# Optimism at 3.00 a.m.

**Published by:** [thepinkpanther](https://paragraph.com/@thepinkpanther/)
**Published on:** 2022-04-04
**URL:** https://paragraph.com/@thepinkpanther/optimism-at-3-00-a-m

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Peter Pink-Howitt, "blood-letting of sorts", algo-art 2022 CE "Something to do with violence a long way back and wrong rewards and arrogant eternity" (Phillip Larkin) *** A blood-letting of sorts heralded your first day here. Prehistoric beast that you seemed in your fear. *** Fear that needed, needs still, a little more than a kick in the teeth and three words to heal. *** Confusion inevitably ensued, and the twisted fears turn us all inside-out, or rather, they skew our futures with incessant demands, for a placation we may never fully discover. *** OK think! (you were warned early on) Come on, on your feet......I lie. More like: You bas-havethis-fuckyou-hateyou- loveme-alllovewefuckinghateall ....loveyouson. *** Though the last three words, came so much later than you ever deserved. *** Hardly surprising the confusion never dissipated, but mutated, in your sense of what it was you might allow yourself to become. I suppose that's enough of that, a little of what I can imagine. *** But what I am trying to say is that, perhaps I can hold fast enough to make an attempt, (full-hearted and half-arsed as it may be - as most things are condemned to be) an attempt to retract from blame and recrimination, to slow the continual clockwork of hurt and ask something simple. *** Can we try and make sense of it as Father and Son? *** Though you can never have your Dad back, to ask some questions or talk, and I don't expect miracles -us holding hands as we walk into a bright new dawn- *** Can we just try to use both our heads, to recover some reasons for the blood-letting of sorts, that permeates both our lives and which leaves us with words to try and heal reality as we've known it, as we approach it... https://opensea.io/assets/0x495f947276749ce646f68ac8c248420045cb7b5e/70756795188882102134844406292945300059037380610701090253316037112408584486913

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