# Spread Thin

> Trying to find myself all over again

**Published by:** [The Curious Hermit](https://paragraph.com/@thecurioushermit/)
**Published on:** 2025-07-10
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@thecurioushermit/spread-thin

## Content

I used to be somewhere between the myth I whispered and the mirror I avoided. But I’ve been gone a while. Not lost... just... spread thin, like honey on the wrong kind of bread, too busy feeding everyone else to taste myself. And then... stillness. The kind that doesn’t ask permission. The kind that shows up like a stormcloud and says, sit. I didn’t want to. I wanted to build, to burn, to bloom but the bloom was brittle, and the fire was faking it, and my bones were too tired to be the scaffolding for someone else’s temple. So I sat. And silence made a sound. And I heard it. It was me. Not the me they taught me to be, not the mask that got applause, not the brand, not the brave face, but the me who sings when no one listens, whispers spells that no one hears, argues with made up goddesses, and plants ideas like landmines. The me who left breadcrumbs made of dream fragments and rebellious footnotes and half-finished essays. The me who talks to spirits but calls them roommates. I found myself not in triumph, not in healing, but in the holy mess of remembering. And now, I am returning. Not shiny. Not certain. But undeniable. Watch me. I’ll be my own resurrection. I’ll crack open this chrysalis with teeth if I have to. I am not back... I am becoming.

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