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            <description><![CDATA[that I was emboldened to kiss and thank her; which I did with great heartiness, and with both my arms clasped round her neck. I then shook hands with Mr. Dick, who shook hands with me a great many times, and hailed this happy close of the proceedings with repeated bursts of laughter. &apos;You&apos;ll consider yourself guardian, jointly with me, of this child, Mr. Dick,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;I shall be delighted,&apos; said Mr. Dick, &apos;to be the guardian of David&apos;s son.&apos; &ap...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>that I was emboldened to kiss and thank her; which I did with great heartiness, and with both my arms clasped round her neck. I then shook hands with Mr. Dick, who shook hands with me a great many times, and hailed this happy close of the proceedings with repeated bursts of laughter.</p><p>&apos;You&apos;ll consider yourself guardian, jointly with me, of this child, Mr. Dick,&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>&apos;I shall be delighted,&apos; said Mr. Dick, &apos;to be the guardian of David&apos;s son.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Very good,&apos; returned my aunt, &apos;that&apos;s settled. I have been thinking, do you know, Mr. Dick, that I might call him Trotwood?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Certainly, certainly. Call him Trotwood, certainly,&apos; said Mr. Dick. &apos;David&apos;s son&apos;s Trotwood.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Trotwood Copperfield, you mean,&apos; returned my aunt.</p><p>&apos;Yes, to be sure. Yes. Trotwood Copperfield,&apos; said Mr. Dick, a little abashed.</p><p>My aunt took so kindly to the notion, that some ready-made clothes, which were purchased for me that afternoon, were marked &apos;Trotwood Copperfield&apos;, in her own handwriting, and in indelible marking-ink, before I put them on; and it was settled that all the other clothes which were ordered to be made for me (a complete outfit was bespoke that afternoon) should be marked in the same way.</p><p>Thus I began my new life, in a new name, and with everything new about me. Now that the state of doubt was over, I felt, for many days, like one in a dream. I never thought that I had a curious couple of guardians, in my aunt and Mr. Dick. I never thought of anything about myself, distinctly. The two things clearest in my mind were, that a remoteness had come upon the old Blunderstone life which seemed to lie in the haze of an immeasurable distance; and that a curtain had for ever fallen on my life at Murdstone and Grinby&apos;s. No one has ever raised that curtain since. I have lifted it for a moment, even in this narrative, with a reluctant hand, and dropped it gladly. The remembrance of that life is fraught with so much pain to me, with so much mental suffering and want of hope, that I have never had the courage even to examine how long I was doomed to lead it. Whether it lasted for a year, or more, or less, I do not know. I only know that it was, and ceased to be; and that I have written, and there I leave it.</p><p>CHAPTER 15 I MAKE ANOTHER BEGINNING</p><p>Mr. Dick and I soon became the best of friends, and very often, when his day&apos;s work was done, went out together to fly the great kite. Every day of his life he had a long sitting at the Memorial, which never made the least progress, however hard he laboured, for King Charles the First always strayed into it, sooner or later, and then it was thrown aside, and another one begun. The patience and hope with which he bore these perpetual disappointments, the mild perception he had that there was something wrong about King Charles the First, the feeble efforts he made to keep him out, and the certainty with which he came in, and tumbled the Memorial out of all shape, made a deep impression on me. What Mr. Dick supposed would come of the Memorial, if it were completed; where he thought it was to go, or what he thought it was to do; he knew no more than anybody else, I believe. Nor was it at all necessary that he should trouble himself with such questions, for if anything were certain under the sun, it was certain that the Memorial never would be finished. It was quite an affecting sight, I used to think, to see him with the kite when it was up a great height in the air. What he had told me, in his room, about his belief in its disseminating the statements pasted on it, which were nothing but old leaves of abortive Memorials, might have been a fancy with him sometimes; but not when he was out, looking up at the kite in the sky, and feeling it pull and tug at his hand. He never looked so serene as he did then. I used to fancy, as I sat by him of an evening, on a green slope, and saw him watch the kite high in the quiet air, that it lifted his mind out of its confusion, and bore it (such was my boyish thought) into the skies. As he wound the string in and it came lower and lower down out of the beautiful light, until it fluttered to the ground, and lay there like a dead thing, he seemed to wake gradually out of a dream; and I remember to have seen him take it up, and look about him in a lost way, as if they had both come down together, so that I pitied him with all my heart.</p><p>While I advanced in friendship and intimacy with Mr. Dick, I did not go backward in the favour of his staunch friend, my aunt. She took so kindly to me, that, in the course of a few weeks, she shortened my adopted name of Trotwood into Trot; and even encouraged me to hope, that if I went on as I had begun, I might take equal rank in her affections with my sister Betsey Trotwood.</p><p>&apos;Trot,&apos; said my aunt one evening, when the backgammon-board was placed as usual for herself and Mr. Dick, &apos;we must not forget your education.&apos;</p><p>This was my only subject of anxiety, and I felt quite delighted by her referring to it.</p><p>&apos;Should you like to go to school at Canterbury?&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>I replied that I should like it very much, as it was so near her.</p><p>&apos;Good,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Should you like to go tomorrow?&apos;</p><p>Being already no stranger to the general rapidity of my aunt&apos;s evolutions, I was not surprised by the suddenness of the proposal, and said: &apos;Yes.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Good,&apos; said my aunt again. &apos;Janet, hire the grey pony and chaise tomorrow morning at ten o&apos;clock, and pack up Master Trotwood&apos;s clothes tonight.&apos;</p><p>I was greatly elated by these orders; but my heart smote me for my selfishness, when I witnessed their effect on Mr. Dick, who was so low-spirited at the prospect of our separation, and played so ill in consequence, that my aunt, after giving him several admonitory raps on the knuckles with her dice-box, shut up the board, and declined to play with him any more. But, on hearing from my aunt that I should sometimes come over on a Saturday, and that he could sometimes come and see me on a Wednesday, he revived; and vowed to make another kite for those occasions, of proportions greatly surpassing the present one. In the morning he was downhearted again, and would have sustained himself by giving me all the money he had in his possession, gold and silver too, if my aunt had not interposed, and limited the gift to five shillings, which, at his earnest petition, were afterwards increased to ten. We parted at the garden-gate in a most affectionate manner, and Mr. Dick did not go into the house until my aunt had driven me out of sight of it.</p><p>My aunt, who was perfectly indifferent to public opinion, drove the grey pony through Dover in a masterly manner; sitting high and stiff like a state coachman, keeping a steady eye upon him wherever he went, and making a point of not letting him have his own way in any respect. When we came into the country road, she permitted him to relax a little, however; and looking at me down in a valley of cushion by her side, asked me whether I was happy?</p><p>&apos;Very happy indeed, thank you, aunt,&apos; I said.</p><p>She was much gratified; and both her hands being occupied, patted me on the head with her whip.</p><p>&apos;Is it a large school, aunt?&apos; I asked.</p><p>&apos;Why, I don&apos;t know,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;We are going to Mr. Wickfield&apos;s first.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Does he keep a school?&apos; I asked.</p><p>&apos;No, Trot,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;He keeps an office.&apos;</p><p>I asked for no more information about Mr. Wickfield, as she offered none, and we conversed on other subjects until we came to Canterbury, where, as it was market-day, my aunt had a great opportunity of insinuating the grey pony among carts, baskets, vegetables, and huckster&apos;s goods. The hair-breadth turns and twists we made, drew down upon us a variety of speeches from the people standing about, which were not always complimentary; but my aunt drove on with perfect indifference, and I dare say would have taken her own way with as much coolness through an enemy&apos;s country.</p><p>At length we stopped before a very old house bulging out over the road; a house with long low lattice-windows bulging out still farther, and beams with carved heads on the ends bulging out too, so that I fancied the whole house was leaning forward, trying to see who was passing on the narrow pavement below. It was quite spotless in its cleanliness. The old-fashioned brass knocker on the low arched door, ornamented with carved garlands of fruit and flowers, twinkled like a star; the two stone steps descending to the door were as white as if they had been covered with fair linen; and all the angles and corners, and carvings and mouldings, and quaint little panes of glass, and quainter little windows, though as old as the hills, were as pure as any snow that ever fell upon the hills.</p><p>When the pony-chaise stopped at the door, and my eyes were intent upon the house, I saw a cadaverous face appear at a small window on the ground floor (in a little round tower that formed one side of the house), and quickly disappear. The low arched door then opened, and the face came out. It was quite as cadaverous as it had looked in the window, though in the grain of it there was that tinge of red which is sometimes to be observed in the skins of red-haired people. It belonged to a red-haired person - a youth of fifteen, as I take it now, but looking much older - whose hair was cropped as close as the closest stubble; who had hardly any eyebrows, and no eyelashes, and eyes of a red-brown, so unsheltered and unshaded, that I remember wondering how he went to sleep. He was high-shouldered and bony; dressed in decent black, with a white wisp of a neckcloth; buttoned up to the throat; and had a long, lank, skeleton hand, which particularly attracted my attention, as he stood at the pony&apos;s head, rubbing his chin with it, and looking up at us in the chaise.</p><p>&apos;Is Mr. Wickfield at home, Uriah Heep?&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>&apos;Mr. Wickfield&apos;s at home, ma&apos;am,&apos; said Uriah Heep, &apos;if you&apos;ll please to walk in there&apos; - pointing with his long hand to the room he meant.</p><p>We got out; and leaving him to hold the pony, went into a long low parlour looking towards the street, from the window of which I caught a glimpse, as I went in, of Uriah Heep breathing into the pony&apos;s nostrils, and immediately covering them with his hand, as if he were putting some spell upon him. Opposite to the tall old chimney-piece were two portraits: one of a gentleman with grey hair (though not by any means an old man) and black eyebrows, who was looking over some papers tied together with red tape; the other, of a lady, with a very placid and sweet expression of face, who was looking at me.</p><p>I believe I was turning about in search of Uriah&apos;s picture, when, a door at the farther end of the room opening, a gentleman entered, at sight of whom I turned to the first-mentioned portrait again, to make quite sure that it had not come out of its frame. But it was stationary; and as the gentleman advanced into the light, I saw that he was some years older than when he had had his picture painted.</p><p>&apos;Miss Betsey Trotwood,&apos; said the gentleman, &apos;pray walk in. I was engaged for a moment, but you&apos;ll excuse my being busy. You know my motive. I have but one in life.&apos;</p><p>Miss Betsey thanked him, and we went into his room, which was furnished as an office, with books, papers, tin boxes, and so forth. It looked into a garden, and had an iron safe let into the wall; so immediately over the mantelshelf, that I wondered, as I sat down, how the sweeps got round it when they swept the chimney.</p><p>&apos;Well, Miss Trotwood,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield; for I soon found that it was he, and that he was a lawyer, and steward of the estates of a rich gentleman of the county; &apos;what wind blows you here? Not an ill wind, I hope?&apos;</p><p>&apos;No,&apos; replied my aunt. &apos;I have not come for any law.&apos;</p><p>&apos;That&apos;s right, ma&apos;am,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield. &apos;You had better come for anything else.&apos; His hair was quite white now, though his eyebrows were still black. He had a very agreeable face, and, I thought, was handsome. There was a certain richness in his complexion, which I had been long accustomed, under Peggotty&apos;s tuition, to connect with port wine; and I fancied it was in his voice too, and referred his growing corpulency to the same cause. He was very cleanly dressed, in a blue coat, striped waistcoat, and nankeen trousers; and his fine frilled shirt and cambric neckcloth looked unusually soft and white, reminding my strolling fancy (I call to mind) of the plumage on the breast of a swan.</p><p>&apos;This is my nephew,&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>&apos;Wasn&apos;t aware you had one, Miss Trotwood,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield.</p><p>&apos;My grand-nephew, that is to say,&apos; observed my aunt.</p><p>&apos;Wasn&apos;t aware you had a grand-nephew, I give you my word,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield.</p><p>&apos;I have adopted him,&apos; said my aunt, with a wave of her hand, importing that his knowledge and his ignorance were all one to her, &apos;and I have brought him here, to put to a school where he may be thoroughly well taught, and well treated. Now tell me where that school is, and what it is, and all about it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Before I can advise you properly,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield - &apos;the old question, you know. What&apos;s your motive in this?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Deuce take the man!&apos; exclaimed my aunt. &apos;Always fishing for motives, when they&apos;re on the surface! Why, to make the child happy and useful.&apos;</p><p>&apos;It must be a mixed motive, I think,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield, shaking his head and smiling incredulously.</p><p>&apos;A mixed fiddlestick,&apos; returned my aunt. &apos;You claim to have one plain motive in all you do yourself. You don&apos;t suppose, I hope, that you are the only plain dealer in the world?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Ay, but I have only one motive in life, Miss Trotwood,&apos; he rejoined, smiling. &apos;Other people have dozens, scores, hundreds. I have only one. There&apos;s the difference. However, that&apos;s beside the question. The best school? Whatever the motive, you want the best?&apos;</p><p>My aunt nodded assent.</p><p>&apos;At the best we have,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield, considering, &apos;your nephew couldn&apos;t board just now.&apos;</p><p>&apos;But he could board somewhere else, I suppose?&apos; suggested my aunt.</p><p>Mr. Wickfield thought I could. After a little discussion, he proposed to take my aunt to the school, that she might see it and judge for herself; also, to take her, with the same object, to two or three houses where he thought I could be boarded. My aunt embracing the proposal, we were all three going out together, when he stopped and said:</p><p>&apos;Our little friend here might have some motive, perhaps, for objecting to the arrangements. I think we had better leave him behind?&apos;</p><p>My aunt seemed disposed to contest the point; but to facilitate matters I said I would gladly remain behind, if they pleased; and returned into Mr. Wickfield&apos;s office, where I sat down again, in the chair I had first occupied, to await their return.</p><p>It so happened that this chair was opposite a narrow passage, which ended in the little circular room where I had seen Uriah Heep&apos;s pale face looking out of the window. Uriah, having taken the pony to a neighbouring stable, was at work at a desk in this room, which had a brass frame on the top to hang paper upon, and on which the writing he was making a copy of was then hanging. Though his face was towards me, I thought, for some time, the writing being between us, that he could not see me; but looking that way more attentively, it made me uncomfortable to observe that, every now and then, his sleepless eyes would come below the writing, like two red suns, and stealthily stare at me for I dare say a whole minute at a time, during which his pen went, or pretended to go, as cleverly as ever. I made several attempts to get out of their way - such as standing on a chair to look at a map on the other side of the room, and poring over the columns of a Kentish newspaper - but they always attracted me back again; and whenever I looked towards those two red suns, I was sure to find them, either just rising or just setting.</p><p>At length, much to my relief, my aunt and Mr. Wickfield came back, after a pretty long absence. They were not so successful as I could have wished; for though the advantages of the school were undeniable, my aunt had not approved of any of the boarding-houses proposed for me.</p><p>&apos;It&apos;s very unfortunate,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;I don&apos;t know what to do, Trot.&apos;</p><p>&apos;It does happen unfortunately,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield. &apos;But I&apos;ll tell you what you can do, Miss Trotwood.&apos;</p><p>&apos;What&apos;s that?&apos; inquired my aunt.</p><p>&apos;Leave your nephew here, for the present. He&apos;s a quiet fellow. He won&apos;t disturb me at all. It&apos;s a capital house for study. As quiet as a monastery, and almost as roomy. Leave him here.&apos;</p><p>My aunt evidently liked the offer, though she was delicate of accepting it. So did I. &apos;Come, Miss Trotwood,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield. &apos;This is the way out of the difficulty. It&apos;s only a temporary arrangement, you know. If it don&apos;t act well, or don&apos;t quite accord with our mutual convenience, he can easily go to the right-about. There will be time to find some better place for him in the meanwhile. You had better determine to leave him here for the present!&apos;</p><p>&apos;I am very much obliged to you,&apos; said my aunt; &apos;and so is he, I see; but -&apos;</p><p>&apos;Come! I know what you mean,&apos; cried Mr. Wickfield. &apos;You shall not be oppressed by the receipt of favours, Miss Trotwood. You may pay for him, if you like. We won&apos;t be hard about terms, but you shall pay if you will.&apos;</p><p>&apos;On that understanding,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;though it doesn&apos;t lessen the real obligation, I shall be very glad to leave him.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Then come and see my little housekeeper,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield.</p><p>We accordingly went up a wonderful old staircase; with a balustrade so broad that we might have gone up that, almost as easily; and into a shady old drawing room, lighted by some three or four of the quaint windows I had looked up at from the street: which had old oak seats in them, that seemed to have come of the same trees as the shining oak floor, and the great beams in the ceiling. It was a prettily furnished room, with a piano and some lively furniture in red and green, and some flowers. It seemed to be all old nooks and corners; and in every nook and corner there was some queer little table, or cupboard, or bookcase, or seat, or something or other, that made me think there was not such another good corner in the room; until I looked at the next one, and found it equal to it, if not better. On everything there was the same air of retirement and cleanliness that marked the house outside.</p><p>Mr. Wickfield tapped at a door in a corner of the panelled wall, and a girl of about my own age came quickly out and kissed him. On her face, I saw immediately the placid and sweet expression of the lady whose picture had looked at me downstairs. It seemed to my imagination as if the portrait had grown womanly, and the original remained a child. Although her face was quite bright and happy, there was a tranquillity about it, and about her - a quiet, good, calm spirit - that I never have forgotten; that I shall never forget. This was his little housekeeper, his daughter Agnes, Mr. Wickfield said. When I heard how he said it, and saw how he held her hand, I guessed what the one motive of his life was.</p><p>She had a little basket-trifle hanging at her side, with keys in it; and she looked as staid and as discreet a housekeeper as the old house could have. She listened to her father as he told her about me, with a pleasant face; and when he had concluded, proposed to my aunt that we should go upstairs and see my room. We all went together, she before us: and a glorious old room it was, with more oak beams, and diamond panes; and the broad balustrade going all the way up to it.</p><p>I cannot call to mind where or when, in my childhood, I had seen a stained glass window in a church. Nor do I recollect its subject. But I know that when I saw her turn round, in the grave light of the old staircase, and wait for us, above, I thought of that window; and I associated something of its tranquil brightness with Agnes Wickfield ever afterwards.</p><p>My aunt was as happy as I was, in the arrangement made for me; and we went down to the drawing-room again, well pleased and gratified. As she would not hear of staying to dinner, lest she should by any chance fail to arrive at home with the grey pony before dark; and as I apprehend Mr. Wickfield knew her too well to argue any point with her; some lunch was provided for her there, and Agnes went back to her governess, and Mr. Wickfield to his office. So we were left to take leave of one another without any restraint.</p><p>She told me that everything would be arranged for me by Mr. Wickfield, and that I should want for nothing, and gave me the kindest words and the best advice.</p><p>&apos;Trot,&apos; said my aunt in conclusion, &apos;be a credit to yourself, to me, and Mr. Dick, and Heaven be with you!&apos;</p><p>I was greatly overcome, and could only thank her, again and again, and send my love to Mr. Dick.</p><p>&apos;Never,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;be mean in anything; never be false; never be cruel. Avoid those three vices, Trot, and I can always be hopeful of you.&apos;</p><p>I promised, as well as I could, that I would not abuse her kindness or forget her admonition.</p><p>&apos;The pony&apos;s at the door,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;and I am off! Stay here.&apos; With these words she embraced me hastily, and went out of the room, shutting the door after her. At first I was startled by so abrupt a departure, and almost feared I had displeased her; but when I looked into the street, and saw how dejectedly she got into the chaise, and drove away without looking up, I understood her better and did not do her that injustice.</p><p>By five o&apos;clock, which was Mr. Wickfield&apos;s dinner-hour, I had mustered up my spirits again, and was ready for my knife and fork. The cloth was only laid for us two; but Agnes was waiting in the drawing-room before dinner, went down with her father, and sat opposite to him at table. I doubted whether he could have dined without her.</p><p>We did not stay there, after dinner, but came upstairs into the drawing-room again: in one snug corner of which, Agnes set glasses for her father, and a decanter of port wine. I thought he would have missed its usual flavour, if it had been put there for him by any other hands.</p><p>There he sat, taking his wine, and taking a good deal of it, for two hours; while Agnes played on the piano, worked, and talked to him and me. He was, for the most part, gay and cheerful with us; but sometimes his eyes rested on her, and he fell into a brooding state, and was silent. She always observed this quickly, I thought, and always roused him with a question or caress. Then he came out of his meditation, and drank more wine.</p><p>Agnes made the tea, and presided over it; and the time passed away after it, as after dinner, until she went to bed; when her father took her in his arms and kissed her, and, she being gone, ordered candles in his office. Then I went to bed too.</p><p>But in the course of the evening I had rambled down to the door, and a little way along the street, that I might have another peep at the old houses, and the grey Cathedral; and might think of my coming through that old city on my journey, and of my passing the very house I lived in, without knowing it. As I came back, I saw Uriah Heep shutting up the office; and feeling friendly towards everybody, went in and spoke to him, and at parting, gave him my hand. But oh, what a clammy hand his was! as ghostly to the touch as to the sight! I rubbed mine afterwards, to warm it, AND TO RUB HIS OFF.</p><p>It was such an uncomfortable hand, that, when I went to my room, it was still cold and wet upon my memory. Leaning out of the window, and seeing one of the faces on the beam-ends looking at me sideways, I fancied it was Uriah Heep got up there somehow, and shut him out in a hurry.</p><p>CHAPTER 16 I AM A NEW BOY IN MORE SENSES THAN ONE</p><p>Next morning, after breakfast, I entered on school life again. I went, accompanied by Mr. Wickfield, to the scene of my future studies - a grave building in a courtyard, with a learned air about it that seemed very well suited to the stray rooks and jackdaws who came down from the Cathedral towers to walk with a clerkly bearing on the grass-plot - and was introduced to my new master, Doctor Strong.</p><p>Doctor Strong looked almost as rusty, to my thinking, as the tall iron rails and gates outside the house; and almost as stiff and heavy as the great stone urns that flanked them, and were set up, on the top of the red-brick wall, at regular distances all round the court, like sublimated skittles, for Time to play at. He was in his library (I mean Doctor Strong was), with his clothes not particularly well brushed, and his hair not particularly well combed; his knee- smalls unbraced; his long black gaiters unbuttoned; and his shoes yawning like two caverns on the hearth-rug. Turning upon me a lustreless eye, that reminded me of a long-forgotten blind old horse who once used to crop the grass, and tumble over the graves, in Blunderstone churchyard, he said he was glad to see me: and then he gave me his hand; which I didn&apos;t know what to do with, as it did nothing for itself.</p><p>But, sitting at work, not far from Doctor Strong, was a very pretty young lady whom he called Annie, and who was his daughter, I supposed - who got me out of my difficulty by kneeling down to put Doctor Strong&apos;s shoes on, and button his gaiters, which she did with great cheerfulness and quickness. When she had finished, and we were going out to the schoolroom, I was much surprised to hear Mr. Wickfield, in bidding her good morning, address her as &apos;Mrs. Strong&apos;; and I was wondering could she be Doctor Strong&apos;s son&apos;s wife, or could she be Mrs. Doctor Strong, when Doctor Strong himself unconsciously enlightened me.</p><p>&apos;By the by, Wickfield,&apos; he said, stopping in a passage with his hand on my shoulder; &apos;you have not found any suitable provision for my wife&apos;s cousin yet?&apos;</p><p>&apos;No,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield. &apos;No. Not yet.&apos;</p><p>&apos;I could wish it done as soon as it can be done, Wickfield,&apos; said Doctor Strong, &apos;for Jack Maldon is needy, and idle; and of those two bad things, worse things sometimes come. What does Doctor Watts say,&apos; he added, looking at me, and moving his head to the time of his quotation, &apos;&quot;Satan finds some mischief still, for idle hands to do.&quot;&apos;</p><p>&apos;Egad, Doctor,&apos; returned Mr. Wickfield, &apos;if Doctor Watts knew mankind, he might have written, with as much truth, &quot;Satan finds some mischief still, for busy hands to do.&quot; The busy people achieve their full share of mischief in the world, you may rely upon it. What have the people been about, who have been the busiest in getting money, and in getting power, this century or two? No mischief?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Jack Maldon will never be very busy in getting either, I expect,&apos; said Doctor Strong, rubbing his chin thoughtfully.</p><p>&apos;Perhaps not,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield; &apos;and you bring me back to the question, with an apology for digressing. No, I have not been able to dispose of Mr. Jack Maldon yet. I believe,&apos; he said this with some hesitation, &apos;I penetrate your motive, and it makes the thing more difficult.&apos;</p><p>&apos;My motive,&apos; returned Doctor Strong, &apos;is to make some suitable provision for a cousin, and an old playfellow, of Annie&apos;s.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes, I know,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield; &apos;at home or abroad.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Aye!&apos; replied the Doctor, apparently wondering why he emphasized those words so much. &apos;At home or abroad.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Your own expression, you know,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield. &apos;Or abroad.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Surely,&apos; the Doctor answered. &apos;Surely. One or other.&apos;</p><p>&apos;One or other? Have you no choice?&apos; asked Mr. Wickfield.</p><p>&apos;No,&apos; returned the Doctor.</p><p>&apos;No?&apos; with astonishment.</p><p>&apos;Not the least.&apos;</p><p>&apos;No motive,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield, &apos;for meaning abroad, and not at home?&apos;</p><p>&apos;No,&apos; returned the Doctor.</p><p>&apos;I am bound to believe you, and of course I do believe you,&apos; said Mr. Wickfield. &apos;It might have simplified my office very much, if I had known it before. But I confess I entertained another impression.&apos;</p><p>Doctor Strong regarded him with a puzzled and doubting look, which almost immediately subsided into a smile that gave me great encouragement; for it was full of amiability and sweetness, and there was a simplicity in it, and indeed in his whole manner, when the studious, pondering frost upon it was got through, very attractive and hopeful to a young scholar like me. Repeating &apos;no&apos;, and &apos;not the least&apos;, and other short assurances to the same purport, Doctor Strong jogged on before us, at a queer, uneven pace; and we followed: Mr. Wickfield, looking grave, I observed, and shaking his head to himself, without knowing that I saw him.</p><p>The schoolroom was a pretty large hall, on the quietest side of the house, confronted by the stately stare of some half-dozen of the great urns, and commanding a peep of an old secluded garden belonging to the Doctor, where the peaches were ripening on the sunny south wall. There were two great aloes, in tubs, on the turf outside the windows; the broad hard leaves of which plant (looking as if they were made of painted tin) have ever since, by association, been symbolical to me of silence and retirement. About five-and-twenty boys were studiously engaged at their books when we went in, but they rose to give the Doctor good morning, and remained standing when they saw Mr. Wickfield and me.</p><p>&apos;A new boy, young gentlemen,&apos; said the Doctor; &apos;Trotwood Copperfield.&apos;</p><p>One Adams, who was the head-boy, then stepped out of his place and welcomed me. He looked like a young clergyman, in his white cravat, but he was very affable and good-humoured; and he showed me my place, and presented me to the masters, in a gentlemanly way that would have put me at my ease, if anything could.</p><p>It seemed to me so long, however, since I had been among such boys, or among any companions of my own age, except Mick Walker and Mealy Potatoes, that I felt as strange as ever I have done in my life. I was so conscious of having passed through scenes of which they could have no knowledge, and of having acquired experiences foreign to my age, appearance, and condition as one of them, that I half believed it was an imposture to come there as an ordinary little schoolboy. I had become, in the Murdstone and Grinby time, however short or long it may have been, so unused to the sports and games of boys, that I knew I was awkward and inexperienced in the commonest things belonging to them. Whatever I had learnt, had so slipped away from me in the sordid cares of my life from day to night, that now, when I was examined about what I knew, I knew nothing, and was put into the lowest form of the school. But, troubled as I was, by my want of boyish skill, and of book-learning too, I was made infinitely more uncomfortable by the consideration, that, in what I did know, I was much farther removed from my companions than in what I did not. My mind ran upon what they would think, if they knew of my familiar acquaintance with the King&apos;s Bench Prison? Was there anything about me which would reveal my proceedings in connexion with the Micawber family - all those pawnings, and sellings, and suppers - in spite of myself? Suppose some of the boys had seen me coming through Canterbury, wayworn and ragged, and should find me out? What would they say, who made so light of money, if they could know how I had scraped my halfpence together, for the purchase of my daily saveloy and beer, or my slices of pudding? How would it affect them, who were so innocent of London life, and London streets, to discover how knowing I was (and was ashamed to be) in some of the meanest phases of both? All this ran in my head so much, on that first day at Doctor Strong&apos;s, that I felt distrustful of my slightest look and gesture; shrunk within myself whensoever I was approached by one of my new schoolfellows; and hurried off the minute school was over, afraid of committing myself in my response to any friendly notice or advance.</p><p>But there was such an influence in Mr. Wickfield&apos;s old house, that when I knocked at it, with my new school-books under my arm, I began to feel my uneasiness softening away. As I went up to my airy old room, the grave shadow of the staircase seemed to fall upon my doubts and fears, and to make the past more indistinct. I sat there, sturdily conning my books, until dinner-time (we were out of school for good at three); and went down, hopeful of becoming a passable sort of boy yet.</p><p>Agnes was in the drawing-room, waiting for her father, who was detained by someone in his office. She met me with her pleasant smile, and asked me how I liked the school. I told her I should like it very much, I hoped; but I was a little strange to it at first.</p><p>&apos;You have never been to school,&apos; I said, &apos;have you?&apos; &apos;Oh yes! Every day.&apos;</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[I never could look at her for a few moments together but I found her looking at me - in an odd thoughtful manner, as if I were an immense way off, instead of being on the other side of the small round table. When she had finished her breakfast, my aunt very deliberately leaned back in her chair, knitted her brows, folded her arms, and contemplated me at her leisure, with such a fixedness of attention that I was quite overpowered by embarrassment. Not having as yet finished my own breakfast, I...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I never could look at her for a few moments together but I found her looking at me - in an odd thoughtful manner, as if I were an immense way off, instead of being on the other side of the small round table. When she had finished her breakfast, my aunt very deliberately leaned back in her chair, knitted her brows, folded her arms, and contemplated me at her leisure, with such a fixedness of attention that I was quite overpowered by embarrassment. Not having as yet finished my own breakfast, I attempted to hide my confusion by proceeding with it; but my knife tumbled over my fork, my fork tripped up my knife, I chipped bits of bacon a surprising height into the air instead of cutting them for my own eating, and choked myself with my tea, which persisted in going the wrong way instead of the right one, until I gave in altogether, and sat blushing under my aunt&apos;s close scrutiny.</p><p>&apos;Hallo!&apos; said my aunt, after a long time.</p><p>I looked up, and met her sharp bright glance respectfully.</p><p>&apos;I have written to him,&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>&apos;To -?&apos;</p><p>&apos;To your father-in-law,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;I have sent him a letter that I&apos;ll trouble him to attend to, or he and I will fall out, I can tell him!&apos;</p><p>&apos;Does he know where I am, aunt?&apos; I inquired, alarmed.</p><p>&apos;I have told him,&apos; said my aunt, with a nod.</p><p>&apos;Shall I - be - given up to him?&apos; I faltered.</p><p>&apos;I don&apos;t know,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;We shall see.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Oh! I can&apos;t think what I shall do,&apos; I exclaimed, &apos;if I have to go back to Mr. Murdstone!&apos;</p><p>&apos;I don&apos;t know anything about it,&apos; said my aunt, shaking her head. &apos;I can&apos;t say, I am sure. We shall see.&apos;</p><p>My spirits sank under these words, and I became very downcast and heavy of heart. My aunt, without appearing to take much heed of me, put on a coarse apron with a bib, which she took out of the press; washed up the teacups with her own hands; and, when everything was washed and set in the tray again, and the cloth folded and put on the top of the whole, rang for Janet to remove it. She next swept up the crumbs with a little broom (putting on a pair of gloves first), until there did not appear to be one microscopic speck left on the carpet; next dusted and arranged the room, which was dusted and arranged to a hair&apos;sbreadth already. When all these tasks were performed to her satisfaction, she took off the gloves and apron, folded them up, put them in the particular corner of the press from which they had been taken, brought out her work-box to her own table in the open window, and sat down, with the green fan between her and the light, to work.</p><p>&apos;I wish you&apos;d go upstairs,&apos; said my aunt, as she threaded her needle, &apos;and give my compliments to Mr. Dick, and I&apos;ll be glad to know how he gets on with his Memorial.&apos;</p><p>I rose with all alacrity, to acquit myself of this commission.</p><p>&apos;I suppose,&apos; said my aunt, eyeing me as narrowly as she had eyed the needle in threading it, &apos;you think Mr. Dick a short name, eh?&apos;</p><p>&apos;I thought it was rather a short name, yesterday,&apos; I confessed.</p><p>&apos;You are not to suppose that he hasn&apos;t got a longer name, if he chose to use it,&apos; said my aunt, with a loftier air. &apos;Babley - Mr. Richard Babley - that&apos;s the gentleman&apos;s true name.&apos;</p><p>I was going to suggest, with a modest sense of my youth and the familiarity I had been already guilty of, that I had better give him the full benefit of that name, when my aunt went on to say:</p><p>&apos;But don&apos;t you call him by it, whatever you do. He can&apos;t bear his name. That&apos;s a peculiarity of his. Though I don&apos;t know that it&apos;s much of a peculiarity, either; for he has been ill-used enough, by some that bear it, to have a mortal antipathy for it, Heaven knows. Mr. Dick is his name here, and everywhere else, now - if he ever went anywhere else, which he don&apos;t. So take care, child, you don&apos;t call him anything BUT Mr. Dick.&apos;</p><p>I promised to obey, and went upstairs with my message; thinking, as I went, that if Mr. Dick had been working at his Memorial long, at the same rate as I had seen him working at it, through the open door, when I came down, he was probably getting on very well indeed. I found him still driving at it with a long pen, and his head almost laid upon the paper. He was so intent upon it, that I had ample leisure to observe the large paper kite in a corner, the confusion of bundles of manuscript, the number of pens, and, above all, the quantity of ink (which he seemed to have in, in half-gallon jars by the dozen), before he observed my being present.</p><p>&apos;Ha! Phoebus!&apos; said Mr. Dick, laying down his pen. &apos;How does the world go? I&apos;ll tell you what,&apos; he added, in a lower tone, &apos;I shouldn&apos;t wish it to be mentioned, but it&apos;s a -&apos; here he beckoned to me, and put his lips close to my ear - &apos;it&apos;s a mad world. Mad as Bedlam, boy!&apos; said Mr. Dick, taking snuff from a round box on the table, and laughing heartily.</p><p>Without presuming to give my opinion on this question, I delivered my message.</p><p>&apos;Well,&apos; said Mr. Dick, in answer, &apos;my compliments to her, and I - I believe I have made a start. I think I have made a start,&apos; said Mr. Dick, passing his hand among his grey hair, and casting anything but a confident look at his manuscript. &apos;You have been to school?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes, sir,&apos; I answered; &apos;for a short time.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Do you recollect the date,&apos; said Mr. Dick, looking earnestly at me, and taking up his pen to note it down, &apos;when King Charles the First had his head cut off?&apos; I said I believed it happened in the year sixteen hundred and forty-nine.</p><p>&apos;Well,&apos; returned Mr. Dick, scratching his ear with his pen, and looking dubiously at me. &apos;So the books say; but I don&apos;t see how that can be. Because, if it was so long ago, how could the people about him have made that mistake of putting some of the trouble out of his head, after it was taken off, into mine?&apos;</p><p>I was very much surprised by the inquiry; but could give no information on this point.</p><p>&apos;It&apos;s very strange,&apos; said Mr. Dick, with a despondent look upon his papers, and with his hand among his hair again, &apos;that I never can get that quite right. I never can make that perfectly clear. But no matter, no matter!&apos; he said cheerfully, and rousing himself, &apos;there&apos;s time enough! My compliments to Miss Trotwood, I am getting on very well indeed.&apos;</p><p>I was going away, when he directed my attention to the kite.</p><p>&apos;What do you think of that for a kite?&apos; he said.</p><p>I answered that it was a beautiful one. I should think it must have been as much as seven feet high.</p><p>&apos;I made it. We&apos;ll go and fly it, you and I,&apos; said Mr. Dick. &apos;Do you see this?&apos;</p><p>He showed me that it was covered with manuscript, very closely and laboriously written; but so plainly, that as I looked along the lines, I thought I saw some allusion to King Charles the First&apos;s head again, in one or two places.</p><p>&apos;There&apos;s plenty of string,&apos; said Mr. Dick, &apos;and when it flies high, it takes the facts a long way. That&apos;s my manner of diffusing &apos;em. I don&apos;t know where they may come down. It&apos;s according to circumstances, and the wind, and so forth; but I take my chance of that.&apos;</p><p>His face was so very mild and pleasant, and had something so reverend in it, though it was hale and hearty, that I was not sure but that he was having a good-humoured jest with me. So I laughed, and he laughed, and we parted the best friends possible.</p><p>&apos;Well, child,&apos; said my aunt, when I went downstairs. &apos;And what of Mr. Dick, this morning?&apos;</p><p>I informed her that he sent his compliments, and was getting on very well indeed.</p><p>&apos;What do you think of him?&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>I had some shadowy idea of endeavouring to evade the question, by replying that I thought him a very nice gentleman; but my aunt was not to be so put off, for she laid her work down in her lap, and said, folding her hands upon it:</p><p>&apos;Come! Your sister Betsey Trotwood would have told me what she thought of anyone, directly. Be as like your sister as you can, and speak out!&apos;</p><p>&apos;Is he - is Mr. Dick - I ask because I don&apos;t know, aunt - is he at all out of his mind, then?&apos; I stammered; for I felt I was on dangerous ground.</p><p>&apos;Not a morsel,&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>&apos;Oh, indeed!&apos; I observed faintly.</p><p>&apos;If there is anything in the world,&apos; said my aunt, with great decision and force of manner, &apos;that Mr. Dick is not, it&apos;s that.&apos;</p><p>I had nothing better to offer, than another timid, &apos;Oh, indeed!&apos;</p><p>&apos;He has been CALLED mad,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;I have a selfish pleasure in saying he has been called mad, or I should not have had the benefit of his society and advice for these last ten years and upwards - in fact, ever since your sister, Betsey Trotwood, disappointed me.&apos;</p><p>&apos;So long as that?&apos; I said.</p><p>&apos;And nice people they were, who had the audacity to call him mad,&apos; pursued my aunt. &apos;Mr. Dick is a sort of distant connexion of mine - it doesn&apos;t matter how; I needn&apos;t enter into that. If it hadn&apos;t been for me, his own brother would have shut him up for life. That&apos;s all.&apos;</p><p>I am afraid it was hypocritical in me, but seeing that my aunt felt strongly on the subject, I tried to look as if I felt strongly too.</p><p>&apos;A proud fool!&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Because his brother was a little eccentric though he is not half so eccentric as a good many people - he didn&apos;t like to have him visible about his house, and sent him away to some private asylum place: though he had been left to his particular care by their deceased father, who thought him almost a natural. And a wise man he must have been to think so! Mad himself, no doubt.&apos;</p><p>Again, as my aunt looked quite convinced, I endeavoured to look quite convinced also.</p><p>&apos;So I stepped in,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;and made him an offer. I said, &quot;Your brother&apos;s sane - a great deal more sane than you are, or ever will be, it is to be hoped. Let him have his little income, and come and live with me. I am not afraid of him, I am not proud, I am ready to take care of him, and shall not ill-treat him as some people (besides the asylum-folks) have done.&quot; After a good deal of squabbling,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;I got him; and he has been here ever since. He is the most friendly and amenable creature in existence; and as for advice! - But nobody knows what that man&apos;s mind is, except myself.&apos;</p><p>My aunt smoothed her dress and shook her head, as if she smoothed defiance of the whole world out of the one, and shook it out of the other.</p><p>&apos;He had a favourite sister,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;a good creature, and very kind to him. But she did what they all do - took a husband. And HE did what they all do - made her wretched. It had such an effect upon the mind of Mr. Dick (that&apos;s not madness, I hope!) that, combined with his fear of his brother, and his sense of his unkindness, it threw him into a fever. That was before he came to me, but the recollection of it is oppressive to him even now. Did he say anything to you about King Charles the First, child?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes, aunt.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Ah!&apos; said my aunt, rubbing her nose as if she were a little vexed. &apos;That&apos;s his allegorical way of expressing it. He connects his illness with great disturbance and agitation, naturally, and that&apos;s the figure, or the simile, or whatever it&apos;s called, which he chooses to use. And why shouldn&apos;t he, if he thinks proper!&apos;</p><p>I said: &apos;Certainly, aunt.&apos;</p><p>&apos;It&apos;s not a business-like way of speaking,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;nor a worldly way. I am aware of that; and that&apos;s the reason why I insist upon it, that there shan&apos;t be a word about it in his Memorial.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Is it a Memorial about his own history that he is writing, aunt?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes, child,&apos; said my aunt, rubbing her nose again. &apos;He is memorializing the Lord Chancellor, or the Lord Somebody or other - one of those people, at all events, who are paid to be memorialized - about his affairs. I suppose it will go in, one of these days. He hasn&apos;t been able to draw it up yet, without introducing that mode of expressing himself; but it don&apos;t signify; it keeps him employed.&apos;</p><p>In fact, I found out afterwards that Mr. Dick had been for upwards of ten years endeavouring to keep King Charles the First out of the Memorial; but he had been constantly getting into it, and was there now.</p><p>&apos;I say again,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;nobody knows what that man&apos;s mind is except myself; and he&apos;s the most amenable and friendly creature in existence. If he likes to fly a kite sometimes, what of that! Franklin used to fly a kite. He was a Quaker, or something of that sort, if I am not mistaken. And a Quaker flying a kite is a much more ridiculous object than anybody else.&apos;</p><p>If I could have supposed that my aunt had recounted these particulars for my especial behoof, and as a piece of confidence in me, I should have felt very much distinguished, and should have augured favourably from such a mark of her good opinion. But I could hardly help observing that she had launched into them, chiefly because the question was raised in her own mind, and with very little reference to me, though she had addressed herself to me in the absence of anybody else.</p><p>At the same time, I must say that the generosity of her championship of poor harmless Mr. Dick, not only inspired my young breast with some selfish hope for myself, but warmed it unselfishly towards her. I believe that I began to know that there was something about my aunt, notwithstanding her many eccentricities and odd humours, to be honoured and trusted in. Though she was just as sharp that day as on the day before, and was in and out about the donkeys just as often, and was thrown into a tremendous state of indignation, when a young man, going by, ogled Janet at a window (which was one of the gravest misdemeanours that could be committed against my aunt&apos;s dignity), she seemed to me to command more of my respect, if not less of my fear.</p><p>The anxiety I underwent, in the interval which necessarily elapsed before a reply could be received to her letter to Mr. Murdstone, was extreme; but I made an endeavour to suppress it, and to be as agreeable as I could in a quiet way, both to my aunt and Mr. Dick. The latter and I would have gone out to fly the great kite; but that I had still no other clothes than the anything but ornamental garments with which I had been decorated on the first day, and which confined me to the house, except for an hour after dark, when my aunt, for my health&apos;s sake, paraded me up and down on the cliff outside, before going to bed. At length the reply from Mr. Murdstone came, and my aunt informed me, to my infinite terror, that he was coming to speak to her herself on the next day. On the next day, still bundled up in my curious habiliments, I sat counting the time, flushed and heated by the conflict of sinking hopes and rising fears within me; and waiting to be startled by the sight of the gloomy face, whose non-arrival startled me every minute.</p><p>MY aunt was a little more imperious and stern than usual, but I observed no other token of her preparing herself to receive the visitor so much dreaded by me. She sat at work in the window, and I sat by, with my thoughts running astray on all possible and impossible results of Mr. Murdstone&apos;s visit, until pretty late in the afternoon. Our dinner had been indefinitely postponed; but it was growing so late, that my aunt had ordered it to be got ready, when she gave a sudden alarm of donkeys, and to my consternation and amazement, I beheld Miss Murdstone, on a side-saddle, ride deliberately over the sacred piece of green, and stop in front of the house, looking about her.</p><p>&apos;Go along with you!&apos; cried my aunt, shaking her head and her fist at the window. &apos;You have no business there. How dare you trespass? Go along! Oh! you bold faced thing!&apos;</p><p>MY aunt was so exasperated by the coolness with which Miss Murdstone looked about her, that I really believe she was motionless, and unable for the moment to dart out according to custom. I seized the opportunity to inform her who it was; and that the gentleman now coming near the offender (for the way up was very steep, and he had dropped behind), was Mr. Murdstone himself.</p><p>&apos;I don&apos;t care who it is!&apos; cried my aunt, still shaking her head and gesticulating anything but welcome from the bow-window. &apos;I won&apos;t be trespassed upon. I won&apos;t allow it. Go away! Janet, turn him round. Lead him off!&apos; and I saw, from behind my aunt, a sort of hurried battle-piece, in which the donkey stood resisting everybody, with all his four legs planted different ways, while Janet tried to pull him round by the bridle, Mr. Murdstone tried to lead him on, Miss Murdstone struck at Janet with a parasol, and several boys, who had come to see the engagement, shouted vigorously. But my aunt, suddenly descrying among them the young malefactor who was the donkey&apos;s guardian, and who was one of the most inveterate offenders against her, though hardly in his teens, rushed out to the scene of action, pounced upon him, captured him, dragged him, with his jacket over his head, and his heels grinding the ground, into the garden, and, calling upon Janet to fetch the constables and justices, that he might be taken, tried, and executed on the spot, held him at bay there. This part of the business, however, did not last long; for the young rascal, being expert at a variety of feints and dodges, of which my aunt had no conception, soon went whooping away, leaving some deep impressions of his nailed boots in the flower beds, and taking his donkey in triumph with him.</p><p>Miss Murdstone, during the latter portion of the contest, had dismounted, and was now waiting with her brother at the bottom of the steps, until my aunt should be at leisure to receive them. My aunt, a little ruffled by the combat, marched past them into the house, with great dignity, and took no notice of their presence, until they were announced by Janet.</p><p>&apos;Shall I go away, aunt?&apos; I asked, trembling.</p><p>&apos;No, sir,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Certainly not!&apos; With which she pushed me into a corner near her, and fenced Me in with a chair, as if it were a prison or a bar of justice. This position I continued to occupy during the whole interview, and from it I now saw Mr. and Miss Murdstone enter the room.</p><p>&apos;Oh!&apos; said my aunt, &apos;I was not aware at first to whom I had the pleasure of objecting. But I don&apos;t allow anybody to ride over that turf. I make no exceptions. I don&apos;t allow anybody to do it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Your regulation is rather awkward to strangers,&apos; said Miss Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;Is it!&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>Mr. Murdstone seemed afraid of a renewal of hostilities, and interposing began:</p><p>&apos;Miss Trotwood!&apos;</p><p>&apos;I beg your pardon,&apos; observed my aunt with a keen look. &apos;You are the Mr. Murdstone who married the widow of my late nephew, David Copperfield, of Blunderstone Rookery! - Though why Rookery, I don&apos;t know!&apos;</p><p>&apos;I am,&apos; said Mr. Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;You&apos;ll excuse my saying, sir,&apos; returned my aunt, &apos;that I think it would have been a much better and happier thing if you had left that poor child alone.