when i listened through the tracks you chose for your playlist, i was often reminded of a bunch of tracks / artists / feelings i got from other music i love. i wanted to catalog those thoughts here for this follow up “citations” playlist. :)

heres the playlist:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0m2e0VMCgGmM2PqxERbWgq?si=e615753edecd41ae

annnnnndd here is the breakdown. :)

CO1N

The beat/production on this one reminded me of my friend tobre’s work. kinda subdued in terms of direct transient impact, but still kinda phasey and hyperpoppy w choppy vocal style and detuned heavily mixed basses.

https://open.spotify.com/track/6sMv2wPxT8ZW2lmZbPBJor

the end section / chorus reminded me a lot of c2.0 by charli just because of the soaring vocal over a choppy kinda build section that is building by nature of just adding elements which increases intensity.

https://open.spotify.com/track/5gNTRfMRPZg1U07j7KSSaG

Аутсайдер

this one reminded me of the feeling of augen auf! by oomph. not necessarily sonically similar, but like dark dancey brutalist creepy vibes.

https://open.spotify.com/track/6gcFq5UOdNa8LzTRd4lldD

upon listening to augen auf, i realized they’re not as similar feeling as i originally thought, but i still thought u might like the song :)

Dark Blue

this tune had BIGGGGGGG close your eyes vibes. and close your eyes has big chuck era sum 41 vibes so i wanted to show you both of those artists :)

the songs dark blue reminded me of have actually ended up being my most on repeat songs over the last week. i was so grateful to be reminded of them. i particularly think the body is a sleeper. kinda boring at first honestly, but i think it might be my fav of the three when u let it marinate.

https://open.spotify.com/track/0OA5MfrEKcGx2R7R4zpqeB

https://open.spotify.com/track/6Rm4NFchN9q7K30dPP747W

https://open.spotify.com/track/2cYoayTRed9m3scuQzKq8Z

Trash Snacks

it was mostly vocal layering and effecting that i heard in this one. reminded me of the ö remix of lifeline by ag cook.

https://open.spotify.com/track/7pdj8pW72lSUDi8BEpkTeP

Forte

moore kismet is sonically in a world of their own with foley and glitch edits i think, but their chord sound design is definitely reminiscent of a lot of the genre leaders here. i think mostly mumbai power by skrillex and various mitis + other lovestep/melodic dubstep evolutions would be applicable here, but i wanted to show you the stabby chord sound design songs that MOST have impacted me in my life. here’s one that i absolutely adore and spin almost every dj set:

https://open.spotify.com/track/3Sad4kKbJmYsKB30FbU5eQ

and then while i was building this playlist, spotify recommnended this track to me by an artist i have REALLY been getting into lately. super cool! and honestly it just fit the bill for stabby clean chord sound design so i figured i would include it! :)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7IKw8mQidaWbAfKcRo4Obp

thats all for now folks

thanks for sending me this playlist! i really enjoyed it and have been listening to it a bunch! it was also really cool hearing music that you liked remind me of things that i have loved for quite some time! pretty much all of these songs (with the exception of the underbelly tune) i discovered at least 6 months ago, and that sum 41 track i was listening to when i was in like 4th grade.

<3

u know when ur middle aged white dad says “you gotta do things the right way kid, no half-assing”?

well, i didn’t have a white dad but he said shit like that and goddamnit i cannot believe i think he’s right in this case ngl. he said that shit with condescension at the forefront of the interaction much of time… but he’s still right i think.

i just took a photo (with my camera, not my phone, so far so good). i wanted to post it so i looked over to my phone charging next to me on the couch and picked it up. i took the card out of my camera and found myself wishing i could just interface the card directly with my phone.

once i realized this wasn’t something i wanted to invest in (fuck dongle hell), i looked over at my backpack that i had just nicely put together. i thought to myself “fuckkk am i really gonna open that shit up and get my computer out just to post one photo?”

and fuck yes i am. i seek to do shit. not not do shit. where the fuck did i learn to not do shit.

im tired all the time.

im tired all the time, but i often avoid eating cause i have a shit relationship with eating cause i want to be thin. but i want to be thin so i can run around and post pictures and be hot and cool. and guess what.

i already run around and post pictures and be hot and cool.

so fuck u heres the picture i took i think its cool and i dont care if u like it or not

worth it, i know.

anyway love u this is just my diary.

-wilson

an incidental or secondary product made in the manufacture or synthesis of something else.

the biproduct is my writing / rambling / art shit, and ***i ***am the something else.

that said, i don't quite know if i am going to consider it one of the project i have been working on over on my personal website. tbd i suppose.

im sitting on the corner of 5th and figueroa st in DTLA. this guy is closing down the lunch hour at this little restaurant colony under the union bank building. i thought to myself, “i should help that guy break down those umbrellas.”

but unfortunately, my next thought was, “that guy would probably tell me not to because its his job.”

to which i followed up “but thats horseshit, i should be able to help people fuck a boss being shitty and making us believe we don’t deserve help.”

so anyway by the time i got my computer out and finished writing this the dude had already broken down all of the tables, which kinda taught me a lesson lowkey:

i need to stop worrying about conventions and do what feels right.

the next time some person is doing manual labor and i am doing fuck all, i am going to help them. because pay it forward and all that shit.

