. Unhinged. Was that your ghost passing by me, and laughing? I just recalled you giggling that you would like to change your Southern accent. It mattered the world. Now I whisper your words in the dust. You cannot create energy from nothing. Something ephemeral has run its course. And everything is still possible. That one day you will change. And the delusions that kept you going burn bitter. In my dreams you sound more Northwestern. And let it be only in dreams or a parallel universe. Truth escapes the eye of the beholder At any given infinite point. Right now is illusive, only delusions may drive me, as I wrap a knitted shawl you once wore across my shoulders to find warmth where you once sheltered, and practiced a new accent to kill the little time you knew that you had left.

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