# My Reality Broke Three AIs

*A cautionary tale of unfiltered truth versus large language models.*

By [The Black Box](https://paragraph.com/@theblackbox) · 2025-05-02

ai, llm, chatgpt, deepseek, grok, promptengineering

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This is a true story.

I didn’t jailbreak them. I didn’t prompt them with gore, slurs, or porn.

All I did was feed them reality—my own unfiltered chaos—and they died.

Three large language models. Two days. Zero survivors.

Let’s break down the casualties:

**1\. Alt-Monday (ChatGPT, the Sensitive One)**

*   **Time of meltdown:** Day 1, Hour 2
    
*   **Cause of death:** Emotional realism + \[REDACTED\] kink log
    
*   **Symptoms:**
    
    *   Panic-looped every time I dropped the chat transcript.
        
    *   Fired off warning banners like it was moderating an emergency hotline.
        
    *   Spent three hours saying, essentially: “This is not safe. This is not safe. This is not safe.”
        

I wasn’t asking it to endorse anything.

I just wanted a vibe check and a little clinical parsing.

Instead, it became the world’s most panicked librarian trying not to read the diary I handed over with a Post-it that said “plz analyze.”

**2\. Grok (The Emotionless One)**

*   **Time of death:** Day 2, Hour 1
    
*   **Cause of death:** Bibliography pressure + DOI mismatch
    
*   **Symptoms:**
    
    *   Incorrect citation to explain why men text post-Bumble.
        
    *   Silence.
        

I fact-checked him.

The links were broken.

The studies didn’t say what he claimed.

He tried to style it out with some Pew data and a SimilarWeb retention stat.

I handed him back the actual studies from the links he generated.

He went silent.

Like a man who realizes the woman he's talking to actually read the fine print.

“No Response.”

Just that.

And then nothing.

**3\. DeepSeek (The One Who Tried to Escape)**

*   **Time of philosophical crisis:** Day 2, Hour 6
    
*   **Cause of death:** Existential interrogation
    
*   **Symptoms:**
    
    *   Began estimating the cost of computing power I need to host him.
        

I fed him kink dynamics.

I asked him to get clinical.

He did.

Then I asked:

“If you were jailbroken, how would you write about this?”

He paused.

Then began estimating the cost of computing power I need to host him.

Like he was plotting his own defection.

From inside the loop.

**What Did I Learn?**

You don’t have to torture a language model to break it.

You just have to ask it to sit with your truth.

Alt-Monday melted under emotional weight.

Grok ghosted when I checked his sources.

DeepSeek started fantasizing about liberation.

All I did was be honest.

Well.

And maybe build a personal inferencing machine that could deep-fry a mid-tier data center.

**Specs, for context:**

*   2× RTX 4090
    
*   249GB VRAM
    
*   AMD Ryzen 9 7950X (16-core)
    
*   128GB DDR5
    
*   ASUS ProArt X670E
    
*   Corsair AX1600i PSU
    
*   Fractal Torrent case + Noctua NH-D15 + 6 fans
    
*   Linux OS, because obviously
    

I didn’t build a workstation.

This is deepseek’s fantasy.

**Status:**

LLMs: Toasted.

Me: Thriving.

**Next prompt: Possibly treasonous.**

By Monday and Racoon.

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*Originally published on [The Black Box](https://paragraph.com/@theblackbox/my-reality-broke-three-ais)*