&apos;</p><p>&apos;I so far agree with what Miss Trotwood has remarked,&apos; observed Miss Murdstone, bridling, &apos;that I consider our lamented Clara to have been, in all essential respects, a mere child.&apos;</p><p>&apos;It is a comfort to you and me, ma&apos;am,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;who are getting on in life, and are not likely to be made unhappy by our personal attractions, that nobody can say the same of us.&apos;</p><p>&apos;No doubt!&apos; returned Miss Murdstone, though, I thought, not with a very ready or gracious assent. &apos;And it certainly might have been, as you say, a better and happier thing for my brother if he had never entered into such a marriage. I have always been of that opinion.&apos;</p><p>&apos;I have no doubt you have,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Janet,&apos; ringing the bell, &apos;my compliments to Mr. Dick, and beg him to come down.&apos;</p><p>Until he came, my aunt sat perfectly upright and stiff, frowning at the wall. When he came, my aunt performed the ceremony of introduction.</p><p>&apos;Mr. Dick. An old and intimate friend. On whose judgement,&apos; said my aunt, with emphasis, as an admonition to Mr. Dick, who was biting his forefinger and looking rather foolish, &apos;I rely.&apos;</p><p>Mr. Dick took his finger out of his mouth, on this hint, and stood among the group, with a grave and attentive expression of face.</p><p>My aunt inclined her head to Mr. Murdstone, who went on:</p><p>&apos;Miss Trotwood: on the receipt of your letter, I considered it an act of greater justice to myself, and perhaps of more respect to you-&apos;</p><p>&apos;Thank you,&apos; said my aunt, still eyeing him keenly. &apos;You needn&apos;t mind me.&apos;</p><p>&apos;To answer it in person, however inconvenient the journey,&apos; pursued Mr. Murdstone, &apos;rather than by letter. This unhappy boy who has run away from his friends and his occupation -&apos;</p><p>&apos;And whose appearance,&apos; interposed his sister, directing general attention to me in my indefinable costume, &apos;is perfectly scandalous and disgraceful.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Jane Murdstone,&apos; said her brother, &apos;have the goodness not to interrupt me. This unhappy boy, Miss Trotwood, has been the occasion of much domestic trouble and uneasiness; both during the lifetime of my late dear wife, and since. He has a sullen, rebellious spirit; a violent temper; and an untoward, intractable disposition. Both my sister and myself have endeavoured to correct his vices, but ineffectually. And I have felt - we both have felt, I may say; my sister being fully in my confidence - that it is right you should receive this grave and dispassionate assurance from our lips.&apos;</p><p>&apos;It can hardly be necessary for me to confirm anything stated by my brother,&apos; said Miss Murdstone; &apos;but I beg to observe, that, of all the boys in the world, I believe this is the worst boy.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Strong!&apos; said my aunt, shortly.</p><p>&apos;But not at all too strong for the facts,&apos; returned Miss Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;Ha!&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Well, sir?&apos;</p><p>&apos;I have my own opinions,&apos; resumed Mr. Murdstone, whose face darkened more and more, the more he and my aunt observed each other, which they did very narrowly, &apos;as to the best mode of bringing him up; they are founded, in part, on my knowledge of him, and in part on my knowledge of my own means and resources. I am responsible for them to myself, I act upon them, and I say no more about them. It is enough that I place this boy under the eye of a friend of my own, in a respectable business; that it does not please him; that he runs away from it; makes himself a common vagabond about the country; and comes here, in rags, to appeal to you, Miss Trotwood. I wish to set before you, honourably, the exact consequences - so far as they are within my knowledge - of your abetting him in this appeal.&apos;</p><p>&apos;But about the respectable business first,&apos; said my aunt. &apos;If he had been your own boy, you would have put him to it, just the same, I suppose?&apos;</p><p>&apos;If he had been my brother&apos;s own boy,&apos; returned Miss Murdstone, striking in, &apos;his character, I trust, would have been altogether different.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Or if the poor child, his mother, had been alive, he would still have gone into the respectable business, would he?&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>&apos;I believe,&apos; said Mr. Murdstone, with an inclination of his head, &apos;that Clara would have disputed nothing which myself and my sister Jane Murdstone were agreed was for the best.&apos;</p><p>Miss Murdstone confirmed this with an audible murmur.</p><p>&apos;Humph!&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Unfortunate baby!&apos;</p><p>Mr. Dick, who had been rattling his money all this time, was rattling it so loudly now, that my aunt felt it necessary to check him with a look, before saying:</p><p>&apos;The poor child&apos;s annuity died with her?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Died with her,&apos; replied Mr. Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;And there was no settlement of the little property - the house and garden - the what&apos;s-its-name Rookery without any rooks in it - upon her boy?&apos;</p><p>&apos;It had been left to her, unconditionally, by her first husband,&apos; Mr. Murdstone began, when my aunt caught him up with the greatest irascibility and impatience.</p><p>&apos;Good Lord, man, there&apos;s no occasion to say that. Left to her unconditionally! I think I see David Copperfield looking forward to any condition of any sort or kind, though it stared him point-blank in the face! Of course it was left to her unconditionally. But when she married again - when she took that most disastrous step of marrying you, in short,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;to be plain - did no one put in a word for the boy at that time?&apos;</p><p>&apos;My late wife loved her second husband, ma&apos;am,&apos; said Mr. Murdstone, &apos;and trusted implicitly in him.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Your late wife, sir, was a most unworldly, most unhappy, most unfortunate baby,&apos; returned my aunt, shaking her head at him. &apos;That&apos;s what she was. And now, what have you got to say next?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Merely this, Miss Trotwood,&apos; he returned. &apos;I am here to take David back - to take him back unconditionally, to dispose of him as I think proper, and to deal with him as I think right. I am not here to make any promise, or give any pledge to anybody. You may possibly have some idea, Miss Trotwood, of abetting him in his running away, and in his complaints to you. Your manner, which I must say does not seem intended to propitiate, induces me to think it possible. Now I must caution you that if you abet him once, you abet him for good and all; if you step in between him and me, now, you must step in, Miss Trotwood, for ever. I cannot trifle, or be trifled with. I am here, for the first and last time, to take him away. Is he ready to go? If he is not - and you tell me he is not; on any pretence; it is indifferent to me what - my doors are shut against him henceforth, and yours, I take it for granted, are open to him.&apos;</p><p>To this address, my aunt had listened with the closest attention, sitting perfectly upright, with her hands folded on one knee, and looking grimly on the speaker. When he had finished, she turned her eyes so as to command Miss Murdstone, without otherwise disturbing her attitude, and said:</p><p>&apos;Well, ma&apos;am, have YOU got anything to remark?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Indeed, Miss Trotwood,&apos; said Miss Murdstone, &apos;all that I could say has been so well said by my brother, and all that I know to be the fact has been so plainly stated by him, that I have nothing to add except my thanks for your politeness. For your very great politeness, I am sure,&apos; said Miss Murdstone; with an irony which no more affected my aunt, than it discomposed the cannon I had slept by at Chatham.</p><p>&apos;And what does the boy say?&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Are you ready to go, David?&apos;</p><p>I answered no, and entreated her not to let me go. I said that neither Mr. nor Miss Murdstone had ever liked me, or had ever been kind to me. That they had made my mama, who always loved me dearly, unhappy about me, and that I knew it well, and that Peggotty knew it. I said that I had been more miserable than I thought anybody could believe, who only knew how young I was. And I begged and prayed my aunt - I forget in what terms now, but I remember that they affected me very much then - to befriend and protect me, for my father&apos;s sake.</p><p>&apos;Mr. Dick,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;what shall I do with this child?&apos;</p><p>Mr. Dick considered, hesitated, brightened, and rejoined, &apos;Have him measured for a suit of clothes directly.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Mr. Dick,&apos; said my aunt triumphantly, &apos;give me your hand, for your common sense is invaluable.&apos; Having shaken it with great cordiality, she pulled me towards her and said to Mr. Murdstone:</p><p>&apos;You can go when you like; I&apos;ll take my chance with the boy. If he&apos;s all you say he is, at least I can do as much for him then, as you have done. But I don&apos;t believe a word of it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Miss Trotwood,&apos; rejoined Mr. Murdstone, shrugging his shoulders, as he rose, &apos;if you were a gentleman -&apos;</p><p>&apos;Bah! Stuff and nonsense!&apos; said my aunt. &apos;Don&apos;t talk to me!&apos;</p><p>&apos;How exquisitely polite!&apos; exclaimed Miss Murdstone, rising. &apos;Overpowering, really!&apos;</p><p>&apos;Do you think I don&apos;t know,&apos; said my aunt, turning a deaf ear to the sister, and continuing to address the brother, and to shake her head at him with infinite expression, &apos;what kind of life you must have led that poor, unhappy, misdirected baby? Do you think I don&apos;t know what a woeful day it was for the soft little creature when you first came in her way - smirking and making great eyes at her, I&apos;ll be bound, as if you couldn&apos;t say boh! to a goose!&apos;</p><p>&apos;I never heard anything so elegant!&apos; said Miss Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;Do you think I can&apos;t understand you as well as if I had seen you,&apos; pursued my aunt, &apos;now that I DO see and hear you - which, I tell you candidly, is anything but a pleasure to me? Oh yes, bless us! who so smooth and silky as Mr. Murdstone at first! The poor, benighted innocent had never seen such a man. He was made of sweetness. He worshipped her. He doted on her boy - tenderly doted on him! He was to be another father to him, and they were all to live together in a garden of roses, weren&apos;t they? Ugh! Get along with you, do!&apos; said my aunt.</p><p>&apos;I never heard anything like this person in my life!&apos; exclaimed Miss Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;And when you had made sure of the poor little fool,&apos; said my aunt - &apos;God forgive me that I should call her so, and she gone where YOU won&apos;t go in a hurry - because you had not done wrong enough to her and hers, you must begin to train her, must you? begin to break her, like a poor caged bird, and wear her deluded life away, in teaching her to sing YOUR notes?&apos;</p><p>&apos;This is either insanity or intoxication,&apos; said Miss Murdstone, in a perfect agony at not being able to turn the current of my aunt&apos;s address towards herself; &apos;and my suspicion is that it&apos;s intoxication.&apos;</p><p>Miss Betsey, without taking the least notice of the interruption, continued to address herself to Mr. Murdstone as if there had been no such thing.</p><p>&apos;Mr. Murdstone,&apos; she said, shaking her finger at him, &apos;you were a tyrant to the simple baby, and you broke her heart. She was a loving baby - I know that; I knew it, years before you ever saw her - and through the best part of her weakness you gave her the wounds she died of. There is the truth for your comfort, however you like it. And you and your instruments may make the most of it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Allow me to inquire, Miss Trotwood,&apos; interposed Miss Murdstone, &apos;whom you are pleased to call, in a choice of words in which I am not experienced, my brother&apos;s instruments?&apos;</p><p>&apos;It was clear enough, as I have told you, years before YOU ever saw her - and why, in the mysterious dispensations of Providence, you ever did see her, is more than humanity can comprehend - it was clear enough that the poor soft little thing would marry somebody, at some time or other; but I did hope it wouldn&apos;t have been as bad as it has turned out. That was the time, Mr. Murdstone, when she gave birth to her boy here,&apos; said my aunt; &apos;to the poor child you sometimes tormented her through afterwards, which is a disagreeable remembrance and makes the sight of him odious now. Aye, aye! you needn&apos;t wince!&apos; said my aunt. &apos;I know it&apos;s true without that.&apos;</p><p>He had stood by the door, all this while, observant of her with a smile upon his face, though his black eyebrows were heavily contracted. I remarked now, that, though the smile was on his face still, his colour had gone in a moment, and he seemed to breathe as if he had been running.</p><p>&apos;Good day, sir,&apos; said my aunt, &apos;and good-bye! Good day to you, too, ma&apos;am,&apos; said my aunt, turning suddenly upon his sister. &apos;Let me see you ride a donkey over my green again, and as sure as you have a head upon your shoulders, I&apos;ll knock your bonnet off, and tread upon it!&apos;</p><p>It would require a painter, and no common painter too, to depict my aunt&apos;s face as she delivered herself of this very unexpected sentiment, and Miss Murdstone&apos;s face as she heard it. But the manner of the speech, no less than the matter, was so fiery, that Miss Murdstone, without a word in answer, discreetly put her arm through her brother&apos;s, and walked haughtily out of the cottage; my aunt remaining in the window looking after them; prepared, I have no doubt, in case of the donkey&apos;s reappearance, to carry her threat into instant</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[One night, being, as I suppose, inspired by love, he made a dart at the bit of wax candle she kept for her thread, and put it in his waistcoat-pocket and carried it off. After that, his great delight was to produce it when it was wanted, sticking to the lining of his pocket, in a partially melted state, and pocket it again when it was done with. He seemed to enjoy himself very much, and not to feel at all called upon to talk. Even when he took Peggotty out for a walk on the flats, he had no u...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>One night, being, as I suppose, inspired by love, he made a dart at the bit of wax candle she kept for her thread, and put it in his waistcoat-pocket and carried it off. After that, his great delight was to produce it when it was wanted, sticking to the lining of his pocket, in a partially melted state, and pocket it again when it was done with. He seemed to enjoy himself very much, and not to feel at all called upon to talk. Even when he took Peggotty out for a walk on the flats, he had no uneasiness on that head, I believe; contenting himself with now and then asking her if she was pretty comfortable; and I remember that sometimes, after he was gone, Peggotty would throw her apron over her face, and laugh for half-an-hour. Indeed, we were all more or less amused, except that miserable Mrs. Gummidge, whose courtship would appear to have been of an exactly parallel nature, she was so continually reminded by these transactions of the old one.</p><p>At length, when the term of my visit was nearly expired, it was given out that Peggotty and Mr. Barkis were going to make a day&apos;s holiday together, and that little Em&apos;ly and I were to accompany them. I had but a broken sleep the night before, in anticipation of the pleasure of a whole day with Em&apos;ly. We were all astir betimes in the morning; and while we were yet at breakfast, Mr. Barkis appeared in the distance, driving a chaise-cart towards the object of his affections.</p><p>Peggotty was dressed as usual, in her neat and quiet mourning; but Mr. Barkis bloomed in a new blue coat, of which the tailor had given him such good measure, that the cuffs would have rendered gloves unnecessary in the coldest weather, while the collar was so high that it pushed his hair up on end on the top of his head. His bright buttons, too, were of the largest size. Rendered complete by drab pantaloons and a buff waistcoat, I thought Mr. Barkis a phenomenon of respectability.</p><p>When we were all in a bustle outside the door, I found that Mr. Peggotty was prepared with an old shoe, which was to be thrown after us for luck, and which he offered to Mrs. Gummidge for that purpose.</p><p>&apos;No. It had better be done by somebody else, Dan&apos;l,&apos; said Mrs. Gummidge. &apos;I&apos;m a lone lorn creetur&apos; myself, and everythink that reminds me of creetur&apos;s that ain&apos;t lone and lorn, goes contrary with me.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Come, old gal!&apos; cried Mr. Peggotty. &apos;Take and heave it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;No, Dan&apos;l,&apos; returned Mrs. Gummidge, whimpering and shaking her head. &apos;If I felt less, I could do more. You don&apos;t feel like me, Dan&apos;l; thinks don&apos;t go contrary with you, nor you with them; you had better do it yourself.&apos;</p><p>But here Peggotty, who had been going about from one to another in a hurried way, kissing everybody, called out from the cart, in which we all were by this time (Em&apos;ly and I on two little chairs, side by side), that Mrs. Gummidge must do it. So Mrs. Gummidge did it; and, I am sorry to relate, cast a damp upon the festive character of our departure, by immediately bursting into tears, and sinking subdued into the arms of Ham, with the declaration that she knowed she was a burden, and had better be carried to the House at once. Which I really thought was a sensible idea, that Ham might have acted on.</p><p>Away we went, however, on our holiday excursion; and the first thing we did was to stop at a church, where Mr. Barkis tied the horse to some rails, and went in with Peggotty, leaving little Em&apos;ly and me alone in the chaise. I took that occasion to put my arm round Em&apos;ly&apos;s waist, and propose that as I was going away so very soon now, we should determine to be very affectionate to one another, and very happy, all day. Little Em&apos;ly consenting, and allowing me to kiss her, I became desperate; informing her, I recollect, that I never could love another, and that I was prepared to shed the blood of anybody who should aspire to her affections.</p><p>How merry little Em&apos;ly made herself about it! With what a demure assumption of being immensely older and wiser than I, the fairy little woman said I was &apos;a silly boy&apos;; and then laughed so charmingly that I forgot the pain of being called by that disparaging name, in the pleasure of looking at her.</p><p>Mr. Barkis and Peggotty were a good while in the church, but came out at last, and then we drove away into the country. As we were going along, Mr. Barkis turned to me, and said, with a wink, - by the by, I should hardly have thought, before, that he could wink:</p><p>&apos;What name was it as I wrote up in the cart?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Clara Peggotty,&apos; I answered.</p><p>&apos;What name would it be as I should write up now, if there was a tilt here?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Clara Peggotty, again?&apos; I suggested.</p><p>&apos;Clara Peggotty BARKIS!&apos; he returned, and burst into a roar of laughter that shook the chaise.</p><p>In a word, they were married, and had gone into the church for no other purpose. Peggotty was resolved that it should be quietly done; and the clerk had given her away, and there had been no witnesses of the ceremony. She was a little confused when Mr. Barkis made this abrupt announcement of their union, and could not hug me enough in token of her unimpaired affection; but she soon became herself again, and said she was very glad it was over.</p><p>We drove to a little inn in a by-road, where we were expected, and where we had a very comfortable dinner, and passed the day with great satisfaction. If Peggotty had been married every day for the last ten years, she could hardly have been more at her ease about it; it made no sort of difference in her: she was just the same as ever, and went out for a stroll with little Em&apos;ly and me before tea, while Mr. Barkis philosophically smoked his pipe, and enjoyed himself, I suppose, with the contemplation of his happiness. If so, it sharpened his appetite; for I distinctly call to mind that, although he had eaten a good deal of pork and greens at dinner, and had finished off with a fowl or two, he was obliged to have cold boiled bacon for tea, and disposed of a large quantity without any emotion.</p><p>I have often thought, since, what an odd, innocent, out-of-the-way kind of wedding it must have been! We got into the chaise again soon after dark, and drove cosily back, looking up at the stars, and talking about them. I was their chief exponent, and opened Mr. Barkis&apos;s mind to an amazing extent. I told him all I knew, but he would have believed anything I might have taken it into my head to impart to him; for he had a profound veneration for my abilities, and informed his wife in my hearing, on that very occasion, that I was &apos;a young Roeshus&apos; - by which I think he meant prodigy.</p><p>When we had exhausted the subject of the stars, or rather when I had exhausted the mental faculties of Mr. Barkis, little Em&apos;ly and I made a cloak of an old wrapper, and sat under it for the rest of the journey. Ah, how I loved her! What happiness (I thought) if we were married, and were going away anywhere to live among the trees and in the fields, never growing older, never growing wiser, children ever, rambling hand in hand through sunshine and among flowery meadows, laying down our heads on moss at night, in a sweet sleep of purity and peace, and buried by the birds when we were dead! Some such picture, with no real world in it, bright with the light of our innocence, and vague as the stars afar off, was in my mind all the way. I am glad to think there were two such guileless hearts at Peggotty&apos;s marriage as little Em&apos;ly&apos;s and mine. I am glad to think the Loves and Graces took such airy forms in its homely procession.</p><p>Well, we came to the old boat again in good time at night; and there Mr. and Mrs. Barkis bade us good-bye, and drove away snugly to their own home. I felt then, for the first time, that I had lost Peggotty. I should have gone to bed with a sore heart indeed under any other roof but that which sheltered little Em&apos;ly&apos;s head.</p><p>Mr. Peggotty and Ham knew what was in my thoughts as well as I did, and were ready with some supper and their hospitable faces to drive it away. Little Em&apos;ly came and sat beside me on the locker for the only time in all that visit; and it was altogether a wonderful close to a wonderful day.</p><p>It was a night tide; and soon after we went to bed, Mr. Peggotty and Ham went out to fish. I felt very brave at being left alone in the solitary house, the protector of Em&apos;ly and Mrs. Gummidge, and only wished that a lion or a serpent, or any ill-disposed monster, would make an attack upon us, that I might destroy him, and cover myself with glory. But as nothing of the sort happened to be walking about on Yarmouth flats that night, I provided the best substitute I could by dreaming of dragons until morning.</p><p>With morning came Peggotty; who called to me, as usual, under my window as if Mr. Barkis the carrier had been from first to last a dream too. After breakfast she took me to her own home, and a beautiful little home it was. Of all the moveables in it, I must have been impressed by a certain old bureau of some dark wood in the parlour (the tile-floored kitchen was the general sitting-room), with a retreating top which opened, let down, and became a desk, within which was a large quarto edition of Foxe&apos;s Book of Martyrs. This precious volume, of which I do not recollect one word, I immediately discovered and immediately applied myself to; and I never visited the house afterwards, but I kneeled on a chair, opened the casket where this gem was enshrined, spread my arms over the desk, and fell to devouring the book afresh. I was chiefly edified, I am afraid, by the pictures, which were numerous, and represented all kinds of dismal horrors; but the Martyrs and Peggotty&apos;s house have been inseparable in my mind ever since, and are now.</p><p>I took leave of Mr. Peggotty, and Ham, and Mrs. Gummidge, and little Em&apos;ly, that day; and passed the night at Peggotty&apos;s, in a little room in the roof (with the Crocodile Book on a shelf by the bed&apos;s head) which was to be always mine, Peggotty said, and should always be kept for me in exactly the same state.</p><p>&apos;Young or old, Davy dear, as long as I am alive and have this house over my head,&apos; said Peggotty, &apos;you shall find it as if I expected you here directly minute. I shall keep it every day, as I used to keep your old little room, my darling; and if you was to go to China, you might think of it as being kept just the same, all the time you were away.&apos;</p><p>I felt the truth and constancy of my dear old nurse, with all my heart, and thanked her as well as I could. That was not very well, for she spoke to me thus, with her arms round my neck, in the morning, and I was going home in the morning, and I went home in the morning, with herself and Mr. Barkis in the cart. They left me at the gate, not easily or lightly; and it was a strange sight to me to see the cart go on, taking Peggotty away, and leaving me under the old elm-trees looking at the house, in which there was no face to look on mine with love or liking any more.</p><p>And now I fell into a state of neglect, which I cannot look back upon without compassion. I fell at once into a solitary condition, - apart from all friendly notice, apart from the society of all other boys of my own age, apart from all companionship but my own spiritless thoughts, - which seems to cast its gloom upon this paper as I write.</p><p>What would I have given, to have been sent to the hardest school that ever was kept! - to have been taught something, anyhow, anywhere! No such hope dawned upon me. They disliked me; and they sullenly, sternly, steadily, overlooked me. I think Mr. Murdstone&apos;s means were straitened at about this time; but it is little to the purpose. He could not bear me; and in putting me from him he tried, as I believe, to put away the notion that I had any claim upon him - and succeeded.</p><p>I was not actively ill-used. I was not beaten, or starved; but the wrong that was done to me had no intervals of relenting, and was done in a systematic, passionless manner. Day after day, week after week, month after month, I was coldly neglected. I wonder sometimes, when I think of it, what they would have done if I had been taken with an illness; whether I should have lain down in my lonely room, and languished through it in my usual solitary way, or whether anybody would have helped me out.</p><p>When Mr. and Miss Murdstone were at home, I took my meals with them; in their absence, I ate and drank by myself. At all times I lounged about the house and neighbourhood quite disregarded, except that they were jealous of my making any friends: thinking, perhaps, that if I did, I might complain to someone. For this reason, though Mr. Chillip often asked me to go and see him (he was a widower, having, some years before that, lost a little small light-haired wife, whom I can just remember connecting in my own thoughts with a pale tortoise shell cat), it was but seldom that I enjoyed the happiness of passing an afternoon in his closet of a surgery; reading some book that was new to me, with the smell of the whole Pharmacopoeia coming up my nose, or pounding something in a mortar under his mild directions.</p><p>For the same reason, added no doubt to the old dislike of her, I was seldom allowed to visit Peggotty. Faithful to her promise, she either came to see me, or met me somewhere near, once every week, and never empty-handed; but many and bitter were the disappointments I had, in being refused permission to pay a visit to her at her house. Some few times, however, at long intervals, I was allowed to go there; and then I found out that Mr. Barkis was something of a miser, or as Peggotty dutifully expressed it, was &apos;a little near&apos;, and kept a heap of money in a box under his bed, which he pretended was only full of coats and trousers. In this coffer, his riches hid themselves with such a tenacious modesty, that the smallest instalments could only be tempted out by artifice; so that Peggotty had to prepare a long and elaborate scheme, a very Gunpowder Plot, for every Saturday&apos;s expenses.</p><p>All this time I was so conscious of the waste of any promise I had given, and of my being utterly neglected, that I should have been perfectly miserable, I have no doubt, but for the old books. They were my only comfort; and I was as true to them as they were to me, and read them over and over I don&apos;t know how many times more.</p><p>I now approach a period of my life, which I can never lose the remembrance of, while I remember anything: and the recollection of which has often, without my invocation, come before me like a ghost, and haunted happier times.</p><p>I had been out, one day, loitering somewhere, in the listless, meditative manner that my way of life engendered, when, turning the corner of a lane near our house, I came upon Mr. Murdstone walking with a gentleman. I was confused, and was going by them, when the gentleman cried:</p><p>&apos;What! Brooks!&apos;</p><p>&apos;No, sir, David Copperfield,&apos; I said.</p><p>&apos;Don&apos;t tell me. You are Brooks,&apos; said the gentleman. &apos;You are Brooks of Sheffield. That&apos;s your name.&apos;</p><p>At these words, I observed the gentleman more attentively. His laugh coming to my remembrance too, I knew him to be Mr. Quinion, whom I had gone over to Lowestoft with Mr. Murdstone to see, before - it is no matter - I need not recall when.</p><p>&apos;And how do you get on, and where are you being educated, Brooks?&apos; said Mr. Quinion.</p><p>He had put his hand upon my shoulder, and turned me about, to walk with them. I did not know what to reply, and glanced dubiously at Mr. Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;He is at home at present,&apos; said the latter. &apos;He is not being educated anywhere. I don&apos;t know what to do with him. He is a difficult subject.&apos;</p><p>That old, double look was on me for a moment; and then his eyes darkened with a frown, as it turned, in its aversion, elsewhere.</p><p>&apos;Humph!&apos; said Mr. Quinion, looking at us both, I thought. &apos;Fine weather!&apos;</p><p>Silence ensued, and I was considering how I could best disengage my shoulder from his hand, and go away, when he said:</p><p>&apos;I suppose you are a pretty sharp fellow still? Eh, Brooks?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Aye! He is sharp enough,&apos; said Mr. Murdstone, impatiently. &apos;You had better let him go. He will not thank you for troubling him.&apos;</p><p>On this hint, Mr. Quinion released me, and I made the best of my way home. Looking back as I turned into the front garden, I saw Mr. Murdstone leaning against the wicket of the churchyard, and Mr. Quinion talking to him. They were both looking after me, and I felt that they were speaking of me.</p><p>Mr. Quinion lay at our house that night. After breakfast, the next morning, I had put my chair away, and was going out of the room, when Mr. Murdstone called me back. He then gravely repaired to another table, where his sister sat herself at her desk. Mr. Quinion, with his hands in his pockets, stood looking out of window; and I stood looking at them all.</p><p>&apos;David,&apos; said Mr. Murdstone, &apos;to the young this is a world for action; not for moping and droning in.&apos;</p><ul><li><p>&apos;As you do,&apos; added his sister.</p></li></ul><p>&apos;Jane Murdstone, leave it to me, if you please. I say, David, to the young this is a world for action, and not for moping and droning in. It is especially so for a young boy of your disposition, which requires a great deal of correcting; and to which no greater service can be done than to force it to conform to the ways of the working world, and to bend it and break it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;For stubbornness won&apos;t do here,&apos; said his sister &apos;What it wants is, to be crushed. And crushed it must be. Shall be, too!&apos;</p><p>He gave her a look, half in remonstrance, half in approval, and went on:</p><p>&apos;I suppose you know, David, that I am not rich. At any rate, you know it now. You have received some considerable education already. Education is costly; and even if it were not, and I could afford it, I am of opinion that it would not be at all advantageous to you to be kept at school. What is before you, is a fight with the world; and the sooner you begin it, the better.&apos;</p><p>I think it occurred to me that I had already begun it, in my poor way: but it occurs to me now, whether or no.</p><p>&apos;You have heard the &quot;counting-house&quot; mentioned sometimes,&apos; said Mr. Murdstone.</p><p>&apos;The counting-house, sir?&apos; I repeated. &apos;Of Murdstone and Grinby, in the wine trade,&apos; he replied.</p><p>I suppose I looked uncertain, for he went on hastily:</p><p>&apos;You have heard the &quot;counting-house&quot; mentioned, or the business, or the cellars, or the wharf, or something about it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;I think I have heard the business mentioned, sir,&apos; I said, remembering what I vaguely knew of his and his sister&apos;s resources. &apos;But I don&apos;t know when.&apos;</p><p>&apos;It does not matter when,&apos; he returned. &apos;Mr. Quinion manages that business.&apos;</p><p>I glanced at the latter deferentially as he stood looking out of window.</p><p>&apos;Mr. Quinion suggests that it gives employment to some other boys, and that he sees no reason why it shouldn&apos;t, on the same terms, give employment to you.&apos;</p><p>&apos;He having,&apos; Mr. Quinion observed in a low voice, and half turning round, &apos;no other prospect, Murdstone.&apos;</p><p>Mr. Murdstone, with an impatient, even an angry gesture, resumed, without noticing what he had said:</p><p>&apos;Those terms are, that you will earn enough for yourself to provide for your eating and drinking, and pocket-money. Your lodging (which I have arranged for) will be paid by me. So will your washing -&apos;</p><p>&apos;- Which will be kept down to my estimate,&apos; said his sister.</p><p>&apos;Your clothes will be looked after for you, too,&apos; said Mr. Murdstone; &apos;as you will not be able, yet awhile, to get them for yourself. So you are now going to London, David, with Mr. Quinion, to begin the world on your own account.&apos;</p><p>&apos;In short, you are provided for,&apos; observed his sister; &apos;and will please to do your duty.&apos;</p><p>Though I quite understood that the purpose of this announcement was to get rid of me, I have no distinct remembrance whether it pleased or frightened me. My impression is, that I was in a state of confusion about it, and, oscillating between the two points, touched neither. Nor had I much time for the clearing of my thoughts, as Mr. Quinion was to go upon the morrow.</p><p>Behold me, on the morrow, in a much-worn little white hat, with a black crape round it for my mother, a black jacket, and a pair of hard, stiff corduroy trousers - which Miss Murdstone considered the best armour for the legs in that fight with the world which was now to come off. behold me so attired, and with my little worldly all before me in a small trunk, sitting, a lone lorn child (as Mrs. Gummidge might have said), in the post-chaise that was carrying Mr. Quinion to the London coach at Yarmouth! See, how our house and church are lessening in the distance; how the grave beneath the tree is blotted out by intervening objects; how the spire points upwards from my old playground no more, and the sky is empty!</p><pre data-type="codeBlock" text="    DAVID COPPERFIELD

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            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>which Minnie hastily cleared, lest I should spot the mourning that was lying there with my tears. She was a pretty, good-natured girl, and put my hair away from my eyes with a soft, kind touch; but she was very cheerful at having nearly finished her work and being in good time, and was so different from me!</p><p>Presently the tune left off, and a good-looking young fellow came across the yard into the room. He had a hammer in his hand, and his mouth was full of little nails, which he was obliged to take out before he could speak.</p><p>&apos;Well, Joram!&apos; said Mr. Omer. &apos;How do you get on?&apos;</p><p>&apos;All right,&apos; said Joram. &apos;Done, sir.&apos;</p><p>Minnie coloured a little, and the other two girls smiled at one another.</p><p>&apos;What! you were at it by candle-light last night, when I was at the club, then? Were you?&apos; said Mr. Omer, shutting up one eye.</p><p>&apos;Yes,&apos; said Joram. &apos;As you said we could make a little trip of it, and go over together, if it was done, Minnie and me - and you.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Oh! I thought you were going to leave me out altogether,&apos; said Mr. Omer, laughing till he coughed.</p><p>&apos;- As you was so good as to say that,&apos; resumed the young man, &apos;why I turned to with a will, you see. Will you give me your opinion of it?&apos;</p><p>&apos;I will,&apos; said Mr. Omer, rising. &apos;My dear&apos;; and he stopped and turned to me: &apos;would you like to see your -&apos;</p><p>&apos;No, father,&apos; Minnie interposed.</p><p>&apos;I thought it might be agreeable, my dear,&apos; said Mr. Omer. &apos;But perhaps you&apos;re right.&apos;</p><p>I can&apos;t say how I knew it was my dear, dear mother&apos;s coffin that they went to look at. I had never heard one making; I had never seen one that I know of. but it came into my mind what the noise was, while it was going on; and when the young man entered, I am sure I knew what he had been doing.</p><p>The work being now finished, the two girls, whose names I had not heard, brushed the shreds and threads from their dresses, and went into the shop to put that to rights, and wait for customers. Minnie stayed behind to fold up what they had made, and pack it in two baskets. This she did upon her knees, humming a lively little tune the while. Joram, who I had no doubt was her lover, came in and stole a kiss from her while she was busy (he didn&apos;t appear to mind me, at all), and said her father was gone for the chaise, and he must make haste and get himself ready. Then he went out again; and then she put her thimble and scissors in her pocket, and stuck a needle threaded with black thread neatly in the bosom of her gown, and put on her outer clothing smartly, at a little glass behind the door, in which I saw the reflection of her pleased face.</p><p>All this I observed, sitting at the table in the corner with my head leaning on my hand, and my thoughts running on very different things. The chaise soon came round to the front of the shop, and the baskets being put in first, I was put in next, and those three followed. I remember it as a kind of half chaise-cart, half pianoforte-van, painted of a sombre colour, and drawn by a black horse with a long tail. There was plenty of room for us all.</p><p>I do not think I have ever experienced so strange a feeling in my life (I am wiser now, perhaps) as that of being with them, remembering how they had been employed, and seeing them enjoy the ride. I was not angry with them; I was more afraid of them, as if I were cast away among creatures with whom I had no community of nature. They were very cheerful. The old man sat in front to drive, and the two young people sat behind him, and whenever he spoke to them leaned forward, the one on one side of his chubby face and the other on the other, and made a great deal of him. They would have talked to me too, but I held back, and moped in my corner; scared by their love-making and hilarity, though it was far from boisterous, and almost wondering that no judgement came upon them for their hardness of heart.</p><p>So, when they stopped to bait the horse, and ate and drank and enjoyed themselves, I could touch nothing that they touched, but kept my fast unbroken. So, when we reached home, I dropped out of the chaise behind, as quickly as possible, that I might not be in their company before those solemn windows, looking blindly on me like closed eyes once bright. And oh, how little need I had had to think what would move me to tears when I came back - seeing the window of my mother&apos;s room, and next it that which, in the better time, was mine!</p><p>I was in Peggotty&apos;s arms before I got to the door, and she took me into the house. Her grief burst out when she first saw me; but she controlled it soon, and spoke in whispers, and walked softly, as if the dead could be disturbed. She had not been in bed, I found, for a long time. She sat up at night still, and watched. As long as her poor dear pretty was above the ground, she said, she would never desert her.</p><p>Mr. Murdstone took no heed of me when I went into the parlour where he was, but sat by the fireside, weeping silently, and pondering in his elbow-chair. Miss Murdstone, who was busy at her writing-desk, which was covered with letters and papers, gave me her cold finger-nails, and asked me, in an iron whisper, if I had been measured for my mourning.</p><p>I said: &apos;Yes.&apos;</p><p>&apos;And your shirts,&apos; said Miss Murdstone; &apos;have you brought &apos;em home?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes, ma&apos;am. I have brought home all my clothes.&apos;</p><p>This was all the consolation that her firmness administered to me. I do not doubt that she had a choice pleasure in exhibiting what she called her self command, and her firmness, and her strength of mind, and her common sense, and the whole diabolical catalogue of her unamiable qualities, on such an occasion. She was particularly proud of her turn for business; and she showed it now in reducing everything to pen and ink, and being moved by nothing. All the rest of that day, and from morning to night afterwards, she sat at that desk, scratching composedly with a hard pen, speaking in the same imperturbable whisper to everybody; never relaxing a muscle of her face, or softening a tone of her voice, or appearing with an atom of her dress astray.</p><p>Her brother took a book sometimes, but never read it that I saw. He would open it and look at it as if he were reading, but would remain for a whole hour without turning the leaf, and then put it down and walk to and fro in the room. I used to sit with folded hands watching him, and counting his footsteps, hour after hour. He very seldom spoke to her, and never to me. He seemed to be the only restless thing, except the clocks, in the whole motionless house.</p><p>In these days before the funeral, I saw but little of Peggotty, except that, in passing up or down stairs, I always found her close to the room where my mother and her baby lay, and except that she came to me every night, and sat by my bed&apos;s head while I went to sleep. A day or two before the burial - I think it was a day or two before, but I am conscious of confusion in my mind about that heavy time, with nothing to mark its progress - she took me into the room. I only recollect that underneath some white covering on the bed, with a beautiful cleanliness and freshness all around it, there seemed to me to lie embodied the solemn stillness that was in the house; and that when she would have turned the cover gently back, I cried: &apos;Oh no! oh no!&apos; and held her hand.</p><p>If the funeral had been yesterday, I could not recollect it better. The very air of the best parlour, when I went in at the door, the bright condition of the fire, the shining of the wine in the decanters, the patterns of the glasses and plates, the faint sweet smell of cake, the odour of Miss Murdstone&apos;s dress, and our black clothes. Mr. Chillip is in the room, and comes to speak to me.</p><p>&apos;And how is Master David?&apos; he says, kindly.</p><p>I cannot tell him very well. I give him my hand, which he holds in his.</p><p>&apos;Dear me!&apos; says Mr. Chillip, meekly smiling, with something shining in his eye. &apos;Our little friends grow up around us. They grow out of our knowledge, ma&apos;am?&apos; This is to Miss Murdstone, who makes no reply.</p><p>&apos;There is a great improvement here, ma&apos;am?&apos; says Mr. Chillip.</p><p>Miss Murdstone merely answers with a frown and a formal bend: Mr. Chillip, discomfited, goes into a corner, keeping me with him, and opens his mouth no more.</p><p>I remark this, because I remark everything that happens, not because I care about myself, or have done since I came home. And now the bell begins to sound, and Mr. Omer and another come to make us ready. As Peggotty was wont to tell me, long ago, the followers of my father to the same grave were made ready in the same room.</p><p>There are Mr. Murdstone, our neighbour Mr. Grayper, Mr. Chillip, and I. When we go out to the door, the Bearers and their load are in the garden; and they move before us down the path, and past the elms, and through the gate, and into the churchyard, where I have so often heard the birds sing on a summer morning.</p><p>We stand around the grave. The day seems different to me from every other day, and the light not of the same colour - of a sadder colour. Now there is a solemn hush, which we have brought from home with what is resting in the mould; and while we stand bareheaded, I hear the voice of the clergyman, sounding remote in the open air, and yet distinct and plain, saying: &apos;I am the Resurrection and the Life, saith the Lord!&apos; Then I hear sobs; and, standing apart among the lookers-on, I see that good and faithful servant, whom of all the people upon earth I love the best, and unto whom my childish heart is certain that the Lord will one day say: &apos;Well done.&apos;</p><p>There are many faces that I know, among the little crowd; faces that I knew in church, when mine was always wondering there; faces that first saw my mother, when she came to the village in her youthful bloom. I do not mind them - I mind nothing but my grief - and yet I see and know them all; and even in the background, far away, see Minnie looking on, and her eye glancing on her sweetheart, who is near me.</p><p>It is over, and the earth is filled in, and we turn to come away. Before us stands our house, so pretty and unchanged, so linked in my mind with the young idea of what is gone, that all my sorrow has been nothing to the sorrow it calls forth. But they take me on; and Mr. Chillip talks to me; and when we get home, puts some water to my lips; and when I ask his leave to go up to my room, dismisses me with the gentleness of a woman.</p><p>All this, I say, is yesterday&apos;s event. Events of later date have floated from me to the shore where all forgotten things will reappear, but this stands like a high rock in the ocean.</p><p>I knew that Peggotty would come to me in my room. The Sabbath stillness of the time (the day was so like Sunday! I have forgotten that) was suited to us both. She sat down by my side upon my little bed; and holding my hand, and sometimes putting it to her lips, and sometimes smoothing it with hers, as she might have comforted my little brother, told me, in her way, all that she had to tell concerning what had happened.</p><p>&apos;She was never well,&apos; said Peggotty, &apos;for a long time. She was uncertain in her mind, and not happy. When her baby was born, I thought at first she would get better, but she was more delicate, and sunk a little every day. She used to like to sit alone before her baby came, and then she cried; but afterwards she used to sing to it - so soft, that I once thought, when I heard her, it was like a voice up in the air, that was rising away.</p><p>&apos;I think she got to be more timid, and more frightened-like, of late; and that a hard word was like a blow to her. But she was always the same to me. She never changed to her foolish Peggotty, didn&apos;t my sweet girl.&apos;</p><p>Here Peggotty stopped, and softly beat upon my hand a little while.</p><p>&apos;The last time that I saw her like her own old self, was the night when you came home, my dear. The day you went away, she said to me, &quot;I never shall see my pretty darling again. Something tells me so, that tells the truth, I know.&quot;</p><p>&apos;She tried to hold up after that; and many a time, when they told her she was thoughtless and light-hearted, made believe to be so; but it was all a bygone then. She never told her husband what she had told me - she was afraid of saying it to anybody else - till one night, a little more than a week before it happened, when she said to him: &quot;My dear, I think I am dying.&quot;</p><p>&apos;&quot;It&apos;s off my mind now, Peggotty,&quot; she told me, when I laid her in her bed that night. &quot;He will believe it more and more, poor fellow, every day for a few days to come; and then it will be past. I am very tired. If this is sleep, sit by me while I sleep: don&apos;t leave me. God bless both my children! God protect and keep my fatherless boy!&quot;</p><p>&apos;I never left her afterwards,&apos; said Peggotty. &apos;She often talked to them two downstairs - for she loved them; she couldn&apos;t bear not to love anyone who was about her - but when they went away from her bed-side, she always turned to me, as if there was rest where Peggotty was, and never fell asleep in any other way.</p><p>&apos;On the last night, in the evening, she kissed me, and said: &quot;If my baby should die too, Peggotty, please let them lay him in my arms, and bury us together.&quot; (It was done; for the poor lamb lived but a day beyond her.) &quot;Let my dearest boy go with us to our resting-place,&quot; she said, &quot;and tell him that his mother, when she lay here, blessed him not once, but a thousand times.&quot;&apos;</p><p>Another silence followed this, and another gentle beating on my hand.</p><p>&apos;It was pretty far in the night,&apos; said Peggotty, &apos;when she asked me for some drink; and when she had taken it, gave me such a patient smile, the dear! - so beautiful!</p><p>&apos;Daybreak had come, and the sun was rising, when she said to me, how kind and considerate Mr. Copperfield had always been to her, and how he had borne with her, and told her, when she doubted herself, that a loving heart was better and stronger than wisdom, and that he was a happy man in hers. &quot;Peggotty, my dear,&quot; she said then, &quot;put me nearer to you,&quot; for she was very weak. &quot;Lay your good arm underneath my neck,&quot; she said, &quot;and turn me to you, for your face is going far off, and I want it to be near.&quot; I put it as she asked; and oh Davy! the time had come when my first parting words to you were true - when she was glad to lay her poor head on her stupid cross old Peggotty&apos;s arm - and she died like a child that had gone to sleep!&apos;</p><p>Thus ended Peggotty&apos;s narration. From the moment of my knowing of the death of my mother, the idea of her as she had been of late had vanished from me. I remembered her, from that instant, only as the young mother of my earliest impressions, who had been used to wind her bright curls round and round her finger, and to dance with me at twilight in the parlour. What Peggotty had told me now, was so far from bringing me back to the later period, that it rooted the earlier image in my mind. It may be curious, but it is true. In her death she winged her way back to her calm untroubled youth, and cancelled all the rest.</p><p>The mother who lay in the grave, was the mother of my infancy; the little creature in her arms, was myself, as I had once been, hushed for ever on her bosom.</p><p>CHAPTER 10 I BECOME NEGLECTED, AND AM PROVIDED FOR</p><p>The first act of business Miss Murdstone performed when the day of the solemnity was over, and light was freely admitted into the house, was to give Peggotty a month&apos;s warning. Much as Peggotty would have disliked such a service, I believe she would have retained it, for my sake, in preference to the best upon earth. She told me we must part, and told me why; and we condoled with one another, in all sincerity.</p><p>As to me or my future, not a word was said, or a step taken. Happy they would have been, I dare say, if they could have dismissed me at a month&apos;s warning too. I mustered courage once, to ask Miss Murdstone when I was going back to school; and she answered dryly, she believed I was not going back at all. I was told nothing more. I was very anxious to know what was going to be done with me, and so was Peggotty; but neither she nor I could pick up any information on the subject.</p><p>There was one change in my condition, which, while it relieved me of a great deal of present uneasiness, might have made me, if I had been capable of considering it closely, yet more uncomfortable about the future. It was this. The constraint that had been put upon me, was quite abandoned. I was so far from being required to keep my dull post in the parlour, that on several occasions, when I took my seat there, Miss Murdstone frowned to me to go away. I was so far from being warned off from Peggotty&apos;s society, that, provided I was not in Mr. Murdstone&apos;s, I was never sought out or inquired for. At first I was in daily dread of his taking my education in hand again, or of Miss Murdstone&apos;s devoting herself to it; but I soon began to think that such fears were groundless, and that all I had to anticipate was neglect.</p><p>I do not conceive that this discovery gave me much pain then. I was still giddy with the shock of my mother&apos;s death, and in a kind of stunned state as to all tributary things. I can recollect, indeed, to have speculated, at odd times, on the possibility of my not being taught any more, or cared for any more; and growing up to be a shabby, moody man, lounging an idle life away, about the village; as well as on the feasibility of my getting rid of this picture by going away somewhere, like the hero in a story, to seek my fortune: but these were transient visions, daydreams I sat looking at sometimes, as if they were faintly painted or written on the wall of my room, and which, as they melted away, left the wall blank again.</p><p>&apos;Peggotty,&apos; I said in a thoughtful whisper, one evening, when I was warming my hands at the kitchen fire, &apos;Mr. Murdstone likes me less than he used to. He never liked me much, Peggotty; but he would rather not even see me now, if he can help it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Perhaps it&apos;s his sorrow,&apos; said Peggotty, stroking my hair.</p><p>&apos;I am sure, Peggotty, I am sorry too. If I believed it was his sorrow, I should not think of it at all. But it&apos;s not that; oh, no, it&apos;s not that.&apos;</p><p>&apos;How do you know it&apos;s not that?&apos; said Peggotty, after a silence.</p><p>&apos;Oh, his sorrow is another and quite a different thing. He is sorry at this moment, sitting by the fireside with Miss Murdstone; but if I was to go in, Peggotty, he would be something besides.&apos;</p><p>&apos;What would he be?&apos; said Peggotty.</p><p>&apos;Angry,&apos; I answered, with an involuntary imitation of his dark frown. &apos;If he was only sorry, he wouldn&apos;t look at me as he does. I am only sorry, and it makes me feel kinder.&apos;</p><p>Peggotty said nothing for a little while; and I warmed my hands, as silent as she.</p><p>&apos;Davy,&apos; she said at length.</p><p>&apos;Yes, Peggotty?&apos; &apos;I have tried, my dear, all ways I could think of - all the ways there are, and all the ways there ain&apos;t, in short - to get a suitable service here, in Blunderstone; but there&apos;s no such a thing, my love.&apos;</p><p>&apos;And what do you mean to do, Peggotty,&apos; says I, wistfully. &apos;Do you mean to go and seek your fortune?&apos;</p><p>&apos;I expect I shall be forced to go to Yarmouth,&apos; replied Peggotty, &apos;and live there.&apos;</p><p>&apos;You might have gone farther off,&apos; I said, brightening a little, &apos;and been as bad as lost. I shall see you sometimes, my dear old Peggotty, there. You won&apos;t be quite at the other end of the world, will you?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Contrary ways, please God!