# Why I started a journal

By [trish](https://paragraph.com/@trish-2) · 2022-04-22

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It’s Sunday night. I’m procrastinating going to bed because I don’t want to go into work tomorrow. Hence starting a journal.

This might possibly go up in flames tomorrow when I wake up and regret every single word written. To be honest, I’m terrified to write my thoughts on such a public platform. There’s something immensely permanent about hitting that “Publish” button, but it’s also exhilarating to be able to put myself out there. Perhaps this is why people love posting TikToks. You bare your heart and soul to the rest of the world in the hopes that you receive affirmation and love at the end, and all I hope is that this does not come around to bite me in the ass.

The best part is that I don’t even know what to start with. Do I talk about my reflections for the week? Insights from a book I read? Or do I just ramble on about my entire life and my feelings? Neither sits rights with me. If anything, I believe that this space would consist of extremely random and dissonant thoughts. I can already foresee future titles to be along the lines of:

1.  _The secret behind why I_ **_need_** _to get monthly manicures_
    
2.  _Kombucha, my gut-health hero_
    
3.  _Why I genuinely do not care about retiring early_
    

It is, however, more likely that I will not see another journal entry published beyond this one because of the sheer amount of effort it will take me to write something. Nevertheless, I’m going to try and be intentional about journalling so that I can learn from past experiences and interactions, and reminisce on both good and bad events that will shape my life moving forward. Let’s see where this takes me in a year’s time. Fingers crossed!

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*Originally published on [trish](https://paragraph.com/@trish-2/why-i-started-a-journal)*