unrelated, ew i just spat on my computer to try and clean off some dirt but i spat way too much and it was hella gross. ok im gonna post a pic from my perspective then probably send this shit to the internet. thanks for reading if u read it.

thats all for now i think…

-wilson

whats up! i guess this is my first biproduct entry that does not take place on my personal website. kind of not sure if this is something i will continue, but i love the concept of a web3 blog to go along with my very very web2 website.

heres a pic of me right now:

i think this is a really cool platform. i first came across it when i was reading about sound.xyz. then it came around again when i was reading camoufly’s wonderful guide on music nfs.

im not entirely sure this is going to become a new platform for me to replace the bp project, but i guess for now i am curious to try.

here is a thing i made today:

i am trying to figure out what it means to make stuff i dont really like but still share it because it was fun to fuck around for a little while. the above is an example of the first steps of this process. :)

i came across this joseph gordon levitt ted talk today on attention, and i just thought it was super fucking rad. i got hella jazzed about some of the concepts in it and had to call my sibling and talk it out. i wish i could link to a specific comment on a youtube video but since i cannot here is the quote:

I’m not an actor, but I took some classes many years ago. Our teacher used to say: “Be interested, not interesting.” This has been most useful advice for me when interacting with people and with the world.

be interested, not interesting. this shit is DYNAMITE powerful to me. i have spent so many years trying to cultivate my instagram presence or my twitter posts such that people will find me engaging and intriguing. i always looked to heavily stylized profiles like brakence or AJ BLACK or even my homies colton droubli and daym and just felt like “damn, why is it that i can never cultivate that vibe that makes people want to pay attention to me”.

….bruh.

this is some FLAWED ass thinking. one of the things joseph gordon-levitt said in his ted talk:

“the more I go after that powerful feeling of paying attention, the happier i am. but the more I go after the powerful feeling of getting attention, the unhappier i am.”

i cannot even describe how powerful this was for me to have all of this knowledge just slamming into me. pretty much every positive thing that has ever come of my life was because i was SO HYPED about something and shared that joy with a person or the world. my earnestness and authentic excitement is a superpower. im gonna cut here to some other biproduct episode (article? entry? fuckit we’ll workshop) that was supposed to come out before this one but i never got around to it. hopefully you will see how this all connects.

own ur shit and be you thats all u need to do!!!

so i was sitting at a coffee shop taking brief break from some work and i remembered this time i hung out with a person i thought was really cool. for some reason i felt super resistant to dming them to see if they wanted to hang out.

ever since i moved to la i have had a lot of difficulty seeking out new friendships as well as calling upon friendships i have managed to build. i realized that a lot of the way i feel is that i don’t want to come across weird or creepy or even something as embarrassing as not wanting to be perceived as uncool.

i tried to write a message to hit them up and i kept getting that crawly feeling where u don’t want to do something out of some sort of fear or embarrassment. i wrote the following note to myself in response to me feeling that feeling:

“why is it embarrassing for me to be excited about wanting to hang out w a person? thats fuckin sad as hell. u are literally making your earnestness and excitability a bad thing. your earnestness is straight fucking up not a bad thing. you do this often, why? you are constantly thinking u are not cool just because u like to do things and meet people and be open and welcoming and community oriented.

you’ve got this. you are not creepy for thinking of someone and wanting to spend time with them.”

this statement that i wrote really put things into perspective to me. like i really have no idea why i limit myself like this. i had a conversation with peyton later where i realized that i had had an interaction a day earlier where i felt threatening and all i was trying to do was express excitement for something i found cool. 

this year i want to work on recognizing that i am soft and beautiful and i can make mistakes and mis-speak without being threatening. i am not threatening, straight up. and everyone that i hang out with is energy sensitive and will just straight up not feel me that way :) 

i love and approve of myself

ok, so im back to present wilson

…which i know is probably not the most clear to the reader because by the time this is out all of this will be past wilson…. but anyfuckinwho this is the wilson that started this article, not the wilson that just cut to that older section ok i hope thats clear.

im grateful dawg. i am just grateful.

i am grateful that i get to learn new things about myself daily. i am grateful i get to participate in a world where new and exciting things are always happening. im grateful i get to become a better person and help others do the same. im grateful that every day i am alive i feel more abundant and more joy.

computers are cool, look at some of these weird tweets i tweeted today:

https://twitter.com/guesstaccount/status/1488385475085668352?s=20&t=t3C4UfiIubbIBkSMmNS4BQ

https://twitter.com/guesstaccount/status/1488382701006561282?s=20&t=t3C4UfiIubbIBkSMmNS4BQ

https://twitter.com/guesstaccount/status/1488376972195479552?s=20&t=t3C4UfiIubbIBkSMmNS4BQ

https://twitter.com/guesstaccount/status/1488353609343397889?s=20&t=t3C4UfiIubbIBkSMmNS4BQ

https://twitter.com/guesstaccount/status/1488351749970673664?s=20&t=t3C4UfiIubbIBkSMmNS4BQ

https://twitter.com/guesstaccount/status/1488259824408166400?s=20&t=t3C4UfiIubbIBkSMmNS4BQ

ok thats all i got for now. ‘¯\(ツ)/¯

-wilson