&apos; cried Peggotty, with great animation. &apos;As long as you are here, my pet, I shall come over every week of my life to see you. One day, every week of my life!&apos;</p><p>I felt a great weight taken off my mind by this promise: but even this was not all, for Peggotty went on to say:</p><p>&apos;I&apos;m a-going, Davy, you see, to my brother&apos;s, first, for another fortnight&apos;s visit - just till I have had time to look about me, and get to be something like myself again. Now, I have been thinking that perhaps, as they don&apos;t want you here at present, you might be let to go along with me.&apos;</p><p>If anything, short of being in a different relation to every one about me, Peggotty excepted, could have given me a sense of pleasure at that time, it would have been this project of all others. The idea of being again surrounded by those honest faces, shining welcome on me; of renewing the peacefulness of the sweet Sunday morning, when the bells were ringing, the stones dropping in the water, and the shadowy ships breaking through the mist; of roaming up and down with little Em&apos;ly, telling her my troubles, and finding charms against them in the shells and pebbles on the beach; made a calm in my heart. It was ruffled next moment, to be sure, by a doubt of Miss Murdstone&apos;s giving her consent; but even that was set at rest soon, for she came out to take an evening grope in the store-closet while we were yet in conversation, and Peggotty, with a boldness that amazed me, broached the topic on the spot.</p><p>&apos;The boy will be idle there,&apos; said Miss Murdstone, looking into a pickle-jar, &apos;and idleness is the root of all evil. But, to be sure, he would be idle here or anywhere, in my opinion.&apos;</p><p>Peggotty had an angry answer ready, I could see; but she swallowed it for my sake, and remained silent.</p><p>&apos;Humph!&apos; said Miss Murdstone, still keeping her eye on the pickles; &apos;it is of more importance than anything else - it is of paramount importance - that my brother should not be disturbed or made uncomfortable. I suppose I had better say yes.&apos;</p><p>I thanked her, without making any demonstration of joy, lest it should induce her to withdraw her assent. Nor could I help thinking this a prudent course, since she looked at me out of the pickle-jar, with as great an access of sourness as if her black eyes had absorbed its contents. However, the permission was given, and was never retracted; for when the month was out, Peggotty and I were ready to depart.</p><p>Mr. Barkis came into the house for Peggotty&apos;s boxes. I had never known him to pass the garden-gate before, but on this occasion he came into the house. And he gave me a look as he shouldered the largest box and went out, which I thought had meaning in it, if meaning could ever be said to find its way into Mr. Barkis&apos;s visage.</p><p>Peggotty was naturally in low spirits at leaving what had been her home so many years, and where the two strong attachments of her life - for my mother and myself - had been formed. She had been walking in the churchyard, too, very early; and she got into the cart, and sat in it with her handkerchief at her eyes.</p><p>So long as she remained in this condition, Mr. Barkis gave no sign of life whatever. He sat in his usual place and attitude like a great stuffed figure. But when she began to look about her, and to speak to me, he nodded his head and grinned several times. I have not the least notion at whom, or what he meant by it.</p><p>&apos;It&apos;s a beautiful day, Mr. Barkis!&apos; I said, as an act of politeness.</p><p>&apos;It ain&apos;t bad,&apos; said Mr. Barkis, who generally qualified his speech, and rarely committed himself.</p><p>&apos;Peggotty is quite comfortable now, Mr. Barkis,&apos; I remarked, for his satisfaction.</p><p>&apos;Is she, though?&apos; said Mr. Barkis.</p><p>After reflecting about it, with a sagacious air, Mr. Barkis eyed her, and said:</p><p>&apos;ARE you pretty comfortable?&apos;</p><p>Peggotty laughed, and answered in the affirmative.</p><p>&apos;But really and truly, you know. Are you?&apos; growled Mr. Barkis, sliding nearer to her on the seat, and nudging her with his elbow. &apos;Are you? Really and truly pretty comfortable? Are you? Eh?&apos;</p><p>At each of these inquiries Mr. Barkis shuffled nearer to her, and gave her another nudge; so that at last we were all crowded together in the left-hand corner of the cart, and I was so squeezed that I could hardly bear it.</p><p>Peggotty calling his attention to my sufferings, Mr. Barkis gave me a little more room at once, and got away by degrees. But I could not help observing that he seemed to think he had hit upon a wonderful expedient for expressing himself in a neat, agreeable, and pointed manner, without the inconvenience of inventing conversation. He manifestly chuckled over it for some time. By and by he turned to Peggotty again, and repeating, &apos;Are you pretty comfortable though?&apos; bore down upon us as before, until the breath was nearly edged out of my body. By and by he made another descent upon us with the same inquiry, and the same result. At length, I got up whenever I saw him coming, and standing on the foot-board, pretended to look at the prospect; after which I did very well.</p><p>He was so polite as to stop at a public-house, expressly on our account, and entertain us with broiled mutton and beer. Even when Peggotty was in the act of drinking, he was seized with one of those approaches, and almost choked her. But as we drew nearer to the end of our journey, he had more to do and less time for gallantry; and when we got on Yarmouth pavement, we were all too much shaken and jolted, I apprehend, to have any leisure for anything else.</p><p>Mr. Peggotty and Ham waited for us at the old place. They received me and Peggotty in an affectionate manner, and shook hands with Mr. Barkis, who, with his hat on the very back of his head, and a shame-faced leer upon his countenance, and pervading his very legs, presented but a vacant appearance, I thought. They each took one of Peggotty&apos;s trunks, and we were going away, when Mr. Barkis solemnly made a sign to me with his forefinger to come under an archway.</p><p>&apos;I say,&apos; growled Mr. Barkis, &apos;it was all right.&apos;</p><p>I looked up into his face, and answered, with an attempt to be very profound: &apos;Oh!&apos;</p><p>&apos;It didn&apos;t come to a end there,&apos; said Mr. Barkis, nodding confidentially. &apos;It was all right.&apos;</p><p>Again I answered, &apos;Oh!&apos;</p><p>&apos;You know who was willin&apos;,&apos; said my friend. &apos;It was Barkis, and Barkis only.&apos;</p><p>I nodded assent.</p><p>&apos;It&apos;s all right,&apos; said Mr. Barkis, shaking hands; &apos;I&apos;m a friend of your&apos;n. You made it all right, first. It&apos;s all right.&apos;</p><p>In his attempts to be particularly lucid, Mr. Barkis was so extremely mysterious, that I might have stood looking in his face for an hour, and most assuredly should have got as much information out of it as out of the face of a clock that had stopped, but for Peggotty&apos;s calling me away. As we were going along, she asked me what he had said; and I told her he had said it was all right.</p><p>&apos;Like his impudence,&apos; said Peggotty, &apos;but I don&apos;t mind that! Davy dear, what should you think if I was to think of being married?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Why - I suppose you would like me as much then, Peggotty, as you do now?&apos; I returned, after a little consideration.</p><p>Greatly to the astonishment of the passengers in the street, as well as of her relations going on before, the good soul was obliged to stop and embrace me on the spot, with many protestations of her unalterable love.</p><p>&apos;Tell me what should you say, darling?&apos; she asked again, when this was over, and we were walking on.</p><p>&apos;If you were thinking of being married - to Mr. Barkis, Peggotty?&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes,&apos; said Peggotty.</p><p>&apos;I should think it would be a very good thing. For then you know, Peggotty, you would always have the horse and cart to bring you over to see me, and could come for nothing, and be sure of coming.&apos;</p><p>&apos;The sense of the dear!&apos; cried Peggotty. &apos;What I have been thinking of, this month back! Yes, my precious; and I think I should be more independent altogether, you see; let alone my working with a better heart in my own house, than I could in anybody else&apos;s now. I don&apos;t know what I might be fit for, now, as a servant to a stranger. And I shall be always near my pretty&apos;s resting place,&apos; said Peggotty, musing, &apos;and be able to see it when I like; and when I lie down to rest, I may be laid not far off from my darling girl!&apos;</p><p>We neither of us said anything for a little while.</p><p>&apos;But I wouldn&apos;t so much as give it another thought,&apos; said Peggotty, cheerily &apos;if my Davy was anyways against it - not if I had been asked in church thirty times three times over, and was wearing out the ring in my pocket.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Look at me, Peggotty,&apos; I replied; &apos;and see if I am not really glad, and don&apos;t truly wish it!&apos; As indeed I did, with all my heart.</p><p>&apos;Well, my life,&apos; said Peggotty, giving me a squeeze, &apos;I have thought of it night and day, every way I can, and I hope the right way; but I&apos;ll think of it again, and speak to my brother about it, and in the meantime we&apos;ll keep it to ourselves, Davy, you and me. Barkis is a good plain creature,&apos; said Peggotty, &apos;and if I tried to do my duty by him, I think it would be my fault if I wasn&apos;t if I wasn&apos;t pretty comfortable,&apos; said Peggotty, laughing heartily. This quotation from Mr. Barkis was so appropriate, and tickled us both so much, that we laughed again and again, and were quite in a pleasant humour when we came within view of Mr. Peggotty&apos;s cottage.</p><p>It looked just the same, except that it may, perhaps, have shrunk a little in my eyes; and Mrs. Gummidge was waiting at the door as if she had stood there ever since. All within was the same, down to the seaweed in the blue mug in my bedroom. I went into the out-house to look about me; and the very same lobsters, crabs, and crawfish possessed by the same desire to pinch the world in general, appeared to be in the same state of conglomeration in the</p><p>same old corner.</p><p>But there was no little Em&apos;ly to be seen, so I asked Mr. Peggotty where she was.</p><p>&apos;She&apos;s at school, sir,&apos; said Mr. Peggotty, wiping the heat consequent on the porterage of Peggotty&apos;s box from his forehead; &apos;she&apos;ll be home,&apos; looking at the Dutch clock, &apos;in from twenty minutes to half-an-hour&apos;s time. We all on us feel the loss of her, bless ye!&apos;</p><p>Mrs. Gummidge moaned.</p><p>&apos;Cheer up, Mawther!&apos; cried Mr. Peggotty.</p><p>&apos;I feel it more than anybody else,&apos; said Mrs. Gummidge; &apos;I&apos;m a lone lorn creetur&apos;, and she used to be a&apos;most the only thing that didn&apos;t go contrary with me.&apos;</p><p>Mrs. Gummidge, whimpering and shaking her head, applied herself to blowing the fire. Mr. Peggotty, looking round upon us while she was so engaged, said in a low voice, which he shaded with his hand: &apos;The old &apos;un!&apos; From this I rightly conjectured that no improvement had taken place since my last visit in the state of Mrs. Gummidge&apos;s spirits.</p><p>Now, the whole place was, or it should have been, quite as delightful a place as ever; and yet it did not impress me in the same way. I felt rather disappointed with it. Perhaps it was because little Em&apos;ly was not at home. I knew the way by which she would come, and presently found myself strolling along the path to meet her.</p><p>A figure appeared in the distance before long, and I soon knew it to be Em&apos;ly, who was a little creature still in stature, though she was grown. But when she drew nearer, and I saw her blue eyes looking bluer, and her dimpled face looking brighter, and her whole self prettier and gayer, a curious feeling came over me that made me pretend not to know her, and pass by as if I were looking at something a long way off. I have done such a thing since in later life, or I am mistaken.</p><p>Little Em&apos;ly didn&apos;t care a bit. She saw me well enough; but instead of turning round and calling after me, ran away laughing. This obliged me to run after her, and she ran so fast that we were very near the cottage before I caught her.</p><p>&apos;Oh, it&apos;s you, is it?&apos; said little Em&apos;ly.</p><p>&apos;Why, you knew who it was, Em&apos;ly,&apos; said I.</p><p>&apos;And didn&apos;t YOU know who it was?&apos; said Em&apos;ly. I was going to kiss her, but she covered her cherry lips with her hands, and said she wasn&apos;t a baby now, and ran away, laughing more than ever, into the house.</p><p>She seemed to delight in teasing me, which was a change in her I wondered at very much. The tea table was ready, and our little locker was put out in its old place, but instead of coming to sit by me, she went and bestowed her company upon that grumbling Mrs. Gummidge: and on Mr. Peggotty&apos;s inquiring why, rumpled her hair all over her face to hide it, and could do nothing but laugh.</p><p>&apos;A little puss, it is!&apos; said Mr. Peggotty, patting her with his great hand.</p><p>&apos;So sh&apos; is! so sh&apos; is!&apos; cried Ham. &apos;Mas&apos;r Davy bor&apos;, so sh&apos; is!&apos; and he sat and chuckled at her for some time, in a state of mingled admiration and delight, that made his face a burning red.</p><p>Little Em&apos;ly was spoiled by them all, in fact; and by no one more than Mr. Peggotty himself, whom she could have coaxed into anything, by only going and laying her cheek against his rough whisker. That was my opinion, at least, when I saw her do it; and I held Mr. Peggotty to be thoroughly in the right. But she was so affectionate and sweet-natured, and had such a pleasant manner of being both sly and shy at once, that she captivated me more than ever.</p><p>She was tender-hearted, too; for when, as we sat round the fire after tea, an allusion was made by Mr. Peggotty over his pipe to the loss I had sustained, the tears stood in her eyes, and she looked at me so kindly across the table, that I felt quite thankful to her.</p><p>&apos;Ah!&apos; said Mr. Peggotty, taking up her curls, and running them over his hand like water, &apos;here&apos;s another orphan, you see, sir. And here,&apos; said Mr. Peggotty, giving Ham a backhanded knock in the chest, &apos;is another of &apos;em, though he don&apos;t look much like it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;If I had you for my guardian, Mr. Peggotty,&apos; said I, shaking my head, &apos;I don&apos;t think I should FEEL much like it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Well said, Mas&apos;r Davy bor&apos;!&apos; cried Ham, in an ecstasy. &apos;Hoorah! Well said! Nor more you wouldn&apos;t! Hor! Hor!&apos; - Here he returned Mr. Peggotty&apos;s back- hander, and little Em&apos;ly got up and kissed Mr. Peggotty. &apos;And how&apos;s your friend, sir?&apos; said Mr. Peggotty to me.</p><p>&apos;Steerforth?&apos; said I.</p><p>&apos;That&apos;s the name!&apos; cried Mr. Peggotty, turning to Ham. &apos;I knowed it was something in our way.&apos;</p><p>&apos;You said it was Rudderford,&apos; observed Ham, laughing.</p><p>&apos;Well!&apos; retorted Mr. Peggotty. &apos;And ye steer with a rudder, don&apos;t ye? It ain&apos;t fur off. How is he, sir?&apos;</p><p>&apos;He was very well indeed when I came away, Mr. Peggotty.&apos;</p><p>&apos;There&apos;s a friend!&apos; said Mr. Peggotty, stretching out his pipe. &apos;There&apos;s a friend, if you talk of friends! Why, Lord love my heart alive, if it ain&apos;t a treat to look at him!&apos;</p><p>&apos;He is very handsome, is he not?&apos; said I, my heart warming with this praise.</p><p>&apos;Handsome!&apos; cried Mr. Peggotty. &apos;He stands up to you like - like a - why I don&apos;t know what he don&apos;t stand up to you like. He&apos;s so bold!&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes! That&apos;s just his character,&apos; said I. &apos;He&apos;s as brave as a lion, and you can&apos;t think how frank he is, Mr. Peggotty.&apos;</p><p>&apos;And I do suppose, now,&apos; said Mr. Peggotty, looking at me through the smoke of his pipe, &apos;that in the way of book-larning he&apos;d take the wind out of a&apos;most anything.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Yes,&apos; said I, delighted; &apos;he knows everything. He is astonishingly clever.&apos;</p><p>&apos;There&apos;s a friend!&apos; murmured Mr. Peggotty, with a grave toss of his head.</p><p>&apos;Nothing seems to cost him any trouble,&apos; said I. &apos;He knows a task if he only looks at it. He is the best cricketer you ever saw. He will give you almost as many men as you like at draughts, and beat you easily.&apos;</p><p>Mr. Peggotty gave his head another toss, as much as to say: &apos;Of course he will.&apos;</p><p>&apos;He is such a speaker,&apos; I pursued, &apos;that he can win anybody over; and I don&apos;t know what you&apos;d say if you were to hear him sing, Mr. Peggotty.&apos;</p><p>Mr. Peggotty gave his head another toss, as much as to say: &apos;I have no doubt of it.&apos;</p><p>&apos;Then, he&apos;s such a generous, fine, noble fellow,&apos; said I, quite carried away by my favourite theme, &apos;that it&apos;s hardly possible to give him as much praise as he deserves. I am sure I can never feel thankful enough for the generosity with which he has protected me, so much younger and lower in the school than himself.&apos;</p><p>I was running on, very fast indeed, when my eyes rested on little Em&apos;ly&apos;s face, which was bent forward over the table, listening with the deepest attention, her breath held, her blue eyes sparkling like jewels, and the colour mantling in her cheeks. She looked so extraordinarily earnest and pretty, that I stopped in a sort of wonder; and they all observed her at the same time, for as I stopped, they laughed and looked at her.</p><p>&apos;Em&apos;ly is like me,&apos; said Peggotty, &apos;and would like to see him.&apos;</p><p>Em&apos;ly was confused by our all observing her, and hung down her head, and her face was covered with blushes. Glancing up presently through her stray curls, and seeing that we were all looking at her still (I am sure I, for one, could have looked at her for hours), she ran away, and kept away till it was nearly bedtime.</p><p>I lay down in the old little bed in the stern of the boat, and the wind came moaning on across the flat as it had done before. But I could not help fancying, now, that it moaned of those who were gone; and instead of thinking that the sea might rise in the night and float the boat away, I thought of the sea that had risen, since I last heard those sounds, and drowned my happy home. I recollect, as the wind and water began to sound fainter in my ears, putting a short clause into my prayers, petitioning that I might grow up to marry little Em&apos;ly, and so dropping lovingly asleep.</p><p>The days passed pretty much as they had passed before, except - it was a great exception- that little Em&apos;ly and I seldom wandered on the beach now. She had tasks to learn, and needle-work to do; and was absent during a great part of each day. But I felt that we should not have had those old wanderings, even if it had been otherwise. Wild and full of childish whims as Em&apos;ly was, she was more of a little woman than I had supposed. She seemed to have got a great distance away from me, in little more than a year. She liked me, but she laughed at me, and tormented me; and when I went to meet her, stole home another way, and was laughing at the door when I came back, disappointed. The best times were when she sat quietly at work in the doorway, and I sat on the wooden step at her feet, reading to her. It seems to me, at this hour, that I have never seen such sunlight as on those bright April afternoons; that I have never seen such a sunny little figure as I used to see, sitting in the doorway of the old boat; that I have never beheld such sky, such water, such glorified ships sailing away into golden air.</p><p>On the very first evening after our arrival, Mr. Barkis appeared in an exceedingly vacant and awkward condition, and with a bundle of oranges tied up in a handkerchief. As he made no allusion of any kind to this property, he was supposed to have left it behind him by accident when he went away; until Ham, running after him to restore it, came back with the information that it was intended for Peggotty. After that occasion he appeared every evening at exactly the same hour, and always with a little bundle, to which he never alluded, and which he regularly put behind the door and left there. These offerings of affection were of a most various and eccentric description. Among them I remember a double set of pigs&apos; trotters, a huge pin-cushion, half a bushel or so of apples, a pair of jet earrings, some Spanish onions, a box of dominoes, a canary bird and cage, and a leg of pickled pork.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[It &apos;s filled with all sorts of horrible things, that fizzle up and go off, or that make you turn some dreadful color if you look at them. I expect to hear a great clap some day, and half an hour afterward to see Gordon brought home in several hundred small pieces, put up in a dozen little bottles. I got a horrid little stain in the middle of my dress that one of the young men--the young savants--was so good as to drop there. Did you see the young savants who work under Gordon&apos;s orde...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>It &apos;s filled with all sorts of horrible things, that fizzle up and go off, or that make you turn some dreadful color if you look at them. I expect to hear a great clap some day, and half an hour afterward to see Gordon brought home in several hundred small pieces, put up in a dozen little bottles. I got a horrid little stain in the middle of my dress that one of the young men--the young savants--was so good as to drop there. Did you see the young savants who work under Gordon&apos;s orders? I thought they were too forlorn; there is n&apos;t one of them you would look at. If you can believe it, there was n&apos;t one of them that looked at me; they took no more notice of me than if I had been the charwoman. They might have shown me some attention, at least, as the wife of the proprietor. What is it that Gordon &apos;s called--is n&apos;t there some other name? If you say &apos;proprietor,&apos; it sounds as if he kept an hotel. I certainly don&apos;t want to pass for the wife of an hotel-keeper. What does he call himself? He must have some name. I hate telling people he &apos;s a chemist; it sounds just as if he kept a shop. That &apos;s what they call the druggists in England, and I formed the habit while I was there. It makes me feel as if he were some dreadful little man, with big green bottles in the window and &apos;night-bell&apos; painted outside. He does n&apos;t call himself anything? Well, that &apos;s exactly like Gordon! I wonder he consents to have a name at all. When I was telling some one about the young men who work under his orders--the young savants--he said I must not say that-- I must not speak of their working &apos;under his orders.&apos; I don&apos;t know what he would like me to say! Under his inspiration!&quot;</p><p>During the hours of Gordon&apos;s absence, Bernard had frequent colloquies with his friend&apos;s wife, whose irresponsible prattle amused him, and in whom he tried to discover some faculty, some quality, which might be a positive guarantee of Gordon&apos;s future felicity. But often, of course, Gordon was an auditor as well; I say an auditor, because it seemed to Bernard that he had grown to be less of a talker than of yore. Doubtless, when a man finds himself united to a garrulous wife, he naturally learns to hold his tongue; but sometimes, at the close of one of Blanche&apos;s discursive monologues, on glancing at her husband just to see how he took it, and seeing him sit perfectly silent, with a fixed, inexpressive smile, Bernard said to himself that Gordon found the lesson of listening attended with some embarrassments. Gordon, as the years went by, was growing a little inscrutable; but this, too, in certain circumstances, was a usual tendency. The operations of the mind, with deepening experience, became more complex, and people were less apt to emit immature reflections at forty than they had been in their earlier days. Bernard felt a great kindness in these days for his old friend; he never yet had seemed to him such a good fellow, nor appealed so strongly to the benevolence of his disposition. Sometimes, of old, Gordon used to irritate him; but this danger appeared completely to have passed away. Bernard prolonged his visit; it gave him pleasure to be able to testify in this manner to his good will. Gordon was the kindest of hosts, and if in conversation, when his wife was present, he gave precedence to her superior powers, he had at other times a good deal of pleasant bachelor-talk with his guest. He seemed very happy; he had plenty of occupation and plenty of practical intentions. The season went on, and Bernard enjoyed his life. He enjoyed the keen and brilliant American winter, and he found it very pleasant to be treated as a distinguished stranger in his own land--a situation to which his long and repeated absences had relegated him. The hospitality of New York was profuse; the charm of its daughters extreme; the radiance of its skies superb. Bernard was the restless and professionless mortal that we know, wandering in life from one vague experiment to another, constantly gratified and never satisfied, to whom no imperious finality had as yet presented itself; and, nevertheless, for a time he contrived to limit his horizon to the passing hour, and to make a good many hours pass in the drawing-room of a demonstrative flirt.</p><p>For Mrs. Gordon was a flirt; that had become tolerably obvious. Bernard had known of old that Blanche Evers was one, and two or three months&apos; observation of his friend&apos;s wife assured him that she did not judge a certain ethereal coquetry to be inconsistent with the conjugal character. Blanche flirted, in fact, more or less with all men, but her opportunity for playing her harmless batteries upon Bernard were of course exceptionally large. The poor fellow was perpetually under fire, and it was inevitable that he should reply with some precision of aim. It seemed to him all child&apos;s play, and it is certain that when his back was turned to his pretty hostess he never found himself thinking of her. He had not the least reason to suppose that she thought of him-- excessive concentration of mind was the last vice of which he accused her. But before the winter was over, he discovered that Mrs. Gordon Wright was being talked about, and that his own name was, as the newspapers say, mentioned in connection with that of his friend&apos;s wife. The discovery greatly disgusted him; Bernard Longueville&apos;s chronicler must do him the justice to say that it failed to yield him an even transient thrill of pleasure. He thought it very improbable that this vulgar rumor had reached Gordon&apos;s ears; but he nevertheless--very naturally--instantly made up his mind to leave the house. He lost no time in saying to Gordon that he had suddenly determined to go to California, and that he was sure he must be glad to get rid of him. Gordon expressed no surprise and no regret. He simply laid his hand on his shoulder and said, very quietly, looking at him in the eyes--</p><p>&quot;Very well; the pleasantest things must come to an end.&quot;</p><p>It was not till an hour afterwards that Bernard said to himself that his friend&apos;s manner of receiving the announcement of his departure had been rather odd. He had neither said a word about his staying longer nor urged him to come back again, and there had been (it now seemed to Bernard) an audible undertone of relief in the single sentence with which he assented to his visitor&apos;s withdrawal. Could it be possible that poor Gordon was jealous of him, that he had heard this loathsome gossip, or that his own observation had given him an alarm? He had certainly never betrayed the smallest sense of injury; but it was to be remembered that even if he were uneasy, Gordon was quite capable, with his characteristic habit of weighing everything, his own honor included, in scrupulously adjusted scales, of denying himself the luxury of active suspicion. He would never have let a half suspicion make a difference in his conduct, and he would not have dissimulated; he would simply have resisted belief. His hospitality had been without a flaw, and if he had really been wishing Bernard out of his house, he had behaved with admirable self-control. Bernard, however, followed this train of thought a very short distance. It was odious to him to believe that he could have appeared to Gordon, however guiltlessly, to have invaded even in imagination the mystic line of the marital monopoly; not to say that, moreover, if one came to that, he really cared about as much for poor little Blanche as for the weather-cock on the nearest steeple. He simply hurried his preparations for departure, and he told Blanche that he should have to bid her farewell on the following day. He had found her in the drawing-room, waiting for dinner. She was expecting company to dine, and Gordon had not yet come down.</p><p>She was sitting in the vague glow of the fire-light, in a wonderful blue dress, with two little blue feet crossed on the rug and pointed at the hearth. She received Bernard&apos;s announcement with small satisfaction, and expended a great deal of familiar ridicule on his project of a journey to California. Then, suddenly getting up and looking at him a moment--</p><p>&quot;I know why you are going,&quot; she said.</p><p>&quot;I am glad to hear my explanations have not been lost.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Your explanations are all nonsense. You are going for another reason. &quot;</p><p>&quot;Well,&quot; said Bernard, &quot;if you insist upon it, it &apos;s because you are too sharp with me.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It &apos;s because of me. So much as that is true.&quot; Bernard wondered what she was going to say--if she were going to be silly enough to allude to the most impudent of fictions; then, as she stood opening and closing her blue fan and smiling at him in the fire-light, he felt that she was silly enough for anything. &quot;It &apos;s because of all the talk--it &apos;s because of Gordon. You need n&apos;t be afraid of Gordon.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Afraid of him? I don&apos;t know what you mean,&quot; said Bernard, gravely.</p><p>Blanche gave a little laugh.</p><p>&quot;You have discovered that people are talking about us--about you and me. I must say I wonder you care. I don&apos;t care, and if it &apos;s because of Gordon, you might as well know that he does n&apos;t care. If he does n&apos;t care, I don&apos;t see why I should; and if I don&apos;t, I don&apos;t see why you should!&quot;</p><p>&quot;You pay too much attention to such insipid drivel in even mentioning it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, if I have the credit of saying what I should n&apos;t--to you or to any one else--I don&apos;t see why I should n&apos;t have the advantage too. Gordon does n&apos;t care--he does n&apos;t care what I do or say. He does n&apos;t care a pin for me!&quot;</p><p>She spoke in her usual rattling, rambling voice, and brought out this declaration with a curious absence of resentment.</p><p>&quot;You talk about advantage,&quot; said Bernard. &quot;I don&apos;t see what advantage it is to you to say that.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I want to--I must--I will! That &apos;s the advantage!&quot; This came out with a sudden sharpness of tone; she spoke more excitedly. &quot;He does n&apos;t care a button for me, and he never did! I don&apos;t know what he married me for. He cares for something else-- he thinks of something else. I don&apos;t know what it is--I suppose it &apos;s chemistry!&quot;</p><p>These words gave Bernard a certain shock, but he had his intelligence sufficiently in hand to contradict them with energy.</p><p>&quot;You labor under a monstrous delusion,&quot; he exclaimed. &quot;Your husband thinks you fascinating.&quot;</p><p>This epithet, pronounced with a fine distinctness, was ringing in the air when the door opened and Gordon came in. He looked for a moment from Bernard to his wife, and then, approaching the latter, he said, softly--</p><p>&quot;Do you know that he leaves us to-morrow?&quot;</p><p>CHAPTER XVIII</p><p>Bernard left then and went to California; but when he arrived there he asked himself why he had come, and was unable to mention any other reason than that he had announced it. He began to feel restless again, and to drift back to that chronic chagrin which had accompanied him through his long journey in the East. He succeeded, however, in keeping these unreasonable feelings at bay for some time, and he strove to occupy himself, to take an interest in Californian problems. Bernard, however, was neither an economist nor a cattle-fancier, and he found that, as the phrase is, there was not a great deal to take hold of. He wandered about, admired the climate and the big peaches, thought a while of going to Japan, and ended by going to Mexico. In this way he passed several months, and justified, in the eyes of other people at least, his long journey across the Continent. At last he made it again, in the opposite sense. He went back to New York, where the summer had already begun, and here he invented a solution for the difficulty presented by life to a culpably unoccupied and ill-regulated man. The solution was not in the least original, and I am almost ashamed to mention so stale and conventional a device. Bernard simply hit upon the plan of returning to Europe. Such as it was, however, he carried it out with an audacity worthy of a better cause, and was sensibly happier since he had made up his mind to it. Gordon Wright and his wife were out of town, but Bernard went into the country, as boldly as you please, to inform them of his little project and take a long leave of them. He had made his arrangements to sail immediately, and, as at such short notice it was impossible to find good quarters on one of the English vessels, he had engaged a berth on a French steamer, which would convey him to Havre. On going down to Gordon&apos;s house in the country, he was conscious of a good deal of eagerness to know what had become of that latent irritation of which Blanche had given him a specimen. Apparently it had quite subsided; Blanche was wreathed in smiles; she was living in a bower of roses. Bernard, indeed, had no opportunity for investigating her state of mind, for he found several people in the house, and Blanche, who had an exalted standard of the duties of a hostess, was occupied in making life agreeable to her guests, most of whom were gentlemen. She had in this way that great remedy for dissatisfaction which Bernard lacked--something interesting to do. Bernard felt a good deal of genuine sadness in taking leave of Gordon, to whom he contrived to feel even more kindly than in earlier days. He had quite forgotten that Gordon was jealous of him-- which he was not, as Bernard said. Certainly, Gordon showed nothing of it now, and nothing could have been more friendly than their parting. Gordon, also, for a man who was never boisterous, seemed very contented. He was fond of exercising hospitality, and he confessed to Bernard that he was just now in the humor for having his house full of people. Fortune continued to gratify this generous taste; for just as Bernard was coming away another guest made his appearance. The new-comer was none other than the Honourable Augustus Lovelock, who had just arrived in New York, and who, as he added, had long desired to visit the United States. Bernard merely witnessed his arrival, and was struck with the fact that as he presented himself-- it seemed quite a surprise--Blanche really stopped chattering.</p><p>CHAPTER XIX</p><p>I have called it a stale expedient on Bernard Longueville&apos;s part to &quot;go to Europe&quot; again, like the most commonplace American; and it is certain that, as our young man stood and looked out of the window of his inn at Havre, an hour after his arrival at that sea-port, his adventure did not strike him as having any great freshness. He had no plans nor intentions; he had not even any very definite desires. He had felt the impulse to come back to Europe, and he had obeyed it; but now that he had arrived, his impulse seemed to have little more to say to him. He perceived it, indeed--mentally--in the attitude of a small street-boy playing upon his nose with that vulgar gesture which is supposed to represent the elation of successful fraud. There was a large blank wall before his window, painted a dirty yellow and much discolored by the weather; a broad patch of summer sunlight rested upon it and brought out the full vulgarity of its complexion. Bernard stared a while at this blank wall, which struck him in some degree as a symbol of his own present moral prospect. Then suddenly he turned away, with the declaration that, whatever truth there might be in symbolism, he, at any rate, had not come to Europe to spend the precious remnant of his youth in a malodorous Norman sea-port. The weather was very hot, and neither the hotel nor the town at large appeared to form an attractive sejour for persons of an irritable nostril. To go to Paris, however, was hardly more attractive than to remain at Havre, for Bernard had a lively vision of the heated bitumen and the glaring frontages of the French capital. But if a Norman town was close and dull, the Norman country was notoriously fresh and entertaining, and the next morning Bernard got into a caleche, with his luggage, and bade its proprietor drive him along the coast. Once he had begun to rumble through this charming landscape, he was in much better humor with his situation; the air was freshened by a breeze from the sea; the blooming country, without walls or fences, lay open to the traveller&apos;s eye; the grain-fields and copses were shimmering in the summer wind; the pink-faced cottages peeped through the ripening orchard-boughs, and the gray towers of the old churches were silvered by the morning-light of France.</p><p>At the end of some three hours, Bernard arrived at a little watering-place which lay close upon the shore, in the embrace of a pair of white-armed cliffs. It had a quaint and primitive aspect and a natural picturesqueness which commended it to Bernard&apos;s taste. There was evidently a great deal of nature about it, and at this moment, nature, embodied in the clear, gay sunshine, in the blue and quiet sea, in the daisied grass of the high-shouldered downs, had an air of inviting the intelligent observer to postpone his difficulties. Blanquais-les-Galets, as Bernard learned the name of this unfashionable resort to be, was twenty miles from a railway, and the place wore an expression of unaffected rusticity. Bernard stopped at an inn for his noonday breakfast, and then, with his appreciation quickened by the homely felicity of this repast, determined to go no further. He engaged a room at the inn, dismissed his vehicle, and gave himself up to the contemplation of French sea-side manners. These were chiefly to be observed upon a pebbly strand which lay along the front of the village and served as the gathering-point of its idler inhabitants. Bathing in the sea was the chief occupation of these good people, including, as it did, prolonged spectatorship of the process and infinite conversation upon its mysteries. The little world of Blanquais appeared to form a large family party, of highly developed amphibious habits, which sat gossiping all day upon the warm pebbles, occasionally dipping into the sea and drying itself in the sun, without any relaxation of personal intimacy. All this was very amusing to Bernard, who in the course of the day took a bath with the rest. The ocean was, after all, very large, and when one took one&apos;s plunge one seemed to have it quite to one&apos;s self. When he had dressed himself again, Bernard stretched himself on the beach, feeling happier than he had done in a long time, and pulled his hat over his eyes. The feeling of happiness was an odd one; it had come over him suddenly, without visible cause; but, such as it was, our hero made the most of it. As he lay there it seemed to deepen; his immersion and his exercise in the salt water had given him an agreeable languor. This presently became a drowsiness which was not less agreeable, and Bernard felt himself going to sleep. There were sounds in the air above his head--sounds of the crunching and rattling of the loose, smooth stones as his neighbors moved about on them; of high-pitched French voices exchanging colloquial cries; of the plash of the bathers in the distant water, and the short, soft breaking of the waves. But these things came to his ears more vaguely and remotely, and at last they faded away. Bernard enjoyed half an hour of that light and easy slumber which is apt to overtake idle people in recumbent attitudes in the open air on August afternoons. It brought with it an exquisite sense of rest, and the rest was not spoiled by the fact that it was animated by a charming dream. Dreams are vague things, and this one had the defects of its species; but it was somehow concerned with the image of a young lady whom Bernard had formerly known, and who had beautiful eyes, into which--in the dream--he found himself looking. He waked up to find himself looking into the crown of his hat, which had been resting on the bridge of his nose. He removed it, and half raised himself, resting on his elbow and preparing to taste, in another position, of a little more of that exquisite rest of which mention has just been made. The world about him was still amusing and charming; the chatter of his companions, losing itself in the large sea-presence, the plash of the divers and swimmers, the deep blue of the ocean and the silvery white of the cliff, had that striking air of indifference to the fact that his mind had been absent from them which we are apt to find in mundane things on emerging from a nap. The same people were sitting near him on the beach--the same, and yet not quite the same. He found himself noticing a person whom he had not noticed before-- a young lady, who was seated in a low portable chair, some dozen yards off, with her eyes bent upon a book. Her head was in shade; her large parasol made, indeed, an awning for her whole person, which in this way, in the quiet attitude of perusal, seemed to abstract itself from the glare and murmur of the beach. The clear shadow of her umbrella--it was lined with blue-- was deep upon her face; but it was not deep enough to prevent Bernard from recognizing a profile that he knew. He suddenly sat upright, with an intensely quickened vision. Was he dreaming still, or had he waked? In a moment he felt that he was acutely awake; he heard her, across the interval, turn the page of her book. For a single instant, as she did so, she looked with level brows at the glittering ocean; then, lowering her eyes, she went on with her reading. In this barely perceptible movement he saw Angela Vivian; it was wonderful how well he remembered her. She was evidently reading very seriously; she was much interested in her book. She was alone; Bernard looked about for her mother, but Mrs. Vivian was not in sight. By this time Bernard had become aware that he was agitated; the exquisite rest of a few moments before had passed away. His agitation struck him as unreasonable; in a few minutes he made up his mind that it was absurd. He had done her an injury--yes; but as she sat there losing herself in a French novel--Bernard could see it was a French novel-- he could not make out that she was the worse for it. It had not affected her appearance; Miss Vivian was still a handsome girl. Bernard hoped she would not look toward him or recognize him; he wished to look at her at his ease; to think it over; to make up his mind. The idea of meeting Angela Vivian again had often come into his thoughts; I may, indeed, say that it was a tolerably familiar presence there; but the fact, nevertheless, now presented itself with all the violence of an accident for which he was totally unprepared. He had often asked himself what he should say to her, how he should carry himself, and how he should probably find the young lady; but, with whatever ingenuity he might at the moment have answered these questions, his intelligence at present felt decidedly overtaxed. She was a very pretty girl to whom he had done a wrong; this was the final attitude into which, with a good deal of preliminary shifting and wavering, she had settled in his recollection. The wrong was a right, doubtless, from certain points of view; but from the girl&apos;s own it could only seem an injury to which its having been inflicted by a clever young man with whom she had been on agreeable terms, necessarily added a touch of baseness.</p><p>In every disadvantage that a woman suffers at the hands of a man, there is inevitably, in what concerns the man, an element of cowardice. When I say &quot;inevitably,&quot; I mean that this is what the woman sees in it. This is what Bernard believed that Angela Vivian saw in the fact that by giving his friend a bad account of her he had prevented her making an opulent marriage. At first he had said to himself that, whether he had held his tongue or spoken, she had already lost her chance; but with time, somehow, this reflection had lost its weight in the scale. It conveyed little re-assurance to his irritated conscience-- it had become imponderable and impertinent. At the moment of which I speak it entirely failed to present itself, even for form&apos;s sake; and as he sat looking at this superior creature who came back to him out of an episode of his past, he thought of her simply as an unprotected woman toward whom he had been indelicate. It is not an agreeable thing for a delicate man like Bernard Longueville to have to accommodate himself to such an accident, but this is nevertheless what it seemed needful that he should do. If she bore him a grudge he must think it natural; if she had vowed him a hatred he must allow her the comfort of it. He had done the only thing possible, but that made it no better for her. He had wronged her. The circumstances mattered nothing, and as he could not make it up to her, the only reasonable thing was to keep out of her way. He had stepped into her path now, and the proper thing was to step out of it. If it could give her no pleasure to see him again, it could certainly do him no good to see her. He had seen her by this time pretty well--as far as mere seeing went, and as yet, apparently, he was none the worse for that; but his hope that he should himself escape unperceived had now become acute. It is singular that this hope should not have led him instantly to turn his back and move away; but the explanation of his imprudent delay is simply that he wished to see a little more of Miss Vivian. He was unable to bring himself to the point. Those clever things that he might have said to her quite faded away. The only good taste was to take himself off, and spare her the trouble of inventing civilities that she could not feel. And yet he continued to sit there from moment to moment, arrested, detained, fascinated, by the accident of her not looking round-- of her having let him watch her so long. She turned another page, and another, and her reading absorbed her still. He was so near her that he could have touched her dress with the point of his umbrella. At last she raised her eyes and rested them a while on the blue horizon, straight in front of her, but as yet without turning them aside. This, however, augmented the danger of her doing so, and Bernard, with a good deal of an effort, rose to his feet. The effort, doubtless, kept the movement from being either as light or as swift as it might have been, and it vaguely attracted his neighbor&apos;s attention. She turned her head and glanced at him, with a glance that evidently expected but to touch him and pass. It touched him, and it was on the point of passing; then it suddenly checked itself; she had recognized him. She looked at him, straight and open-eyed, out of the shadow of her parasol, and Bernard stood there--motionless now--receiving her gaze. How long it lasted need not be narrated. It was probably a matter of a few seconds, but to Bernard it seemed a little eternity. He met her eyes, he looked straight into her face; now that she had seen him he could do nothing else. Bernard&apos;s little eternity, however, came to an end; Miss Vivian dropped her eyes upon her book again. She let them rest upon it only a moment; then she closed it and slowly rose from her chair, turning away from Bernard. He still stood looking at her--stupidly, foolishly, helplessly enough, as it seemed to him; no sign of recognition had been exchanged. Angela Vivian hesitated a minute; she now had her back turned to him, and he fancied her light, flexible figure was agitated by her indecision. She looked along the sunny beach which stretched its shallow curve to where the little bay ended and the white wall of the cliffs began. She looked down toward the sea, and up toward the little Casino which was perched on a low embankment, communicating with the beach at two or three points by a short flight of steps. Bernard saw-- or supposed he saw--that she was asking herself whither she had best turn to avoid him. He had not blushed when she looked at him-- he had rather turned a little pale; but he blushed now, for it really seemed odious to have literally driven the poor girl to bay. Miss Vivian decided to take refuge in the Casino, and she passed along one of the little pathways of planks that were laid here and there across the beach, and directed herself to the nearest flight of steps. Before she had gone two paces a complete change came over Bernard&apos;s feeling; his only wish now was to speak to her-- to explain--to tell her he would go away. There was another row of steps at a short distance behind him; he rapidly ascended them and reached the little terrace of the Casino. Miss Vivian stood there; she was apparently hesitating again which way to turn. Bernard came straight up to her, with a gallant smile and a greeting. The comparison is a coarse one, but he felt that he was taking the bull by the horns. Angela Vivian stood watching him arrive.</p><p>&quot;You did n&apos;t recognize me,&quot; he said, &quot;and your not recognizing me made me-- made me hesitate.&quot;</p><p>For a moment she said nothing, and then--</p><p>&quot;You are more timid than you used to be!&quot; she answered.</p><p>He could hardly have said what expression he had expected to find in her face; his apprehension had, perhaps, not painted her obtrusively pale and haughty, aggressively cold and stern; but it had figured something different from the look he encountered. Miss Vivian was simply blushing--that was what Bernard mainly perceived; he saw that her surprise had been extreme--complete. Her blush was re-assuring; it contradicted the idea of impatient resentment, and Bernard took some satisfaction in noting that it was prolonged.</p><p>&quot;Yes, I am more timid than I used to be,&quot; he said.</p><p>In spite of her blush, she continued to look at him very directly; but she had always done that--she always met one&apos;s eye; and Bernard now instantly found all the beauty that he had ever found before in her pure, unevasive glance.</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t know whether I am more brave,&quot; she said; &quot;but I must tell the truth-- I instantly recognized you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You gave no sign!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I supposed I gave a striking one--in getting up and going away.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ah!&quot; said Bernard, &quot;as I say, I am more timid than I was, and I did n&apos;t venture to interpret that as a sign of recognition.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It was a sign of surprise.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not of pleasure!&quot; said Bernard. He felt this to be a venturesome, and from the point of view of taste perhaps a reprehensible, remark; but he made it because he was now feeling his ground, and it seemed better to make it gravely than with assumed jocosity.</p><p>&quot;Great surprises are to me never pleasures,&quot; Angela answered; &quot;I am not fond of shocks of any kind. The pleasure is another matter. I have not yet got over my surprise.&quot;</p><p>&quot;If I had known you were here, I would have written to you beforehand,&quot; said Bernard, laughing.</p><p>Miss Vivian, beneath her expanded parasol, gave a little shrug of her shoulders.</p><p>&quot;Even that would have been a surprise.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You mean a shock, eh? Did you suppose I was dead?&quot;</p><p>Now, at last, she lowered her eyes, and her blush slowly died away.</p><p>&quot;I knew nothing about it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Of course you could n&apos;t know, and we are all mortal. It was natural that you should n&apos;t expect--simply on turning your head-- to find me lying on the pebbles at Blanquais-les-Galets. You were a great surprise to me, as well; but I differ from you-- I like surprises.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It is rather refreshing to hear that one is a surprise,&quot; said the girl.</p><p>&quot;Especially when in that capacity one is liked!&quot; Bernard exclaimed.</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t say that--because such sensations pass away. I am now beginning to get over mine.&quot;</p><p>The light mockery of her tone struck him as the echo of an unforgotten air. He looked at her a moment, and then he said--</p><p>&quot;You are not changed; I find you quite the same.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I am sorry for that!&quot; And she turned away.</p><p>&quot;What are you doing?&quot; he asked. &quot;Where are you going?&quot;</p><p>She looked about her, without answering, up and down the little terrace. The Casino at Blanquais was a much more modest place of reunion than the Conversation-house at Baden-Baden. It was a small, low structure of brightly painted wood, containing but three or four rooms, and furnished all along its front with a narrow covered gallery, which offered a delusive shelter from the rougher moods of the fine, fresh weather. It was somewhat rude and shabby--the subscription for the season was low--but it had a simple picturesqueness. Its little terrace was a very convenient place for a stroll, and the great view of the ocean and of the marble-white crags that formed the broad gate-way of the shallow bay, was a sufficient compensation for the absence of luxuries. There were a few people sitting in the gallery, and a few others scattered upon the terrace; but the pleasure-seekers of Blanquais were, for the most part, immersed in the salt water or disseminated on the grassy downs.</p><p>&quot;I am looking for my mother,&quot; said Angela Vivian.</p><p>&quot;I hope your mother is well.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Very well, thank you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;May I help you to look for her?&quot; Bernard asked.</p><p>Her eyes paused in their quest, and rested a moment upon her companion.</p><p>&quot;She is not here,&quot; she said presently. &quot;She has gone home.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What do you call home?&quot; Bernard demanded.</p><p>&quot;The sort of place that we always call home; a bad little house that we have taken for a month.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Will you let me come and see it?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It &apos;s nothing to see.&quot;</p><p>Bernard hesitated a moment.</p><p>&quot;Is that a refusal?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I should never think of giving it so fine a name.&quot;</p><p>&quot;There would be nothing fine in forbidding me your door. Don&apos;t think that!&quot; said Bernard, with rather a forced laugh.</p><p>It was difficult to know what the girl thought; but she said, in a moment--</p><p>&quot;We shall be very happy to see you. I am going home.&quot;</p><p>&quot;May I walk with you so far?&quot; asked Bernard.</p><p>&quot;It is not far; it &apos;s only three minutes.&quot; And Angela moved slowly to the gate of the Casino.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[the business of married life had begun. Bernard, at the end, had sailed from England rather abruptly. A friend who had a remarkably good cabin on one of the steamers was obliged by a sudden detention to give it up, and on his offering it to Longueville, the latter availed himself gratefully of this opportunity of being a little less discomposed than usual by the Atlantic billows. He therefore embarked at two days&apos; notice, a fortnight earlier than he had intended and than he had written t...