这话巧珍说过好几遍，每次听，我都能被感动得热泪盈眶。

多么纯洁、质朴、无暇的爱，却偏偏求而不得。这就叫造化弄人吧。

加林和巧珍注定是走不到一起的，不管巧珍多么爱加林，都改变不了这个宿命。

加林，有文化的高中生，有梦想有能力，他志存高远，思想从来不属于那片黄土地。即使勉强待在那片土地上，他也不会真正开心。

巧珍，没上过几天学，不识几个字，没文化的她注定离不开那片黄土地。农村是属于她的广阔天地，她在那里可以大有作为。而家林不行。

在加林提出分手之后，巧珍终于想通了一个问题：她跟加林不是一路人，本不该强拉硬扯地在一起。

深爱多年被分手，巧珍不但没有怨恨，反而对加林说出这样一句话：加林哥，我只盼你好。

所以，加林流泪了。很多观众包括我，也流泪了。

这才是真爱的模样，即使得不到，也会送上一尘不染的祝福。

提出分手的加林会被很多观众骂：陈世美、没良心等等。这样骂的人多半是还没有成熟。

看到他们分手，我反而拍手称快。两个人的感情世界终于回到各自正常的轨迹，过真正属于自己的生活。

巧珍的那句“加林哥，我只盼你好”，就像天使的祝福，会温暖加林一辈子吧。

13那年，我刚读初一。黄毛丫头一个。也就是在那一年，我遇到了此生的劫。这个劫，改变了一个懵懂的农村女孩一生的命运，也让一个家庭的命运走上了未知。

我家在农村，父亲是赤脚医生，母亲务农。我读书的学校在镇上。我们学校每天都要晨跑，我也不一例外。

跑着跑着，我一下子摔倒了。坐在地上起不来，因为腿麻，还一直在哆嗦个不停。

我的同学和老师帮忙把我扶起来，把我背回了教室。过了一会，我的腿好了，没了任何症状。

我恢复了正常的上课和跑操。可是，每次跑操我都要毫无征兆地摔一下。

就这样持续了一周之后，班主任说，回家看看医生吧，让家长来接你。

于是，我爸来了，骑着自行车把我带回了家。

回家之后，我仍旧隔三差五地腿发麻，偶尔也会发高烧。这时，做赤脚医生的爸爸就会给我输液，可是一连治疗了好几天，也不见好转。

于是，我爸带我去找在邻村做医生的爷爷。爷爷问了情况，对我爸说：

“不好说，还是去县医院看看，那里医生水平高办法多。”

