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未来不是过去的样子

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Thu, 21 Sep 2023 12:14:27 GMT

未来不是过去的样子

我想写一篇文章，以科学革命为出发点，从古希腊-古罗马时期，文艺复兴，启蒙运动三个阶段为切入点，分别分析乐观主义，好奇心，批判性思维和可检验性在这几个阶段的重要性，从而引出科学革命有别于认知革命和农业革命的本质原因，以及它为何具有无限的延伸性。我看了一些书，查了很多资料，发现距离想要写出心里想要的文章的样子还差得非常远。我本想从宏观层面证明技术不会自发的进步，动态社会也不会自我维持。接着从微观层面探讨我所认识的那些天赋异禀但是没有对此加以利用的人，我看得到这些人巨大的潜力。但是我没有比此刻更为悲观的时候，我感受到了超出想象的痛苦。我的价值观之一是一个人要传递自己能够做到的观点，因此我可不能对于“未来不是过去的样子”这个命题进行宣扬。学习古希腊历史最大的感受是悲观主义可以毁灭一个延续数百年的强大文明，更不用说是毁掉一个人了。我不知道，我见过的一些人有一些强大的天赋，但是他/她们意识不到，或者聪明到可以选择忽略自己的天赋。这不应该是人类文明应该有的样子。或许我也会失败，谁知道呢，我好像没那么在乎了。我只希望至少有一个人，能够做出一点点改变，让这个世界不一样。因为只有这样，未来才不会是过去的样子。

Smile & so long.

day 67, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Wed, 08 Mar 2023 15:51:41 GMT

I am a little bit exhausted.

day 66, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Tue, 07 Mar 2023 13:14:44 GMT

With time goes so fast, don’t you feel any anxious about without accomplishing anything? You can always try harder

day 65, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Mon, 06 Mar 2023 15:29:30 GMT

I have been thinking of whether is art a good business for a long time, and I still do not have a certain answer. What I am confirmed is that there is no 100 percent sure thing. Do what you love and love what you do. I say that maybe over 100 times, just do it.

day64, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Sun, 05 Mar 2023 14:56:29 GMT

Again, I repeat myself from day to day, and I do not know what exactly should I do. I wrote down all these craps, which gradually becomes meaningless to me. Watching movies and dramas can’t change anything. Maybe I need to go to Shanghai.

day 63, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Sat, 04 Mar 2023 15:30:43 GMT

Just ordering a Didi took me back from a friend’s home, having some feelings. Truth be told, every time I take taxies, I always got some inspiration, maybe because the price pressure leads me to the result.

Anyway,

day 62, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Fri, 03 Mar 2023 13:07:14 GMT

I am tired of so many things. It seems like I have no where to go.

day 61, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Thu, 02 Mar 2023 15:26:53 GMT

It takes time to back on the right way, so be patient about everything and get better a little bit more day after day. The most important thing is being confident. After all these failures I’ve been faced, believing in yourself is extremely crucial. Do not push yourself too hard and have fun.

day 60, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Wed, 01 Mar 2023 15:21:03 GMT

After adjusting about two weeks, here comes the act time. Make the schedule, write it down

day 59, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Tue, 28 Feb 2023 14:56:01 GMT

There are so many nights I feel lonely and desperate.

day 58, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Mon, 27 Feb 2023 15:14:55 GMT

I should not go to other cities recently. It represents hope. In case I am still upset when I get back, it is better that I do what I need to do first, and no matter things go wrong or right, I have the backup solution. That is all.

day 57, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Sun, 26 Feb 2023 15:57:22 GMT

Dreaming about one of my relatives who passed away some years ago this noon. He is my grandfather’s uncle, coming to my dream, and I help him to sit down. The next moment I wake up. I always believe the olds who show up in my dreams are trying to tell me something. I guess this time I was told that I should help relatives as much as I can. In some ways I am badly cold, and I don’t think it’s not good. All I want to do is to follow my heart.

day 56, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Sat, 25 Feb 2023 13:57:29 GMT

My mother called me this morning talking about her new business, which inspired me deeply. She is not young and still gets strong motivation and courage to do challenging thing. To me, she is an entrepreneur with great entrepreneurship. And it should not just be an example, but I really need to act.

day 55, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Fri, 24 Feb 2023 15:40:19 GMT

I can feel it is coming. In the case, all I need is a mood, and once the mood is matched, I’ll go without any

day 54, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Thu, 23 Feb 2023 15:07:12 GMT

Suddenly, when I work in front of the MacBook, listening some music, I smell summer in my mind, and some good memories which happened in my university occur. The feelings, specifically, both now and memory, are so beautiful. I don’t know how to describe it cause it’s beyond description. I wish something special will happen this summer.

day 53, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Wed, 22 Feb 2023 15:19:20 GMT

I was so arrogant that I thought someone who is gone had a meaningless life in the past three years. Recently, it just came to my mind that I have zero right to decide whether there is meaning of other people’s life. Although he means a lot to me, but I did not know that much about his life. Maybe as a teacher, he taught many students in a wonderful way, and he means something to those students. When I hang out in the streets at hometown, there always are some people who know about me because of him. They called him Professor Li, Teacher Li, and they talked about him with their proud faces. I feel so bad that I deny his meaning of life just since he was painful in his last two years. I am so sorry, Grandfather.

day 52, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Tue, 21 Feb 2023 14:46:48 GMT

I dreamed about Masayoshi Son the other night The only thing I ask from him is his autograph. When I waked up, I knew that I was not ready for a startup. The sign of I’m prepared for it is even if I was in a deep dream, the only thing I would do with Masayoshi Son is about my business.

day 51, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Mon, 20 Feb 2023 15:13:37 GMT

There are two ways that I can choose in the next two years. I am not one hundred percent sure about which one should I take, because one is too much risks and another is not lucratively enough. In the face of what I have always wanted still hesitates me. Maybe, in the bottle of my heart, I just a coward who is afraid of trying so he can blame unsuccess on not to do.

I tried to find some signs from books, dreams, movies since many years ago, but all failed. As a result, I did not achieve anything. I can not feel reality, and it sucks. You know, I guess all I need is to do it. It is not that hard as my imagination.

One more thing. One year to go before get back to hometown. If you fail in the end of this year, it may be time to go home.

day 50, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Sun, 19 Feb 2023 14:44:53 GMT

Sometimes a kind of smell came to my mind, a smell of summer, enabling me to recall something beautiful in the pass. It is hard to describe because it is so beautiful, and I have not been experienced that for many years. I know I have lost so many good things, but I just don’t know how to earn them back, at least earn the feeling back. I mean, if I try damn hard, will it be back?

day 49, 2023

willli@newsletter.paragraph.com (willli) — Sat, 18 Feb 2023 14:51:38 GMT

I guess it is important that most doubt about you. The more people don’t believe in you, the better. Remember to prove that. Just do it.