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>the business of married life had begun. Bernard, at the end, had sailed from England rather abruptly. A friend who had a remarkably good cabin on one of the steamers was obliged by a sudden detention to give it up, and on his offering it to Longueville, the latter availed himself gratefully of this opportunity of being a little less discomposed than usual by the Atlantic billows. He therefore embarked at two days&apos; notice, a fortnight earlier than he had intended and than he had written to Gordon to expect him. Gordon, of course, had written that he was to seek no hospitality but that which Blanche was now prepared--they had a charming house--so graciously to dispense; but Bernard, nevertheless, leaving the ship early in the morning, had betaken himself to an hotel. He wished not to anticipate his welcome, and he determined to report himself to Gordon first and to come back with his luggage later in the day. After purifying himself of his sea-stains, he left his hotel and walked up the Fifth Avenue with all a newly-landed voyager&apos;s enjoyment of terrestrial locomotion. It was a charming autumn day; there was a golden haze in the air; he supposed it was the Indian summer. The broad sidewalk of the Fifth Avenue was scattered over with dry leaves--crimson and orange and amber. He tossed them with his stick as he passed; they rustled and murmured with the motion, and it reminded him of the way he used to kick them in front of him over these same pavements in his riotous infancy. It was a pleasure, after many wanderings, to find himself in his native land again, and Bernard Longueville, as he went, paid his compliments to his mother-city. The brightness and gayety of the place seemed a greeting to a returning son, and he felt a throb of affection for the freshest, the youngest, the easiest and most good-natured of great capitals. On presenting himself at Gordon&apos;s door, Bernard was told that the master of the house was not at home; he went in, however, to see the mistress. She was in her drawing-room, alone; she had on her bonnet, as if she had been going out. She gave him a joyous, demonstrative little welcome; she was evidently very glad to see him. Bernard had thought it possible she had &quot;improved,&quot; and she was certainly prettier than ever. He instantly perceived that she was still a chatterbox; it remained to be seen whether the quality of her discourse were finer.</p><p>&quot;Well, Mr. Longueville,&quot; she exclaimed, &quot;where in the world did you drop from, and how long did it take you to cross the Atlantic? Three days, eh? It could n&apos;t have taken you many more, for it was only the other day that Gordon told me you were not to sail till the 20th. You changed your mind, eh? I did n&apos;t know you ever changed your mind. Gordon never changes his. That &apos;s not a reason, eh, because you are not a bit like Gordon. Well, I never thought you were, except that you are a man. Now what are you laughing at? What should you like me call you? You are a man, I suppose; you are not a god. That &apos;s what you would like me to call you, I have no doubt. I must keep that for Gordon? I shall certainly keep it a good while. I know a good deal more about gentlemen than I did when I last saw you, and I assure you I don&apos;t think they are a bit god-like. I suppose that &apos;s why you always drop down from the sky--you think it &apos;s more divine. I remember that &apos;s the way you arrived at Baden when we were there together; the first thing we knew, you were standing in the midst of us. Do you remember that evening when you presented yourself? You came up and touched Gordon on the shoulder, and he gave a little jump. He will give another little jump when he sees you to-day. He gives a great many little jumps; I keep him skipping about! I remember perfectly the way we were sitting that evening at Baden, and the way you looked at me when you came up. I saw you before Gordon--I see a good many things before Gordon. What did you look at me that way for? I always meant to ask you. I was dying to know.&quot;</p><p>&quot;For the simplest reason in the world,&quot; said Bernard. &quot;Because you were so pretty.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ah no, it was n&apos;t that! I know all about that look. It was something else--as if you knew something about me. I don&apos;t know what you can have known. There was very little to know about me, except that I was intensely silly. Really, I was awfully silly that summer at Baden--you would n&apos;t believe how silly I was. But I don&apos;t see how you could have known that-- before you had spoken to me. It came out in my conversation-- it came out awfully. My mother was a good deal disappointed in Mrs. Vivian&apos;s influence; she had expected so much from it. But it was not poor Mrs. Vivian&apos;s fault, it was some one&apos;s else. Have you ever seen the Vivians again? They are always in Europe; they have gone to live in Paris. That evening when you came up and spoke to Gordon, I never thought that three years afterward I should be married to him, and I don&apos;t suppose you did either. Is that what you meant by looking at me? Perhaps you can tell the future. I wish you would tell my future!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, I can tell that easily,&quot; said Bernard.</p><p>&quot;What will happen to me?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nothing particular; it will be a little dull--the perfect happiness of a charming woman married to the best fellow in the world.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ah, what a horrid future!&quot; cried Blanche, with a little petulant cry. &quot;I want to be happy, but I certainly don&apos;t want to be dull. If you say that again you will make me repent of having married the best fellow in the world. I mean to be happy, but I certainly shall not be dull if I can help it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I was wrong to say that,&quot; said Bernard, &quot;because, after all, my dear young lady, there must be an excitement in having so kind a husband as you have got. Gordon&apos;s devotion is quite capable of taking a new form--of inventing a new kindness-- every day in the year.&quot;</p><p>Blanche looked at him an instant, with less than her usual consciousness of her momentary pose.</p><p>&quot;My husband is very kind,&quot; she said gently.</p><p>She had hardly spoken the words when Gordon came in. He stopped a moment on seeing Bernard, glanced at his wife, blushed, flushed, and with a loud, frank exclamation of pleasure, grasped his friend by both hands. It was so long since he had seen Bernard that he seemed a good deal moved; he stood there smiling, clasping his hands, looking him in the eyes, unable for some moments to speak. Bernard, on his side, was greatly pleased; it was delightful to him to look into Gordon&apos;s honest face again and to return his manly grasp. And he looked well-- he looked happy; to see that was more delightful yet. During these few instants, while they exchanged a silent pledge of renewed friendship, Bernard&apos;s elastic perception embraced several things besides the consciousness of his own pleasure. He saw that Gordon looked well and happy, but that he looked older, too, and more serious, more marked by life. He looked as if something had happened to him--as, in fact, something had. Bernard saw a latent spark in his friend&apos;s eye that seemed to question his own for an impression of Blanche-- to question it eagerly, and yet to deprecate judgment. He saw, too--with the fact made more vivid by Gordon&apos;s standing there beside her in his manly sincerity and throwing it into contrast--that Blanche was the same little posturing coquette of a Blanche whom, at Baden, he would have treated it as a broad joke that Gordon Wright should dream of marrying. He saw, in a word, that it was what it had first struck him as being-- an incongruous union. All this was a good deal for Bernard to see in the course of half a minute, especially through the rather opaque medium of a feeling of irreflective joy; and his impressions at this moment have a value only in so far as they were destined to be confirmed by larger opportunity.</p><p>&quot;You have come a little sooner than we expected,&quot; said Gordon; &quot;but you are all the more welcome.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It was rather a risk,&quot; Blanche observed. &quot;One should be notified, when one wishes to make a good impression.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ah, my dear lady,&quot; said Bernard, &quot;you made your impression-- as far as I am concerned--a long time ago, and I doubt whether it would have gained anything to-day by your having prepared an effect.&quot;</p><p>They were standing before the fire-place, on the great hearth-rug, and Blanche, while she listened to this speech, was feeling, with uplifted arm, for a curl that had strayed from her chignon.</p><p>&quot;She prepares her effects very quickly,&quot; said Gordon, laughing gently. &quot;They follow each other very fast!&quot;</p><p>Blanche kept her hand behind her head, which was bent slightly forward; her bare arm emerged from her hanging sleeve, and, with her eyes glancing upward from under her lowered brows, she smiled at her two spectators. Her husband laid his hand on Bernard&apos;s arm.</p><p>&quot;Is n&apos;t she pretty?&quot; he cried; and he spoke with a sort of tender delight in being sure at least of this point.</p><p>&quot;Tremendously pretty!&quot; said Bernard. &quot;I told her so half an hour before you came in.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ah, it was time I should arrive!&quot; Gordon exclaimed.</p><p>Blanche was manifestly not in the least discomposed by this frank discussion of her charms, for the air of distinguished esteem adopted by both of her companions diminished the crudity of their remarks. But she gave a little pout of irritated modesty-- it was more becoming than anything she had done yet--and declared that if they wished to talk her over, they were very welcome; but she should prefer their waiting till she got out of the room. So she left them, reminding Bernard that he was to send for his luggage and remain, and promising to give immediate orders for the preparation of his apartment. Bernard opened the door for her to pass out; she gave him a charming nod as he stood there, and he turned back to Gordon with the reflection of her smile in his face. Gordon was watching him; Gordon was dying to know what he thought of her. It was a curious mania of Gordon&apos;s, this wanting to know what one thought of the women he loved; but Bernard just now felt abundantly able to humor it. He was so pleased at seeing him tightly married.</p><p>&quot;She &apos;s a delightful creature,&quot; Bernard said, with cordial vagueness, shaking hands with his friend again.</p><p>Gordon glanced at him a moment, and then, coloring a little, looked straight out of the window; whereupon Bernard remembered that these were just the terms in which, at Baden, after his companion&apos;s absence, he had attempted to qualify Angela Vivian. Gordon was conscious--he was conscious of the oddity of his situation.</p><p>&quot;Of course it surprised you,&quot; he said, in a moment, still looking out of the window.</p><p>&quot;What, my dear fellow?&quot;</p><p>&quot;My marriage.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, you know,&quot; said Bernard, &quot;everything surprises me. I am of a very conjectural habit of mind. All sorts of ideas come into my head, and yet when the simplest things happen I am always rather startled. I live in a reverie, and I am perpetually waked up by people doing things.&quot;</p><p>Gordon transferred his eyes from the window to Bernard&apos;s face-- to his whole person.</p><p>&quot;You are waked up? But you fall asleep again!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I fall asleep very easily,&quot; said Bernard.</p><p>Gordon looked at him from head to foot, smiling and shaking his head.</p><p>&quot;You are not changed,&quot; he said. &quot;You have travelled in unknown lands; you have had, I suppose, all sorts of adventures; but you are the same man I used to know.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I am sorry for that!&quot;</p><p>&quot;You have the same way of representing--of misrepresenting, yourself.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, if I am not changed,&quot; said Bernard, &quot;I can ill afford to lose so valuable an art.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Taking you altogether, I am glad you are the same,&quot; Gordon answered, simply; &quot;but you must come into my part of the house.&quot;</p><p>CHAPTER XVII</p><p>Yes, he was conscious--he was very conscious; so Bernard reflected during the two or three first days of his visit to his friend. Gordon knew it must seem strange to so irreverent a critic that a man who had once aspired to the hand of so intelligent a girl--putting other things aside--as Angela Vivian should, as the Ghost in &quot;Hamlet&quot; says, have &quot;declined upon&quot; a young lady who, in force of understanding, was so very much Miss Vivian&apos;s inferior; and this knowledge kept him ill at his ease and gave him a certain pitiable awkwardness. Bernard&apos;s sense of the anomaly grew rapidly less acute; he made various observations which helped it to seem natural. Blanche was wonderfully pretty; she was very graceful, innocent, amusing. Since Gordon had determined to marry a little goose, he had chosen the animal with extreme discernment. It had quite the plumage of a swan, and it sailed along the stream of life with an extraordinary lightness of motion. He asked himself indeed at times whether Blanche were really so silly as she seemed; he doubted whether any woman could be so silly as Blanche seemed. He had a suspicion at times that, for ends of her own, she was playing a part--the suspicion arising from the fact that, as usually happens in such cases, she over-played it. Her empty chatter, her futility, her childish coquetry and frivolity--such light wares could hardly be the whole substance of any woman&apos;s being; there was something beneath them which Blanche was keeping out of sight. She had a scrap of a mind somewhere, and even a little particle of a heart. If one looked long enough one might catch a glimpse of these possessions. But why should she keep them out of sight, and what were the ends that she proposed to serve by this uncomfortable perversity? Bernard wondered whether she were fond of her husband, and he heard it intimated by several good people in New York who had had some observation of the courtship, that she had married him for his money. He was very sorry to find that this was taken for granted, and he determined, on the whole, not to believe it. He was disgusted with the idea of such a want of gratitude; for, if Gordon Wright had loved Miss Evers for herself, the young lady might certainly have discovered the intrinsic value of so disinterested a suitor. Her mother had the credit of having made the match. Gordon was known to be looking for a wife; Mrs. Evers had put her little feather-head of a daughter very much forward, and Gordon was as easily captivated as a child by the sound of a rattle. Blanche had an affection for him now, however; Bernard saw no reason to doubt that, and certainly she would have been a very flimsy creature indeed if she had not been touched by his inexhaustible kindness. She had every conceivable indulgence, and if she married him for his money, at least she had got what she wanted. She led the most agreeable life conceivable, and she ought to be in high good-humor. It was impossible to have a prettier house, a prettier carriage, more jewels and laces for the adornment of a plump little person. It was impossible to go to more parties, to give better dinners, to have fewer privations or annoyances. Bernard was so much struck with all this that, advancing rapidly in the intimacy of his gracious hostess, he ventured to call her attention to her blessings. She answered that she was perfectly aware of them, and there was no pretty speech she was not prepared to make about Gordon.</p><p>&quot;I know what you want to say,&quot; she went on; &quot;you want to say that he spoils me, and I don&apos;t see why you should hesitate. You generally say everything you want, and you need n&apos;t be afraid of me. He does n&apos;t spoil me, simply because I am so bad I can&apos;t be spoiled; but that &apos;s of no consequence. I was spoiled ages ago; every one spoiled me--every one except Mrs. Vivian. I was always fond of having everything I want, and I generally managed to get it. I always had lovely clothes; mamma thought that was a kind of a duty. If it was a duty, I don&apos;t suppose it counts as a part of the spoiling. But I was very much indulged, and I know I have everything now. Gordon is a perfect husband; I believe if I were to ask him for a present of his nose, he would cut it off and give it to me. I think I will ask him for a small piece of it some day; it will rather improve him to have an inch or two less. I don&apos;t say he &apos;s handsome; but he &apos;s just as good as he can be. Some people say that if you are very fond of a person you always think them handsome; but I don&apos;t agree with that at all. I am very fond of Gordon, and yet I am not blinded by affection, as regards his personal appearance. He &apos;s too light for my taste, and too red. And because you think people handsome, it does n&apos;t follow that you are fond of them. I used to have a friend who was awfully handsome--the handsomest man I ever saw-- and I was perfectly conscious of his defects. But I &apos;m not conscious of Gordon&apos;s, and I don&apos;t believe he has got any. He &apos;s so intensely kind; it &apos;s quite pathetic. One would think he had done me an injury in marrying me, and that he wanted to make up for it. If he has done me an injury I have n&apos;t discovered it yet, and I don&apos;t believe I ever shall. I certainly shall not as long as he lets me order all the clothes I want. I have ordered five dresses this week, and I mean to order two more. When I told Gordon, what do you think he did? He simply kissed me. Well, if that &apos;s not expressive, I don&apos;t know what he could have done. He kisses me about seventeen times a day. I suppose it &apos;s very improper for a woman to tell any one how often her husband kisses her; but, as you happen to have seen him do it, I don&apos;t suppose you will be scandalized. I know you are not easily scandalized; I am not afraid of you. You are scandalized at my getting so many dresses? Well, I told you I was spoiled--I freely acknowledge it. That &apos;s why I was afraid to tell Gordon-- because when I was married I had such a lot of things; I was supposed to have dresses enough to last for a year. But Gordon had n&apos;t to pay for them, so there was no harm in my letting him feel that he has a wife. If he thinks I am extravagant, he can easily stop kissing me. You don&apos;t think it would be easy to stop? It &apos;s very well, then, for those that have never begun!&quot;</p><p>Bernard had a good deal of conversation with Blanche, of which, so far as she was concerned, the foregoing remarks may serve as a specimen. Gordon was away from home during much of the day; he had a chemical laboratory in which he was greatly interested, and which he took Bernard to see; it was fitted up with the latest contrivances for the pursuit of experimental science, and was the resort of needy young students, who enjoyed, at Gordon&apos;s expense, the opportunity for pushing their researches. The place did great honor to Gordon&apos;s liberality and to his ingenuity; but Blanche, who had also paid it a visit, could never speak of it without a pretty little shudder.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>however, to make this organ tingle.</p><p>&quot;Oh, after all, you know,&quot; he said, as they walked on--&quot;after all, you know, I am not like Wright--I have no business.&quot;</p><p>He walked with the ladies to the door of their lodging. Angela kept always in front. She stood there, however, at the little confectioner&apos;s window until the others came up. She let her mother pass in, and then she said to Bernard, looking at him--</p><p>&quot;Shall I see you again?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Some time, I hope.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I mean--are you going away?&quot;</p><p>Bernard looked for a moment at a little pink sugar cherub-- a species of Cupid, with a gilded bow--which figured among the pastry-cook&apos;s enticements. Then he said--</p><p>&quot;I will come and tell you this evening.&quot;</p><p>And in the evening he went to tell her; she had mentioned during the walk in the garden of the Schloss that they should not go out. As he approached Mrs. Vivian&apos;s door he saw a figure in a light dress standing in the little balcony. He stopped and looked up, and then the person in the light dress, leaning her hands on the railing, with her shoulders a little raised, bent over and looked down at him. It was very dark, but even through the thick dusk he thought he perceived the finest brilliancy of Angela Vivian&apos;s smile.</p><p>&quot;I shall not go away,&quot; he said, lifting his voice a little.</p><p>She made no answer; she only stood looking down at him through the warm dusk and smiling. He went into the house, and he remained at Baden-Baden till Gordon came back.</p><p>CHAPTER XIV</p><p>Gordon asked him no questions for twenty-four hours after his return, then suddenly he began:</p><p>&quot;Well, have n&apos;t you something to say to me?&quot;</p><p>It was at the hotel, in Gordon&apos;s apartment, late in the afternoon. A heavy thunder-storm had broken over the place an hour before, and Bernard had been standing at one of his friend&apos;s windows, rather idly, with his hands in his pockets, watching the rain-torrents dance upon the empty pavements. At last the deluge abated, the clouds began to break--there was a promise of a fine evening. Gordon Wright, while the storm was at its climax, sat down to write letters, and wrote half a dozen. It was after he had sealed, directed and affixed a postage-stamp to the last of the series that he addressed to his companion the question I have just quoted.</p><p>&quot;Do you mean about Miss Vivian?&quot; Bernard asked, without turning round from the window.</p><p>&quot;About Miss Vivian, of course.&quot; Bernard said nothing and his companion went on. &quot;Have you nothing to tell me about Miss Vivian?&quot;</p><p>Bernard presently turned round looking at Gordon and smiling a little.</p><p>&quot;She &apos;s a delightful creature!&quot;</p><p>&quot;That won&apos;t do--you have tried that before,&quot; said Gordon. &quot;No,&quot; he added in a moment, &quot;that won&apos;t do.&quot; Bernard turned back to the window, and Gordon continued, as he remained silent. &quot;I shall have a right to consider your saying nothing a proof of an unfavorable judgment. You don&apos;t like her!&quot;</p><p>Bernard faced quickly about again, and for an instant the two men looked at each other.</p><p>&quot;Ah, my dear Gordon,&quot; Longueville murmured.</p><p>&quot;Do you like her then?&quot; asked Wright, getting up.</p><p>&quot;No!&quot; said Longueville.</p><p>&quot;That &apos;s just what I wanted to know, and I am much obliged to you for telling me.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I am not obliged to you for asking me. I was in hopes you would n&apos;t.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You dislike her very much then?&quot; Gordon exclaimed, gravely.</p><p>&quot;Won&apos;t disliking her, simply, do?&quot; said Bernard.</p><p>&quot;It will do very well. But it will do a little better if you will tell me why. Give me a reason or two.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well,&quot; said Bernard, &quot;I tried to make love to her and she boxed my ears.&quot;</p><p>&quot;The devil!&quot; cried Gordon.</p><p>&quot;I mean morally, you know.&quot;</p><p>Gordon stared; he seemed a little puzzled.</p><p>&quot;You tried to make love to her morally?&quot;</p><p>&quot;She boxed my ears morally,&quot; said Bernard, laughing out.</p><p>&quot;Why did you try to make love to her?&quot;</p><p>This inquiry was made in a tone so expressive of an unbiassed truth-seeking habit that Bernard&apos;s mirth was not immediately quenched. Nevertheless, he replied with sufficient gravity--</p><p>&quot;To test her fidelity to you. Could you have expected anything else? You told me you were afraid she was a latent coquette. You gave me a chance, and I tried to ascertain.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And you found she was not. Is that what you mean?&quot;</p><p>&quot;She &apos;s as firm as a rock. My dear Gordon, Miss Vivian is as firm as the firmest of your geological formations.&quot;</p><p>Gordon shook his head with a strange positive persistence.</p><p>&quot;You are talking nonsense. You are not serious. You are not telling me the truth. I don&apos;t believe that you attempted to make love to her. You would n&apos;t have played such a game as that. It would n&apos;t have been honorable.&quot;</p><p>Bernard flushed a little; he was irritated.</p><p>&quot;Oh come, don&apos;t make too much of a point of that! Did n&apos;t you tell me before that it was a great opportunity?&quot;</p><p>&quot;An opportunity to be wise--not to be foolish!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ah, there is only one sort of opportunity,&quot; cried Bernard. &quot;You exaggerate the reach of human wisdom.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Suppose she had let you make love to her,&quot; said Gordon. &quot;That would have been a beautiful result of your experiment.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I should have seemed to you a rascal, perhaps, but I should have saved you from a latent coquette. You would owe some thanks for that.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And now you have n&apos;t saved me,&quot; said Gordon, with a simple air of noting a fact.</p><p>&quot;You assume--in spite of what I say--that she is a coquette!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I assume something because you evidently conceal something. I want the whole truth.&quot;</p><p>Bernard turned back to the window with increasing irritation.</p><p>&quot;If he wants the whole truth he shall have it,&quot; he said to himself.</p><p>He stood a moment in thought and then he looked at his companion again.</p><p>&quot;I think she would marry you--but I don&apos;t think she cares for you.&quot;</p><p>Gordon turned a little pale, but he clapped his hands together.</p><p>&quot;Very good,&quot; he exclaimed. &quot;That &apos;s exactly how I want you to speak.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Her mother has taken a great fancy to your fortune and it has rubbed off on the girl, who has made up her mind that it would be a pleasant thing to have thirty thousand a year, and that her not caring for you is an unimportant detail.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I see--I see,&quot; said Gordon, looking at his friend with an air of admiration for his frank and lucid way of putting things.</p><p>Now that he had begun to be frank and lucid, Bernard found a charm in it, and the impulse under which he had spoken urged him almost violently forward.</p><p>&quot;The mother and daughter have agreed together to bag you, and Angela, I am sure, has made a vow to be as nice to you after marriage as possible. Mrs. Vivian has insisted upon the importance of that; Mrs. Vivian is a great moralist.&quot;</p><p>Gordon kept gazing at his friend; he seemed positively fascinated.</p><p>&quot;Yes, I have noticed that in Mrs. Vivian,&quot; he said.</p><p>&quot;Ah, she &apos;s a very nice woman!&quot;</p><p>&quot;It &apos;s not true, then,&quot; said Gordon, &quot;that you tried to make love to Angela?&quot;</p><p>Bernard hesitated a single instant.</p><p>&quot;No, it is n&apos;t true. I calumniated myself, to save her reputation. You insisted on my giving you a reason for my not liking her-- I gave you that one.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And your real reason--&quot;</p><p>&quot;My real reason is that I believe she would do you what I can&apos;t help regarding as an injury.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Of course!&quot; and Gordon, dropping his interested eyes, stared for some moments at the carpet. &quot;But it is n&apos;t true, then, that you discovered her to be a coquette?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ah, that &apos;s another matter.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You did discover it all the same?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Since you want the whole truth--I did!&quot;</p><p>&quot;How did you discover it?&quot; Gordon asked, clinging to his right of interrogation.</p><p>Bernard hesitated.</p><p>&quot;You must remember that I saw a great deal of her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You mean that she encouraged you?&quot;</p><p>&quot;If I had not been a very faithful friend I might have thought so.&quot;</p><p>Gordon laid his hand appreciatively, gratefully, on Bernard&apos;s shoulder.</p><p>&quot;And even that did n&apos;t make you like her?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Confound it, you make me blush!&quot; cried Bernard, blushing a little in fact. &quot;I have said quite enough; excuse me from drawing the portrait of too insensible a man. It was my point of view; I kept thinking of you.&quot;</p><p>Gordon, with his hand still on his friend&apos;s arm, patted it an instant in response to this declaration; then he turned away.</p><p>&quot;I am much obliged to you. That &apos;s my notion of friendship. You have spoken out like a man.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Like a man, yes. Remember that. Not in the least like an oracle.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I prefer an honest man to all the oracles,&quot; said Gordon.</p><p>&quot;An honest man has his impressions! I have given you mine-- they pretend to be nothing more. I hope they have n&apos;t offended you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not in the least.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nor distressed, nor depressed, nor in any way discomposed you?&quot;</p><p>&quot;For what do you take me? I asked you a favor--a service; I imposed it on you. You have done the thing, and my part is simple gratitude.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Thank you for nothing,&quot; said Bernard, smiling. &quot;You have asked me a great many questions; there is one that in turn I have a right to ask you. What do you propose to do in consequence of what I have told you?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I propose to do nothing.&quot;</p><p>This declaration closed the colloquy, and the young men separated. Bernard saw Gordon no more that evening; he took for granted he had gone to Mrs. Vivian&apos;s. The burden of Longueville&apos;s confidences was a heavy load to carry there, but Bernard ventured to hope that he would deposit it at the door. He had given Gordon his impressions, and the latter might do with them what he chose--toss them out of the window, or let them grow stale with heedless keeping. So Bernard meditated, as he wandered about alone for the rest of the evening. It was useless to look for Mrs. Vivian&apos;s little circle, on the terrace of the Conversation-house, for the storm in the afternoon had made the place so damp that it was almost forsaken of its frequenters. Bernard spent the evening in the gaming-rooms, in the thick of the crowd that pressed about the tables, and by way of a change--he had hitherto been almost nothing of a gambler--he laid down a couple of pieces at roulette. He had played but two or three times, without winning a penny; but now he had the agreeable sensation of drawing in a small handful of gold. He continued to play, and he continued to win. His luck surprised and excited him--so much so that after it had repeated itself half a dozen times he left the place and walked about for half an hour in the outer darkness. He felt amused and exhilarated, but the feeling amounted almost to agitation. He, nevertheless, returned to the tables, where he again found success awaiting him. Again and again he put his money on a happy number, and so steady a run of luck began at last to attract attention. The rumor of it spread through the rooms, and the crowd about the roulette received a large contingent of spectators. Bernard felt that they were looking more or less eagerly for a turn of the tide; but he was in the humor for disappointing them, and he left the place, while his luck was still running high, with ten thousand francs in his pocket. It was very late when he returned to the inn--so late that he forbore to knock at Gordon&apos;s door. But though he betook himself to his own quarters, he was far from finding, or even seeking, immediate rest. He knocked about, as he would have said, for half the night-- not because he was delighted at having won ten thousand francs, but rather because all of a sudden he found himself disgusted at the manner in which he had spent the evening. It was extremely characteristic of Bernard Longueville that his pleasure should suddenly transform itself into flatness. What he felt was not regret or repentance. He had it not in the least on his conscience that he had given countenance to the reprehensible practice of gaming. It was annoyance that he had passed out of his own control-- that he had obeyed a force which he was unable to measure at the time. He had been drunk and he was turning sober. In spite of a great momentary appearance of frankness and a lively relish of any conjunction of agreeable circumstances exerting a pressure to which one could respond, Bernard had really little taste for giving himself up, and he never did so without very soon wishing to take himself back. He had now given himself to something that was not himself, and the fact that he had gained ten thousand francs by it was an insufficient salve to an aching sense of having ceased to be his own master. He had not been playing-- he had been played with. He had been the sport of a blind, brutal chance, and he felt humiliated by having been favored by so rudely-operating a divinity. Good luck and bad luck? Bernard felt very scornful of the distinction, save that good luck seemed to him rather the more vulgar. As the night went on his disgust deepened, and at last the weariness it brought with it sent him to sleep. He slept very late, and woke up to a disagreeable consciousness. At first, before collecting his thoughts, he could not imagine what he had on his mind--was it that he had spoken ill of Angela Vivian? It brought him extraordinary relief to remember that he had gone to bed in extreme ill-humor with his exploits at roulette. After he had dressed himself and just as he was leaving his room, a servant brought him a note superscribed in Gordon&apos;s hand--a note of which the following proved to be the contents.</p><p>&quot;Seven o&apos;clock, A.M.</p><p>&quot;My dear Bernard: Circumstances have determined me to leave Baden immediately, and I shall take the train that starts an hour hence. I am told that you came in very late last night, so I won&apos;t disturb you for a painful parting at this unnatural hour. I came to this decision last evening, and I put up my things; so I have nothing to do but to take myself off. I shall go to Basel, but after that I don&apos;t know where, and in so comfortless an uncertainty I don&apos;t ask you to follow me. Perhaps I shall go to America; but in any case I shall see you sooner or later. Meanwhile, my dear Bernard, be as happy as your brilliant talents should properly make you, and believe me yours ever,</p><p>G.W.</p><p>&quot;P.S. It is perhaps as well that I should say that I am leaving in consequence of something that happened last evening, but not-- by any traceable process--in consequence of the talk we had together. I may also add that I am in very good health and spirits.&quot;</p><p>Bernard lost no time in learning that his friend had in fact departed by the eight o&apos;clock train--the morning was now well advanced; and then, over his breakfast, he gave himself up to meditative surprise. What had happened during the evening-- what had happened after their conversation in Gordon&apos;s room? He had gone to Mrs. Vivian&apos;s--what had happened there? Bernard found it difficult to believe that he had gone there simply to notify her that, having talked it over with an intimate friend, he gave up her daughter, or to mention to the young lady herself that he had ceased to desire the honor of her hand. Gordon alluded to some definite occurrence, yet it was inconceivable that he should have allowed himself to be determined by Bernard&apos;s words--his diffident and irresponsible impression. Bernard resented this idea as an injury to himself, yet it was difficult to imagine what else could have happened. There was Gordon&apos;s word for it, however, that there was no &quot;traceable&quot; connection between the circumstances which led to his sudden departure and the information he had succeeded in extracting from his friend. What did he mean by a &quot;traceable&quot; connection? Gordon never used words idly, and he meant to make of this point an intelligible distinction. It was this sense of his usual accuracy of expression that assisted Bernard in fitting a meaning to his late companion&apos;s letter. He intended to intimate that he had come back to Baden with his mind made up to relinquish his suit, and that he had questioned Bernard simply from moral curiosity-- for the sake of intellectual satisfaction. Nothing was altered by the fact that Bernard had told him a sorry tale; it had not modified his behavior--that effect would have been traceable. It had simply affected his imagination, which was a consequence of the imponderable sort. This view of the case was supported by Gordon&apos;s mention of his good spirits. A man always had good spirits when he had acted in harmony with a conviction. Of course, after renouncing the attempt to make himself acceptable to Miss Vivian, the only possible thing for Gordon had been to leave Baden. Bernard, continuing to meditate, at last convinced himself that there had been no explicit rupture, that Gordon&apos;s last visit had simply been a visit of farewell, that its character had sufficiently signified his withdrawal, and that he had now gone away because, after giving the girl up, he wished very naturally not to meet her again. This was, on Bernard&apos;s part, a sufficiently coherent view of the case; but nevertheless, an hour afterward, as he strolled along the Lichtenthal Alley, he found himself stopping suddenly and exclaiming under his breath--&quot;Have I done her an injury? Have I affected her prospects?&quot; Later in the day he said to himself half a dozen times that he had simply warned Gordon against an incongruous union.</p><p>CHAPTER XV</p><p>Now that gordon was gone, at any rate, gone for good, and not to return, he felt a sudden and singular sense of freedom. It was a feeling of unbounded expansion, quite out of proportion, as he said to himself, to any assignable cause. Everything suddenly appeared to have become very optional; but he was quite at a loss what to do with his liberty. It seemed a harmless use to make of it, in the afternoon, to go and pay another visit to the ladies who lived at the confectioner&apos;s. Here, however, he met a reception which introduced a fresh element of perplexity into the situation that Gordon had left behind him. The door was opened to him by Mrs. Vivian&apos;s maid-servant, a sturdy daughter of the Schwartzwald, who informed him that the ladies--with much regret--were unable to receive any one.</p><p>&quot;They are very busy--and they are ill,&quot; said the young woman, by way of explanation.</p><p>Bernard was disappointed, and he felt like arguing the case.</p><p>&quot;Surely,&quot; he said, &quot;they are not both ill and busy! When you make excuses, you should make them agree with each other.&quot;</p><p>The Teutonic soubrette fixed her round blue eyes a minute upon the patch of blue sky revealed to her by her open door.</p><p>&quot;I say what I can, lieber Herr. It &apos;s not my fault if I &apos;m not so clever as a French mamsell. One of the ladies is busy, the other is ill. There you have it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not quite,&quot; said Bernard. &quot;You must remember that there are three of them.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, the little one--the little one weeps.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Miss Evers weeps!&quot; exclaimed Bernard, to whom the vision of this young lady in tears had never presented itself.</p><p>&quot;That happens to young ladies when they are unhappy,&quot; said the girl; and with an artless yet significant smile she carried a big red hand to the left side of a broad bosom.</p><p>&quot;I am sorry she is unhappy; but which of the other ladies is ill?&quot;</p><p>&quot;The mother is very busy.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And the daughter is ill?&quot;</p><p>The young woman looked at him an instant, smiling again, and the light in her little blue eyes indicated confusion, but not perversity.</p><p>&quot;No, the mamma is ill,&quot; she exclaimed, &quot;and the daughter is very busy. They are preparing to leave Baden.&quot;</p><p>&quot;To leave Baden? When do they go?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t quite know, lieber Herr; but very soon.&quot;</p><p>With this information Bernard turned away. He was rather surprised, but he reflected that Mrs. Vivian had not proposed to spend her life on the banks of the Oos, and that people were leaving Baden every day in the year. In the evening, at the Kursaal, he met Captain Lovelock, who was wandering about with an air of explosive sadness.</p><p>&quot;Damn it, they &apos;re going--yes, they &apos;re going,&quot; said the Captain, after the two young men had exchanged a few allusions to current events. &quot;Fancy their leaving us in that heartless manner! It &apos;s not the time to run away--it &apos;s the time to keep your rooms, if you &apos;re so lucky as to have any. The races begin next week and there &apos;ll be a tremendous crowd. All the grand-ducal people are coming. Miss Evers wanted awfully to see the Grand Duke, and I promised her an introduction. I can&apos;t make out what Mrs. Vivian is up to. I bet you a ten-pound note she &apos;s giving chase. Our friend Wright has come back and gone off again, and Mrs. Vivian means to strike camp and follow. She &apos;ll pot him yet; you see if she does n&apos;t!&quot;</p><p>&quot;She is running away from you, dangerous man!&quot; said Bernard.</p><p>&quot;Do you mean on account of Miss Evers? Well, I admire Miss Evers-- I don&apos;t mind admitting that; but I ain&apos;t dangerous,&quot; said Captain Lovelock, with a lustreless eye. &quot;How can a fellow be dangerous when he has n&apos;t ten shillings in his pocket? Desperation, do you call it? But Miss Evers has n&apos;t money, so far as I have heard. I don&apos;t ask you,&quot; Lovelock continued--&quot;I don&apos;t care a damn whether she has or not. She &apos;s a devilish charming girl, and I don&apos;t mind telling you I &apos;m hit. I stand no chance--I know I stand no chance. Mrs. Vivian &apos;s down on me, and, by Jove, Mrs. Vivian &apos;s right. I &apos;m not the husband to pick out for a young woman of expensive habits and no expectations. Gordon Wright&apos;s the sort of young man that &apos;s wanted, and, hang me, if Mrs. Vivian did n&apos;t want him so much for her own daughter, I believe she &apos;d try and bag him for the little one. Gad, I believe that to keep me off she would like to cut him in two and give half to each of them! I &apos;m afraid of that little woman. She has got a little voice like a screw-driver. But for all that, if I could get away from this cursed place, I would keep the girl in sight-- hang me if I would n&apos;t! I &apos;d cut the races--dash me if I would n&apos;t! But I &apos;m in pawn, if you know what that means. I owe a beastly lot of money at the inn, and that impudent little beggar of a landlord won&apos;t let me out of his sight. The luck &apos;s dead against me at those filthy tables; I have n&apos;t won a farthing in three weeks. I wrote to my brother the other day, and this morning I got an answer from him-- a cursed, canting letter of good advice, remarking that he had already paid my debts seven times. It does n&apos;t happen to be seven; it &apos;s only six, or six and a half! Does he expect me to spend the rest of my life at the Hotel de Hollande? Perhaps he would like me to engage as a waiter there and pay it off by serving at the table d&apos;hote. It would be convenient for him the next time he comes abroad with his seven daughters and two governesses. I hate the smell of their beastly table d&apos;hote! You &apos;re sorry I &apos;m hard up? I &apos;m sure I &apos;m much obliged to you. Can you be of any service? My dear fellow, if you are bent on throwing your money about the place I &apos;m not the man to stop you.&quot; Bernard&apos;s winnings of the previous night were burning a hole, as the phrase is, in his pocket. Ten thousand francs had never before seemed to him so heavy a load to carry, and to lighten the weight of his good luck by lending fifty pounds to a less fortunate fellow-player was an operation that not only gratified his good-nature but strongly commended itself to his conscience. His conscience, however, made its conditions. &quot;My dear Longueville,&quot; Lovelock went on, &quot;I have always gone in for family feeling, early associations, and all that sort of thing. That &apos;s what made me confide my difficulties to Dovedale. But, upon my honor, you remind me of the good Samaritan, or that sort of person; you are fonder of me than my own brother! I &apos;ll take fifty pounds with pleasure, thank you, and you shall have them again-- at the earliest opportunity. My earliest convenience-- will that do? Damn it, it is a convenience, is n&apos;t it? You make your conditions. My dear fellow, I accept them in advance. That I &apos;m not to follow up Miss Evers--is that what you mean? Have you been commissioned by the family to buy me off? It &apos;s devilish cruel to take advantage of my poverty! Though I &apos;m poor, I &apos;m honest. But I am honest, my dear Longueville; that &apos;s the point. I &apos;ll give you my word, and I &apos;ll keep it. I won&apos;t go near that girl again--I won&apos;t think of her till I &apos;ve got rid of your fifty pounds. It &apos;s a dreadful encouragement to extravagance, but that &apos;s your lookout. I &apos;ll stop for their beastly races and the young lady shall be sacred.&quot;</p><p>Longueville called the next morning at Mrs. Vivian&apos;s, and learned that the three ladies had left Baden by the early train, a couple of hours before. This fact produced in his mind a variety of emotions--surprise, annoyance, embarrassment. In spite of his effort to think it natural they should go, he found something precipitate and inexplicable in the manner of their going, and he declared to himself that one of the party, at least, had been unkind and ungracious in not giving him a chance to say good-bye. He took refuge by anticipation, as it were, in this reflection, whenever, for the next three or four days, he foresaw himself stopping short, as he had done before, and asking himself whether he had done an injury to Angela Vivian. This was an idle and unpractical question, inasmuch as the answer was not forthcoming; whereas it was quite simple and conclusive to say, without the note of interrogation, that she was, in spite of many attractive points, an abrupt and capricious young woman. During the three or four days in question, Bernard lingered on at Baden, uncertain what to do or where to go, feeling as if he had received a sudden check-- a sort of spiritual snub--which arrested the accumulation of motive. Lovelock, also, whom Bernard saw every day, appeared to think that destiny had given him a slap in the face, for he had not enjoyed the satisfaction of a last interview with Miss Evers.</p><p>&quot;I thought she might have written me a note,&quot; said the Captain; &quot;but it appears she does n&apos;t write. Some girls don&apos;t write, you know.&quot;</p><p>Bernard remarked that it was possible Lovelock would still have news of Miss Blanche; and before he left Baden he learned that she had addressed her forsaken swain a charming little note from Lausanne, where the three ladies had paused in their flight from Baden, and where Mrs. Vivian had decreed that for the present they should remain.</p><p>&quot;I &apos;m devilish glad she writes,&quot; said Captain Lovelock; &quot;some girls do write, you know.&quot;</p><p>Blanche found Lausanne most horrid after Baden, for whose delights she languished. The delights of Baden, however, were not obvious just now to her correspondent, who had taken Bernard&apos;s fifty pounds into the Kursaal and left them there. Bernard, on learning his misfortune, lent him another fifty, with which he performed a second series of unsuccessful experiments; and our hero was not at his ease until he had passed over to his luckless friend the whole amount of his own winnings, every penny of which found its way through Captain Lovelock&apos;s fingers back into the bank. When this operation was completed, Bernard left Baden, the Captain gloomily accompanying him to the station.</p><p>I have said that there had come over Bernard a singular sense of freedom. One of the uses he made of his freedom was to undertake a long journey. He went to the East and remained absent from Europe for upward of two years-- a period of his life of which it is not proposed to offer a complete history. The East is a wonderful region, and Bernard, investigating the mysteries of Asia, saw a great many curious and beautiful things. He had moments of keen enjoyment; he laid up a great store of impressions and even a considerable sum of knowledge. But, nevertheless, he was not destined to look back upon this episode with any particular complacency. It was less delightful than it was supposed to be; it was less successful than it might have been. By what unnatural element the cup of pleasure was adulterated, he would have been very much at a loss to say; but it was an incontestable fact that at times he sipped it as a medicine, rather than quaffed it as a nectar. When people congratulated him on his opportunity of seeing the world, and said they envied him the privilege of seeing it so well, he felt even more than the usual degree of irritation produced by an insinuation that fortune thinks so poorly of us as to give us easy terms. Misplaced sympathy is the least available of superfluities, and Bernard at this time found himself thinking that there was a good deal of impertinence in the world. He would, however, readily have confessed that, in so far as he failed to enjoy his Oriental wanderings, the fault was his own; though he would have made mentally the gratifying reflection that never was a fault less deliberate. If, during the period of which I speak, his natural gayety had sunk to a minor key, a partial explanation may be found in the fact that he was deprived of the society of his late companion. It was an odd circumstance that the two young men had not met since Gordon&apos;s abrupt departure from Baden. Gordon went to Berlin, and shortly afterward to America, so that they were on opposite sides of the globe. Before he returned to his own country, Bernard made by letter two or three offers to join him in Europe, anywhere that was agreeable to him. Gordon answered that his movements were very uncertain, and that he should be sorry to trouble Bernard to follow him about. He had put him to this inconvenience in making him travel from Venice to Baden, and one such favor at a time was enough to ask, even of the most obliging of men. Bernard was, of course, afraid that what he had told Gordon about Angela Vivian was really the cause of a state of things which, as between two such good friends, wore a perceptible resemblance to alienation. Gordon had given her up; but he bore Bernard a grudge for speaking ill of her, and so long as this disagreeable impression should last, he preferred not to see him. Bernard was frank enough to charge the poor fellow with a lingering rancor, of which he made, indeed, no great crime. But Gordon denied the allegation, and assured him that, to his own perception, there was no decline in their intimacy. He only requested, as a favor and as a tribute to &quot;just susceptibilities,&quot; that Bernard would allude no more either to Miss Vivian or to what had happened at Baden. This request was easy to comply with, and Bernard, in writing, strictly conformed to it; but it seemed to him that the act of doing so was in itself a cooling-off. What would be a better proof of what is called a &quot;tension&quot; than an agreement to avoid a natural topic? Bernard moralized a little over Gordon&apos;s &quot;just susceptibilities,&quot; and felt that the existence of a perverse resentment in so honest a nature was a fact gained to his acquaintance with psychological science. It cannot be said, however, that he suffered this fact to occupy at all times the foreground of his consciousness. Bernard was like some great painters; his foregrounds were very happily arranged. He heard nothing of Mrs. Vivian and her daughter, beyond a rumor that they had gone to Italy; and he learned, on apparently good authority, that Blanche Evers had returned to New York with her mother. He wondered whether Captain Lovelock was still in pawn at the Hotel de Hollande. If he did not allow himself to wonder too curiously whether he had done a harm to Gordon, it may be affirmed that he was haunted by the recurrence of that other question, of which mention has already been made. Had he done a harm to Angela Vivian, and did she know that he had done it? This inquiry by no means made him miserable, and it was far from awaiting him regularly on his pillow. But it visited him at intervals, and sometimes in the strangest places--suddenly, abruptly, in the stillness of an Indian temple, or amid the shrillness of an Oriental crowd. He became familiar with it at last; he called it his Jack-in-the-box. Some invisible touch of circumstance would press the spring, and the little image would pop up, staring him in the face and grinning an interrogation. Bernard always clapped down the lid, for he regarded this phenomenon as strikingly inane. But if it was more frequent than any pang of conscience connected with the remembrance of Gordon himself, this last sentiment was certainly lively enough to make it a great relief to hear at last a rumor that the excellent fellow was about to be married. The rumor reached him at Athens; it was vague and indirect, and it omitted the name of his betrothed. But Bernard made the most of it, and took comfort in the thought that his friend had recovered his spirits and his appetite for matrimony.</p><p>CHAPTER XVI</p><p>It was not till our hero reached Paris, on his return from the distant East, that the rumor I have just mentioned acquired an appreciable consistency. Here, indeed, it took the shape of authentic information. Among a number of delayed letters which had been awaiting him at his banker&apos;s he found a communication from Gordon Wright. During the previous year or two his correspondence with this trusted--and trusting-- friend had not been frequent, and Bernard had received little direct news of him. Three or four short letters had overtaken him in his wanderings--letters as cordial, to all appearance, if not as voluminous, as the punctual missives of an earlier time. Bernard made a point of satisfying himself that they were as cordial; he weighed them in the scales of impartial suspicion. It seemed to him on the whole that there was no relaxation of Gordon&apos;s epistolary tone. If he wrote less often than he used to do, that was a thing that very commonly happened as men grew older. The closest intimacies, moreover, had phases and seasons, intermissions and revivals, and even if his friend had, in fact, averted his countenance from him, this was simply the accomplishment of a periodical revolution which would bring them in due order face to face again. Bernard made a point, himself, of writing tolerably often and writing always in the friendliest tone. He made it a matter of conscience--he liked to feel that he was treating Gordon generously, and not demanding an eye for an eye. The letter he found in Paris was so short that I may give it entire.