于是，我爸爸又骑自行车带我去县医院看。询问我的情况后，医生说，这样的病例不常见，一万个人里面也遇不到一个。这事耽误不得，赶紧去市医院看看。

我爸一听慌了，带我回家的路上，骑着自行车摔了好几回。

回到家后，他跟我妈说明情况后就收拾行李带做大巴车带我去了市医院。

医生让我先住院，后面要做一些检查。

于是，我就成了神经科病房里最小的病人。

两天后，我被安排去做CT，等了几天，结果出来了：脑部长了个瘤，良性恶性未知。这个瘤子压迫了运动神经，导致我的腿出现异常。

医生说对我爸妈说：有两个方案：一是过几天做开颅手术，他们会请专家过来；二是再去北京的大医院瞧瞧，看能不能通过吃药的方式解决。

我父母当然会选择风险和伤害都小的，于是他们带我去了北京301医院。

排了好几天的队终于见到医生了。

一番检查之后，医生开了一些药给我们，嘱咐我们回家按时吃，症状如果好转就继续吃，没有效果就再回医院找医生。

就这样，背着一大包药和盛日用品的编织袋，我们坐着火车回家了。

我谨遵医嘱按时吃药，奇迹发生了，我的腿从一两天麻一次到后面三五天麻一次，到一周麻一次，再到后面一点也不麻了。

我的腿彻底好了！

我们全家开心极了。爸妈直夸还是北京的医院好，医生有水平。

在我生病期间，我爸妈为我不停地担忧着，害怕失去这样一个女儿，也为高额的医药费发愁。

我亲眼看到他们的头发白了很多，自己也深深地体会到了生命的可贵，健康的重要，我一下子长大了。

在家修养了一年，回到学校后，我又复读了一年。我成了班上年龄最大的女孩。

我变得更加用功学习了。成绩上一路飙升，最终成功地考取了211院校，毕业后留在了大城市工作，有了一个幸福的小家庭。

父母很为我骄傲，活得比之前更加有底气了。

现在回想起来，我很感恩13岁那年的那场劫，那次难忘又难熬的经历，它没有打败我和我的父母，而是让我们越来越好。

我想说，生命的最低谷，只要你不怂、不认输，卯足劲地去努力，总有一天会得到命运的眷顾。

The mother and daughter were too sleepy to be woken up by the conductor to change their tickets, so Su Xiaoqi got up from bed with a start and got out of bed to pack her luggage before she could tidy her messy hair. Su Xiaoqi pulled a coffee-coloured striped trolley case with a change of clothes and food, including Shandong pancakes and two packs of Lianyungang rhubarb fish given by her sister; You You pulled a green puppy cartoon suitcase, which was small, flexible and light, and contained You You's pinyin books, maths books, colouring books, colouring pens and Peppa Pig toys. Yes, the two mothers had returned from a few days' stay at Yu Yu's grandmother's house in Shandong, where they had been expelled by the heat.

Soon the train came to a halt and the mothers each pulled their own boxes out of the listed carriage.

One

It was dawn and the temperature was hot, so the two of them, who had been shivering with cold in the carriage, were in the bath at once. The vendor with the cart in his ear, speaking a fluent Shaanxi dialect, was soliciting business - cold skin, meat bun, mutton bun, have one, it's so good! Su Xiaoqi didn't care about this, so he grabbed his daughter You You's arm and hurried towards the exit with the crowd of people leaving the station.

He was about 20 meters away from the exit, Su Xiaoqi saw a group of people watching something, and there were a few policemen standing there in the crowd. The uniformed policeman, his back wet, kept asking the crowd of people leaving the station: is there anyone from Sichuan? Anyone who understands Sichuanese? After shouting for a long time, no one answered. In fact, Su Xiaoqi wanted to say, "Yes, I can. But then he thought that although he had spent three years in Sichuan, he could only understand a limited number of common phrases, and was unable to understand the authentic dialect, so he kept quiet and dragged his daughter on. However, the kind-hearted Su Xiaoqi was worried about the old man: what if there was no answer after a long time? What if the old man has an acute illness and delays the best treatment ......

"Mum, what's wrong with that grandfather?" Yo Yo asked.

"Grandpa is probably sick." Su Xiaoqi replied.

"Then why is grandpa lying there, he's not going to die, is he?"

Little children are always tongue-tied and particularly sensitive to death.

"No, Grandpa is not feeling well, so he will lie down and rest for a while, and then he will go to the hospital later and see the doctor."

Oh! Yu Yu took a long breath of relief like a little adult, as if her hanging heart had been released all of a sudden. And to such inquiries, Su Xiaoqi always liked to make such answers.

Two

Soon, the two mothers left the station. Su Xiaoqi habitually looked at the crowd of people picking up the station - usually, her husband would appear here or by the carriage where the train stopped, but this time, because he had an important job and was working overtime, he could not come to pick up the station. A hint of disappointment crossed Su Xiaoqi's face, but soon she smiled, took her daughter's hand and walked straight to the taxi stand.

The taxi drivers in the old city were still very "frugal" and did not bother to turn on the air conditioning on the way. Su Xiaoqi and Youyu were getting used to the muggy heat, so they didn't say anything.

Outside the window, the street trees stood straight as loyal guards, the occasional breeze blowing by with a few hints of unwelcome warmth, the leaves rustling, the rustling sound drifting into the ears, very pleasing to the ears; the neon lights on the street had long since been turned off, the handsome men and women under the neon lights had long since disappeared, and the lights in the tall buildings were sparsely lit, still asleep. The old city has returned to its original form, quiet and peaceful.

It didn't take long for a figure to appear in Su Xiaoqi's line of sight. It was an open-air barbecue stall, where several bare-chested migrant workers were sitting around a table with grilled lamb skewers, a few bottles of beer, a few plates of peanut rice and a few plates of beans. They had completely forgotten about the sweltering heat of the three hot days and were immersed in this early morning "enjoyment".

