I used to live with self-hatred for a very long time.

I hated the way I look and my personality as well.

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I was a person who was particularly bad at expressing my emotions, but what was surprising was that my friends around me had no idea that I was that kind of person.

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The reason is that the self-image I created was that of a ‘independent and determined’ person.

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At that time, my image to others was that of a person who was always confident and clear in what I had to say.

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To some extent, this is true.

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I quickly become friends with everyone, I like joking around, and I tend to make decisions quickly.

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However, I couldn't express it in any way when my heart was truly hurt, especially when it was hurt by someone close to me.

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I just suffered alone and endured it.

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It's like I let others hurt me and did nothing to protect my heart from suffering.

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For such a long time, I lived completely ignoring myself.

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I was a coward who pretended to be strong. I was such a small person.

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Because I thought of myself as a small being, I did not want to seem easy to others.

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That’s why I pretended to be more decisive. I've been living my life pretending to be smarter.

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I didn't want the world find out that I didn't actually love myself.

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I look back and think to myself how scared I must have been every day.

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I want to give a hug to myself in the past.

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In fact, in the process of healing myself, I really embraced my past self a lot. Even now, when I tell myself the words that I wanted to hear, tears rush out of my eyes immediately.

I am still in the process of healing myself, but the difference is that now I truly know how to love myself.

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There was a lot of study, practice, and training to get this far.

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I plan to write this entire process in a book.

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I would be truly happy if my story could help people with broken hearts truly realize their actual value. Everyone deserves love just by being themselves the way they are.