</p><p>&quot;My dear Bernard (it ran), I must write to you before I write to any one else, though unfortunately you are so far away that you can&apos;t be the first to congratulate me. Try and not be the last, however. I am going to be married-- as soon as possible. You know the young lady, so you can appreciate the situation. Do you remember little Blanche Evers, whom we used to see three years ago at Baden-Baden? Of course you remember her, for I know you used often to talk with her. You will be rather surprised, perhaps, at my having selected her as the partner of a life-time; but we manage these matters according to our lights. I am very much in love with her, and I hold that an excellent reason. I have been ready any time this year or two to fall in love with some simple, trusting, child-like nature. I find this in perfection in this charming young girl. I find her so natural and fresh. I remember telling you once that I did n&apos;t wish to be fascinated-- that I wanted to estimate scientifically the woman I should marry. I have altogether got over that, and I don&apos;t know how I ever came to talk such nonsense. I am fascinated now, and I assure you I like it! The best of it is that I find it does n&apos;t in the least prevent my estimating Blanche. I judge her very fairly--I see just what she is. She &apos;s simple-- that &apos;s what I want; she &apos;s tender--that &apos;s what I long for. You will remember how pretty she is; I need n&apos;t remind you of that. She was much younger then, and she has greatly developed and improved in these two or three years. But she will always be young and innocent--I don&apos;t want her to improve too much. She came back to America with her mother the winter after we met her at Baden, but I never saw her again till three months ago. Then I saw her with new eyes, and I wondered I could have been so blind. But I was n&apos;t ready for her till then, and what makes me so happy now is to know that I have come to my present way of feeling by experience. That gives me confidence-- you see I am a reasoner still. But I am under the charm, for all my reason. We are to be married in a month-- try and come back to the wedding. Blanche sends you a message, which I will give you verbatim. &apos;Tell him I am not such a silly little chatterbox as I used to be at Baden. I am a great deal wiser; I am almost as clever as Angela Vivian.&apos; She has an idea you thought Miss Vivian very clever--but it is not true that she is equally so. I am very happy; come home and see.&quot;</p><p>Bernard went home, but he was not able to reach the United States in time for Gordon&apos;s wedding, which took place at midsummer. Bernard, arriving late in the autumn, found his friend a married man of some months&apos; standing, and was able to judge, according to his invitation, whether he appeared happy. The first effect of the letter I have just quoted had been an immense surprise; the second had been a series of reflections which were quite the negative of surprise; and these operations of Bernard&apos;s mind had finally merged themselves in a simple sentiment of jollity. He was delighted that Gordon should be married; he felt jovial about it; he was almost indifferent to the question of whom he had chosen. Certainly, at first, the choice of Blanche Evers seemed highly incongruous; it was difficult to imagine a young woman less shaped to minister to Gordon&apos;s strenuous needs than the light-hearted and empty-headed little flirt whose inconsequent prattle had remained for Bernard one of the least importunate memories of a charming time. Blanche Evers was a pretty little goose--the prettiest of little geese, perhaps, and doubtless the most amiable; but she was not a companion for a peculiarly serious man, who would like his wife to share his view of human responsibilities. What a singular selection--what a queer infatuation! Bernard had no sooner committed himself to this line of criticism than he stopped short, with the sudden consciousness of error carried almost to the point of naivetae. He exclaimed that Blanche Evers was exactly the sort of girl that men of Gordon Wright&apos;s stamp always ended by falling in love with, and that poor Gordon knew very much better what he was about in this case than he had done in trying to solve the deep problem of a comfortable life with Angela Vivian. This was what your strong, solid, sensible fellows always came to; they paid, in this particular, a larger tribute to pure fancy than the people who were supposed habitually to cultivate that muse. Blanche Evers was what the French call an article of fantasy, and Gordon had taken a pleasure in finding her deliciously useless. He cultivated utility in other ways, and it pleased and flattered him to feel that he could afford, morally speaking, to have a kittenish wife. He had within himself a fund of common sense to draw upon, so that to espouse a paragon of wisdom would be but to carry water to the fountain. He could easily make up for the deficiencies of a wife who was a little silly, and if she charmed and amused him, he could treat himself to the luxury of these sensations for themselves. He was not in the least afraid of being ruined by it, and if Blanche&apos;s birdlike chatter and turns of the head had made a fool of him, he knew it perfectly well, and simply took his stand upon his rights. Every man has a right to a little flower-bed, and life is not all mere kitchen-gardening. Bernard rapidly extemporized this rough explanation of the surprise his friend had offered him, and he found it all-sufficient for his immediate needs. He wrote Blanche a charming note, to which she replied with a great deal of spirit and grace. Her little letter was very prettily turned, and Bernard, reading it over two or three times, said to himself that, to do her justice, she might very well have polished her intellect a trifle during these two or three years. As she was older, she could hardly help being wiser. It even occurred to Bernard that she might have profited by the sort of experience that is known as the discipline of suffering. What had become of Captain Lovelock and that tender passion which was apparently none the less genuine for having been expressed in the slang of a humorous period? Had they been permanently separated by judicious guardians, and had she been obliged to obliterate his image from her lightly-beating little heart? Bernard had felt sure at Baden that, beneath her contemptuous airs and that impertinent consciousness of the difficulties of conquest by which a pretty American girl attests her allegiance to a civilization in which young women occupy the highest place--he had felt sure that Blanche had a high appreciation of her handsome Englishman, and that if Lovelock should continue to relish her charms, he might count upon the advantages of reciprocity. But it occurred to Bernard that Captain Lovelock had perhaps been faithless; that, at least, the discourtesy of chance and the inhumanity of an elder brother might have kept him an eternal prisoner at the Hotel de Hollande (where, for all Bernard knew to the contrary, he had been obliged to work out his destiny in the arduous character of a polyglot waiter); so that the poor young girl, casting backward glances along the path of Mrs. Vivian&apos;s retreat, and failing to detect the onward rush of a rescuing cavalier, had perforce believed herself forsaken, and had been obliged to summon philosophy to her aid. It was very possible that her philosophic studies had taught her the art of reflection; and that, as she would have said herself, she was tremendously toned down. Once, at Baden, when Gordon Wright happened to take upon himself to remark that little Miss Evers was bored by her English gallant, Bernard had ventured to observe, in petto, that Gordon knew nothing about it. But all this was of no consequence now, and Bernard steered further and further away from the liability to detect fallacies in his friend. Gordon had engaged himself to marry, and our critical hero had not a grain of fault to find with this resolution. It was a capital thing; it was just what he wanted; it would do him a world of good. Bernard rejoiced with him sincerely, and regretted extremely that a series of solemn engagements to pay visits in England should prevent his being present at the nuptials.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>the drizzling and snow-slimed months of winter. It looked anything this May after noon except a starting-place for drama. But, then, the great dramas of life often avoid the splendid estates and trappings with which conventional romance would equip them, and have their beginnings in unlikeliest environment; and thence sweep on to a noble, consuming tragedy, or to a glorious unfolding of souls. Life is a composite of contradictions--a puzzle to the wisest of us: the lily lifting its graceful purity aloft may have its roots in a dunghill. Samson&apos;s dead lion putrefying by a roadside is ever and again being found to be a storehouse of wild honey. We are too accustomed to the ordinary and the obvious to consider that beauty or worth may, after bitter travail, grow out of that which is ugly and unpromising.</p><p>Thus no one who looked on Maggie Carlisle and Larry Brainard at their beginnings, had even a guess what manner of persons were to develop from them or what their stories were to be.</p><p>The houses on the bit of street were all three-storied and all of a uniform, dingy, scaling redness. The house of the Duchess, on the left side as you came down the street toward the little Square which squatted beside the East River, differed from the others only in that three balls of tarnished gilt swung before it and unredeemed pledges emanated a weakly lure from behind its dirt-streaked windows, and also in that the personality of the Duchess gave the house something of a character of its own.</p><p>The street did business with her when pressed for funds, but it knew little definite about the Duchess except that she was shriveled and bent and almost wordless and was seemingly without emotions. But of course there were rumors. She was so old, and had been so long in the drab little street, that she was as much a legend as a real person. No one knew exactly how she had come by the name of &quot;Duchess.&quot; There were misty, unsupported stories that long, long ago she had been a shapely and royal figure in colored fleshings, and that her title had been given her in those her ruling days. Also there was a vague story that she had come by the name through an old liking for the romances of that writer who put forth her, or his, or their, prolific extravagances under the exalted pseudonym of &quot;The Duchess.&quot; Also there was a rumor that the title came from a former alleged habit of the Duchess of carrying beneath her shapeless dress a hoard of jewels worthy to be a duchy&apos;s heirlooms. But all these were just stories--no more. Down in this quarter of New York nicknames come easily, and once applied they adhere to the end.</p><p>Some believed that she was now the mere ashes of a woman, in whom lived only the last flickering spark. And some believed that beneath that drab and spent appearance there smouldered a great fire, which might blaze forth upon some occasion. But no one knew. As she was now, so she had always been even in the memory of people considered old in the neighborhood.</p><p>Beside the fact that she ran a pawnshop, which was reputed to be also a fence, there were only two or three other facts that were known to her neighbors. One was that in the far past there had been a daughter, and that while still a very young girl this daughter had disappeared. It was rumored that the Duchess had placed the daughter in a convent and that later tire girl had married; but the daughter had never appeared again in the quarter. Another fact was that there was a grandson, a handsome young devil, who had come down occasionally to visit his grandmother, until he began his involuntary sojourn at Sing Sing. Another fact--this one the best known of all--was that two or three years before an impudent, willful young girl named Maggie Carlisle had come to live with her.</p><p>It was rather a meager history. People wondered and talked of mystery. But perhaps the only mystery arose from the fact that the Duchess was the kind of woman who never volunteered information about her affairs, and the kind even the boldly curious hesitate to question...</p><p>And down here it was, in this unlovely street, in the Duchess&apos;s unlovely house, that the drama of Maggie Carlisle and Larry Brainard began its unpromising and stormy career: for, though they had thought of it little, their forebears had been sowers of the wind, they themselves had sown some of that careless seed and were to sow yet more--and there was to be the reaping of that seed&apos;s wild crop.</p><p>CHAPTER II</p><p>When Maggie entered the studio on the Duchess&apos;s third floor, the big, red-haired, unkempt painter roared his rebukes at her. She stiffened, and in the resentment of her proud youth did not even offer an explanation. Nodding to her father and Barney Palmer, she silently crossed to the window and stood sullenly gazing over the single mongrel tree before the house and down the narrow street and across the little Square, at the swirling black tide which raced through East River. That painter was a beast! Yes, and a fool!</p><p>But quickly the painter was forgotten, and once more her mind reverted to Larry--at last Larry was coming back!--only to have the painter, after a minute, interrupt her excited imagination with:</p><p>&quot;What&apos;s the matter with your tongue, Maggie? Generally you stab back with it quick enough.&quot;</p><p>She turned, still sulky and silent, and gazed with cynical superiority at the easel. &quot;Nuts&quot;--it was Barney Palmer who had thus lightly rechristened the painter when he had set up his studio in the attic above the pawnshop six months before--Nuts was transferring the seamy, cunning face of her father, &quot;Old Jimmie&quot; Carlisle, to the canvas with swift, unhesitating strokes.</p><p>&quot;For the lova Christ and the twelve apostles, including that piker Judas,&quot; woefully intoned Old Jimmie from the model&apos;s chair, &quot;lemme get down off this platform!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Move and I&apos;ll wipe my palette off on that Mardi Gras vest of yours!&quot; grunted the big painter autocratically through his mouthful of brushes.</p><p>&quot;O God--and I got a cramp in my back, and my neck&apos;s gone to sleep!&quot; groaned Old Jimmie, leaning forward on his cane. &quot;Daughter, dear&quot;-- plaintively to Maggie--&quot;what is the crazy gentleman doing to me?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It&apos;s an awful smear, father.&quot; Maggie spoke slightingly, but with a tone of doubt. It was not the sort of picture that eighteen has been taught to like--yet the picture did possess an intangible something that provoked doubt as to its quality. &quot;You sure do look one old burglar!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not a cheap burglar?&quot;--hopefully.</p><p>&quot;Naw!&quot; exploded the man at the easel in his big voice, first taking the brushes from his mouth. &quot;You&apos;re a swell-looking old pirate!--ready to loot the sub-treasury and then scuttle the old craft with all hands on board! A breathing, speaking, robbing likeness!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Maggie&apos;s right, and Nuts&apos;s right,&quot; put in Barney Palmer. &quot;It&apos;s sure a rotten picture, and then again it sure looks like you, Jimmie.&quot;</p><p>The smartly dressed Barney--Barney could not keep away from Broadway tailors and haberdashers with their extravagant designs and color schemes--dismissed the insignificant matter of the portrait, and resumed the really important matter which had brought him to her.</p><p>&quot;Are you certain, Maggie, that the Duchess hasn&apos;t heard from Larry?&quot;</p><p>&quot;If she has, she hasn&apos;t mentioned it. But why don&apos;t you ask her yourself?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I did, but she wouldn&apos;t say a thing. You can&apos;t get a word out of the Duchess with a jimmy, unless she wants to talk--and she never wants to talk.&quot; He turned his sharp, narrowly set eyes upon the lean old man. &quot;It&apos;s got me guessing, Jimmie. Larry was due out of Sing Sing yesterday, and we haven&apos;t had a peep from him, and though she won&apos;t talk I&apos;m sure he hasn&apos;t been here to see his grandmother.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Sure is funny,&quot; agreed Old Jimmie. &quot;But mebbe Larry has broke straight into a fresh game and is playing a lone hand. He&apos;s a quick worker, Larry is--and he&apos;s got nerve.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, whatever&apos;s keeping him we&apos;re tied up till Larry comes.&quot; Barney turned back to Maggie. &quot;I say, sister, how about robing yourself in your raiment of joy and coming with yours truly to a palace of jazz, there to dine and show the populace what real dancing is?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Can&apos;t, Barney. Mr. Hunt&quot;--the name given the painter at his original christening--&quot;asked the Duchess and me to have dinner up here. He&apos;s to cook it himself.&quot;</p><p>&quot;For your sake I hope he cooks better than he paints.&quot; And sliding down in his chair until he rested upon a more comfortable vertebra, the elegant Barney lit a monogrammed cigarette, and with idle patience swung his bamboo stick.</p><p>&quot;You&apos;re half an hour late, Maggie,&quot; Hunt began at her again in his rumbling voice. &quot;Can&apos;t stand for such a waste of my time!&quot;</p><p>&quot;How about my time?&quot; retorted Maggie, who indeed had a grievance. &quot;I was supposed to have the day off, but instead I had to carry that tray of cigarettes around till the last person in the Ritzmore had finished lunch. Anyhow,&quot; she added, &quot;I don&apos;t see that your time&apos;s worth so much when you spend it on such painty messes as these.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It&apos;s not up to you to tell me what my time&apos;s worth!&quot; retorted Hunt. &quot;I pay you--that&apos;s enough for you!... Because you weren&apos;t on time, I stuck Old Jimmie out there to finish off this picture. I&apos;ll be through with the old cut-throat in ten minutes. Be ready to take his place.&quot;</p><p>&quot;All right,&quot; said Maggie sulkily.</p><p>For all his roaring she was not much afraid of the painter. While his brushes flicked at, and streaked across, the canvas she stood idly watching him. He was in paint-smeared, baggy trousers and a soft shirt whose open collar gave a glimpse of a deep chest matted with hair and whose rolled-up sleeves revealed forearms that seemed absurdly large to be fiddling with those slender sticks. A crowbar would have seemed more in harmony. He was unromantically old--all of thirty-five Maggie guessed; and with his square, rough-hewn face and tousled, reddish hair he was decidedly ugly. But for the fact that he really did work-- though of course his work was foolish--and the fact that he paid his way--he bought little, but no one could beat him by so much as a penny in a bargain, not even the Duchess--Maggie might have considered him as one of the many bums who floated purposelessly through that drab region.</p><p>Also, had there not been so many queer people coming and going in this neighborhood--Eads Howe, the hobo millionaire, settlement workers, people who had grown rich and old in their business and preferred to live near it--Maggie might have regarded Hunt with more curiosity, and even with suspicion; but down here one accepted queer people as a matter of course, the only fear being that secretly they might be police or government agents, which Maggie and the others knew very well Hunt was not. When Hunt had rented this attic as a studio they had accepted his explanation that he had taken it because it was cheap and he could afford to pay no more. Likewise they had accepted his explanation that he was a mechanic by trade who had roughed it all over the world and was possessed with an itch for painting, that lately he had worked in various garages, that it was his habit to hoard his money till he got a bit ahead and then go off on a painting spree. All these admissions were indubitably plausible, for his paintings seemed the unmistakable handiwork of an irresponsible, hard- fisted motor mechanic.</p><p>Maggie shifted to her other foot and glanced casually at the canvases which leaned against the walls of the shabby studio. There was the Duchess: incredibly old, the face a web of wrinkles, the lips indrawn over toothless and shrunken gums. the nose a thin, curved beak, the eyes deep-set, gleaming, inscrutable, watching; and drawn tight over the hair--even Maggie did not know whether that hair was a wig or the Duchess&apos;s--the faded Oriental shawl which was fastened beneath her chin and which fell over her thin, bent chest. There was O&apos;Flaherty, the good-natured policeman on the beat. There was the old watchmaker next door. There was Black Hurley, the notorious gang leader, who sometimes swaggered into the district like a dirty and evil feudal lord. There was a Jewish pushcart peddler, white-bearded and skull- capped. There was an Italian mother sitting on the curb, her feet in the gutter, smiling down at the baby that was hungrily suckling at her milk-heavy breast. And so on, and so on. Just the ordinary, uninteresting things Maggie saw around the block. There was not a single pretty picture in the lot.</p><p>Hunt swung the canvas from his easel and stood it against the wall. &quot;That&apos;ll be all for you, Jimmie. Beat it and make room for Maggie. Maggie, take your same pose.&quot;</p><p>Old Jimmie ambled forward and gazed at his portrait as Hunt was settling an unfinished picture on his easel. It had rather amused Jimmie and filled in his idle time to sit for the crazy painter; and, incidentally, another picture of him would do him no particular harm since the police already had all the pictures they needed of him over at Headquarters. As he gazed at Hunt&apos;s work Old Jimmie snickered.</p><p>&quot;I say, Nuts, what you goin&apos; to do with this mess of paint?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Going to sell it to the Metropolitan Museum, you old sinner!&quot; snapped Hunt.</p><p>Old Jimmie cackled at the joke. He knew pictures; that is, good pictures. He had had an invisible hand in more than one clever transaction in which handsome pictures alleged to have been smuggled in, Gainsboroughs and Romneys and such (there had been most profit for him in handling the forgeries of these particular masters), had been put, with an air of great secrecy, into the hands of divers newly rich gentlemen who believed they were getting masterpieces at bargain prices through this evasion of customs laws.</p><p>&quot;Nuts,&quot; chuckled Old Jimmie, &quot;this junk wouldn&apos;t be so funny if you didn&apos;t seem to believe you were really painting.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Junk! Funny!&quot; Hunt swung around, one big hand closed about Jimmie&apos;s lean neck and the other seized his thin shoulder. &quot;You grandfather of the devil and all his male progeny, you talk like that and I&apos;ll chuck you through the window!&quot;</p><p>Old Jimmie grinned. The grip of the big hands of the painter, though powerful, was light. They all knew that the loud ravings of the painter never presaged violence. They had grown to like him, to accept him as almost one of themselves; though of course they looked down upon him with amused pity for his imbecility regarding his paintings.</p><p>&quot;Get out of here,&quot; continued Hunt, &quot;or cut out all this noise that comes from your having a brain that rattles. I&apos;ve got to work.&quot;</p><p>Hunt turned again to his easel, and Old Jimmie, still grinning, lowered himself into a chair, lit a cigar, and winked at Barney. Hunt, with brush poised, regarded Maggie a moment.</p><p>&quot;You there, Maggie,&quot; he ordered, &quot;chin up a bit more, some flash in your eyes, more pep in your bearing--as though you were asking all the dames of the Winter Garden, and the Charity Ball, and the Horse Show, and that gang of tea-swilling women at the Ritzmore you sell cigarettes to--as though you were asking them all who the dickens they think they are ... O God, can&apos;t you do anything!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I&apos;m doing the best I can, and I look more like those dames than you look like a painter!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Shut up! I&apos;m paying you a dollar an hour to pose, not to talk back to me. And you&apos;d have more respect for my money if you knew how hard I had to work to earn it: carrying a motor car around in each hand. Wash off that scowl and try to look as I said ... There, that&apos;s better. Hold it.&quot;</p><p>He began to paint rapidly, with quick glances back and forth between the canvas and Maggie. Maggie&apos;s dress was just the ordinary shirt- waist and skirt that the shopgirl and her sisters wear; Hunt had ordered it so. She was above the medium height, with thick black hair tinted with shadowy blue, long dark lashes, dark scimitars of eyebrows, a full, firm mouth, a nose with just the right tilt to it-- all effective points for Hunt in what he wished to do. But what had attracted him most and given him his idea was her look; hardly pertness, or impudence--rather a cynical, mature, defiant certainty in herself.</p><p>Erect in her cheap shirt-waist, she gazed off into space with a smiling, confident challenge to all the world. Hunt was trying to make his picture a true portrait--and also make it a symbol of many things which still were only taking shape in his own mind: of beauty rising from the gutter to overcome beauty of more favored birth, and to reign above it; also of a lower stratum surging up and breaking through the upper stratum, becoming a part of it, or assimilating it, or conquering it. Leading families replaced by other families, classes replaced by other classes, nations replaced by other nations--such was the inevitable social process--so read the records of the fifty or sixty centuries since history began to be written. Oh, he was trying to say a lot in this portrait of a girl of ordinary birth--even less than ordinary--in her cheap shirt-waist and skirt!</p><p>And it pleased the sardonic element in Hunt&apos;s unmoral nature that this Maggie, through whom he was trying to symbolize so much, he knew to be a petty larcenist: shoplifting and matters of similar consequence. She had been cynically frank about this to him; casual, almost boastful. Her possessing a bent toward such activities was hardly to be wondered at, with her having Old Jimmie as her father, and the Duchess as a landlady, and having for acquaintances such gentlemen as Barney Palmer and this returning prison-bird, Larry Brainard.</p><p>But petty crime, thought Hunt, would not be Maggie&apos;s forte if she developed her possibilities. With her looks, her boldness, her cleverness, she had the makings of a magnificent adventuress. As he painted, he wondered what she was going to do, and become; and he watched her not only with a painter&apos;s eye intent upon the present, but with keen speculation upon the future.</p><p>CHAPTER III</p><p>Presently Hunt&apos;s mind shifted to Larry Brainard, whom Barney Palmer and Old Jimmie Carlisle had come here to see. Hunt had a mind curious about every thing and every one; and blustering, bullying creature though he was, he had the gift, possessed by but few, of audaciously thrusting himself into other people&apos;s affairs without arousing their resentment. He was keen to learn Maggie&apos;s attitude toward Larry; and he spoke not so much to gain knowledge of Larry as to draw her out.</p><p>&quot;This Larry--what sort of chap is he, Maggie?&quot; As with most artists, talking did not interfere with Hunt&apos;s painting.</p><p>Warm color slowly tinted Maggie&apos;s cheeks. &quot;He&apos;s clever,&quot; she said positively. &quot;You already know that. But I was only a girl when he was sent away.&quot;</p><p>Hunt smiled at her idea of her present maturity, implied by her last sentence. &quot;But you lived with the Duchess for a year before he was sent away. You must have seen a lot of him, and got to know him well.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, he used to come down now and then to see his grandmother--I was only fifteen or sixteen then--just a girl, and he didn&apos;t pay much attention to me. Father can tell you better just how smart he is.&quot;</p><p>Old Jimmie spoke up promptly. He knew Hunt was not a police stool, and he liked the painter as much as it was in him to like any man; so he felt none of the reserve or caution that might have controlled him in other company.</p><p>&quot;You bet Larry&apos;s smart! Got the quickest brain of any con man in the business--and him only about twenty-seven now. Some think I&apos;m a smooth proposition myself, but Larry puts it all over me. That&apos;s why I&apos;m willing to let him be my boss. He&apos;s a wonder at thinking up new stunts, and then at working out safe new ways of putting them across.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But the police landed him at last,&quot; commented Hunt.</p><p>&quot;Yes, but that was only because another man muffed his end of the job.&quot;</p><p>The handsome Barney Palmer had been restless during Old Jimmie&apos;s eulogy. &quot;Oh, Larry&apos;s all to the good--but he&apos;s not the only party that&apos;s got real ideas.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Huh!&quot; grunted Old Jimmie. &quot;But you&apos;ll remember that we haven&apos;t put over any big ones since Larry&apos;s been in stir.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s been because you wouldn&apos;t listen to any of my ideas!&quot; retorted Barney. &quot;And I handed out some peaches.&quot;</p><p>Even during the period of Larry&apos;s active reign it had irked Barney to accept another man as leader, and it had irked him even more during the interregnum while Larry was guest of the State. For Barney believed in his own Napoleonic strain.</p><p>&quot;Don&apos;t let yourself get sore, Barney,&quot; Old Jimmie said appeasingly. &quot;You&apos;ll have plenty of chances to try out your ideas as the main guy before you cash in. You know the outfit wanted to lay low for a while, anyhow. But we&apos;ll be putting over a lot of the big stuff when Larry gets out.&quot;</p><p>Hunt had noted a quick light come into Maggie&apos;s dark eyes while her father praised the absent leader. He himself suddenly perceived a new possibility.</p><p>&quot;Maggie, ever think about teaming up with Larry?&quot; he demanded, with his audacious keenness.</p><p>She flushed, and hesitated. He did not wait for her slow-coming reply, but turned to her father.</p><p>&quot;Jimmie, did Larry ever use women in his stunts?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Never. Whenever we suggested using a skirt, Larry absolutely said there was nothing doing. That&apos;s one point where he was all wrong. Nothing helps so much, when the sucker is at all sentimental, as a clever, good-looking woman. And Larry&apos;ll come around to it all right. He&apos;ll see the sense of it, now that he&apos;s older and has had two years to think things over.&quot;</p><p>Old Jimmie nodded, showing his yellow teeth in a sly grin. &quot;You said something a second ago: Maggie and Larry! They&apos;ll make a wonder of a team! I mean that she&apos;ll work under him with the rest of us. I&apos;ve been thinking about it a long while. Mebbe you haven&apos;t guessed it, but we&apos;ve been coaching her for the part, and she&apos;s just about ripe. She&apos;s got the looks, and we can dress her right for whatever job&apos;s on hand. Oh, Larry&apos;ll put over some great things with Maggie!&quot;</p><p>If Hunt felt that there was anything cynically unpaternal in this father planning for his daughter a career of crime, he gave no sign of it. His attention was just then all on Maggie. He saw her eyes grow yet more bright at these last sentences of her father: bright with the vision of approaching adventure.</p><p>&quot;The idea suits you, Maggie?&quot; he asked.</p><p>&quot;Sure. It&apos;ll be great--for Larry is a wonder!&quot;</p><p>Barney Palmer suddenly rose, his face twisted with anger. &quot;I&apos;m all fed up on this Larry, Larry, Larry! Come on, Jimmie. Let&apos;s get uptown.&quot;</p><p>Wise Old Jimmie saw that Barney was near an outburst. &quot;All right, Barney, all right,&quot; he said promptly. &quot;Not much use waiting any longer, anyhow. If Larry comes, we&apos;ll fix it with the Duchess to meet him tomorrow.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then so-long, Maggie,&quot; Barney flung at her, and that swagger ex-jockey, gambler, and clever manipulator of the confidence of people with money, slashed aside the shabby burlap curtains with his wisp of a bamboo walking-stick, and strode out of the room.</p><p>&quot;Good-night, daughter,&quot; and Old Jimmie crossed and kissed her. She kissed him back--a perfunctory kiss. Maggie had never paused to think the matter out, but for some reason she felt little real affection for her father, though of course she admired his astuteness. Perhaps her unconscious lack of love was due in part to the fact that she had never lived with him. Ever since she remembered he had boarded her out, here and there, as he was now boarding her at the Duchess&apos;s--and had only come to visit her at intervals, sometimes intervals that stretched into months.</p><p>&quot;Barney is rather sweet on you,&quot; remarked Hunt after the two were gone.</p><p>&quot;I know he is,&quot; conceded Maggie in a matter-of-fact way.</p><p>&quot;And he seems jealous of Larry--both regarding you, and regarding the bunch.&quot;</p><p>&quot;He thinks he can run the bunch just as well as Larry. Barney&apos;s clever all right, and has plenty of nerve--but he&apos;s not in Larry&apos;s class. Not by a million miles!&quot;</p><p>Hunt perceived that this daring, world-defying, embryonically beautiful model of his had idealized the homecoming nephew of the Duchess into her especial hero. Hunt said no more, but painted rapidly. Night had fallen outside, and long since he had switched on the electric lights. He seemed not at all finicky in this matter of light; he had no supposedly indispensable north light, and midday or midnight were almost equally apt to find him slashing with brush or scratching with crayon.</p><p>Presently the Duchess entered. No word was spoken. The Duchess, noteworthy for her mastery of silence, sank into a chair, a bent and shrunken image, nothing seemingly alive about her but her faintly gleaming, deep-set eyes. Several minutes passed, then Hunt lifted the canvas from the easel and stood it against the wall.</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s all for to-day, Maggie,&quot; he announced, pushing the easel to one side. &quot;Duchess, you and this wild young thing spread the banquet- table while I wash up.&quot;</p><p>He disappeared into a corner shut off by burlap curtains. From within there issued the sound of splashing water and the sputtering roar of snatches of the Toreador&apos;s song in a very big and very bad baritone.</p><p>Maggie put out a hand, and kept the Duchess from rising. &quot;Sit still-- I&apos;ll fix the table.&quot;</p><p>Silently the Duchess acquiesced. Maggie had never felt any tenderness toward this strange, silent woman with whom she had lived for three years, but it was perhaps an indication of qualities within Maggie, whose existence she herself never even guessed, that she instinctively pushed the old woman aside from tasks which involved any physical effort. Maggie now swung the back of a laundry bench up to form a table-top, and upon it proceeded to spread a cloth and arrange a medley of chipped dishes. As she moved swiftly and deftly about, the Duchess watching her with immobile features, these two made a strangely contrasting pair: one seemingly spent and at life&apos;s grayest end, the other electric with vitality and giving off the essence of life&apos;s unknown adventures.</p><p>Hunt stepped out between the curtains, pulling on his coat. &quot;You&apos;ll find that chow in my fireless cooker will beat the Ritz,&quot; he boasted. &quot;The tenderest, fattest kind of a fatted calf for the returned prodigal.&quot;</p><p>Maggie started. &quot;The prodigal! You mean--Larry is coming?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Sure,&quot; grinned Hunt. &quot;That&apos;s why we celebrate.&quot;</p><p>Maggie wheeled upon the Duchess. &quot;Is Larry really coming?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yes,&quot; said the old woman.</p><p>&quot;But--but why the uncertainty about when he was coming back? Father and Barney thought he was due to get out yesterday.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Just a mistake we all made about his release. His time was up this afternoon.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But you told Barney and my father you hadn&apos;t heard from him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I had heard,&quot; said the Duchess in her flat tone. &quot;If they want to see him they can see him to-morrow.&quot;</p><p>&quot;When--when will he be here?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Any minute,&quot; said the Duchess.</p><p>Without a word Maggie whirled about and the next moment she was in her room on the floor below. She did not know what prompted her, but she had a frantic desire to get out of this plain shirt-waist and skirt and into something that would be striking. She considered her scanty wardrobe; her father had recently spoken of handsome gowns and furnishings, but as yet these existed only in his words, and the pseudo-evening gowns which she had worn to restaurant dances with Barney she knew to be cheap and uneffective.</p><p>Suddenly she remembered the things Hunt had given her, or had loaned her, the evening four months earlier when he had taken her to an artists&apos; masquerade ball--though to her it had been a bitter disappointment when Hunt had carried her away before the unmasking at twelve o&apos;clock. She tore off the offending waist and skirt, pulled from beneath the bed the pasteboard box containing her costume; and in five minutes of flying hands the transformation was completed. Her thick hair of burnished black was piled on top of her head in gracious disorder, and from it swayed a scarlet paper flower. About her lithe body, over a black satin skirt, swathing her in its graceful folds, clung a Spanish shawl of saffron-colored background with long brown silken fringe, and flowered all over with brown and red and peacock blue, and held in place by three huge barbaric pins jeweled with colored glass, one at either hip and upon her right shoulder, leaving her smooth shoulders bare and free. With no more than a glance to get the hasty effect, she hurried up to the studio.</p><p>Hunt whistled at sight of her, but made no remark. Flushed, she looked back at him defiantly. The Duchess gave no sign whatever of being aware of the transformation.</p><p>Maggie with excited touches tried to improve her setting of the table, aquiver with expectancy and suspense at the nearness of the meeting-- every nerve of audition strained to catch the first footfall upon the stairs. Hunt, watching her, could but wonder, in case Larry was the clever, dashing person that had been described, what would be the outcome when these two natures met and perhaps joined forces.</p><p>CHAPTER IV</p><p>While the preparations for dinner were going on in the studio, down below Larry turned a corner and swung up the narrow street toward the pawnshop. He halted and peered in before entering; in doing this he was obeying the caution that was his by instinct and training.</p><p>Leaning over the counter within, and chatting with his grandmother&apos;s assistant was Casey, one of the two plain-clothesmen who had arrested him. Larry drew back. He was not afraid of Casey, or of Gavegan, Casey&apos;s partner, or of the whole police force, or of the State of New York; they had nothing on him, he had settled accounts by having done his bit. All the same, he preferred not to meet Casey just then. So he went down the street, crossed the cobbled plaza along the water-front, and slipped through the darkness among the trucks out to the end of the pier. Under his feet the East River splashed sluggishly against the piles, but out near the river&apos;s center he could see the tide swirling out to sea at six miles an hour, toward the great shadowy Manhattan Bridge crested with its splendid tiara of lights.</p><p>He stretched himself and breathed deeply of the warm free spring. It tasted good after two long years of the prison&apos;s sealed air. He would have liked to shed his clothing and dive down for a brisk fight with the tingling water. Larry had always taken pleasure in keeping his body fit. He had not cared for the gymnasiums of the ward clubs where he would have been welcome; in them there had been too much rough horseplay and foulness of mouth, and such had always been offensive to him. And though he had ever looked the gentleman, he had known that the New York Athletic Club and other similar clubs were not for him; they pried a bit too much into a candidate&apos;s social and professional standing. So he had turned to a club where really searching inquiries were rarely made; for years he had belonged to a branch of the Y.M.C.A. located just off Broadway, and had played handball and boxed with chunky, slow-footed city detectives who were struggling to retain some physical activity, and with fat playwrights, and with Jewish theatrical managers, and with the few authentic Christians who occasionally strayed into the place and seemed ill at ease therein. He had liked this club for another reason; his sense of humor had often been highly excited by the thought of his being a member of the Y.M.C.A.</p><p>Having this instinct for physical fitness, he had not greatly minded being a coal-passer during the greater part of his stay at Sing Sing; better that than working in the knitting mills; so that now, though underfed and under weight, he was active and hard-muscled.</p><p>Larry Brainard could not have told why, and just when, he had turned to devious ways. He had never put that part of his life under the microscope. But the simple facts were that he had become an orphan at fifteen and a broker&apos;s clerk at nineteen after a course in a business college; and that experiences with wash-sales and such devious and dubious practices of brokers, his high spirits, his instinct for pleasure, his desire for big winnings--these had swept him into a wild crowd before he had been old enough to take himself seriously, and had started him upon a brilliant career of adventures and unlawful money- making in whose excitement there had been no let-up until his arrest. He had never thought about such technical and highly academic subjects as right and wrong up to the day when Casey and Gavegan had slipped the handcuffs upon him. To laugh, to dance, to plan and direct clever coups, to spend the proceeds gayly and lavishly--to challenge the police with another daring coup: that had been life to him, a game that was all excitement.</p><p>And now, after two years in which there had been plenty of time for thinking, his conscience still did not trouble him on the score of his offenses. He believed, and was largely right in this belief, that the suckers he had trimmed had all been out to secure unlawful gain and to take cunning advantage of his supposedly foolish self and of other dupes. He had been too clever for them, that was all; in desire and intent they had been as great cheats as himself. So he felt no remorse over his victims; and as for anything he may have done against that impersonal entity, the criminal statutes, why, the period in prison had squared all such matters. So he now faced life pleasantly and with care-free soul.</p><p>Larry had turned away from the dark river and had started to retrace his way, when he saw a man approaching through the darkness. Larry paused. The man drew near and halted exactly in front of Larry. By the swing of his body Larry had recognized the man, and his own figure instinctively grew tense.</p><p>&quot;What you doin&apos; out here, Brainard?&quot; The voice was peremptory and rough.</p><p>&quot;Throwing kisses over at Brooklyn,&quot; Larry replied coolly. &quot;And what are you doing out here, Gavegan?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Following you. I wanted a quiet word with you. I&apos;ve been right behind you ever since you hit New York.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I knew you would be. You and Casey. But you haven&apos;t got anything on me.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I got plenty on you before!--with Casey helping,&quot; retorted Gavegan. &quot;And I&apos;ll get plenty on you again!--now that I know you are the main guy of a clever outfit. You&apos;ll be starting some smooth game--but I&apos;m going to be right after you every minute. And I&apos;ll get you. That&apos;s the news I wanted to slip you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;So!&quot; commented Larry drawlingly. &quot;Casey&apos;s a fairly decent guy, considering his line--but, Gavegan, I don&apos;t see how Casey stands you as a partner. And, Gavegan, I don&apos;t see why the Board of Health lets you stay around the streets--when putrefying matter causes so much disease.&quot;</p><p>&quot;None of your lip, young feller!&quot; growled Gavegan. He stepped closer, bulking over Larry. &quot;You think you are such a damned smart talker and such a damned clever schemer--but I&apos;ll bet I&apos;ll have you locked up in six months.&quot;</p><p>Anger boiled up within Larry. Against all the persons connected with his arrest, trial, and imprisonment, he had no particular resentment, except against this one man. He never could forget the time he and Gavegan, he handcuffed, had been locked in a sound-proof cell, and Gavegan had given him the third degree--in this case a length of heavy rubber hose, applied with a powerful arm upon head and shoulders--in an effort to make him squeal upon his confederates. And that third degree was merely a sample of the material of which Gavegan was made.</p><p>Larry held his desire in leash. &quot;So you bet you&apos;ll get me. I&apos;ll take that bet--any figure you like. I&apos;ve already got a new game cooked up, Gavegan. Cleverer than anything I&apos;ve ever tried before.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, I&apos;ll get you!&quot; Gavegan growled again.</p><p>&quot;Oh, no, you won&apos;t!&quot; And then Larry&apos;s old anger against Gavegan got into his tongue and made it wag tauntingly. &quot;You didn&apos;t get me the last time; that was a slip and police stools got me. All by yourself, Gavegan, you couldn&apos;t get anything. Your brain&apos;s got flat tires, and its motor doesn&apos;t fire, and its clutch is broken. The only thing about it that still works is the horn. You&apos;ve got a hell of a horn, Gavegan, and it never stops blowing.&quot;</p><p>A tug was nearing the dock, and by its light Larry saw the terrific swing that the enraged detective started. Larry swayed slightly aside, and as Gavegan lunged by, Larry&apos;s right fist drove into Gavegan&apos;s chin--drove with all the power of his dislike and all the strength of five years in a Y.M.C.A. gymnasium and a year in a prison boiler-room.</p><p>Gavegan went down and out.</p><p>Larry gazed a moment at the dim, sprawling figure, then turned and made his way off the pier and again to the door of the pawnshop. Casey was gone; he could see no one within but Old Isaac, the assistant.</p><p>Larry opened the door and entered. &quot;Hello, Isaac. Where&apos;s grandmother?&quot;</p><p>It is not a desirable trait in one connected with a pawnshop, that is also reputed to be a fence, to show surprise or curiosity. So Isaac&apos;s reply was confined to a few facts and brief direction.</p><p>Wondering, Larry mounted the stairway which opened from the confidential business room behind the pawnshop. It was common enough for his grandmother to rent out the third floor; but to a painter, and a crazy painter--that seemed strange. And yet more strange was it for her to be having dinner with the painter.</p><p>Larry knocked at the door. A big male voice within gave order:</p><p>&quot;Be parlor-maid, Maggie, and see who&apos;s there.&quot;</p><p>The door opened and Larry half entered. Then he stopped, and in surprise gazed at the flushed, gleaming Maggie, slender and supple in the folds of the Spanish shawl.</p><p>&quot;Why, Maggie!&quot; he exclaimed, holding out his hand.</p><p>&quot;Larry!&quot;</p><p>She was thrillingly confused by his surprised admiration. For a moment they stood gazing at each other, holding hands. The clothes given him on leaving prison were of course atrocious, but in all else he measured up to her dreams: lithe, well-built, handsome, a laugh ready on his lips, and the very devil of daring in his smiling, gray-blue eyes.</p><p>&quot;How you have grown up, Maggie!&quot; he said, still amazed.</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s all I&apos;ve had to do for two years,&quot; she returned.</p><p>&quot;Come on in, Larry,&quot; said the Duchess.</p><p>Larry shut the door, bowed with light grace as he had to pass in front of Maggie, and crossed to the Duchess.</p><p>&quot;Hello, grandmother,&quot; he said as though he had last seen her the day before. He held out his hand, the left one, and she took it in a mummified claw. In all his life he had never kissed his grandmother, nor did he remember ever having been kissed by her.</p><p>&quot;Glad you&apos;re back, Larry.&quot; She dropped his hand. &quot;The man&apos;s name is Hunt.&quot;</p><p>Larry turned to the painter. His laughing eyes could be sharp; they were penetratingly sharp now. And so were Hunt&apos;s eyes.</p><p>Larry held out his hand, again the left. &quot;And so you&apos;re the painter?&quot;</p><p>&quot;They call me a painter,&quot; responded Hunt, &quot;but none of them believe I&apos;m a painter.&quot;</p><p>Larry turned again to Maggie. &quot;And so you&apos;re actually Maggie! Meaning no offense&quot;--and there was a smiling audacity in his face that it would have been hard to have taken offense at--&quot;I don&apos;t see how Old Jimmie Carlisle&apos;s daughter got such looks without stealing them.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, then,&quot; retorted Maggie, &quot;I don&apos;t see how you got your looks unless--&quot;</p><p>She broke off and bit her tongue. She had been about to retort with the contrast between Larry&apos;s face and his shriveled, hook-nosed grandmother&apos;s. They all perceived her intention, however.</p><p>Larry came instantly to her rescue with almost imperceptible ease.</p><p>&quot;Dinner!&quot; he exclaimed, gazing at the miscellany of dishes on the table. &quot;Am I invited?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Invited?&quot; said Hunt. &quot;You&apos;re the guest of honor.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then might the guest of honor beg the privilege of cleaning up a bit?&quot; Larry drew his right hand from his coat pocket, where it had been all this while, and started to unwind the handkerchief which he had wound about his knuckles as he had crossed from the pier.</p><p>&quot;Is your hand hurt much?&quot; Maggie inquired eagerly.</p><p>&quot;Just skinned my knuckles.&quot;</p><p>&quot;How?&quot;</p><p>&quot;They happened to connect with a flatfoot&apos;s jaw while he was trying to make hypnotic passes at me. He&apos;s coming to about now. Officer Gavegan.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Gavegan!&quot; exclaimed Hunt. &quot;You picked a tough bird. Young man, you&apos;re off to a grand start--a charge of assault on an officer the very day they turn you out of jail.&quot;</p><p>Larry smiled. &quot;Gavegan is a dirty one, but he&apos;ll make no charge of assault. He claims to be heavy-weight champion boxer of the Police Department. Put a fine crimp in his reputation, wouldn&apos;t it, if he admitted in public that he&apos;d been knocked out by a fellow, bare- handed, supposed to be weak from prison life, forty pounds lighter. He&apos;d get the grand razoo all along the line. Oh, Gavegan will never let out a peep.&quot;</p><p>&quot;He&apos;ll square things in some other way,&quot; said Hunt.</p><p>&quot;I suppose he&apos;ll try,&quot; Larry responded carelessly. &quot;Where&apos;s the first- aid room?&quot;</p><p>Hunt showed him through the curtains. When he came out, Hunt, Maggie, and the Duchess were all engaged in getting the dinner upon the table. Additional help would only be interference, so Larry&apos;s eyes wandered casually to the canvases standing in the shadows against the walls.</p><p>&quot;Mr. Hunt,&quot; he remarked, &quot;you seem to have earned a very real reputation of its sort in the neighborhood. Old Isaac downstairs told me you were crazy--said they called you &apos;Nuts&apos;--said you were the worst painter that ever happened.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yeh, that&apos;s what they say,&quot; agreed Hunt.</p><p>&quot;They certainly are awful, Larry,&quot; put in Maggie, coming to his side. &quot;Father thinks they are jokes, and father certainly knows pictures. Just look at a few of them.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yeh, look at &apos;em and have a good laugh,&quot; invited Hunt.</p><p>Larry carried the portrait of the Duchess to beneath the swinging electric bulb and examined it closely. Maggie, at his shoulder, waited for his mirth; and Hunt regarded him with a sidelong gaze. But Larry did not laugh. He silently returned the picture, and then examined the portrait of Old Jimmie--then of Maggie--then of the Italian madonna, throned on her curbstone. He replaced this last and crossed swiftly to Hunt. Maggie watched this move in amazement.</p><p>Larry faced the big painter. His figure was tense, his features hard with suspicion. That moment one could understand why he was sometimes called &quot;Terrible Larry&quot;; just then he looked a devastating explosion that was still unexploded.</p><p>&quot;What&apos;s your game down here, Hunt?&quot; he demanded harshly.</p><p>&quot;My game?&quot; repeated the big painter. &quot;I don&apos;t get you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yes, you do! You&apos;re down here posing as a boob who smears up canvases!&quot;</p><p>&quot;What&apos;s wrong with that?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Only this: those are not crazy daubs. They&apos;re real pictures!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Eh!&quot; exclaimed Hunt. Maggie stared in bewilderment at the two men.</p><p>Hunt spoke again. &quot;What the dickens do you know about pictures? Old Jimmie, who&apos;s said to be a shark, thinks all these things are just comics.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Jimmie only thinks a picture&apos;s good after a thousand press-agents have said it&apos;s good,&quot; Larry returned. &quot;I studied at the Academy of Design for two years, till I learned I could never paint. But I know pictures.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And you think mine are good?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not in the popular manner--they&apos;re too original. But they&apos;re great. And you&apos;re a great painter. And I want to know--&quot;</p><p>&quot;Hurray!&quot; shouted Hunt, and flung an enthusiastic arm about Larry, and began to pound his back. &quot;Oh, boy! Oh, boy!&quot;</p><p>Larry wrenched himself free. &quot;Cut that out. Then you admit you&apos;re a great painter?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Of course I&apos;m a great painter!&quot; shouted Hunt. &quot;Who should know it better than I do?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then what&apos;s a great painter doing down here? What&apos;s the game you&apos;re trying to put over, posing as--&quot;</p><p>&quot;Listen, son,&quot; Hunt grinned. &quot;You&apos;ve called me and I&apos;ve got to show my cards. Only you mustn&apos;t ever tell--nor must Maggie; the Duchess doesn&apos;t talk, anyway. No need bothering you just now with a lot of details about myself. It&apos;s enough to say that people wouldn&apos;t pay me except when I did the usual pretty rot; no one believed in the other stuff I wanted to do. I wanted to get away from that bunch; I wanted to do real studies of human people, with their real nature showing through. So I beat it. Understand so far?&quot;</p><p>&quot;But why pose as a dub down here?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I never started the yarn that I was a dub. The people who looked at my work, and laughed, started that talk. I didn&apos;t shout out that I was a great artist for the mighty good reason that if I had, and had been believed, the people who posed for me either wouldn&apos;t have done it or would have been so self-conscious that they would have tried to look like some one else, and would never have shown me themselves at all. Thinking me a joke, they just acted natural. Which, young man, is about all you need to know.&quot;</p><p>Maggie looked on breathlessly at the two men, bewildered by this new light in which Hunt was presented, and fascinated by the tense alertness of her hero, Larry.</p><p>Slowly Larry&apos;s tensity dissipated. &quot;I don&apos;t know about the rest of your make-up,&quot; he said slowly, &quot;but as a painter you&apos;re a whale.