"What's the point of having a barbecue at this hour?" Su Xiaoqi's mind wandered endlessly, "Well, maybe they've just finished their work and the boss has paid them, so they're celebrating here all night. Or maybe, after this meal, they'll take advantage of the cooler weather to get back to work." Whatever the answer, Su was convinced that such a "treat" had brightened up their boring working life in the summer heat and made their not-so-easy days away from home much more nourishing.

"Mum, why do those uncles get up so early?" Yu Yu asked, rubbing his eyes.

"They're not sleepy, they like it." Su Xiaoqi replied.

"The uncles are going to work later, right?"

"Probably."

"Aren't they sleepy or tired?"

"Yes, happy people are full of energy, so they are not tired of doing anything." Su Xiaoqi replied.

Yuu seemed to understand and nodded vigorously.

Three

The car continued on its way and soon drove into East Street. In the early hours of the morning, the clock tower was not as crowded as it had been during the day, and looked more dignified surrounded by flowers of all colours. The gates of the Kaiyuan Shopping Centre opposite the clock tower are closed, without the hustle and bustle of the day, but with a different atmosphere. Looking at the Drum Tower, which is not far away from the Bell Tower, it is also so quiet and peaceful that I can't help but admire the wisdom of the ancients who used to chime the hours in the morning and the evening. Su Xiaoqi looked at all this quietly and couldn't help but feel proud to be living in such a beautiful city.

The car soon drove from East Street into South Street. Not far away, two old men appeared in Su Xiaoqi's line of sight, figures that were unmistakable. The two were about 60 years old, the man was not tall, at most 1.6 metres, with a dark face and a yellowish, black towel around his neck, wiping his sweat with the towel while hunched over and straining to pull the car, which was filled with cardboard boxes, plastic water bottles, empty cans, etc. The scraps were tied tightly with a rope, several times higher than the old man, while the woman was in the She was wearing a dark red T-shirt and a pair of grey five-piece trousers, with a pair of wide-mouthed blue cloth shoes. The two men, one in front of the other, occasionally chatted about something, both looking happy and obviously pleased with the fruits of their labour. He wiped his face and hands again with a towel, straightened his clothes, then went to the stall and bought two deep-fried pies, which he brought back and ate with the woman.

"Mum, the grandparents by that car are so dark." Yuu exclaimed.

"People who spend a long time in the sun and work are like that." Su Xiaoqi said calmly.

"They eat so well, mum!"

"Yes child, they've been working all morning and they sure do smell good when they eat."

"They are hard working little bees!" Mum then added, with a touch of well-intentioned education in her words.

"I'm going to get up early and be a hard-working bee too." Yo Yo said to herself, looking thoughtful.

Four

In the early hours of the morning, there were few pedestrians on the streets of Xi'an and only a few cars, the crowded streets of the day became unobstructed, and it took only 30 minutes for the car to arrive at Su Xiaoqi's house. Su Xiaoqi got out of the car and took out his luggage. After thanking the driver, he took You You's hand and walked home. At the corner, Su Xiaoqi saw her husband, who had just returned from work in a hurry. Su Xiaoqi's husband, with a tired face and a bit of guilt, smiled and took Su Xiaoqi's suitcase with one hand, while Su Xiaoqi lifted Youyou's small suitcase, and the three of them went home side by side.

When they got home, it was still early and the family, lacking sleep, rushed to bed to catch up on their sleep. Su Xiaoqi's eyes were closed and a picture flashed through his mind: vendors hawking, old people moaning in pain, migrant workers eating barbecue and drinking beer, a couple scavenging for scraps, a husband rushing back from an overnight shift ...... Xi'an at 5am, a quiet Xi'an, a Xi'an without fuss, a Xi'an without pretense, a Xi'an as calm as an old man and as vigorous as a teenager. The most realistic Xi'an, calm as an old man and prosperous as a teenager. Su Xiaoqi saw a lot and felt a lot. Su Xiaoqi loves Xi'an at this time of the day - it allows one to see life more clearly, to experience life and to think about life ......

By the time the sun rises, Xi'an will be full of traffic and people again, and one after another hurried figures will appear at the Bell and Drum Tower, the City Wall, the Big Wild Goose Pagoda, on Jiefang Road, Science and Technology Road, North Street, and on every street in Xi'an, and Xi'an will look like a different place again. At that time, Su Xiaoqi will also be one of them, running to work. The busy work and high pressure life may make Su tired and bored occasionally, but Xi'an at 5am will eventually calm her down.