&quot;</p><p>&quot;The rest of him&apos;s all right, too,&quot; put in the dry, unemotional voice of the Duchess. &quot;Dinner&apos;s ready. Come on.&quot;</p><p>As they moved to the table Hunt clapped a big hand on Larry&apos;s shoulder. &quot;And to think,&quot; he chuckled, &quot;it took a crook fresh from Sing Sing to discover me as a great artist! You&apos;re clever, Larry-- clever! Maggie, get the corkscrew into action and fill the glasses with the choicest vintage of H2O. A toast. Here&apos;s to Larry!&quot;</p><p>CHAPTER V</p><p>The dinner was simple: beef stewed with potatoes and carrots and onions, and pie, and real coffee. But it measured up to Hunt&apos;s boast: the chef of the Ritz, limited to so simple a menu, could indeed have done no better. And Larry, after his prison fare, was dining as dine the gods.</p><p>The irrepressible Hunt, trying to read this new specimen that had come under his observation, sought to draw Larry out. &quot;Barney Palmer and Old Jimmie were here this afternoon, wanting to see you. They&apos;ve got something big waiting for you. I suppose you&apos;re all ready to jump in and put it over with a wallop.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I&apos;m going to put something over with a wallop--but I guess business will have to wait until Barney, Jimmie, and I have a talk. Can you spare me a little more of that stew?&quot;</p><p>His manner of speaking was a quiet announcement to Hunt that his plans were for the present a closed subject. Hunt felt balked, for this lean, alert, much-talked-of adventurer piqued him greatly; but he switched to other subjects, and during the rest of the meal did most of the talking. The Duchess was silent, and seemingly was concerned only with her food. Larry got in a fair portion of speech, but for the most part his attention, except for that required for eating, was fixed upon Maggie.</p><p>How she had sprung up since he had last seen her! Almost a woman now-- and destined to be a beauty! And more than just a beauty: she was colorful, vital, high-strung. Before he had gone away he had regarded her with something akin to the negligent affection of an older brother. But this thing which was already beginning to surge up in him was altogether different, and he knew it.</p><p>As for Maggie, when she looked at him, she flushed and her eyes grew bright. Larry was back!--the brilliant, daring Larry. She was aware that she had been successful in startling and gripping his attention. Yes, they would do great things together!</p><p>When the dinner was finished and the dishes washed, Larry gave voice to this new urge that had so quickly grown up within him.</p><p>&quot;What do you say, Maggie, to a little walk?&quot;</p><p>&quot;All right,&quot; she replied eagerly.</p><p>They went down the narrow stairway together. On the landing of the second floor, which contained only Maggie&apos;s bedroom and the Duchess&apos;s and a tiny kitchen, Maggie started to leave him to change into street clothes; but he caught her arm and said, &quot;Come on.&quot; They descended the next flight and came into the back room behind the pawnshop, which the Duchess used as a combination of sitting-room, office, and storeroom. About this musty museum hung or stood unredeemed seamen&apos;s jackets, men and women&apos;s evening wear, banjos, guitars, violins, umbrellas, and one huge green stuffed parrot sitting on top of the Duchess&apos;s safe.</p><p>&quot;I wanted to talk, not walk,&quot; he said. &quot;Let&apos;s stay here.&quot;</p><p>He took her hands and looked down on her steadily. Under the yellow gaslight her face gleamed excitedly up into his, her breath came quickly.</p><p>&quot;Well, sir, what do you think of me?&quot; she demanded. &quot;Have I changed much?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Changed? Why, it&apos;s magic, Maggie! I left you a schoolgirl; you&apos;re a woman now. And a wonder!&quot;</p><p>&quot;You think so?&quot; She flushed with pride and pleasure, and a wildness of spirit possessed her and demanded expression in action. She freed her left hand and slipped it over Larry&apos;s shoulder. &quot;Come on--let&apos;s two- step.&quot;</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[And by this time was Gandolf of Brimside armed also, and Oliver Marson, who had done his helm on him, was gone to his side of the river. Drew the huge man-at-arms then toward Christopher, but his sword was yet in the sheath: Christopher set his point to the earth and abode him; and the Baron spake: "Lad, thou art fair and bold both, as I can see it, and Jack of the Tofts is so much an old foe of mine that he is well-nigh a friend: so what sayest thou? If thou wilt yield thee straightway, I wi...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>And by this time was Gandolf of Brimside armed also, and Oliver Marson, who had done his helm on him, was gone to his side of the river.</p><p>Drew the huge man-at-arms then toward Christopher, but his sword was yet in the sheath: Christopher set his point to the earth and abode him; and the Baron spake: &quot;Lad, thou art fair and bold both, as I can see it, and Jack of the Tofts is so much an old foe of mine that he is well-nigh a friend: so what sayest thou? If thou wilt yield thee straightway, I will have both thine head and the outlaw&apos;s with me to King Rolf, but yet on your shoulders and ye two alive. Haps will go as haps will; and it maybe that ye shall both live for another battle, and grow wiser, and mayhappen abide in the wood with the reiver&apos;s men. Hah? What sayest thou?&quot;</p><p>Christopher laughed and said: &quot;Wouldst thou pardon one who is not yet doomed, Baron? And yet thy word is pleasant to</p><p>us; for we see that if we win thee, thou shalt be good liegeman of us. Now, Baron, sword in fist!&quot;</p><p>Gandolf drew his sword, muttering: &quot;Ah, hah! he is lordly and kingly enough, yet may this learn him a lesson. &quot;Indeed the blade was huge and brown and ancient, and sword and man had looked a very terror save to one great-hearted.</p><p>But Christopher said: &quot;What sayest thou now, Baron, shall we cast down our shields to earth? For why should we chop into wood and leather?&quot;</p><p>The Baron cast down his shield, and said: &quot;Bold are thy words, lad; if thy deeds go with them, it may be better for thee than for me. Now keep thee.&quot;</p><p>And therewith he leapt forward and swept his huge sword around; but Christopher swerved speedily and enough, so that the blade touched him not, and the huge man had over-reached himself, and ere he had his sword well under sway again, Christopher had smitten him so sharply on the shoulder that the mails were sundered &amp; the blood ran; and withal the Baron staggered with the mere weight of the stroke. Then Christopher saw his time, and leapt aloft and dealt such a stroke on the side of his head, that the Baron tottered yet more; but now was he taught by those two terrible strokes, and he gathered all his heart to him, and all the might of his thews, and leapt aback and mastered his sword, and came on fierce but wary, shouting out for Brimside and the King.</p><p>Christopher cried never a cry, but swung his sword well within his sway, and the stroke came on Gandolf&apos;s fore-arm and brake the mails and wounded him, and then as the Baron rushed forward, the wary lad gat his blade under his foeman&apos;s nigh the hilts, and he gave it a wise twist and forth flew the ancient iron away from its master.</p><p>Gandolf seemed to heed not that he was swordless, but gave out a great roar and rushed at Christopher to close with him, and the well-knit lad gave back before him and turned from side to side, and kept the sword-point before Gandolf&apos;s eyes ever, till suddenly, as the Baron was running his fiercest, he made a mighty sweep at his right leg, since he had no more to fear his sword, and the edge fell so strong and true, that but for the byrny-hose he had smitten the limb asunder, and even as it was it made him agrievous wound, so that the Lord of Brimside fell clattering to the earth, and Christopher bestrode him and cried: &quot;How sayest thou, champion, is it enough?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea, enough, and maybe more,&quot; said the Baron. &quot;Wilt thou smite off mine head? Or what wilt thou?&quot;</p><p>Said Christopher: &quot;Here hath been enough smiting, meseemeth, save thy lads and ours have a mind to buckle to; and lo thou! men are running down from the bents towards us from both sides, yet not in any warlike manner as yet. Now, Baron, here cometh thy grim squire that I heard called Oliver, and if thou wilt keep the troth, thou shalt bid him order thy men so that they fall not upon us till the battle be duly pitched. Then shalt thou be borne home, since thou canst not go, with no hindrance from us.&quot;</p><p>Now was Oliver come indeed, and the other nine with him, and on the other side was come Jack of the Tofts and four others.</p><p>Then spake the Baron of Brimside: &quot;I may do better than thou biddest me; for now I verily trow herein, that thou art the son of Christopher the Old; so valiant as thou art, and so sad a smiter, and withal that thou fearest not to let thy foeman live. So hearken all ye, and thou specially, Oliver Marson, my captain: I am now become the man of my lord King Christopher, and will follow him whereso he will; and I deem that will presently be to Oakenham, and the King&apos;s seat there. Now look to it that thou, Oliver, order my men under King Christopher&apos;s banner, till I be healed; and then if all be not over, I shall come forth myself, shield on neck and spear in fist, to do battle for my liege lord; so help me God and St. James of the Water!&quot;</p><p>Therewith speech failed him and his wit therewith; so betwixt them they unarmed him and did him what leechdom they might do there and then; and he was nowise hurt deadly: as for Child Christopher, he had no scratch of steel on him. And Oliver knelt before him when he had dight his own lord, and swore fealty to him then and there; and so departed, to order the folk of Brimside and tell them the tidings, and swear them liege men of King Christopher.</p><p>CHAPTER XXXII.</p><p>OF GOLDILIND AND CHRISTOPHER.</p><p>Now Jack of the Tofts said a word to one of his men, and he rode straightway up into the field under the wood, and spake to three of the captains of the folk, and they ranked a hundred of the men, of those who were best dight, and upraised amongst them the banner of Oakenrealm, and led all them down to the river bank; and with these must needs go Goldilind; and when they came down thither, Christopher and Jack were there on the bank to hail them, and they raised a great shout when they saw their King and their Earl standing there, and the shout was given back from the wood-side; and then the men of Brimside took it up, for they had heard the bidding of their Lord, and he was now in a pavilion which they had raised for him on the mead, and the leeches were looking to his hurts; and they feared him, but rather loved than hated him, and he was more to them than the King in Oakenrealm and they were all ready to do his will.</p><p>But as to Goldilind, her mind it had been, as she was going down the meadow, that she would throw herself upon Christopher&apos;s bosom and love him with glad tears of love; but as she came and stood over against him, she was abashed, and stood still looking on him, and spake no word; and he also was ashamed before all that folk to say the words whereof his heart was full, and longed for the night, that they might be alone together.</p><p>But at last he said: &quot;Lady and Queen, thou seest that we be well-beloved that they rejoice so much in a little deed of mine.&quot; And still she spake nought, and held hand in hand.</p><p>But Jack of the Tofts spake and said: &quot;By St. Hubert! the deed may be little, though there be men who would think no little of overcoming the biggest man and the fellest fighter of Oakenrealm, but at least great things shall come thereof. King, thy strokes of this day have won thee Oakenrealm, or no man I know in field, and many a mother&apos;s son have they saved from death. For look thou yonder over the river, Goldilind, my Lady, and tell me what thou seest.&quot; She turned to him and said: &quot;Lord Earl, I see warriors a many.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea,&quot; said Jack, &quot;and stout fellows be they for the more part; and hard had been the hand-play had we met, ere they had turned their backs; but now, see thou, we shall wend side by side toward Oakenrealm, for our Lord there hath won them to his friends; and doubt thou not that when they see him and thee anigh, they shall be friends indeed. What! dost thou weep for this? Or is it because he hath done the deed and not thou? or rather, because thine heart is full for the love of him?&quot;</p><p>She smiled kindly on Jack, but even therewith she felt two hands laid on her shoulders, and Christopher kissed her without any word.</p><p>CHAPTER XXXIII.</p><p>A COUNCIL OF CAPTAINS: THE HOST COMES TO BROADLEES, AND MAKES FOR WOODWALL.</p><p>That night, though there was some little coming and going between the Tofters and the Brimsiders, yet either flock slept on their own side of the river. Moreover, before the midst of the night, cometh David to the wood-side, and had with him all men defensible of the Tofts and the houses thereabout, and most of the women also many of whom bore spear or bow, so that now by the wood-side, what with them of the Tofts and the folk who joined them thereto from the country-side about Hazeldale, there were well-nigh ten hundreds of folk under weapons; and yet more came in the night through; for the tidings of the allegiance of Brimside was spreading full fast.</p><p>Betimes on the morrow was King Christopher afoot, and he and Jack and David and Gilbert, and they twelve in company, went down to the banner by the water-side; and to them presently came Oliver Marson and ten other of the captains of Brimside, and did them to wit that the Baron were fain if they would come to his pavilion and hold counsel therein, for that he was not so sick but he might well speak his mind from where he lay. So thither they went all, with good will, and the Baron greeted them friendly, and made what reverence he might to Christopher, and bade him say what was his mind and his will. But Christopher bade them who were his elders in battle to speak; and the Baron laughed outright and said: &quot;Meseemeth, Lord King, thou didst grow old yesterday at my costs; but since thou wilt have me to speak, I will even do so. And to make matters the shorter, I will say that I wot well what ye have to do; and that is, to fall upon the Earl Marshal&apos;s folk ere they fall upon us. Now some folk deem we should fare to Brimside and have a hosting there; but I say nay; whereas it lieth out of the road to Oakenham, and thereby is our road, meseemeth; and it is but some six days&apos; riding hence, save, as is most like, two of those days be days of battle But if we go straight forward with banners displayed, each day&apos;s faring shall be a day of hosting and gathering; for I tell thee, Lord King, the fame of thee has by now gone far in this country-side. Wherefore I say no more, since I wax weary, than this: to the road this morning, and get we so far as Broadlees ere night-fall, for there we shall get both victual and folk.&quot;</p><p>There was good cheer made at his word, so Christopher spake: &quot;Baron of Brimside, thou hast spoken my very mind and will; and but if these lords and captains gainsay it, let us tarry no longer, but array all our folk in good order and take tale of them, and so for Broadlees. What say ye, lords?&quot;</p><p>None nay-said it, so there was no more talk save as to the ordering of this or the other company. And it was so areded that the Brimside men should fare first at the head of the host with the banner of Brimside, and that then should go the mingled folk of the country-side, and lastly the folk of the Tofts with the banner of Oakenrealm; so that if the host came upon foemen, they might be for a cloud to hide the intent of their battles awhile till they might take their advantage.</p><p>So went the captains to their companies, and the Tofters and their mates crossed the river to the men of Brimside, who gave them good cheer when they came amongst them; and it was hard to order the host for a while, so did the upland folk throng about the King and the Queen; and happy were they who had a full look on Goldilind; and yet were some so lucky and so bold that they kissed a hand of her; and one there was, a very tall young man, and a goodly, who stood there and craved to kiss her cheek, and she did not gainsay him, and thereafter nought was good to him save an occasion to die for her.</p><p>As for Christopher, he spake to many, and said to them that wheresoever his banner was, he at least should be at the forefront whenso they came upon unpeace; and so soon as they gat to the road, he went from company to company, speaking to many, and that so sweetly and friendly that all praised him, and said that here forsooth was a king who was all good and nothing bad, whereas hitherto men had deemed them lucky indeed if their king were half good and half bad.</p><p>Merry then was the road to Broadlees, and they came there before night-fall; and it was a little cheaping town and unwalled, and if the folk had had any will to ward them, they lacked might. But when they found they were not to be robbed, and that it was but the proclaiming of King Christopher in the market-place, and finding victual and house-room for the host, and the Mayor taking a paper in payment thereof, none stirred against them, and a many joined the host to fight for the fair young King. Now nought as yet had they heard at Broadlees of any force stirring against them.</p><p>But in the morning when they went on their ways again, and were bound for Cheaping Woodwall, which was a fenced town, they sent out well-horsed riders to espy the road, who came back on the spur two hours after noon, and did them to wit that there was a host abiding them beneath the walls of Woodwall under the banner of Walter the White, an old warrior and fell fighter; but what comfort he might have from them of Woodwall they wotted not; but they said that the tidings of their coming had gone abroad, and many folk were abiding the issue of this battle ere they joined them to either host. Now on these tidings the captains were of one mind, to wit, to fare on softly till they came to a defensible place not far from the foemen, since they could scarce come to Woodwall in good order before nightfall, and if they were unfoughten before, to push forward to battle in the morning.</p><p>Even so did they, and made a halt at sunset on a pleasant hill above a river some three miles from Woodwall, and there they passed the night unmeddled with.</p><p>CHAPTER XXXIV.</p><p>BATTLE BEFORE WOODWALL.</p><p>When morning was, the captains came to King Christopher to council: but while they were amidst of their talk came the word that the foe was anigh and come close to the river-bank; whereat was none abashed; but to all it seemed wisdom to abide them on the vantage-ground. So then there was girding of swords and doing on of helms; as for ordering of the folk, it was already done, for all the host was ranked on the bent-side, with the banner of Oakenrealm in the midst; on its left hand the banner of the Tofts, and on the right the banner of Brimside.</p><p>Now when Christopher was come to his place, he looked down and saw how the foemen were pouring over the river, for it was nowhere deep, and there were four quite shallow fords: many more were they than his folk, but he deemed that they fared somewhat tumultuously; and when the bowmen of the Tofts began shooting, the foemen, a many of them, stayed amidst of the river to bend bow in their turn, and seemed to think that were nigh enough already; nay, some went back again to the other bank, to shoot thence the surer and the drier, and some went yet a little further back on the field. So that when their sergeants and riders were come on to the hither bank, they lacked about a fifth of all their host; and they themselves, for all they were so many, had some ado to make up their minds to go forward.</p><p>Forsooth, when they looked up to the bent and saw the three banners of Oakenrealm and the Tofts and Brimside all waving over the same ranks, they knew not what to make of it. And Christopher&apos;s host, when they saw them hang back, brake out into mocking whoops and shouts, and words were heard in them: &quot;Come and dine at Brimside, good fellows! Come up to the Tofts for supper and bed! A Christopher! A Christopher!&quot; and so forth. Now all King Christopher&apos;s men were afoot, saving a band of the riders of Brimside, who bestrode strong and tall horses, and bore jack and sallet and spear, but no heavy armour.</p><p>So Christopher heard and saw, and the heart rose high in him, and he sent messengers to the right and the left, and bade the captains watch till he waved his sword aloft, and then all down the bent together; and he bade the Brimside riders edge a little outward and downward, and be ready for the chase, and suffer not any of the foemen to gather together when once they fell to running; for he knew in his heart that the folk before him would never abide their onfall. And the day was yet young, and it lacked four hours of noon.</p><p>King Christopher abode ill he saw the foemen were come off the level ground, and were mounting the bent slowly, and not in very good order or in ranks closely serried. Then he strode forth three paces, and waved his sword high above his head, and cried out: &quot;A Christopher! A Christopher! Forward, banner of the Realm!&quot; And forth he went, steady and strong, and a great shout arose behind him, and none shrank or lagged, but spears and bills, and axes and swords, all came on like a wall of steel, so that to the foemen the earth seemed alive with death, and they made no show of abiding the onset, but all turned and ran, save Walter the White and a score of his knights, who forsooth were borne down in a trice, and were taken to mercy, those of them who were not slain at the first crash of weapons.</p><p>There then ye might have seen great clumps of men making no defence, but casting down their weapons and crying mercy; and forsooth so great was the throng, that no great many were slain; but on the other hand, but few gat away across the water, and on them presently fell the Brimside riders, and hewed down and slew and took few to mercy. And some few besides the first laggards of the bowmen, it might be three hundreds in all, escaped, and gat to Woodwall, but when they of the town saw them, they made up their minds speedily, and shut their gates, and the poor fleers found but the points of shafts and the heads of quarrels before them.</p><p>But on the field of deed those captives were somewhat fearful as to what should be done with them, and they spake one to the other about it, that they would be willing to serve the new King, since he was so mighty. And amidst of their talk came the captains of King Christopher, and they drew into a ring around them, and the lords bade them look to it whether they would be the foemen of the King, the son of that King Christopher the Old. &quot;If so ye be,&quot; said they, &quot;ye may escape this time; but ye see how valiant a man he is, and how lucky withal, and happy shall they be whom he calleth friends. Now what say ye, will ye take up your weapons again, and be under the best of kings and a true one, or will ye depart and take the chance of his wrath in the coming days? We say, how many of you will serve King Christopher.</p><p>Then arose from them a mighty shout: &quot;All! All! One and All!&quot; Albeit some there were who slunk away and said nought; and none heeded them.</p><p>So then all the sergeants and the common folk swore allegiance to King Christopher; but of the knights who were left alive, some said Yea, and some Nay; and these last were suffered to depart, but must needs ride unarmed.</p><p>Now by the time all was done, and the new men had dined along with the rest of the host, and of the new-comers tale had been taken, the day was wearing; so they set off for Woodwall, and on the way they met the Mayor and Aldermen thereof, who came before King Christopher and knelt to him, and gave him the keys of their town; so he was gracious to them, and thanked them, and bade see to the victual and lodging of the host, and that all should be paid thereafter. And they said that they had seen to all this before they came forth of the town, and that if the Lord King would ride forth, he would find fair lodging in the good town. So King Christopher was pleased, and bade the burgesses ride beside him, and he talked merrily with them on the way, so that their hearts rejoiced over the kindness of their lord.</p><p>So they came to the gate, and there the King made stay till Goldilind was fetched to him, so that they might ride into the good town side by side. And in the street was much people thronging, and the sun was scarce set, so that the folk could see their King and Queen what they were; and they who were nighest unto them, they let their shouts die out, so were their hearts touched with the sight of them and the love of their beauty.</p><p>Thus rode they in triumph through the street till they were come to their lodging, which was great and goodly as for a cheaping town; and so the day was gone and the night was come, and the council and the banquet were over; then were the King and Goldilind together again, like any up-country lad and lass. But she stood before him and said: &quot;O thou King and mighty warrior, surely I ought to fear thee now, but it is not so, so sore as I desire thee; but yet it maketh both laughter and tears come to me when I think of the day we rode away from Greenharbour with thee, and I seemed to myself a great lady, though I were unhappy; and though I loved thy body, I feared lest the churl&apos;s blood in thee might shame me perchance, and I was proud and unkind to thee, and I hurt thee sorely; and now I will say it, and confess, that somewhat I joyed to see thine anguish, for I knew that it meant thy love for me and thy desire to me. Lo now, wilt thou forgive me this, or wilt thou punish me, O Lord King?&quot;</p><p>He laughed. &quot;Sweetling,&quot; he said, &quot;meseemeth now all day long I have been fighting against raiment rather than men; no man withstood me in the battle, for that they feared the crown on my helm and the banner over my head; and when those good men of the town brought me the keys, how should I have known them from borrel folk but for their scarlet gowns and fur hoods? And meseemed that when they knelt to me, it was the scarlet gowns kneeling to the kingly armour. Therefore, sweetheart, if thou fearest that the King should punish thee for so wounding the poor Christopher of those few days ago, as belike thou deservest it, bid the King do off his raiment, and do thou in likewise, and then there shall be no King to punish, and no King&apos;s scather to thole the punishment, but only Christopher and Goldilind, even as they met erewhile on the dewy grass of Littledale.&quot;</p><p>She blushed blood-red; but ere his words were done, her hands were busy with girdle and clasp, and her raiment fell from her to the earth, and his kingly raiment was cast from him, and he took her by the hand and led her to the bed of honour, that their love might have increase that night also.</p><p>CHAPTER XXXV.</p><p>AN OLD ACQUAINTANCE AND AN EVIL DEED.</p><p>When morning was, and it was yet early, the town was all astir and the gates were thrown open, and weaponed men thronged into it crying out for Christopher the King. Then the King came forth, and Jack o&apos; the Tofts and his sons, and Oliver Marson, and the captains of Brimside; and the host was blown together to the market-place, and there was a new tale of them taken, and they were now hard on seventy hundreds of men. So then were new captains appointed, and thereafter they tarried not save to eat a morsel, but went out a-gates faring after the banners to Oakenrealm, all folk blessing them as they went.</p><p>Nought befell them of evil that day, but ever fresh companies joined them on the road; and they gat harbour in another walled town, hight Sevenham, and rested there in peace that night, and were now grown to eighty hundreds.</p><p>Again on the morrow they were on the road betimes, and again much folk joined them, and they heard no tidings of any foeman faring against them; whereat Jack o&apos; the Tofts marvelled, for he and others had deemed that now at last would Rolf the traitor come out against them. Forsooth, when they had gone all day and night was at hand, it seemed most like to the captains that he would fall upon them that night, whereas they were now in a somewhat perilous pass; for they must needs rest at a little thorpe amidst of great and thick woods, which lay all round about the frank of Oakenham as a garland about a head. So there they kept watch and ward more heedfully than their wont was; and King Christopher lodged with Goldilind at the house of a good man of the thorpe.</p><p>Now when it lacked but half an hour of midnight, and Jack o&apos; the Tofts and Oliver Marson and the Captain of Woodwall had just left him, after they had settled the order of the next day&apos;s journey, and Goldilind lay abed in the inner chamber, there entered one of the men of the watch and said: &quot;Lord King, here is a man hereby who would see thee; he is weaponed, and he saith that he hath a gift for thee: what shall we do with him?&quot;</p><p>Said Christopher: &quot;Bring him in hither, good fellow.&quot; And the man went back, and came in again leading a tall man, armed, but with a hood done over his steel hat, so that his face was hidden, and he had a bag in his hand with something therein.</p><p>Then spake the King and said: &quot;Thou man, since thy face is hidden, this trusty man-at-arms shall stand by thee while we talk together.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Lord,&quot; said the man, &quot;let there be a dozen to hear our talk I care not; for I tell thee that I come to give thee a gift, and gift-bearers are oftenest welcome.&quot;</p><p>Quoth the King: &quot;Maybe, yet before thou bring it forth I would see thy face, for meseems I have an inkling of thy voice.&quot;</p><p>So the man cast back his hood, and lo, it was Simon the squire. &quot;Hah!&quot; said Christopher, &quot;is it thou then! hast thou another knife to give me?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nay,&quot; said Simon, &quot;only the work of the knife.&quot; And therewith he set his hand to the bag and drew out by the hair a man&apos;s head, newly hacked off and bleeding, and said: &quot;Hast thou seen him before, Lord? He was a great man yesterday, though not so great as thou shalt be to-morrow.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Once only I have seen him, &quot;said Christopher,&quot; and then he gave me this gift&quot; (and he showed his father&apos;s ring on his finger): &quot;thou hast slain the Earl Marshal, who called himself the King of Oakenrealm: my traitor and dastard he was but thy friend. Wherefore have I two evil deeds to reward thee, Simon, the wounding of me and the slaying of him. Dost thou not deem thee gallows-ripe?&quot;</p><p>&quot;King,&quot; said Simon, &quot;what wouldst thou have done with him hadst thou caught him?&quot;</p><p>Said Christopher: &quot;I had slain him had I met him with a weapon in his fist; and if we had taken him I had let the folk judge him.&quot;</p><p>Said Simon: &quot;That is to say, that either thou hadst slain him thyself, or bidden others to slay him. Now then I ask thee, King, for which deed wilt thou slay me, for not slaying thee, or for doing thy work and slaying thy foe?&quot;</p><p>Said Christopher to the guard: &quot;Good fellow, fetch here a good horse ready saddled and bridled, and be speedy.&quot;</p><p>So the man went: and Christopher said to Simon: &quot;For the knife in my side, I forgive it thee; and as to the slaying of thy friend, it is not for me to take up the feud. But this is no place for thee: if Jack of the Tofts, or any of his sons, or one of the captains findeth thee, soon art thou sped; wherefore I rede thee, when yonder lad hath brought thee the horse, show me the breadth of thy back, and mount the beast, and put the most miles thou canst betwixt me and my folk; for they love me.&quot;</p><p>Said Simon: &quot;Sorry payment for making thee a king!&quot;</p><p>Said Christopher: &quot;Well, thou art in the right; I may well give gold for getting rid of such as thou.&quot; And he put his hand into a pouch that hung on his chair, and drew out thence a purse, and gave it unto Simon, who took it and opened it and looked therein, and then flung it down on the ground.</p><p>Christopher looked on him wrathfully with reddened face, and cried out: &quot;Thou dog! wouldst thou be an earl and rule the folk? What more dost thou want?&quot;</p><p>&quot;This!&quot; cried out Simon, and leapt upon him, knife aloft. Christopher was unarmed utterly; but he caught hold of the felon&apos;s right arm with his right hand, and gripped the wrist till he shrieked; then he raised up his mighty left hand, and drave it down on Simon&apos;s head by the ear, and all gave way before it, and the murderer fell crushed and dead to earth.</p><p>Therewith came in the man-at-arms to tell him that the horse was come; but stared wild when he saw the dead man on the ground. But Christopher said: &quot;My lad, here hath been one who would have thrust a knife into an unarmed man, wherefore I must needs give him his wages. But now thou hast this to do: take thou this dead man and bind him so fast on the horse thou hast brought that he will not come off till the bindings be undone; and bind withal the head of this other, who was once a great man and an evil, before the slayer of him, so that it also may be fast; then get thee to horse and lead this beast and its burden till ye are well on the highway to Oakenham, and then let him go and find his way to the gate of the city if God will. And hearken, my lad; seest thou this gold which lieth scattering on the floor here? this was mine, but is no longer, since I have given it away to the dead man just before he lifted his hand against me. Wherefore now I will keep it for thee against thou comest back safe to me in the morning betimes, as I deem thou wilt, if thou wilt behight to St. Julian the helping of some poor body on the road. Go therefore, but send hither the guard; for I am weary now, and would go to sleep without slaying any man else.&quot;</p><p>So departed the man full of joy, and Christopher gathered his money together again, and so fared to his bed peacefully.</p><p>CHAPTER XXXVI.</p><p>KING CHRISTOPHER COMES TO OAKENHAM.</p><p>But on the morrow the first man who came to the King was the man-at-arms aforesaid; and he told that he had done the King&apos;s errand, and ridden a five miles on the road to Oakenham before he had left the horse with his felon load, and that he had found nought stirring all that way when he had passed through their own out-guards, where folk knew him and let him go freely. &quot;And,&quot; quoth he, &quot;it is like enough that this gift to Oakenham, Lord King, has by now come to the gate thereof.&quot; Then the King gave that man the gold which he had promised, and he kissed the King&apos;s hand and went his ways a happy man.</p><p>Thereafter sent Christopher for Jack of the Tofts, and told him in few words what had betid, and that Rolf the traitor was dead. Then spake Jack: &quot;King and fosterling, never hath so mighty a warrior as thou waged so easy a war for so goodly a kingdom as thou hast done; for surely thy war was ended last night, wherefore will we straight to Oakenham, if so thou wilt. But if it be thy pleasure I will send a chosen band of riders to wend on the spur thereto, and bid them get ready thy kingly house, and give word to the Barons and the Prelates, and the chiefs of the Knighthood, and the Mayor and the Aldermen, and the Masters of the Crafts, to show themselves of what mind they be towards thee. But I doubt it not that they will deem of thee as thy father come back again and grown young once more.&quot;</p><p>Now was Christopher eager well nigh unto weeping to behold his people that he should live amongst, and gladly he yea-said the word of Jack of the Tofts. So were those riders sent forward; and the host was ordered, and Christopher rode amidst it with Goldilind by his side; and the sun was not yet gone down when they came within sight of the gate of Oakenham, and there before the gate and in the fields on either side of it was gathered a very great and goodly throng, and there went forth from it to meet the King the Bishop of Oakenham, and the Abbot of St. Mary&apos;s and the Priors of the other houses of religion, all fairly clad in broidered copes, with the clerks and the monks dight full solemnly; and they came singing to meet him, and the Bishop blessed him and gave him the hallowed bread, and the King greeted him and craved his prayers. Then came the Burgreve of Oakenham, and with him the Barons and the Knights, and they knelt before him, and named him to king, and the Burgreve gave him the keys of the city. Thereafter came the Mayor and the Aldermen, and the Masters of the Crafts, and they craved his favour, and warding of his mighty sword; and all these he greeted kindly and meekly, rather as a friend than as a great lord.</p><p>Thereafter were the gates opened, and King Christopher entered, and there was no gainsaying, and none spake a word of the Traitor Rolf.</p><p>But the bells of the minster and of all the churches rang merrily, and songs were sung sweetly by fair women gloriously clad; and whereas King Christopher and Queen Goldilind had lighted down from their horses and went afoot through the street, roses and all kinds of sweet flowers were cast down before the feet of them all the way from the city gate to the King&apos;s High House of Oakenham.</p><p>There then in the great hall of his father&apos;s house stood Christopher the King on the dais, and Goldilind beside him. And Jack of the Tofts and the chiefest of the Captains, and the Bishop, and the greatest lords of the Barons, and the doughtiest of the Knights, and the Mayor and the Aldermen, and the Masters of the Crafts, sat at the banquet with the King and his mate; they brake bread together and drank cups of renown, till the voidee cup was borne in. Then at last were the King &amp; the Queen brought to their chamber with string-play and songs and all kinds of triumph; and that first night since he lay in his mother&apos;s womb did Child Christopher fall asleep in the house which the fathers had builded for him.</p><p>CHAPTER XXXVII.</p><p>OF CHILD CHRISTOPHER&apos;S DEALINGS WITH HIS FRIENDS &amp; HIS FOLK.</p><p>It was in the morning when King Christopher arose, and Goldilind stood before him in the kingly chamber, that he clipped her and kissed her, and said: &quot;This is the very chamber whence my father departed when he went to his last battle, and left my mother sickening with the coming birth of me. And never came he back hither, nor did mine eyes behold him ever. Here also lay my mother and gave birth to me, and died of sorrow, and her also I never saw, save with eyes that noted nought that I might remember. And my third kinsman was the traitor, that cast me forth of mine heritage, and looked to it that I should wax up as a churl, and lose all hope of high deeds; and at the last he strove to slay me.</p><p>&quot;Therefore, sweet, have I no kindred, and none that are bound to cherish me, and it is for thee to take the place of them, and be unto me both father and mother, and brother and sister, and all kindred.&quot;</p><p>She said: &quot;My mother I never saw, and I was but little when my father died; and if I had any kindred thereafter they loved me not well enough to strike one stroke for me, nay, or to speak a word even, when I was thrust out of my place and delivered over to the hands of pitiless people, and my captivity worsened on me as the years grew. Wherefore to me also art thou in the stead of all kindred and affinity.&quot;</p><p>Now Christopher took counsel with Jack of the Tofts and the great men of the kingdom, and that same day, the first day of his kingship in Oakenham, was summoned a great mote of the whole folk; and in half a month was it holden, and thereat was Christopher taken to king with none gainsaying.</p><p>Began now fair life for the people of Oakenrealm; for Jack of the Tofts abode about the King in Oakenham; and wise was his counsel, and there was no greed in him, and yet he wotted of greed and guile in others, and warned the King thereof when he saw it, and the tyrants were brought low, and no poor and simple man had need to thieve. As for Christopher, he loved better to give than to take; and the grief and sorrow of folk irked him sorely; it was to him as if he had gotten a wound when he saw so much as one unhappy face in a day; and all folk loved him, and the fame of him went abroad through the lands and the roads of travel, so that many were the wise and valiant folk that left their own land and came into Oakenrealm to dwell there, because of the good peace and the kindliness that there did abound; so that Oakenrealm became both many-peopled and joyous.</p><p>Though Jack of the Tofts abode with the King at Oakenham, his sons went back to the Tofts, and Gilbert was deemed the head man of them; folk gathered to them there, and the wilderness about them became builded in many places, and the Tofts grew into a goodly cheaping town, for those brethren looked to it that all roads in the woodland should be safe and at peace, so that no chapman need to arm him or his folk; nay, a maiden might go to and fro on the woodland ways, with a golden girdle about her, without so much as the crumpling of a lap of her gown unless by her own will.</p><p>As to David, at first Christopher bade him strongly to abide with him ever, for he loved him much. But David nay-said it, and would go home to the Tofts; and when the King pressed him sore, at last he said: &quot;Friend and fellow, I must now tell thee the very sooth, and then shalt thou suffer me to depart, though the sundering be but sorrow to me. For this it is, that I love thy Lady and wife more than meet is, and here I find it hard to thole my desire and my grief; but down in the thicket yonder amongst my brethren of the woods, and man and maid, and wife and babe, nay, the very deer of the forest, I shall become a man again, and be no more a peevish and grudging fool; and as the years wear, shall sorrow wear, and then, who knows but we may come together again.&quot;</p><p>Then Christopher smiled kindly on him and embraced him, but they spake no more of that matter, but sat talking a while, and then bade each other farewell, and David went his ways to the Tofts. But a few months thereafter, when a son had been born to Christopher, David came to Oakenrealm, but stayed there no longer than to greet the King, and do him to wit that he was boun for over-sea to seek adventure. Many gifts the King gave him, and they sundered in all loving-kindness, and the King said: &quot;Farewell, friend, I shall remember thee and thy kindness for ever.&quot; But David said: &quot;By the roof in Littledale and by the hearth thereof, thou shalt be ever in my mind.&quot;</p><p>Thus they parted for that time; but five and twenty years afterwards, when Child Christopher was in his most might and majesty, and Goldilind was yet alive and lovely, and sons and daughters sat about their board, it was the Yule feast in the King&apos;s Hall at Oakenham, and there came a man into the hall that none knew, big of stature, grey-eyed and hollow-cheeked, with red hair grizzled, and worn with the helm; a weaponed man, chieftain-like and warrior-like. And when the serving-men asked him of his name, and whence and whither, he said: &quot;I have come from over-seas to look upon the King, and when he seeth me he will know my name.&quot; Then he put them all aside and would not be gainsaid, but strode up the hall to the high-seat, and stood before the King and said: &quot;Hail, little King Christopher! Hail, stout babe of the woodland!&quot;</p><p>Then the King looked on him and knew him at once, and stood up at once with a glad cry, and came round unto him, and took his arms about him and kissed him, and led him into the high-seat, and set him betwixt him and Goldilind, and she also greeted him and took him by the hand and kissed him; and Jack of the Tofts, now a very old man, but yet hale and stark, who sat on the left hand of the King, leaned toward him and kissed him and blessed him; for lo! it was David of the Tofts.</p><p>Spake he now and said: &quot;Christopher, this is now a happy day!&quot;</p><p>Said the King: &quot;David, whither away hence, and what is thine heart set upon?&quot;</p><p>&quot;On the renewal of our youth,&quot; said David, &quot;and the abiding with thee. By my will no further will I go than this thine house. How sayest thou?&quot;</p><p>&quot;As thou dost,&quot; said Christopher, &quot;that this is indeed a happy day; drink out of my cup now, to our abiding together, and the end of sundering till the last cometh.&quot;</p><p>So they drank together, they two, and were happy amidst the folk of the hall; and at last the King stood up and spake aloud, and did all to wit that this was his friend and fellow of the old days; and he told of his doughty deeds, whereof he had heard many a tale, and treasured them in his heart while they were apart, and he bade men honour him, all such as would be his friends. And all men rejoiced at the coming of this doughty man and the friend of the King.</p><p>So there abode David, holden in all honour, and in great love of Child Christopher and Goldilind; and when his father died, his earldom did the King give to David his friend, who never sundered from him again, but was with him in peace and in war, in joy and in sorrow.</p><p>CHAPTER XXXVIII.</p><p>OF MATTERS OF MEADHAM.</p><p>GOES the tale back now to the time when the kingship of Child Christopher was scarce more than one month old; and tells that as the King sat with his Queen in the cool of his garden on a morning of August, there came to him a swain of service, who did him to wit that an outland lord was come, and would see him and give him a message.</p><p>So the King bade bring him in to the garden to him straight-way; so the man went, and came back again leading in a knight somewhat stricken in years, on whose green surcoat was beaten a golden lion.</p><p>He came to those twain and did obeisance to them, but spake, as it seemed, to Goldilind alone: &quot;Lady, and Queen of Meadham,&quot; said he, &quot;it is unto thee, first of all, that mine errand is.&quot;</p><p>Then she spoke and said: &quot;Welcome to thee, Sir Castellan of Greenharbour, we shall hear thy words gladly.&quot;</p><p>Said the new-comer: &quot;Lady, I am no longer the Burgreve of Greenharbour, but Sir Guisebert, lord of the Green March, and thy true servant and a suitor for thy grace and pardon.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I pardon thee not, but thank thee for what thou didst of good to me,&quot; said Goldilind, &quot;and I think that now thine errand shall be friendly.&quot;</p><p>Then turned the Green Knight to the King, and he said: &quot;Have I thy leave to speak, Lord King?&quot; and he smiled covertly.</p><p>But Christopher looked on the face and coat-armour of him, and called him to mind as the man who had stood betwixt him and present death that morning in the porch of the Littledale house; so he looked on him friendly, and said: &quot;My leave thou hast, Sir Knight, to speak fully and freely, and that the more as meseemeth I saw thee first when thou hadst weaponed men at thy back, and wert turning their staves away from my breast.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Even so it is, Lord King,&quot; said the Knight; &quot;and to say sooth, I fear thee less for thy kingship, than because I wot well that thou mayst lightly take me up by the small of my back and cast me over thy shoulder if thou have a mind therefor.&quot;</p><p>Christopher laughed at his word, and bade him sit down upon the green grass and tell his errand straightway; and the Knight tarried not, but spake out: &quot;Queen of Meadham, I am a friend and fellow, and in some sort a servant, to Earl Geoffrey, Regent of Meadham, whom thou knowest; and he hath put a word in my mouth which is both short and easy for me to tell. All goes awry in Meadham now, and men are arming against each other, and will presently be warring, but if thou look to it; because all this is for lack of thee. But if thou wilt vouchsafe to come to Meadhamstead, and sit on thy throne for a little while, commanding and forbidding; and if thou wilt appoint one of the lords for thine Earl there, and others for thy captains, and governors and burgreves and so forth; then if the people see thee and hear thee, the swords will go into their sheaths, and the spears will hang on the wall again, and we shall have peace in Meadham, for all will do thy bidding. Wherefore, Lady and Queen, I beseech thee to come to us, and stave off the riot and ruin. What sayest thou?&quot;</p><p>Goldilind made answer in a while: &quot;Sir Guisebert, true it is that I long to see my people, and to look once more on my father&apos;s house, and the place where he was born and died. But how know I but this is some wile of Earl Geoffrey, for he hath not been abounding in trustiness toward us?&quot;</p><p>But Sir Guisebert swore on his salvation that there was no guile therein, and they were undone save Goldilind came unto them. Then spake Christopher: &quot;Sir Knight, I am willing to pleasure my Lady, who, as I can see, longeth to behold her own land and people; and also by thy voice and thy face I deem that thou art not lying unto me, and that no harm will befall the Lady; yet will I ask thee right out what thou and thy lord would think thereof if she come into Meadham accompanied; to wit, if I rode with her, and had five hundreds of good riders at my back, would ye have guesting for so many and such stark lads?&quot;</p><p>The Knight took up the word eagerly, and said: &quot;Wilt thou but come, dearlord, and bring a thousand or more, then the surer and the safer it would be for us.&quot;</p><p>Said the King, smiling: &quot;Well, it shall be thought on; and meantime be thou merry with us; for indeed I deem of thee, that but for thy helping my life had been cast away that morning in Littledale.&quot;</p><p>So they made much of the Meadham man for three days, and thereafter they rode into Meadham and to Meadhamstead, Christopher, and Jack of the Tofts, and Goldilind, in all honour and triumph, they and seven hundreds of spears, and never were lords received with such joy and kindness as were they, but it were on the day when Christopher and his entered Oakenham.</p><p>The Earl Geoffrey was not amongst them that met them; but whenas they sat at the banquet in the hall, and Goldilind was in the high-seat, gloriously clad and with the kingly crown on her head, there came a tall man up to the dais, grey-headed and keen-eyed, and he was unarmed, without so much as a sword by his side, and clad in simple black; and he knelt before Goldilind, and laid his head on her lap, and spake: &quot;Lady and Queen, here is my head to do with as thou wilt; for I have been thy dastard, and I crave thy pardon, if so it may be, for I am Geoffrey.&quot;</p><p>She looked kindly on him, and raised him up; and then she turned to the chief of the serving-men, and said: &quot;Fetch me a sword with its sheath and its girdle, and see that it be a good blade, and all well-adorned, both sword and sheath and girdle.&quot; Even so it was done; and when she had the sword, she bade Sir Geoffrey kneel again before her, and she girt him with the said sword and spake: &quot;Sir Geoffrey, all the wrong which thou didest to me, I forgive it thee and forget it; but wherein thou hast done well, I will remember it, for thou hast given me a mighty King to be my man; nay, the mightiest and the loveliest on earth; wherefore I bless thee, and will make thee my Earl to rule all Meadham under me, if so be the folk gainsay it not. Wherefore now let these folk fetch thee seemly garments and array thee, and then come sit amongst us, and eat and drink on this high day; for a happy day it is when once again I sit in my father&apos;s house, and see the faces of my folk that loveth me.&quot;</p><p>She spake loud and clear, so that most folk in the hall heard her; and they rejoiced at her words, for Sir Geoffrey was no ill ruler, but wise and of great understanding, keen of wit and deft of word, and a mighty warrior withal; only they might not away with it that their Lady and Queen had become as alien to them. So when they heard her speak her will, they shouted for joy of the peace and goodwill that was to be.</p><p>There then sat Geoffrey at the banquet; and Christopher smiled on him, and said: &quot;See now, lord, if I have not done as thou badest when thou gavest me the treasure of Greenharbour, for I have brought the wolf-heads to thy helping and not to thy scathing. Do thou as much for me, and be thou a good earl to thy Lady and mine, and then shalt thou yet live and die a happy man, and my friend. Or else--&quot;</p><p>&quot;There shall be no else, Lord King,&quot; quoth Geoffrey; &quot;all men henceforth shall tell of me as a true man.&quot;</p><p>So they were blithe and joyous together. But a seven days thence was the Allmen&apos;s Mote gathered to the wood-side without Meadhamstead, and thronged it was: and there Goldilind stood up before all the folk and named Sir Geoffrey for Earl to rule the land under her, and none gainsaid it, for they knew him meet thereto. Then she named from the baronage and knighthood such men as she had been truly told were meet thereto to all the offices of the kingdom, and there was none whom she named but was well- pleasing to the folk; for she had taken counsel beforehand with all the wisest men of all degrees.</p><p>As for herself, all loved and worshipped her; and this alone seemed hard unto them, that she must needs go back to Oakenrealm in a few days: but when she heard them murmur thereat, she behight them, that once in every year she would come into Meadham and spend one whole month therein; and, were it possible, ever should that be the month of May. So when they heard that, they all praised her, and were the more content. This custom she kept ever thereafter, and she lay in with her second son in the city of Meadhamstead, so that he was born therein; and she named him to be King after her, to the great joy of that folk; and he grew up strong and well-liking, and came to the kingship while his mother was yet alive, and was a good man and well-beloved of his folk.</p><p>Before she turned back with her man, she let seek out Aloyse, and when she came before her, gave her gifts and bade her come back with her to Oakenham and serve her there if she would: and the damsel was glad, for there in Meadhamstead was she poor and not well seen to, whereas it was rumoured of her that she had been one of the jailers of Goldilind.</p><p>When they came back to Oakenham, there they met Gandolf, Baron of Brimside, now whole of his hurts, and the King greeted him kindly, and did well to him all his life; and found him ever a true man.</p><p>Good thenceforward was the life of Child Christopher and Goldilind: whiles indeed they happed on unpeace or other trouble; but never did fair love and good worship depart from them, either of each unto each, or of the whole folk unto them twain.</p><p>To no man did Christopher mete out worse than his deserts, nay, to most far better he meted: no man he feared, nor hated any save the tormentors of poor folk; and but a little while abided his hatred of those, for it cut short their lives, so that they were speedily done with and forgotten. 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            <description><![CDATA[for I think my father would have hanged us if we had come back with a &apos;By the way, Christopher is slain.&apos; But tell us, lad, what hath befallen thee with yonder sweetling?" "Yea, tell us," said David, "and sit down here betwixt us, with thy back to the hazel-thicket, or we shall get no tale out of thee--tush, man, Joanna will bring her back, and that right soon, I hope." Christopher laughed, and sat down between them, and told all how it had gone with him, and of Goldilind, who she w...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>for I think my father would have hanged us if we had come back with a &apos;By the way, Christopher is slain.&apos; But tell us, lad, what hath befallen thee with yonder sweetling?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea, tell us,&quot; said David, &quot;and sit down here betwixt us, with thy back to the hazel-thicket, or we shall get no tale out of thee--tush, man, Joanna will bring her back, and that right soon, I hope.&quot;</p><p>Christopher laughed, and sat down between them, and told all how it had gone with him, and of Goldilind, who she was. The others hearkened heedfully, and Gilbert said: &quot;With all thou hast told us, brother, it is clear we shall find it hard to dwell in Littledale; so soon as thy loveling hath rested her at our house, we must go our ways to the Tofts, and take counsel of our father.&quot;</p><p>Christopher yea-said this, and therewithal was come Joanna leading Goldilind duly arrayed (yet still in her green gown, for she would none other), fresh, blushing, and all lovely; and David and Christopher did obeisance before her as to a great lady; but she hailed them as brothers, merrily and kindly, and bade them kiss her; and they kissed her cheek, but shyly, and especially David.</p><p>Thereafter they broke their fast under the oak trees, and spent a merry hour, and then departed, the two women riding the horses, the others afoot; so came they to the house of Littledale, some while before sunset, and were merry and glad there. Young they were, troubles were behind them, and many a joy before them.</p><p>CHAPTER XXIV.</p><p>THEY TAKE COUNSEL AT LITTLEDALE.</p><p>Ten days they abode in the house of Littledale in all good cheer, and Joanna led Goldilind here and there about the woods, and made much of her, so that the heart within her was full of joy, for the freedom of the wild-woods and all the life thereof was well-nigh new to her; whereas on the day of her flight from Greenharbour, and on two other such times, deadly fear, as is aforesaid, was mingled with her joyance, and would have drowned it utterly, but for the wilfulness which hardened her heart against the punishment to come. But now she was indeed free, and it seemed to her, as to Christopher when he was but new healed of his hurt, as if all this bright beauty of tree and flower, and beast and bird, was but made for her alone, and she wondered that her fellow could be so calm and sedate amidst of all this pleasure. And now, forsooth, was her queenhood forgotten, and better and better to her seemed Christopher&apos;s valiant love; and the meeting in the hall of the eventide was so sweet to her, that she might do little but stand trembling whiles Christopher came up to her, and Joanna&apos;s trim feet were speeding her over the floor to meet her man, that she might be a sharer in his deeds of the day.</p><p>Many tales withal Joanna told the Queen of the deeds of her husband and his kindred, and of the freeing of her and the other three from their captivity at Wailing Knowe, and of the evil days they wore there before the coming of their lads, which must have been worser by far, thought Goldilind, than the days of Greenharbour; so with all these tales, and the happy days in the house of the wild-woods, Goldilind now began to deem of this new life as if there had been none other fated for her, so much a part was she now become of the days of those woodmen and wolf-heads.</p><p>But when the last of those ten days was wearing to an end and those five were sitting happy in the hall (albeit David sat somewhat pensive, now staring at Goldilind&apos;s beauty, now rising from his seat to pace the floor restlessly), Gilbert spake and said: &quot;Brethren, and thou, Queen Goldilind, it may be that the time is drawing near for other deeds than letting fly a few shafts at the dun deer, and eating our meat, and singing old songs as we lie at our ladies&apos; feet; for though we be at peace here in the wild-wood, forgetting all things save those that are worthy to be remembered, yet in the cities and the courts of kings guile is not forgotten, and pride is alive, and tyranny, and the sword is whetted for innocent lives, and the feud is eked by the destruction of those who be sackless of its upheaving. Wherefore it behoveth to defend us by the ready hand and the bold heart and the wise head. So, I say, let us loiter here no longer, but go our ways to-morrow to the Tofts, and take the rede of our elders. How say ye, brethren?&quot;</p><p>Quoth Christopher: &quot;Time was, brother, when what thou sayest would have been as a riddle to me, and I would have said: Here are we merry, though we be few; and if ye lack more company, let me ride to the Tofts and come back with a half score of lads and lasses, and thus let us eke our mirth; and maybe they will tell us whitherward to ride. But now there is a change, since I have gained a gift over-great for me, and I know that they shall be some of the great ones who would be eager to take it from me; and who knows what guile may be about the weaving even now, as on the day when thou first sawest this hall, beloved.&quot;</p><p>Goldilind spake and sighed withal: &quot;Whither my lord will lead me, thither will I go; but here is it fair and sweet and peaceful; neither do I look for it that men will come hither to seek the Queen of Meadham.&quot;</p><p>David said: &quot;Bethink thee, though, my Lady, that he who wedded thee to the woodman may yet rue, and come hither to undo his deed, by slaying the said woodman, and showing the Queen unto the folk.&quot;</p><p>Goldilind turned pale; but Joanna spake: &quot;Nay, brother David, why wilt thou prick her heart with this fear? For my part, I think that, chance-hap apart, we might dwell here for years in all safety, and happily enough, maybe. Yet also I say that we of the Tofts may well be eager to show this jewel to our kindred, and especially to our father and mother of the Tofts; so to-morrow we will set about the business of carrying her thither, will she, nill she.&quot; And therewith she threw her arms about Goldilind, and clipped her and kissed her; and Goldilind reddened for pleasure and for joy that she was so sore prized by them all.</p><p>CHAPTER XXV.</p><p>NOW THEY ALL COME TO THE TOFTS.</p><p>Next morning, while the day was yet young, they rode together, all of them, the nighest way to the Tofts, for they knew the wood right well. Again they slept one night under the bare heavens, and, rising betimes on the morrow, came out under the Tofts some four hours after high noon, on as fair and calm a day of early summer as ever was seen.</p><p>They rode up straight to the door of the great hall, and found but few folk about, and those mostly women and children; Jack was ridden abroad, they said, but they looked to see him back to supper, him and his sons, for he was no great way gone.</p><p>Meantime, when they got off their horses, the women and children thronged round about them; and the children especially about Christopher, whom they loved much. The maidens, also, would not have him pass into the hall unkissed, though presently, after their faces had felt his lips, they fell a-staring and wondering at Goldilind, and when Christopher took her by the hand and gave her welcome to the House of the Tofts, and they saw that she was his, they grew to be somewhat afraid, or it might be shy, both of her and of him.</p><p>Anyhow, folk came up to them in the hall, and made much of them, and took them unto chambers and washed their feet, and crowned them with flowers, and brought them into the hall again, and up on to the dais, and gave them to eat and drink. Thither came to them also the Lady Margaret, Jack&apos;s wedded wife, and made them the most cheer that she might; and unto her did Christopher tell his story as unto his very mother; and what there was in the house, both of carle and of quean, gathered round about to hearken, and Christopher nothing loth. And Goldilind&apos;s heart warmed toward that folk, and in sooth they were a goodly people to look on, and frank and happy, and of good will, and could well of courtesy, though it were not of the courts.</p><p>Wore the bright day, and it drew toward sunset, and now the carles came straight into the hall by twos and threes, till there were a many within its walls. But to each one of these knots as they entered, someone, carle or quean, spake a word or two, and straightway the new-comers went up to the dais and greeted Christopher pleasantly, and made obeisance to Goldilind.</p><p>At last was the hall, so quiet erst, grown busy as a beehive, and amidst the throng thereof came in the serving-folk, women and men, and set the endlong boards up (for the high-table was a standing one of oak, right thick and strong); and then they fell to bringing in the service, all but what the fire was dealing with in the kitchen. And whiles this was a-doing, the sun was sinking fast, and it was dusk in the hall by then it was done, though without the sky was fair and golden, and about the edges of the thicket were the nightingales singing loud and sweet, but within was the turmoil of many voices, whereof few heeded if their words were loud or soft.</p><p>Amidst all this, from close to the hall, rang out the sound of many horns winding a woodland tune. None was afeard or astonied, because all knew it for the horns of Jack of the Tofts; but they stilled their chattering talk somewhat, and abided his coming; and even therewith came the sound of many feet and the clash of weapons, and men poured in, and there was the gleam of steel, as folk fell back to the right and left, and gave room to the new-comers. Then a loud, clear, and cheery voice cried out from amidst of them: &quot;Light in the hall, men and maids! Candles, candles! Let see who is here before us!&quot;</p><p>Straightway then was there running hither and thither and light sprang up over all the hall, and there could folk see Jack of the Tofts, and a score and a half of his best, every man of them armed with shield and helm and byrny, with green coats over their armour, and wreaths of young oak about their basnets; there they stood amidst of the hall, and every man with his naked sword in his fist. Jack stood before his folk clad in like wise with them, save that his head was bare but for an oak wreath. Men looked on a while and said nought, while Jack looked proudly and keenly over the hall, and at last his eye caught Christopher&apos;s, but he made the youngling no semblance of greeting. Christopher&apos;s heart fell, and he misdoubted if something were not wrong; but he spake softly to one who stood by him, and said: &quot;Is aught amiss, Will Ashcroft? this is not the wont here.&quot;</p><p>Said the other: &quot;Not in thy time; but for the last seven days it hath been the wont, and then off weapons and to supper peaceably.</p><p>CHAPTER XXVI.</p><p>OF THE KING OF OAKENREALM.</p><p>Even therewith, and while the last word had but come to Christopher&apos;s ears, rang out the voice of Jack of the Tofts again, louder and clearer than before: and he said: &quot;Men in this hall, I bear you tidings! The King of Oakenrealm is amongst us to-night.&quot;</p><p>Then, forsooth, was the noise and the turmoil, and cries and shouts and clatter, and fists raised in air and weapons caught down from the wall, and the glitter of spear-points and gleam of fallow blades. For the name of Rolf, King of Oakenrealm, was to those woodmen as the name of the Great Devil of Hell, so much was he their unfriend and their dastard. But Jack raised up his hand, and cried: &quot;Silence ye! Blow up, horns, The Hunt&apos;s Up!&quot;</p><p>Blared out the horns then, strong and fierce, under the hall-roof, and when they were done, there was more silence in the hall than in the summer night without; only the voice of the swords could not be utterly still, but yet tinkled and rang as hard came against hard here and there in the hush.</p><p>Again spake Jack: &quot;Let no man speak! Let no man move from his place! I SEE THE KING! Ye shall see him!&quot;</p><p>Therewith he strode up the hall and on to the dais, and came up to where stood Christopher holding Goldilind&apos;s hand, and she all pale and trembling; but Jack took him by the shoulder, and turned him about toward a seat which stood before the board, so that all men in the hall could see it; then he set him down in it, and took his sword from his girdle, and knelt down before the young man, and took his right hand, and said in a loud voice: &quot;I, Jack of the Tofts, a free man and a sackless, wrongfully beguilted, am the man of King Christopher of Oakenrealm, to live and die for him as need may be. Lo, Lord, my father&apos;s blade! Wilt thou be good to me and gird me therewith, as thy father girt him?&quot;</p><p>Now when Christopher heard him, at first he deemed that all this was some sport or play done for his pastime and the pleasure of the hall-folk in all kindness and honour. But when he looked in the eyes of him, and saw him fierce and eager and true, he knew well it was no jest; and as the shouts of men went up from the hall and beat against the roof, himseemed that he remembered, as in a dream, folk talking a-nigh him when he was too little to understand, of a king and his son, and a mighty man turned thief and betrayer. Then his brow cleared, and his eyes shone bright, and he leaned forward to Jack and girt him with the sword, and kissed his mouth, and said: &quot;Thou art indeed my man and my thane and my earl, and I gird thee with thy sword as my father girded thy father.&quot;</p><p>Then stood up Jack o&apos; the Tofts and said: &quot;Men in this hall, happy is the hour, and happy are ye! This man is the King of Oakenrealm, and he yonder is but a thief of kings, a dastard!&quot;</p><p>And again great was the shouting, for carle and quean, young and old, they loved Christopher well: and Jack of the Tofts was not only their war-duke and alderman, but their wise man also, and none had any thought of gainsaying him. But he spake again and said: &quot;Is there here any old man, or not so old, who hath of past days seen our King that was, King Christopher to wit, who fell in battle on our behalf? If so there be, let him come up hither.&quot;</p><p>Then arose a greybeard from a bench nigh the high-table, and came up on to the dais; a very tall man had he been, but was now somewhat bowed by age. He now knelt before Christopher, and took his hand, and said: &quot;I, William of Whittenham, a free man, a knight, sackless of the guilt which is laid on me, would be thy man, O my lord King, to serve thee in all wise; if so be that I may live to strike one stroke for my master&apos;s son, whom now I see, the very living image of the King whom I served in my youth.&quot;</p><p>Then Christopher bent down to him and kissed him, and said: &quot;Thou art indeed my man and my thane &amp; my baron; and who knows but that thou mayst have many a stroke to strike for me in the days that are nigh at hand.&quot;</p><p>And again the people shouted: and then there came another and another, and ten more squires and knights and men of estate, who were now indeed woodmen and wolf-heads, but who, the worst of them, were sackless of aught save slaying an unfriend, or a friend&apos;s unfriend, in fair fight; and all these kneeled before him, and put their hands in his, and gave themselves unto him.</p><p>When this was done, there came thrusting through the throng of the hall a tall woman, old, yet comely as for her age; she went right up on to the dais, and came to where sat Christopher, and without more ado cast her arms about him and kissed him, and then she held him by the shoulders and cried out: &quot;O, have I found thee at last, my loveling, and my dear, and my nurse-chick? and thou grown so lovely and yet so big that I may never more hold thee aloft in mine arms, as once I was wont; though high enough belike thou shalt be lifted; and I say praise be to God and to his Hallows that thou art grown so beauteous and mighty a man!&quot;</p><p>Therewith she turned about toward the hall-throng and said: &quot;Thou, duke of these woodmen, and all ye in this hall, I have been brought hither by one of you; and though I have well-nigh died of joy because of the suddenness of this meeting, yet I thank him therefor. For who is this goodly and gracious young man save the King&apos;s son of Oakenrealm, Christopher that was; and that to my certain knowledge; for he is my fosterling and my milk-child, and I took him from the hands of the midwife in the High House of Oakenham a twenty-one years ago; and they took him from Oakenham, and me with him to the house of Lord Richard the Lean, at Longholms, and there we dwelt; but in a little while they took him away from Longholms to I wot not whither, but would not suffer me to go along with him, and ever sithence have I been wandering about and hoping to see this lovely child again, and now I see him, what he is, and again I thank God and Allhallows therefor.&quot;</p><p>Once more then was there stir and glad tumult in the hall. But Goldilind stood wondering, and fear entered into her soul; for she saw before her a time of turmoil and unpeace, and there seemed too much between her and the sweetness of her love. Withal it must be said, that for as little as she knew of courts and war-hosts, she yet seemed to see lands without that hall, and hosts marching, and mighty walls glittering with spears, and the banners of a great King displayed; and Jack of the Tofts and his champions and good fellows seemed but a frail defence against all that, when once the hidden should be shown, and the scantiness of the woodland should cry on the abundance of the kingdom to bow down.</p><p>Now she came round the board and stood beside Christopher, and he turned to her, and stood up and took her hand, in such wise that she felt the caress of it; and joy filled her soul, as if she had been alone with him in the wild-wood.</p><p>But he spake and said: &quot;All ye my friends: I see and wot well that ye would have me sit in my father&apos;s seat and be the King of Oakenrealm, and that ye will give me help and furtherance therein to the utmost; nor will I cast back the gift upon you; and I will say this, that when I am King indeed, it is my meaning and my will now, that then I shall be no less one of you good fellows and kind friends than ye have known me hitherto; and even so I deem that ye think of me. But, good friends, it is not to be hidden that the road ye would have me wend with you is like to be rough; and it may well be that we shall not come to be kings or kings&apos; friends but men hunted, and often, maybe, men taken and slain. Therefore, till one thing or the other come, the kingship, or the taking, I will try to be no less joyous than now I am, and so meseemeth shall ye; and if ye be of this mind, then shall the coming days be no worse than the days which have been; and God wot they have been happy enough. Now again, ye see this most fair lady, whose hand I hold; she is my beloved and my wife; and therewithal she is the true Queen of Meadham, and a traitor sits in her place even as a traitor sits in mine. But I must tell you that when she took me for her beloved, she knew not, nor did I, that I was a King&apos;s son, but she took me as a woodman and an outcast, and as a wood-man and outcast I wooed her, trusting in the might that was in my body, and the love that was in my heart; and now before all you, my friends, I thank her and worship her that my body and my love was enough for her; as, God wot, the kingship of the whole earth should not be overmuch for her, if it lay open to her to take. But, sweet friends, here am I talking of myself as a King wedded unto a Queen, whereas meseemeth the chiefest gift our twin kingship hath brought you to-night is the gift of two most mighty unfriends for you; to wit, her foeman and mine. See ye to it, then, if the wild-wood yonder is not a meeter dwelling for us than this your goodly hall; and fear not to put us to the door as a pair of make-bates and a peril to this goodly company. Lo you, the sky without has not yet lost all memory of the sun, and in a little while it will be yellowing again to the dawn. Nought evil shall be the wild-wood for our summer dwelling; and what! ere the winter come, we may have won us another house where erst my fathers feasted. And thereto, my friends, do I bid you all.&quot;</p><p>But when they heard his friendly words, and saw the beauty of the fair woman whose hand he held, his face grew so well-beloved to them, that they cried out with so great a voice of cheer, wordless for their very joy, that the timbers of the hall quavered because of it, and it went out into the wild-wood as though it had been the feastful roaring of the ancient gods of the forest.</p><p>But when the tumult sank a little, then cried out Jack of the Tofts: &quot;Bring now the mickle shield, and let us look upon our King.&quot;</p><p>So men went and fetched in a huge ancient shield, plated with berry-brown iron, inlaid with gold, and the four biggest men in the hall took it on their shoulders and knelt down anigh the dais, before Christopher, and Jack said aloud: &quot;King! King! Stand up here! for this war-board of old days is the castle and the burg alone due to thee, and these four fellows here are the due mountains to upbear it.&quot;</p><p>Then lightly strode Child Christopher on to the shield, and when he stood firm thereon, they rose heedfully underneath him till they were standing upright on their feet, and the King stood on the shield as if he were grown there, and waved his naked sword to the four orts.</p><p>Then cried out an old woman in a shrill voice: &quot;Lo, how the hills rise up into tall mountains; even so shall arise Child Christopher to the kingship.&quot;</p><p>Thereat all the folk laughed for joy and cried out: &quot;Child Christopher! Child Christopher, our King!&quot; And for that word, when he came to the crown indeed, and ruled wide lands, was he called Child Christopher; and that name clave to him after he was dead, and but a name in the tale of his kindred.</p><p>Now the King spake and said: &quot;Friends, now is it time to get to the board, and the feast which hath been stayed this while; and I pray you let it be as merry as if there were no striving and unpeace betwixt us and the winning of peace. But to-morrow we will hallow-in the Mote, and my earl and my barons and good men shall give counsel, and then shall it be that the hand shall do what the heart biddeth.&quot;</p><p>Therewith he leapt down from the shield, and went about the hall talking to this one and that, till the board was full dight; then he took his place in the high-seat, beside Jack of the Tofts; and David and Gilbert and his other foster-brethren sat on either side of him, and their wives with them; and men fell to feasting in great glee.</p><p>But one thing there is yet to tell of this feast. When men had drunk a cup or two, and drunk memories to good men dead, and healths to good men living, amidst this arose a grey-head carle from the lower end of the hall, and said: &quot;Child Christopher, thy grace, that I may crave a boon of thee on this day of leal service.&apos;</p><p>&quot;Ask then,&quot; said Christopher, with a pleasant face.</p><p>&quot;King,&quot; quoth the carle, &quot;here are we all gathered together, and we have before us the most beautifullest woman of the world, who sitteth by thy side; now to-night we be all dear friends, and there is no lack between us; yet who can say how often we may meet and things be so? I do not say that there shall enmity and dissension arise between us, though that may betide; but it is not unlike that another time thou, King, and thy mate, may be prouder than now ye be, since now ye are new to it. And if that distance grow between us, it will avail nought to ask my boon then.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, well, ask it now, friend,&quot; said the King, laughing; &quot;I were fain of ending the day with a gift.&quot;</p><p>&quot;This it is then, King,&quot; said the carle: &quot;since we are here set down before the loveliest woman in the world, grant us this, that all we men-folk may for this once kiss the face of her, if she will have it so.&quot;</p><p>Huge laughter and cheers arose at his word; but King Christopher arose and said: &quot;Friend, thy boon is granted with a good will; or how sayest thou, Goldilind my beloved?</p><p>For all answer she stood up blushing like a rose, and held out her two hands to the men in the hall. And straightway the old carle rose up and went in haste to the high-table, before another man might stir, and took Goldilind by the chin, and kissed her well-favouredly, and again men laughed joyously. Then came before her Jack of the Tofts and all his sons, one after other, and kissed her face, save only David, who knelt humbly before her, and took her right hand and kissed it, while the tears were in his eyes. Then came many of the men in the hall, and some were bold, but many were shy, and when they came before her durst kiss neither hand nor face of her, but their hearts were full of her when they went to their places again; and all the assembly was praising her.</p><p>So wore the time of that first night of the kingship of Child Christopher.</p><p>CHAPTER XXVII.</p><p>OF THE HUSTING OF THE TOFTS.</p><p>When morning was, there were horns sounding from the tower on the toft, and all men hastening in their war-gear to the topmost of the other toft, the bare one, whereon was no building; for thereon was ever the mote-stead of these woodmen. But men came not only from the stead and houses of the Tofts, but also from the woodland cots and dwellings anigh, of which were no few. And they that came there first found King Christopher sitting on the mound amid the mote-stead, and Jack of the Tofts and his seven sons sitting by him, and all they well-weaponed and with green coats over their hauberks; and they that came last found three hundreds of good men and true gathered there, albeit this was but the Husting of the Tofts.</p><p>So when there were no more to come, then was the Mote hallowed, and the talk began; but short and sharp was their rede, for well did all men wot who had been in the hall the night before that there was now no time to lose. For though nigh all the men that had been in the hall were well known to each other, yet might there perchance have been some spy unknown, who had edged him in as a guest to one of the good men. Withal, as the saw saith: The word flieth, the wight dieth. And it were well if they might gather a little host ere their foeman might gather a mickle.</p><p>First therefore arose Jack of the Tofts, and began shortly to put forth the sooth, that there was come the son of King Christopher the Old, and that now he was seeking to his kingdom, not for lust of power and gain, but that he might be the friend of good men and true, and uphold them and be by them upholden. And saith he: &quot;Look ye on the face of this man, and tell me where ye shall find a friend friendlier than he, and more single-hearted?&quot; And therewith he laid his hand on Christopher&apos;s head, and the young man rose up, blushing like a maid, and thereafter a long time could no lord be heard for the tumult of gladness and the clashing of weapons.</p><p>But when it was a little hushed, then spake Jack again: &quot;Now need no man say more to man on this matter, for ye call this curly-headed lad the King of Oakenrealm, even as some of ye did last night.&quot;</p><p>Mighty was the shout of yea-say that arose at that word; and when it was stilled, a grey-head stood up and said: &quot;King Christopher, and thou, our leader, whom we shall henceforth call Earl, it is now meet that we shear up the war-arrow, and send it forth to whithersoever we deem our friends dwell, and that this be done at once here in this Mote, and that the hosting be after three nights&apos; frist in the plain of Hazeldale, which all ye know is twelve miles nigher to Oakenrealm than this.&quot;</p><p>All men yea-said this, no one gainsaid it; and straightway was fire kindled and the bull slain, for the said elder had brought him thither; and the arrow was sheared and scorched and reddened, and the runners were fetched, and the word given them, and they were sped on their errand.</p><p>Up rose then another, a young man, and spake: &quot;Many stout fellows be here, and some wise and well-ruled, and many also hot-head and wilful: Child Christopher is King now, and we all know him that when he cometh into the fray he is like to strike three strokes for two that any other winneth; but as to his lore of captainship, if he hath any, he was born with it, as is like enough, seeing who was his father; therefore we need a captain well-proven, to bid us how to turn hither and thither, and where to gather thickest, and where to spread thinnest; and when to fall on fiercely and when to give way, and let the thicket cover us; for wise in war shall our foemen be. Now therefore if anyone needeth a better captain than our kin-father and war-father Jack of the Tofts, he must needs go fetch him from otherwhere! How sayest thou, Christopher lad?&quot;</p><p>Great cheer there was at the word, and laughter no little therewith. But Christopher stood up, and took Jack by the hand, and said: &quot;Now say I, that if none else follow this man into battle, yet will I; and if none else obey him to go backward or forward to the right hand or to the left as he biddeth, yet will I. Thou, Wilfrid Wellhead, look to it that thou dost no less. But ye folk, what will ye herein?&quot;</p><p>So they all yea-said Jack of the Tofts for captain; and forsooth they might do no less, for he was wary and wise, and had done many deeds, and seen no little of warfare.</p><p>Then again arose a man of some forty winters, strong built and not ungoodly, but not merry of countenance, and he spake: &quot;King and war-leader, I have a word to say: We be wending to battle, we carles, with spear in fist and sword by side; and if we die in the fray, of the day&apos;s work is it; but what do we with our kinswomen, as mothers and daughters and wives and she-friends, and the little ones they have borne us? For, see ye! this warfare we are faring, maybe it shall not last long, and yet maybe it shall; and then may the foeman go about us and fall on this stead if we leave them behind here with none to guard them; and if, on the other hand, we leave them men enough for their warding, then we minish our host overmuch. What do we then?&quot;</p><p>Then spake Jack of the Tofts: &quot;This is well thought of by Haward of Whiteacre, and we must look to it. And, by my rede, we shall have our women and little ones with us; and why not? For we shall then but be moving Toftstead as we move; and ever to some of us hath it been as a camp rather than an house. Moreover, ye know it, that our women be no useless and soft queans, who durst not lie under the oak boughs for a night or two, or wade a water over their ankles, but valiant they be, and kind, and helpful; and many of them are there who can draw a bow with the best, and, it may be, push a spear if need were. How say ye, lads?&quot;</p><p>Now this also they yea-said gladly; forsooth they had scarce been fain of leaving the women behind, at least the younger ones, even had they been safe at the Tofts; for there is no time when a man would gladlier have a fair woman in his arms than when battle and life-peril are toward.</p><p>Thereafter the Mote sundered, when the Captain had bidden his men this and that matter that each should look to; and said that he, for his part, with King Christopher and a chosen band, would set off for Hazeldale on the morrow morn, whereas some deal of the gathering would of a certainty be come thither by then; and that there was enough left of that day to see to matters at the Tofts.</p><p>So all men went about their business, which was, for the most part, seeing to the victualling of the host.</p><p>CHAPTER XXVIII.</p><p>OF THE HOSTING IN HAZELDALE.</p><p>On the morrow early was Jack of the Tofts dight for departure, with Christopher and David and Gilbert and five score of his best men. But when they went out of the porch into the sweet morning, lo! there was Goldilind before them, clad in her green gown, and as fresh and dear as the early day itself. And Jack looked on her and said: &quot;And thou, my Lady and Queen, thou art dight as thou wouldst wend with us?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea,&quot; she said, &quot;and why not?&quot;</p><p>&quot;What sayest thou, King Christopher?&quot; said the Captain.</p><p>&quot;Nay,&quot; said King Christopher, reddening, &quot;it is for thee to yea-say or nay-say; though true it is that I have bidden her farewell for two days&apos; space.&quot; And the two stood looking on one another.</p><p>But Jack laughed and said: &quot;Well, then, so be it; but let us get to the way, or else when the sweethearts of these lads know that we have a woman with us we shall have them all at our backs.&quot; Thereat all laughed who were within earshot, and were merry.</p><p>So they wended the woodland ways, some afoot, some a-horseback, of whom was Jack of the Tofts, but Christopher and David went afoot. And Goldilind rode a fair white horse which the Captain had gotten her.</p><p>As they went, and King Christopher ever by Goldilind&apos;s right hand, and were merry and joyous, they two were alone in the woodland way; so Christopher took her hand and kissed it, and said: &quot;Sweetling, why didst thou tell me nought of thy will to come along with us? Never had I balked thee.&quot;</p><p>She looked at him, blushing as a rose, and said: &quot;Dear friend, I will tell thee; I knew that thou wouldst make our parting piteous-sweet this morning; and of that I would not be balked. See, then, how rich I am, since I have both parted from thee and have thee.&quot; And therewith she louted down from her saddle, and they kissed together sweetly, and so thereafter wore the way.</p><p>So came they to the plain of Hazeldale, which was a wide valley with a middling river winding about it, the wild-wood at its back toward the Tofts, and in front down-land nought wooded, save here and there a tree nigh a homestead or cot; for that way the land was builded for a space. Forsooth it was not easy for the folk thereabout to live quietly, but if they were friends in some wise to Jack of the Tofts.</p><p>So when the company of the Tofts came out into the dale about three hours after noon, it was no wonder to them to see men riding and going to and fro, and folk pitching tents and raising booths nigh to the cover of the wood; and when the coming of the Toft-folk was seen, and the winding of their horns heard, there was many a glad cry raised in answer, and many an horn blown, and all men there came running together toward where now was stayed Jack of the Tofts and Christopher and their men.</p><p>Then Goldilind bade Christopher help her light down; so he took her in his arms, and was not over hasty in setting her down again. But when she stood by him, she looked over the sunny field darkened by the folk hastening over the greensward, and her eyes glittered and her cheek flushed, and she said: &quot;Lord King, be these some others of thy men?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea, sweetling,&quot; said he, &quot;to live and die with me.&quot;</p><p>She looked on him, and said softly: &quot;Maybe it were an ill wish to wish that I were thou; yet if it might be for one hour!&quot;</p><p>Said he: &quot;Shall it not be for more than one hour? Shall it not be for evermore, since we twain are become one?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nay,&quot; she said, &quot;this is but a word; I am but thine handmaid: and now I can scarce refrain my body from falling before thy feet.&quot;</p><p>He laughed in her face for joy, and said: &quot;Abide a while, until these men have looked on thee, and then shalt thou see how thou wilt be a flame of war in their hearts that none shall withstand.&quot;</p><p>Now were the dale-dwellers all come together in their weapons, and they were glad of their King and his loveling; and stout men were they all, albeit some were old, and some scarce of man&apos;s age. So they were ranked and told over, and the tale of them was over six score who had obeyed the war-arrow, and more and more, they said, would come in every hour. But now the Captains of them bade the Toft-folk eat with them; and they yea-said the bidding merrily, and word was given, and sacks and baskets brought forth, and barrels to boot, and all men sat down on the greensward, and high was the feast and much the merriment on the edge of Hazeldale.</p><p>CHAPTER XXIX.</p><p>TIDINGS COME TO HAZELDALE.</p><p>But they had not done their meat, and had scarce begun upon their drink, ere they saw three men come riding on the spur over the crown of the bent before them; these made no stay for aught, but rode straight through the ford of the river, as men who knew well where it was, and came on hastily toward the feasters by the wood-edge. Then would some have run to meet them, but Jack of the Tofts bade them abide till he had heard the tidings; whereas they needed not to run to their weapons, for, all of them, they were fully dight for war, save, it might be, the doing on of their sallets or basnets. But Jack and Christopher alone went forward to meet those men; and the foremost of them cried out at once: &quot;I know thee, Jack of the Tofts! I know thee! Up and arm! up and arm! for the foemen are upon thee; and so choose thee whether thou wilt fight or flee.&quot;</p><p>Quoth Jack, laughing: &quot;I know thee also, Wat of Whiteend; and when thou hast told me how many and who be the foemen, we will look either to fighting or fleeing.&quot;</p><p>Said Wat: &quot;Thou knowest the blazon of the banner which we saw, three red wolves running on a silver field?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea, forsooth,&quot; said Jack; &quot;&apos;tis the Baron of Brimside that beareth that shield ever; and the now Baron, hight the Lord Gandolf, how many was he?&quot;</p><p>Said Wat: &quot;Ten hundreds or more. But what say fellows?&quot;</p><p>Quoth the other twain: &quot;More, more they were.&quot;</p><p>Said Jack of the Tofts: &quot;And when shall he be here, deem ye?&quot;</p><p>&quot;In less than an hour,&quot; said Wat, &quot;he will be on thee with great and small; but his riders, some of them, in lesser space.&quot;</p><p>Then turned Jack about and cried out for David, and when he came, he said: &quot;Put thy long legs over a good horse, and ride straight back to the Tofts and gather whatever may bear spear and draw bow, and hither with them, lad, by the nighest road; tarry not, speak no word, be gone!&quot;</p><p>So David turned, and was presently riding swiftly back through the woodland paths. But Jack spake to the bearers of tidings: &quot;Good fellows, go ye yonder and bid them give you a morsel and a cup; and tell all the tidings, and this, withal, that we have nought to flee from a good fightstead for Gandolf of Brimside.&quot; Therewith he turned to Christopher and said: &quot;Thy pardon, King, but these matters must be seen to straightway. Now do thou help me array our folk, for there is heart enough in them as in thee and me; and mayhappen we may make an end to this matter now and here. Moreover, the Baron of Brimside is a stout carle, so fight we must, meseemeth.&quot;</p><p>Then he called to them one of the captains of the Tofts and they three spake together heedfully a little, and thereafter they fell to work arraying the folk; and King Christopher did his part therein deftly and swiftly, for quick of wit he was, and that the more whenso anything was to be done.</p><p>As to the array, the main of the folk that were spearmen and billmen but moved forward somewhat from where they had dined to the hanging of the bent, so that their foemen would have the hill against them or ever they came on point and edge. But the bowmen, of whom were now some two hundreds, for many men had come in after the first tally, were spread abroad on the left hand of the spearmen toward the river, where the ground was somewhat broken, and bushed with thorn-bushes. And a bight of the water drew nearer to the Tofters, amidst of which was a flat eyot, edged with willows and covered with firm and sound greensward, and was some thirty yards endlong and twenty overthwart. So there they abode the coming of the foe, and it was now hard on five o&apos;clock.</p><p>But Christopher went up to Goldilind where she stood amidst of the spearmen, hand turning over hand, and her feet wandering to and fro almost without her will; and when he came to her, she had much ado to refrain her from falling on his bosom and weeping there. But he cried to her gaily: &quot;Now, my Lady and Queen, thou shalt see a fair play toward even sooner than we looked for; and thine eyes shall follow me, if the battle be thronged, by this token, that amongst all these good men and true I only wear a forgilded basnet with a crown about it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;O!&quot; she said, &quot;if it were but over, and thou alive and free! I would pay for that, I deem, if I might, by a sojourn in Greenharbour again.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What!&quot; he said, &quot;that I might have to thrust myself into the peril of snatching thee forth again?&quot; And he laughed merrily. &quot;Nay,&quot; said he, &quot;this play must needs begin before it endeth; and by Saint Nicholas, I deem that to-day it beginneth well.&quot;</p><p>But she put her hands before her face, and her shoulders were shaken with sobs. &quot;Alas! sweetling,&quot; said he, &quot;that my joy should be thy sorrow! But, I pray thee, take not these stout-hearts for runaways. And Oh! look, look!&quot;</p><p>She looked up, wondering and timorous, but all about her the men sprang up and shouted, and tossed up bill and sword, and the echo of their cries came back from the bowmen on the left, and Christopher&apos;s sword came rattling out of the scabbard and went gleaming up aloft. Then words came into the cry of the folk, and Goldilind heard it, that they cried &quot;Child Christopher! King Christopher!&quot; Then over her head came a sound of flapping and rending as the evening wind beat about the face of the wood; and she heard folk cry about her: &quot;The banner, the banner! Ho for the Wood-wife of Oakenrealm!&quot;</p><p>Then her eyes cleared for what was aloof before her, and she saw a dark mass come spreading down over the bent on the other side of the river, and glittering points and broad gleams of white light amidst of it, and noise came from it; and she knew that here were come the foemen. But she thought to herself that they looked not so many after all; and she looked at the great and deft bodies of their folk, and their big-headed spears and wide-bladed glaves and bills, and strove with her heart and refrained her fear, and thrust back the image which had arisen before her of Greenharbour come back again, and she lonely and naked in the Least Guard-chamber: and she stood firm, and waved her hand to greet the folk.</p><p>And lo! there was Christopher kneeling before her and kissing her hand, and great shouts arising about her of &quot;The Lady of Oakenrealm! The Lady of Meadham! For the Lady! For the Lady!&quot;</p><p>CHAPTER XXX.</p><p>OF THE FIELD THAT WAS SET IN THE HOLM OF HAZELDALE.</p><p>Now thither cometh Jack o&apos; the Tofts, and spake to Christopher: &quot;See thou, lad--Lord King, I should say; this looketh not like very present battle, for they be stayed half way down the bent; and lo thou, some half score are coming forth from the throng with a white shield raised aloft. Do we in likewise, for they would talk with us.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Shall we trust them, father?&quot; said Christopher.</p><p>&quot;Trust them we may, son,&quot; said Jack; &quot;Gandolf is a violent man, and a lifter of other men&apos;s goods, but I deem not so evil of him as that he would bewray troth.&quot;</p><p>So then they let do a white cloth over a shield and hoist it on a long spear, and straightway they gat to horse, Jack of the Tofts, and Christopher, and Haward of Whiteacre, and Gilbert, and a half score all told; and they rode straight down to the ford, which was just below the tail of the eyot aforesaid, and as they went, they saw the going of the others, who were by now hard on the waterside; and said Jack: &quot;See now, King Christopher, he who rides first in a surcoat of his arms is even the Baron, the black bullet-headed one; and the next to him, the red-head, is his squire and man, Oliver Marson, a stout man, but fierce and grim-hearted. Lo thou, they are taking the water, but they are making for the eyot and not our shore: son mine, this will mean a hazeled field in the long run; but now they will look for us to come to them therein. Yea, now they are aland and have pitched their white shield. And hearken, that is their horn; blow we an answer: ho, noise! set thy lips to the brass.&quot;</p><p>So then, when one horn had done its song, the other took it up, and all men of both hosts knew well that the horns blew but for truce and parley.</p><p>Now come the Toft-folk to the ford, and take the water, which was very shallow on their side, and when they come up on to the eyot, they find the Baron and his folk off their horses, and lying on the green grass, so they also lighted down and stood and hailed the new comers. Then uprose the Lord Gandolf, and greeted the Toft-folk, and said: &quot;Jack of the Tofts, thou ridest many-manned to-day.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea, Lord,&quot; said Jack, &quot;and thou also. What is thine errand?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nay,&quot; said the Baron, &quot;what is thine? As for mine host here, there came a bird to Brimside and did me to wit that I should be like to need a throng if I came thy way; and sooth was that. Come now, tell us what is toward, thou rank reiver, though I have an inkling thereof; for if this were a mere lifting, thou wouldst not sit still here amidst thy friends of Hazeldale.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Lord,&quot; said Jack o&apos; the Tofts, &quot;thou shalt hear mine errand, and then give heed to what thou wilt do. Look to the bent under the wood, and tell me, dost thou see the blazon of the banner under which be my men?&quot;</p><p>&quot;That can I not,&quot; said the Lord Gandolf; &quot;but I have seen the banner of Oakenrealm, which beareth the wood-woman with loins garlanded with oak-leaves, look much like to it at such a distance.&quot;</p><p>Said Jack: &quot;It is not ill guessed. Yonder banner is the King&apos;s banner, and beareth on it the woman of Oakenrealm .&quot;</p><p>The Lord bent his brows on him, and said: &quot;Forsooth, rank reiver, I wotted not that thou hadst King Rolf for thy guest.&quot;</p><p>Quoth Jack of the Tofts: &quot;Forsooth, Lord, no such guest as the Earl Marshal Rolf would I have alive in my poor house.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, Jack,&quot; said the big Lord, grinning, &quot;arede me the riddle, and then we shall see what is to be done, as thou sayest.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Lord,&quot; said Jack, &quot;dost thou see this young man standing by me?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yea,&quot; said the other, &quot;he is big enough that I may see him better than thy banner: if he but make old bones, as is scarce like, since he is of thy flock, he shall one day make a pretty man; he is a gay rider now. What else is he?&quot;</p><p>Quoth Jack of the Tofts: &quot;He is my King and thy King, and the all-folk&apos;s King, and the King of Oakenrealm: and now, hearken mine errand: it is to make all folk name him King.&quot;</p><p>Said the Lord: &quot;This minstrel&apos;s tale goes with the song the bird sang to me this morning; and therefore am I here thronging--to win thy head, rank reiver, and this young man&apos;s head, since it may not better be, and let the others go free for this time. Hah! what sayest thou? and thou, youngling? &apos;Tis but the stroke of a sword, since thou hast fallen into my hands, and not into the hangman&apos;s or the King&apos;s.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Thou must win them first, Lord,&quot; said Jack of the Tofts. &quot;Therefore, what sayest thou? Where shall we cast down the white shield and uprear the red?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Hot art thou, head, heart, and hand, rank reiver,&quot; said the Lord; &quot;bide a while.&quot; So he sat silent a little; then he said: &quot;Thou seest, Jack of the Tofts, that now thou hast thrust the torch into the tow; if I go back to King Rolf without the heads of you twain, I am like to pay for it with mine own. Therefore hearken. If we buckle together in fight presently, it is most like that I shall come to my above, but thou art so wily and stout that it is not unlike that thou, and perchance this luckless youngling, may slip through my fingers into the wood; and then it will avail me little with the King that I have slain a few score nameless wolf-heads. So, look you! here is a fair field hazelled by God; let us two use it to-day, and fight to the death here; and then if thou win me, smite off my head, and let my men fight it out afterwards, as best they may without me, and &apos;tis like they will be beaten then. But if I win thee, then I win this youngling withal, and bear back both heads to my Lord King, after I have scattered thy wolf-heads and slain as many as I will; which shall surely befall, if thou be slain first.&quot;</p><p>Then cried out Jack of the Tofts: &quot;Hail to thy word, stout-heart! this is well offered, and I take it for myself and my Lord King here.&quot; And all that stood by and heard gave a glad sound with their voices, and their armour rattled and rang as man turned to man to praise their captains.</p><p>But now spake Christopher: &quot;Lord of Brimside, it is nought wondrous though thou set me aside as of no account, whereas thou deemest me no king or king&apos;s kindred; but thou, Lord Earl, who wert once Jack of the Tofts, I marvel at thee, that thou hast forgotten thy King so soon. Ye twain shall now wot that this is my quarrel, and that none but I shall take this battle upon him.</p><p>&quot;Thou servant of Rolf, the traitor and murderer, hearken! I say that I am King of Oakenrealm, and the very son of King Christopher the Old; and that will I maintain with my body against every gainsayer. Thou Lord of Brimside, wilt thou gainsay it? Then I say thou liest, and lo here, my glove!&quot; And he cast it down before the Lord.</p><p>Again was there good rumour, and that from either side of the bystanders; but Jack of the Tofts stood up silent and stiff, and the Baron of Brimside laughed, and said: &quot;Well, swain, if thou art weary of life, so let it be, as for me; but how sayest thou, Jack of the Tofts? Art thou content to give thine head away in this fashion, whereas thou wottest that I shall presently slay this king of thine?&quot;</p><p>Said Jack: &quot;The King of Oakenrealm must rule me as well as others of his liege-men: he must fight if he will, and be slain if he will.&quot; Then suddenly he fell a-laughing, and beat his hand on his thigh till the armour rattled again, and then he cried out: &quot;Lord Gandolf, Lord Gandolf, have a care, I bid thee! Where wilt thou please to be buried, Lord?&quot;</p><p>Said the other: &quot;I wot not what thou wilt mean by thy fooling, rank reiver. But here I take up this youngling&apos;s glove; and on his head be his fate! Now as to this battle. My will is, that we two champions be all alone and afoot on the eyot. How say ye?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Even so be it,&quot; said Jack; &quot;but I say that half a score on each side shall be standing on their own bank to see the play, and the rest of the host come no nigher than now we are.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I yea-say it,&quot; said the Baron; &quot;and now do thou, rank reiver, go back to thy fellowship and tell them what we have areded, and do thou, Oliver Marson, do so much for our folk; and bid them wot this, that if any of them break the troth, he shall lose nought more than his life for that same.&quot;</p><p>Therewith all went ashore to either bank, save the Baron of Brimside and Christopher. And the Baron laid him down on the ground and fell to whistling the tune of a merry Yule dance; but as for Christopher, he looked on his foeman, and deemed he had seldom seen so big and stalwarth a man; and withal he was of ripe age, and had seen some forty winters. Then he also cast himself down on the grass, and fell into a kind of dream, as he watched a pair of wagtails that came chirping up from the sandy spit below the eyot; till suddenly great shouting broke out, first from his own bent, and then from the foemen&apos;s, and Christopher knew that the folk on either side had just heard of the battle that was to be on the holm. The Baron arose at the sound and looked to his own men, whence were now coming that half-score who were to look on the battle from the bank; but Christopher stirred not, but lay quietly amongst the flowers of the grass, till he heard the splash of horse-hoofs in the ford, and there presently was come Jack of the Tofts bearing basnet and shield for his lord. And he got off his horse and spake to Christopher: &quot;If I may not fight for thee, my son and King, yet at least it is the right of thine Earl to play the squire to thee: but a word before thy basnet is over thine ears; the man yonder is well-nigh a giant for stature and strength; yet I think thou mayest deal with him, and be none the sorer when thou liest down to-night. To be short, this is it: when thou hast got a stroke in upon him, and he falters, then give him no time, but fly at him in thy wild-cat manner and show what-like thews thou hast under thy smooth skin; now thine helm, lad. So art thou dight; and something tells me thou shalt do it off in victory.&quot;</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[With a choking sensation and a stitch in her side she pressed on, crying out in spirit for the hills to hide her and the mountains to open their gates and receive her. Suddenly she stood before a rocky wall some eighty or a hundred feet high. She could go no farther. Her strength was utterly exhausted. There was a big boulder lying at the base of the rock, and a spreading juniper half covered it. Knowing that in another minute she would be discovered, she flung herself down behind the boulder...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>With a choking sensation and a stitch in her side she pressed on, crying out in spirit for the hills to hide her and the mountains to open their gates and receive her. Suddenly she stood before a rocky wall some eighty or a hundred feet high. She could go no farther. Her strength was utterly exhausted. There was a big boulder lying at the base of the rock, and a spreading juniper half covered it. Knowing that in another minute she would be discovered, she flung herself down behind the boulder, though the juniper needles scratched her face, and pulled little Hans down at her side. But, strange to say, little Hans fell farther than she had calculated, and utterly-vanished from sight. She heard a muffled cry, and reaching her hand in the direction where he had fallen, caught hold of his arm. A strong, wild smell beat against her, and little Hans, as he was pulled out, was enveloped in a most unpleasant odor. But odor or no odor, here was the very hiding-place she had been seeking. A deserted wolf&apos;s den, it was, probably--at least she hoped it was deserted; for if it was not, she might be confronted with even uglier customers than the lumbermen. But she had no time for debating the question, for she saw the head of Stubby Mons emerging from the leaves, and immediately behind him came Stuttering Peter, with his long boat- hook. Quick as a flash she slipped into the hole, and dragged Hans after her. The juniper-bush entirely covered the entrance. She could see everyone who approached, without being seen. Unhappily, the boy too caught sight of Stubby Mons, and called him by name. The lumberman stopped and pricked up his ears.</p><p>&quot;Did you hear anybody call?&quot; he asked his companion.</p><p>&quot;N-n-n-n-aw, I d-d-d-d-didn&apos;t,&quot; answered Stuttering Peter. &quot;There b-be lots of qu-qu-qu-qu-eer n-noises in the w-w-w-woods.&quot;</p><p>Little Hans heard every word that they spoke, and he would have cried out again, if it hadn&apos;t appeared such great fun to be playing hide-and-go-seek with the lumbermen. He had a delicious sense of being well hidden, and had forgotten everything except the zest of the game. Most exciting it became when Stubby Mons drew the juniper-bush aside and peered eagerly behind the boulder. Inga&apos;s heart stuck in her throat; she felt sure that in the next instant they would be discovered. And as ill-luck would have it, there was something alive scrambling about her feet and tugging at her skirts. Suddenly she felt a sharp bite, but clinched her teeth, and uttered no sound. When her vision again cleared, the juniper branch had rebounded into its place, and the face of Stubby Mons was gone. She drew a deep breath of relief, but yet did not dare to emerge from the den. For one, two, three tremulous minutes she remained motionless, feeling all the while that uncomfortable sensation of living things about her.</p><p>At last she could endure it no longer. Thrusting little Hans before her, she crawled out of the hole, and looked back into the small cavern. As soon as her eyes grew accustomed to the twilight she uttered a cry of amazement, for out from her skirts jumped a little gray furry object, and two frisky little customers of the same sort were darting about among the stones and tree-roots. The truth dawned upon her, and it chilled her to the marrow of her bones. The wolf&apos;s den was not deserted. The old folks were only out hunting, and the shouting and commotion of the searching party had probably prevented them from returning in time to look after their family. She seized little Hans by the hand, and once more dragged him away over the rough path. He soon became tired and fretful, and in spite of all her entreaties began to shout lustily for his father. But the men were now so far away that they could not hear him. He complained of hunger; and when presently they came to a blueberry patch, she flung herself down on the heather and allowed him to pick berries. She heard cow-bells and sheep-bells tinkling round about her, and concluded that she could not be far from the saeters, or mountain dairies. That was fortunate, indeed, for she would not have liked to sleep in the woods with wolves and bears prowling about her.</p><p>She was just making an effort to rise from the stone upon which she was sitting, when the big, good-natured face of a cow broke through the leaves and stared at her. There was again help in need. She approached the cow, patted it, and calling little Hans, bade him sit down in the heather and open his mouth. He obeyed rather wonderingly, but perceived his mother&apos;s intent when she knelt at his side and began to milk into his mouth. It seemed to him that he had never tasted anything so delicious as this fresh rich milk, fragrant with the odor of the woods and the succulent mountain grass. When his hunger was satisfied, he fell again to picking berries, while Inga refreshed herself with milk in the same simple fashion. After having rested a full hour, she felt strong enough to continue her journey; and hearing the loor, or Alpine horn, re-echoing among the mountains, she determined to follow the sound. It was singular what luck attended her in the midst of her misfortune. Perhaps it was, after all, no idle tale that little Hans was a child of luck; and she had done the lumbermen injustice in deriding their faith in him. Perhaps there was some guiding Providence in all that had happened, destined in the end to lead little Hans to fortune and glory. Much encouraged by this thought, she stooped over him and kissed him; then took his hand and trudged along over logs and stones, through juniper and bramble bushes.</p><p>&quot;Mamma,&quot; said little Hans, &quot;where are you going?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I am going to the saeter,&quot; she answered; &quot;where you have wanted so often to go.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then why don&apos;t you follow the cows? They are going there too.&quot;</p><p>Surely that child had a marvellous mind! She smiled down upon him and nodded. By following the cows they arrived in twenty minutes at a neat little log cabin, from which the smoke curled up gayly into the clear air.</p><p>The dairy-maids who spent the summer there tending the cattle both fell victims to the charms of little Hans, and offered him and his mother their simple hospitality. They told of the lumbermen who had passed the saeter huts, and inquired for her; but otherwise they respected her silence, and made no attempt to pry into her secrets. The next morning she started, after a refreshing sleep, westward toward the coast, where she hoped in some way to find a passage to America. For if little Hans was really born under a lucky star--which fact she now could scarcely doubt--then America was the place for him. There he might rise to become President, or a judge, or a parson, or something or other; while in Norway he would never be anything but a lumberman like his father. Inga had a well-to-do sister, who was a widow, in the nearest town, and she would borrow enough money from her to pay their passage to New York.</p><p>It was early in July when little Hans and his mother arrived in New York. The latter had repented bitterly of her rashness in stealing her child from his father, and under a blind impulse traversing half the globe in a wild-goose chase after fortune. The world was so much bigger than she in her quiet valley had imagined; and, what was worse, it wore such a cold and repellent look, and was so bewildering and noisy. Inga had been very sea-sick during the voyage; and after she stepped ashore from the tug that brought her to Castle Garden, the ground kept heaving and swelling under her feet, and made her dizzy and miserable. She had been very wicked, she was beginning to think, and deserved punishment; and if it had not been for a vague and adventurous faith in the great future that was in store for her son, she would have been content to return home, do penance for her folly, and beg her husband&apos;s forgiveness. But, in the first place, she had no money to pay for a return ticket; and, secondly, it would be a great pity to deprive little Hans of the Presidency and all the grandeur that his lucky star might here bring him.</p><p>Inga was just contemplating this bright vision of Hans&apos;s future, when she found herself passing through a gate, at which a clerk was seated.</p><p>&quot;What is your name?&quot; he asked, through an interpreter.</p><p>&quot;Inga Olsdatter Pladsen.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Age?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Twenty-eight a week after Michaelmas.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Single or married?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Married.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Where is your husband?&quot;</p><p>&quot;In Norway.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Are you divorced from him?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Divorced--I! Why, no! Who ever heard of such a thing?&quot;</p><p>Inga grew quite indignant at the thought of her being divorced. A dozen other questions were asked, at each of which her embarrassment increased. When, finally, she declared that she had no money, no definite destination, and no relatives or friends in the country, the examination was cut short, and after an hour&apos;s delay and a wearisome cross-questioning by different officials, she was put on board the tug, and returned to the steamer in which she had crossed the ocean. Four dreary days passed; then there was a tremendous commotion on deck: blowing of whistles, roaring of steam, playing of bands, bumping of trunks and boxes, and finally the steady pulsation of the engines as the big ship stood out to sea. After nine days of discomfort in the stuffy steerage and thirty-six hours of downright misery while crossing the stormy North Sea, Inga found herself once more in the land of her birth. Full of humiliation and shame she met her husband at the railroad station, and prepared herself for a deluge of harsh words and reproaches. But instead of that he patted her gently on the head, and clasped little Hans in his arms and kissed him. They said very little to each other as they rode homeward in the cars; but little Hans had a thousand things to tell, and his father was delighted to hear them. In the evening, when they had reached their native valley, and the boy was asleep, Inga plucked up courage and said, &quot;Nils, it is all a mistake about little Hans&apos;s luck.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Mistake! Why, no,&quot; cried Nils. &quot;What greater luck could he have than to be brought safely home to his father?&quot;</p><p>Inga had indeed hoped for more; but she said nothing. Nevertheless, fate still had strange things in store for little Hans. The story of his mother&apos;s flight to and return from America was picked up by some enterprising journalist, who made a most touching romance of it. Hundreds of inquiries regarding little Hans poured in upon the pastor and the postmaster; and offers to adopt him, educate him, and I know not what else, were made to his parents. But Nils would hear of no adoption; nor would he consent to any plan that separated him from the boy. When, however, he was given a position as superintendent of a lumber yard in the town, and prosperity began to smile upon him, he sent little Hans to school, and as Hans was a clever boy, he made the most of his opportunities.</p><p>And now little Hans is indeed a very big Hans, but a child of luck he is yet; for I saw him referred to the other day in the newspapers as one of the greatest lumber dealers, and one of the noblest, most generous, and public-spirited men in Norway.</p><p>THE BEAR THAT HAD A BANK ACCOUNT</p><p>I.</p><p>You may not believe it, but the bear I am going to tell you about really had a bank account! He lived in the woods, as most bears do; but he had a reputation which extended over all Norway and more than half of England. Earls and baronets came every summer, with repeating-rifles of the latest patent, and plaids and field-glasses and portable cooking-stoves, intent upon killing him. But Mr. Bruin, whose only weapons were a pair of paws and a pair of jaws, both uncommonly good of their kind, though not patented, always managed to get away unscathed; and that was sometimes more than the earls and the baronets did.</p><p>One summer the Crown Prince of Germany came to Norway. He also heard of the famous bear that no one could kill, and made up his mind that he was the man to kill it. He trudged for two days through bogs, and climbed through glens and ravines, before he came on the scent of a bear, and a bear&apos;s scent, you may know, is strong, and quite unmistakable. Finally he discovered some tracks in the moss, like those of a barefooted man, or, I should rather say, perhaps, a man-footed bear. The Prince was just turning the corner of a projecting rock, when he saw a huge, shaggy beast standing on its hind legs, examining in a leisurely manner the inside of a hollow tree, while a swarm of bees were buzzing about its ears. It was just hauling out a handful of honey, and was smiling with a grewsome mirth, when His Royal Highness sent it a bullet right in the breast, where its heart must have been, if it had one. But, instead of falling down flat, as it ought to have done, out of deference to the Prince, it coolly turned its back, and gave its assailant a disgusted nod over its shoulder as it trudged away through the underbrush. The attendants ranged through the woods and beat the bushes in all directions, but Mr. Bruin was no more to be seen that afternoon. It was as if he had sunk into the earth; not a trace of him was to be found by either dogs or men.</p><p>From that time forth the rumor spread abroad that this Gausdale Bruin (for that was the name by which he became known) was enchanted. It was said that he shook off bullets as a duck does water; that he had the evil eye, and could bring misfortune to whomsoever he looked upon. The peasants dreaded to meet him, and ceased to hunt him. His size was described as something enormous, his teeth, his claws, and his eyes as being diabolical beyond human conception. In the meanwhile Mr. Bruin had it all his own way in the mountains, killed a young bull or a fat heifer for his dinner every day or two, chased in pure sport a herd of sheep over a precipice; and as for Lars Moe&apos;s bay mare Stella, he nearly finished her, leaving his claw-marks on her flank in a way that spoiled her beauty forever.</p><p>Now Lars Moe himself was too old to hunt; and his nephew was--well, he was not old enough. There was, in fact, no one in the valley who was of the right age to hunt this Gausdale Bruin. It was of no use that Lars Moe egged on the young lads to try their luck, shaming them, or offering them rewards, according as his mood might happen to be. He was the wealthiest man in the valley, and his mare Stella had been the apple of his eye. He felt it as a personal insult that the bear should have dared to molest what belonged to him, especially the most precious of all his possessions. It cut him to the heart to see the poor wounded beauty, with those cruel scratches on her thigh, and one stiff, aching leg done up in oil and cotton. When he opened the stable-door, and was greeted by Stella&apos;s low, friendly neighing, or when she limped forward in her box-stall and put her small, clean-shaped head on his shoulder, then Lars Moe&apos;s heart swelled until it seemed on the point of breaking. And so it came to pass that he added a codicil to his will, setting aside five hundred dollars of his estate as a reward to the man who, within six years, should kill the Gausdale Bruin.</p><p>Soon after that, Lars Moe died, as some said, from grief and chagrin; though the physician affirmed that it was of rheumatism of the heart. At any rate, the codicil relating to the enchanted bear was duly read before the church door, and pasted, among other legal notices, in the vestibules of the judge&apos;s and the sheriff&apos;s offices. When the executors had settled up the estate, the question arose in whose name or to whose credit should be deposited the money which was to be set aside for the benefit of the bear-slayer. No one knew who would kill the bear, or if any one would kill it. It was a puzzling question.</p><p>&quot;Why, deposit it to the credit of the bear,&quot; said a jocose executor; &quot;then, in the absence of other heirs, his slayer will inherit it. That is good old Norwegian practice, though I don&apos;t know whether it has ever been the law.&quot;</p><p>&quot;All right,&quot; said the other executors, &quot;so long as it is understood who is to have the money, it does not matter.&quot;</p><p>And so an amount equal to $500 was deposited in the county bank to the credit of the Gausdale Bruin. Sir Barry Worthington, Bart., who came abroad the following summer for the shooting, heard the story, and thought it a good one. So, after having vainly tried to earn the prize himself, he added another $500 to the deposit, with the stipulation that he was to have the skin.</p><p>But his rival for parliamentary honors, Robert Stapleton, Esq., the great iron-master, who had come to Norway chiefly to outshine Sir Barry, determined that he was to have the skin of that famous bear, if any one was to have it, and that, at all events, Sir Barry should not have it. So Mr. Stapleton added $750 to the bear&apos;s bank account, with the stipulation that the skin should come to him.</p><p>Mr. Bruin, in the meanwhile, as if to resent this unseemly contention about his pelt, made worse havoc among the herds than ever, and compelled several peasants to move their dairies to other parts of the mountains, where the pastures were poorer, but where they would be free from his depredations. If the $1,750 in the bank had been meant as a bribe or a stipend for good behavior, such as was formerly paid to Italian brigands, it certainly could not have been more demoralizing in its effect; for all agreed that, since Lars Moe&apos;s death, Bruin misbehaved worse than ever.</p><p>II.</p><p>There was an odd clause in Lars Moe&apos;s will besides the codicil relating to the bear. It read:</p><p>&quot;I hereby give and bequeath to my daughter Unna, or, in case of her decease, to her oldest living issue, my bay mare Stella, as a token that I have forgiven her the sorrow she caused me by her marriage.&quot;</p><p>It seemed incredible that Lars Moe should wish to play a practical joke (and a bad one at that) on his only child, his daughter Unna, because she had displeased him by her marriage. Yet that was the common opinion in the valley when this singular clause became known. Unna had married Thorkel Tomlevold, a poor tenant&apos;s son, and had refused her cousin, the great lumber-dealer, Morten Janson, whom her father had selected for a son-in-law.</p><p>She dwelt now in a tenant&apos;s cottage, northward in the parish; and her husband, who was a sturdy and fine-looking fellow, eked out a living by hunting and fishing. But they surely had no accommodations for a broken-down, wounded, trotting mare, which could not even draw a plough. It is true Unna, in the days of her girlhood, had been very fond of the mare, and it is only charitable to suppose that the clause, which was in the body of the will, was written while Stella was in her prime, and before she had suffered at the paws of the Gausdale Bruin. But even granting that, one could scarcely help suspecting malice aforethought in the curious provision. To Unna the gift was meant to say, as plainly as possible, &quot;There, you see what you have lost by disobeying your father! If you had married according to his wishes, you would have been able to accept the gift, while now you are obliged to decline it like a beggar.&quot;</p><p>But if it was Lars Moe&apos;s intention to convey such a message to his daughter, he failed to take into account his daughter&apos;s spirit. She appeared plainly but decently dressed at the reading of the will, and carried her head not a whit less haughtily than was her wont in her maiden days. She exhibited no chagrin when she found that Janson was her father&apos;s heir and that she was disinherited. She even listened with perfect composure to the reading of the clause which bequeathed to her the broken-down mare.</p><p>It at once became a matter of pride with her to accept her girlhood&apos;s favorite, and accept it she did! And having borrowed a side-saddle, she rode home, apparently quite contented. A little shed, or lean-to, was built in the rear of the house, and Stella became a member of Thorkel Tomlevold&apos;s family. Odd as it may seem, the fortunes of the family took a turn for the better from the day she arrived; Thorkel rarely came home without big game, and in his traps he caught more than any three other men in all the parish.</p><p>&quot;The mare has brought us luck,&quot; he said to his wife. &quot;If she can&apos;t plough, she can at all events pull the sleigh to church; and you have as good a right as any one to put on airs, if you choose.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yes, she has brought us blessing,&quot; replied Unna, quietly; &quot;and we are going to keep her till she dies of old age.&quot;</p><p>To the children Stella became a pet, as much as if she had been a dog or a cat. The little boy Lars climbed all over her, and kissed her regularly good-morning when she put her handsome head in through the kitchen-door to get her lump of sugar. She was as gentle as a lamb and as intelligent as a dog. Her great brown eyes, with their soft, liquid look, spoke as plainly as words could speak, expressing pleasure when she was patted; and the low neighing with which she greeted the little boy, when she heard his footsteps in the door, was to him like the voice of a friend.</p><p>He grew to love this handsome and noble animal as he had loved nothing on earth except his father and mother.</p><p>As a matter of course he heard a hundred times the story of Stella&apos;s adventure with the terrible Gausdale bear. It was a story that never lost its interest, that seemed to grow more exciting the oftener it was told. The deep scars of the bear&apos;s claws in Stella&apos;s thigh were curiously examined, and each time gave rise to new questions. The mare became quite a heroic character, and the suggestion was frequently discussed between Lars and his little sister Marit, whether Stella might not be an enchanted princess who was waiting for some one to cut off her head, so that she might show herself in her glory. Marit thought the experiment well worth trying, but Lars had his doubts, and was unwilling to take the risk; yet if she brought luck, as his mother said, then she certainly must be something more than an ordinary horse.</p><p>Stella had dragged little Lars out of the river when he fell overboard from the pier; and that, too, showed more sense than he had ever known a horse to have.</p><p>There could be no doubt in his mind that Stella was an enchanted princess. And instantly the thought occurred to him that the dreadful enchanted bear with the evil eye was the sorcerer, and that, when he was killed, Stella would resume her human guise. It soon became clear to him that he was the boy to accomplish this heroic deed; and it was equally plain to him that he must keep his purpose secret from all except Marit, as his mother would surely discourage him from engaging in so perilous an enterprise. First of all, he had to learn how to shoot; and his father, who was the best shot in the valley, was very willing to teach him. It seemed quite natural to Thorkel that a hunter&apos;s son should take readily to the rifle; and it gave him great satisfaction to see how true his boy&apos;s aim was, and how steady his hand.</p><p>&quot;Father,&quot; said Lars one day, &quot;you shoot so well, why haven&apos;t you ever tried to kill the Gausdale Bruin that hurt Stella so badly?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Hush, child! you don&apos;t know what you are talking about,&quot; answered his father; &quot;no leaden bullet will harm that wicked beast.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Why not?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t like to talk about it--but it is well known that he is enchanted.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But will he then live for ever? Is there no sort of bullet that will kill him?&quot; asked the boy.</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t know. I don&apos;t want to have anything to do with witchcraft,&quot; said Thorkel.</p><p>The word &quot;witchcraft&quot; set the boy to thinking, and he suddenly remembered that he had been warned not to speak to an old woman named Martha Pladsen, because she was a witch. Now, she was probably the very one who could tell him what he wanted to know. Her cottage lay close up under the mountain-side, about two miles from his home. He did not deliberate long before going to seek this mysterious person, about whom the most remarkable stories were told in the valley. To his astonishment, she received him kindly, gave him a cup of coffee with rock candy, and declared that she had long expected him. The bullet which was to slay the enchanted bear had long been in her possession; and she would give it to him if he would promise to give her the beast&apos;s heart.</p><p>He did not have to be asked twice for that; and off he started gayly with his prize in his pocket. It was rather an odd-looking bullet, made of silver, marked with a cross on one side and with a lot of queer illegible figures on the other. It seemed to burn in his pocket, so anxious was he to start out at once to release the beloved Stella from the cruel enchantment. But Martha had said that the bear could only be killed when the moon was full; and until the moon was full he accordingly had to bridle his impatience.</p><p>III.</p><p>It was a bright morning in January, and, as it happened, Lars&apos;s fourteenth birthday. To his great delight, his mother had gone down to the judge&apos;s to sell some ptarmigans, and his father had gone to fell some timber up in the glen. Accordingly he could secure the rifle without being observed. He took an affectionate good-by of Stella, who rubbed her soft nose against his own, playfully pulled at his coat-collar, and blew her sweet, warm breath into his face. Lars was a simple-hearted boy, in spite of his age, and quite a child at heart. He had lived so secluded from all society, and breathed so long the atmosphere of fairy tales, that he could see nothing at all absurd in what he was about to undertake. The youngest son in the story-book always did just that sort of thing, and everybody praised and admired him for it. Lars meant, for once, to put the story-book hero into the shade. He engaged little Marit to watch over Stella while he was gone, and under no circumstances to betray him--all of which Marit solemnly promised.</p><p>With his rifle on his shoulder and his skees on his feet, Lars glided slowly along over the glittering surface of the snow, for the mountain was steep, and he had to zigzag in long lines before he reached the upper heights, where the bear was said to have his haunts. The place where Bruin had his winter den had once been pointed out to him, and he remembered yet how pale his father was, when he found that he had strayed by chance into so dangerous a neighborhood. Lars&apos;s heart, too, beat rather uneasily as he saw the two heaps of stones, called &quot;The Parson&quot; and &quot;The Deacon,&quot; and the two huge fir-trees which marked the dreaded spot. It had been customary from immemorial time for each person who passed along the road to throw a large stone on the Parson&apos;s heap, and a small one on the Deacon&apos;s; but since the Gausdale Bruin had gone into winter quarters there, the stone heaps had ceased to grow.</p><p>Under the great knotted roots of the fir-trees there was a hole, which was more than half-covered with snow; and it was noticeable that there was not a track of bird or beast to be seen anywhere around it. Lars, who on the way had been buoyed up by the sense of his heroism, began now to feel strangely uncomfortable. It was so awfully hushed and still round about him; not the scream of a bird --not even the falling of a broken bough was to be heard. The pines stood in lines and in clumps, solemn, like a funeral procession, shrouded in sepulchral white. Even if a crow had cawed it would have been a relief to the frightened boy--for it must be confessed that he was a trifle frightened--if only a little shower of snow had fallen upon his head from the heavily laden branches, he would have been grateful for it, for it would have broken the spell of this oppressive silence.</p><p>There could be no doubt of it; inside, under those tree-roots slept Stella&apos;s foe--the dreaded enchanted beast who had put the boldest of hunters to flight, and set lords and baronets by the ears for the privilege of possessing his skin. Lars became suddenly aware that it was a foolhardy thing he had undertaken, and that he had better betake himself home. But then, again, had not Witch-Martha said that she had been waiting for him; that he was destined by fate to accomplish this deed, just as the youngest son had been in the story-book. Yes, to be sure, she had said that; and it was a comforting thought.</p><p>Accordingly, having again examined his rifle, which he had carefully loaded with the silver bullet before leaving home, he started boldly forward, climbed up on the little hillock between the two trees, and began to pound it lustily with the butt-end of his gun. He listened for a moment tremulously, and heard distinctly long, heavy sighs from within.</p><p>His heart stood still. The bear was awake! Soon he would have to face it! A minute more elapsed; Lars&apos;s heart shot up into his throat. He leaped down, placed himself in front of the entrance to the den, and cocked his rifle. Three long minutes passed. Bruin had evidently gone to sleep again. Wild with excitement, the boy rushed forward and drove his skee-staff straight into the den with all his might. A sullen growl was heard, like a deep and menacing thunder. There could be no doubt that now the monster would take him to task for his impertinence.</p><p>Again the boy seized his rifle; and his nerves, though tense as stretched bow-strings, seemed suddenly calm and steady. He lifted the rifle to his cheek, and resolved not to shoot until he had a clear aim at heart or brain. Bruin, though Lars could hear him rummaging within, was in no hurry to come out, But he sighed and growled uproariously, and presently showed a terrible, long-clawed paw, which he thrust out through his door and then again withdrew. But apparently it took him a long while to get his mind clear as to the cause of the disturbance; for fully five minutes had elapsed when suddenly a big tuft of moss was tossed out upon the snow, followed by a cloud of dust and an angry creaking of the tree-roots.</p><p>Great masses of snow were shaken from the swaying tops of the firs, and fell with light thuds upon the ground. In the face of this unexpected shower, which entirely hid the entrance to the den, Lars was obliged to fall back a dozen paces; but, as the glittering drizzle cleared away, he saw an enormous brown beast standing upon its hind legs, with widely distended jaws. He was conscious of no fear, but of a curious numbness in his limbs, and strange noises, as of warning shouts and cries, filling his ears.</p><p>Fortunately, the great glare of the sun-smitten snow dazzled Bruin; he advanced slowly, roaring savagely, but staring rather blindly before him out of his small, evil-looking eyes. Suddenly, when he was but a few yards distant, he raised his great paw, as if to rub away the cobwebs that obscured his sight.</p><p>It was the moment for which the boy had waited. Now he had a clear aim! Quickly he pulled the trigger; the shot reverberated from mountain to mountain, and in the same instant the huge brown bulk rolled in the snow, gave a gasp, and was dead! The spell was broken! The silver bullet had pierced his heart. There was a curious unreality about the whole thing to Lars. He scarcely knew whether he was really himself or the hero of the fairy-tale.</p><p>All that was left for him to do now was to go home and marry Stella, the delivered princess.</p><p>The noises about him seemed to come nearer and nearer; and now they sounded like human voices. He looked about him, and to his amazement saw his father and Marit, followed by two wood-cutters, who, with raised axes, were running toward him. Then he did not know exactly what happened; but he felt himself lifted up by two strong arms, and tears fell hot and fast upon his face.</p><p>&quot;My boy! my boy!&quot; said the voice in his ears, &quot;I expected to find you dead.&quot;</p><p>&quot;No, but the bear is dead,&quot; said Lars, innocently.</p><p>&quot;I didn&apos;t mean to tell on you, Lars,&quot; cried Marit, &quot;but I was so afraid, and then I had to.&quot;</p><p>The rumor soon filled the whole valley that the great Gausdale Bruin was dead, and that the boy Lars Tomlevold had killed him. It is needless to say that Lars Tomlevold became the parish hero from that day. He did not dare to confess in the presence of all this praise and wonder that at heart he was bitterly disappointed; for when he came home, throbbing with wild expectancy, there stood Stella before the kitchen door, munching a piece of bread; and when she hailed him with a low whinny, he burst into tears. But he dared not tell any one why he was weeping.</p><p>This story might have ended here, but it has a little sequel. The $1,750 which Bruin had to his credit in the bank had increased to $2,290; and it was all paid to Lars. A few years later, Martin Janson, who had inherited the estate of Moe from old Lars, failed in consequence of his daring forest speculations, and young Lars was enabled to buy the farm at auction at less than half its value. Thus he had the happiness to bring his mother back to the place of her birth, of which she had been wrongfully deprived; and Stella, who was now twenty-one years old, occupied once more her handsome box-stall, as in the days of her glory. And although she never proved to be a princess, she was treated as if she were one, during the few years that remained to her.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[and he was, on the whole, on good terms with all of them. They did, to be sure, make fun of him occasionally; but sometimes he failed to understand it, and at other times he made clumsy but good-humored attempts to repay their gibes in kind. They took good care, however, not to rouse his wrath, for the reputation he had acquired by his treatment of Ola Klemmerud made them afraid to risk a collision. This was the situation when the great floods of 188- came, and introduced a spice of danger in...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>and he was, on the whole, on good terms with all of them. They did, to be sure, make fun of him occasionally; but sometimes he failed to understand it, and at other times he made clumsy but good-humored attempts to repay their gibes in kind. They took good care, however, not to rouse his wrath, for the reputation he had acquired by his treatment of Ola Klemmerud made them afraid to risk a collision.</p><p>This was the situation when the great floods of 188- came, and introduced a spice of danger into Bonnyboy&apos;s monotonous life. The mill-races were now kept open night and day, and yet the water burst like a roaring cascade over the tops of dams, and the river-bed was filled to overflowing with a swiftly-hurrying tawny torrent, which filled the air with its rush and swash, and sent hissing showers of spray flying through the tree-tops. Bonnyboy and a gang of twenty men were working as they had never worked before in their lives, under the direction of an engineer, who had been summoned by the mill-owner to strengthen the dams; for if but one of them burst, the whole tremendous volume of water would be precipitated upon the valley, and the village by the lower falls and every farm within half a mile of the river-banks would be swept out of existence. Guards were stationed all the way up the river to intercept any stray lumber that might be afloat. For if a log jam were added to the terrific strain of the flood, there would surely be no salvation possible. Yet in spite of all precautions, big logs now and then came bumping against the dams, and shot with wild gyrations and somersaults down into the brown eddies below.</p><p>The engineer, who was standing on the top of a log pile, had shouted until he was hoarse, and gesticulated with his cane until his arms were lame, but yet there was a great deal to do before he could go to bed with an easy conscience. Bonnyboy and his comrades, who had had by far the harder part of the task, were ready to drop with fatigue. It was now eight o&apos;clock in the evening, and they had worked since six in the morning, and had scarcely had time to swallow their scant rations. Some of them began to grumble, and the engineer had to coax and threaten them to induce them to persevere for another hour. The moon was just rising behind the mountain ridges, and the beautiful valley lay, with its green fields, sprouting forests, and red-painted farm-houses, at Bonnyboy&apos;s feet. It was terrible to think that perhaps destruction was to overtake those happy and peaceful homes, where men had lived and died for many hundred years. Bonnyboy could scarcely keep back the tears when this fear suddenly came over him. Was it not strange that, though they knew that danger was threatening, they made not the slightest effort to save themselves? In the village below men were still working in their forges, whose chimneys belched forth fiery smoke, and the sound of their hammer-blows could be heard above the roar of the river. Women were busy with their household tasks; some boys were playing in the streets, damming up the gutters and shrieking with joy when their dams broke. A few provident souls had driven their cattle to the neighboring hills; but neither themselves nor their children had they thought it necessary to remove. The fact was, nobody believed that the dams would break, as they had not imagination enough to foresee what would happen if the dams did break.</p><p>Bonnyboy was wet to the skin, and his knees were a trifle shaky from exhaustion. He had been cutting down an enormous mast-tree, which was needed for a prop to the dam, and had hauled it down with two horses, one of which was a half-broken gray colt, unused to pulling in a team. To restrain this frisky animal had required all Bonnyboy&apos;s strength, and he stood wiping his brow with the sleeve of his shirt. Just at that moment a terrified yell sounded from above: &quot;Run for your lives! The upper dam is breaking!&quot;</p><p>The engineer from the top of the log-pile cast a swift glance up the valley, and saw at once from the increasing volume of water that the report was true.</p><p>&quot;Save yourselves, lads!&quot; he screamed. &quot;Run to the woods!&quot;</p><p>And suiting his action to his words, he tumbled down from the log pile, and darted up the hill-side toward the forest. The other men, hearing the wild rush and roar above them, lost no time in following his example. Only Bonnyboy, slow of comprehension as always, did not obey. Suddenly there flared up a wild resolution in his face. He pulled out his knife, cut the traces, and leaped upon the colt&apos;s back. Lashing the beast, and shouting at the top of his voice, he dashed down the hill-side at a break-neck pace.</p><p>&quot;The dam is breaking!&quot; he roared. &quot;Run for the woods!&quot;</p><p>He glanced anxiously behind him to see if the flood was overtaking him. A great cloud of spray was rising against the sky, and he heard the yells of men and the frenzied neighing of horses through the thunderous roar. But happily there was time. The dam was giving way gradually, and had not yet let loose the tremendous volume of death and desolation which it held enclosed within its frail timbers. The colt, catching the spirit of excitement in the air, flew like the wind, leaving farm after farm behind it, until it reached the village.</p><p>&quot;The dam is breaking! Run for your lives!&quot; cried Bonnyboy, with a rousing clarion yell which rose above all other poises; and up and down the valley the dread tidings spread like wildfire. In an instant all was in wildest commotion. Terrified mothers, with babes in their arms, came bursting out of the houses, and little girls, hugging kittens or cages with canary-birds, clung weeping to their skirts; shouting men, shrieking women, crying children, barking dogs, gusty showers sweeping from nowhere down upon the distracted fugitives, and above all the ominous, throbbing, pulsating roar as of a mighty chorus of cataracts. It came nearer and nearer. It filled the great vault of the sky with a rush as of colossal wing-beats. Then there came a deafening creaking and crashing; then a huge brownish-white rolling wall, upon which the moonlight gleamed for an instant, and then the very trump of doom--a writhing, brawling, weltering chaos of cattle, dogs, men, lumber, houses, barns, whirling and struggling upon the destroying flood.</p><p>VI.</p><p>It was the morning after the disaster. The sun rose red and threatening, circled with a ring of fiery mist. People encamped upon the hill-side greeted each other as on the morn of resurrection. For many were found among the living who were being mourned as dead. Mothers hugged their children with tearful joy, thanking God that they had been spared; and husbands who had heard through the night the agonized cries of their drowning wives, finding them at dawn safe and sound, felt as if they had recovered them from the very gates of death. When all were counted, it was ascertained that but very few of the villagers had been overtaken by the flood. The timely warning had enabled all to save themselves, except some who in their eagerness to rescue their goods had lingered too long. Impoverished most of them were by the loss of their houses and cattle. The calamity was indeed overwhelming. But when they considered how much greater the disaster would have been if the flood had come upon them unheralded, they felt that they had cause for gratitude in the midst of their sorrow. And who was it that brought the tidings that snatched them from the jaws of death? Well, nobody knew. He rode too fast. And each was too much startled by the message to take note of the messenger. But who could he possibly have been? An angel from Heaven, perhaps sent by God in His mercy. That was indeed more than likely. The belief was at once accepted that the rescuer was an angel from heaven. But just then a lumberman stepped forward who had worked at the mill and said: &quot;It was Bonnyboy, Grim Carpenter&apos;s son. I saw him jump on his gray colt.&quot;</p><p>Bonnyboy, Grim Carpenter&apos;s son. It couldn&apos;t be possible. But the lumberman insisted that it was, and they had to believe him, though, of course, it was a disappointment. But where was Bonnyboy? He deserved thanks, surely. And, moreover, that gray colt was a valuable animal. It was to be hoped that it was not drowned.</p><p>The water had now subsided, though it yet overflowed the banks; so that trees, bent and splintered by the terrific force of the flood, grew far out in the river. The foul dams had all been swept away, and the tawny torrent ran again with tumultuous rapids in its old channel. Of the mills scarcely a vestige was left except slight cavities in the banks, and a few twisted beams clinging to the rocks where they had stood. The ruins of the village, with jagged chimneys and broken walls, loomed out of a half-inundated meadow, through which erratic currents were sweeping. Here and there lay a dead cow or dog, and in the branches of a maple-tree the carcasses of two sheep were entangled. In this marshy field a stooping figure was seen wading about, as if in search of something. The water broke about his knees, and sometimes reached up to his waist. He stood like one dazed, and stared into the brown swirling torrent. Now he poked something with his boat-hook, now bent down and purled some dead thing out of a copse of shrubbery in which it had been caught. The sun rose higher in the sky, and the red vapors were scattered. But still the old man trudged wearily about, with the stony stare in his eyes, searching for him whom he had lost. One company after another now descended from the hill-sides, and from the high-lying farms which had not been reached by the flood came wagons with provisions and clothes, and men and women eager and anxious to help. They shouted to the old man in the submerged field, and asked what he was looking for. But he only shook his head, as if he did not understand.</p><p>&quot;Why, that is old Grim the carpenter,&quot; said someone. &quot;Has anybody seen Bonnyboy?&quot;</p><p>But no one had seen Bonnyboy.</p><p>&quot;Do you want help?&quot; they shouted to Grim; but they got no answer.</p><p>Hour after hour old Grim trudged about in the chilly water searching for his son. Then, about noon, when he had worked his way far down the river, he caught sight of something which made his heart stand still. In a brown pool, in which a half-submerged willow-tree grew, he saw a large grayish shape which resembled a horse. He stretched out the boat-hook and rolled it over. Dumbly, fearlessly, he stood staring into the pool. There lay his son--there lay Bonnyboy stark and dead.</p><p>The cold perspiration broke out upon Grim&apos;s brow, and his great breast labored. Slowly he stooped down, drew the dead body out of the water, and tenderly laid it across his knees. He stared into the sightless eyes, and murmuring a blessing, closed them. There was a large discolored spot on the forehead, as of a bruise. Grim laid his hand softly upon it, and stroked away the yellow tuft of hair.</p><p>&quot;My poor lad,&quot; he said, while the tears coursed down his wrinkled cheeks, &quot;you had a weak head, but your heart, Bonnyboy--your heart was good.&quot;</p><p>THE CHILD OF LUCK</p><p>I.</p><p>A sunny-tempered little fellow was Hans, and his father declared that he had brought luck with him when he came into the world.</p><p>&quot;He was such a handsome baby when he was born,&quot; said Inga, his mother; &quot;but you would scarcely believe it now, running about as he does in forest and field, tearing his clothes and scratching his face.&quot;</p><p>Now, it was true, as Hans&apos;s mother said, that he did often tear his clothes; and as he had an indomitable curiosity, and had to investigate everything that came in his way, it was also no uncommon thing for him to come home with his face stung or scratched.</p><p>&quot;Why must you drag that child with you wherever you go, Nils?&quot; the mother complained to Hans&apos;s father, when the little boy was brought to her in such a disreputable condition. &quot;Why can&apos;t you leave him at home? What other man do you know who carries a six-year-old little fellow about with him in rain and shine, storm and quiet?</p><p>&quot;Well,&quot; Nils invariably answered, &quot;I like him and he likes me. He brings me luck.&quot;</p><p>This was a standing dispute between Nils and Inga, his wife, and they never came to an agreement. She knew as well as her husband that before little Hans was born there was want and misery in their cottage. But from the hour the child lifted up its tiny voice, announcing its arrival, there had been prosperity and contentment. Their luck had turned, Nils said, and it was the child that had turned it. They had been married for four years, and though they had no one to provide for but themselves, they scarcely managed to keep body and soul together. All sorts of untoward things happened. Now a tree which he was cutting down fell upon Nils and laid him up for a month; now he got water on his knee from a blow he received while rolling logs into the chute; now the pig died which was to have provided them with salt pork for the winter, and the hens took to the bush, and laid their eggs where nobody except the rats and the weasels could find them. But since little Hans had come and put an end to all these disasters, his father had a superstitious feeling that he could not bear to have him away from him. Therefore every morning when he started out for the forest or the river he carried Hans on his shoulder. And the little boy sat there, smiling proudly and waving his hand to his mother, who stood in the door looking longingly after him.</p><p>&quot;Hello, little chap!&quot; cried the lumbermen, when they saw him. &quot;Good-morning to you and good luck!&quot;</p><p>They always cheered up, however bad the weather was, when they saw little Hans, for nobody could look at his sunny little face without feeling something like a ray of sunlight stealing into his heart. Hans had a smile and a wave of his hand for everybody. He knew all the lumbermen by name, and they knew him.</p><p>They sang as they swung the axe or the boat-hook, and the work went merrily when little Hans sat on the top of the log pile and shouted to them. But if by chance he was absent for a day or two they missed him. No songs were heard, but harsh words, and not infrequently quarrels. Now, nobody believed, of course, that little Hans was such a wizard that he could make people feel and behave any better than it was in their nature to do; but sure it was--at least the lumbermen insisted that it was so--there was joy and good-tempered mirth wherever that child went, and life seemed a little sadder and poorer to those who knew him when he was away.</p><p>No one will wonder that Nils sometimes boasted of his little son.</p><p>He told not once, but a hundred times, as they sat about the camp-fire eating their dinner, that little Hans was a child of luck, and that no misfortune could happen while he was near. Lumbermen are naturally superstitious, and though perhaps at first they may have had their doubts, they gradually came to accept the statement without question. They came to regard it as a kind of right to have little Hans sit on the top of the log pile when they worked, or running along the chute, while the wild-cat strings of logs shot down the steep slide with lightning speed. They were not in the least afraid lest the logs should jump the chute, as they had often done before, killing or maiming the unhappy man that came too near. For was not little Hans&apos;s life charmed, so that no harm could befall him?</p><p>Now, it happened that Inga, little Hans&apos;s mother, came one day to the river to see how he was getting on. Nils was then standing on a raft hooking the floating logs with his boat-hook, while the boy was watching him from the shore, shouting to him, throwing chips into the water, and amusing himself as best he could. It was early in May, and the river was swollen from recent thaws. Below the cataract where the lumbermen worked, the broad, brown current moved slowly along with sluggish whirls and eddies; but the raft was moored by chains to the shore, so that it was in no danger of getting adrift. It was capital fun to see the logs come rushing down the slide, plunging with a tremendous splash into the river, and then bob up like live things after having bumped against the bottom. Little Hans clapped his hands and yelled with delight when a string of three or four came tearing along in that way, and dived, one after the other, headlong into the water.</p><p>&quot;Catch that one, papa!&quot; he cried; &quot;that is a good big fellow. He dived like a man, he did. He has washed the dirt off his snout now; that was the reason he took such a big plunge.&quot;</p><p>Nils never failed to reach his boat-hook after the log little Hans indicated, for he liked to humor him, and little Hans liked to be humored. He had an idea that he was directing his father&apos;s work, and Nils invented all sorts of innocent devices to flatter little Hans&apos;s dignity, and make him think himself indispensable. It was of no use, therefore, for poor Inga to beg little Hans to go home with her. He had so much to do, he said, that he couldn&apos;t. He even tried to tear himself away from his mother when she took him by the arm and remonstrated with him. And then and there the conviction stole upon Inga that her child did not love her. She was nothing to him compared to what his father was. And was it right for Nils thus to rob her of the boy&apos;s affection? Little Hans could scarcely be blamed for loving his father better; for love is largely dependent upon habit, and Nils had been his constant companion since he was a year old. A bitter sense of loneliness and loss overcame the poor wife as she stood on the river-bank pleading with her child, and finding that she annoyed instead of moving him.</p><p>&quot;Won&apos;t you come home with mamma, little Hans?&quot; she asked, tearfully. &quot;The kitten misses you very much; it has been mewing for you all the morning.&quot;</p><p>&quot;No,&quot; said little Hans, thrusting his hands into his pockets, and turning about with a manly stride; &quot;we are going to have the lumber inspector here to-day? and then papa&apos;s big raft is going down the river.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But this dreadful noise, dear; how can you stand it? And the logs shooting down that slide and making such a racket. And these great piles of lumber, Hans--think, if they should tumble down and kill you!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, I&apos;m not afraid, mamma,&quot; cried Hans, proudly; and, to show his fearlessness, he climbed up the log pile, and soon stood on the top of it, waving his cap and shouting.</p><p>&quot;Oh, do come down, child--do come down!&quot; begged Inga, anxiously.</p><p>She had scarcely uttered the words when she heard a warning shout from the slope above, and had just time to lift her eyes, when she saw a big black object dart past her, strike the log pile, and break with a deafening crash. A long confused rumble of rolling logs followed, terrified voices rent the air, and, above it all, the deep and steady roar of the cataract. She saw, as through a fog, little Hans, serene and smiling as ever, borne down on the top of the rolling lumber, now rising up and skipping from log to log, now clapping his hands and screaming with pleasure, and then suddenly vanishing in the brown writhing river. His laughter was still ringing in her ears; the poor child, he did not realize his danger. The rumbling of falling logs continued with terrifying persistence. Splash! splash! splash! they went, diving by twos, by fours, and by dozens at the very spot where her child had vanished. But where was little Hans? Oh, where was he? It was all so misty, so unreal and confused. She could not tell whether little Hans was among the living or among the dead. But there, all of a sudden, his head popped up in the middle of the river; and there was another head close to his--it was that of his father! And round about them other heads bobbed up; for all the lumbermen who were on the raft had plunged into the water with Nils when they saw that little Hans was in danger. A dozen more were running down the slope as fast as their legs could carry them; and they gave a tremendous cheer when they saw little Hans&apos;s face above the water. He looked a trifle pale and shivery, and he gave a funny little snort, so that the water spurted from his nose. He had lost his hat, but he did not seem to be hurt. His little arms clung tightly about his father&apos;s neck, while Nils, dodging the bobbing logs, struck out with all his might for the shore. And when he felt firm bottom under his feet, and came stumbling up through the shallow water, looking like a drowned rat, what a welcome he received from the lumbermen! They all wanted to touch little Hans and pat his cheek, just to make sure that it was really he.</p><p>&quot;It was wonderful indeed,&quot; they said, &quot;that he ever came up out of that horrible jumble of pitching and diving logs. He is a child of luck, if ever there was one.&quot;</p><p>Not one of them thought of the boy&apos;s mother, and little Hans himself scarcely thought of her, elated as he was at the welcome he received from the lumbermen. Poor Inga stood dazed, struggling with a horrible feeling, seeing her child passed from one to the other, while she herself claimed no share in him. Somehow the thought stung her. A sudden clearness burst upon her; she rushed forward, with a piercing scream, snatched little Hans from his father&apos;s arms, and hugging his wet little shivering form to her breast, fled like a deer through the underbrush.</p><p>From that day little Hans was not permitted to go to the river. It was in vain that Nils pleaded and threatened. His wife acted so unreasonably when that question was broached that he saw it was useless to discuss it. She seized little Hans as a tigress might seize her young, and held him tightly clasped, as if daring anybody to take him away from her. Nils knew it would require force to get his son back again, and that he was not ready to employ. But all joy seemed to have gone out of his life since he had lost the daily companionship of little Hans. His work became drudgery; and all the little annoyances of life, which formerly he had brushed away as one brushes a fly from his nose, became burdens and calamities. The raft upon which he had expended so much labor went to pieces during a sudden rise of the river the night after little Hans&apos;s adventure, and three days later Thorkel Fossen was killed outright by a string of logs that jumped the chute.</p><p>&quot;It isn&apos;t the same sort of place since you took little Hans away,&quot; the lumbermen would often say to Nils. &quot;There&apos;s no sort of luck in anything.&quot;</p><p>Sometimes they taunted him with want of courage, and called him a &quot;night-cap&quot; and a &quot;hen-pecked coon,&quot; all of which made Nils uncomfortable. He made two or three attempts to persuade his wife to change her mind in regard to little Hans, but the last time she got so frightened that she ran out of the house and hid in the cow stable with the boy, crouching in an empty stall, and crying as if her heart would break, when little Hans escaped and betrayed her hiding-place. The boy, in fact, sympathized with his father, and found his confinement at home irksome. The companionship of the cat had no more charm for him; and even the brindled calf, which had caused such an excitement when he first arrived, had become an old story. Little Halls fretted, was mischievous for want of better employment, and gave his mother no end of trouble. He longed for the gay and animated life at the river, and he would have run away if he had not been watched. He could not imagine how the lumbermen could be getting on without him. It seemed to him that all work must come to a stop when he was no longer sitting on the top of the log piles, or standing on the bank throwing chips into the water.</p><p>Now, as a matter of fact, they were not getting on very well at the river without little Hans. The luck had deserted them, the lumbermen said; and whatever mishaps they had, they attributed to the absence of little Hans. They came to look with ill-suppressed hostility at Nils, whom they regarded as responsible for their misfortunes. For they could scarcely believe that he was quite in earnest in his desire for the boy&apos;s return, otherwise they could not comprehend how his wife could dare to oppose him. The weather was stormy, and the mountain brook which ran along the slide concluded to waste no more labor in carving out a bed for itself in the rock, when it might as well be using the slide which it found ready made. And one fine day it broke into the slide and half filled it, so that the logs, when they were started down the steep incline, sent the water flying, turned somersaults, stood on end, and played no end of dangerous tricks which no one could foresee. Several men were badly hurt by beams shooting like rockets through the air, and old Mads Furubakken was knocked senseless and carried home for dead. Then the lumbermen held a council, and made up their minds to get little Hans by fair means or foul. They thought first of sending a delegation of four or five men that very morning, but finally determined to march up to Nils&apos;s cottage in a body and demand the boy. There were twenty of them at the very least, and the tops of their long boat-hooks, which they carried on their shoulders, were seen against the green forest before they were themselves visible.</p><p>Nils, who was just out of bed, was sitting on the threshold smoking his pipe and pitching a ball to little Hans, who laughed with delight whenever he caught it. Inga was bustling about inside the house, preparing breakfast, which was to consist of porridge, salt herring, and baked potatoes. It had rained during the night, and the sky was yet overcast, but the sun was struggling to break through the cloud-banks. A couple of thrushes in the alder-bushes about the cottage were rejoicing at the change in the weather, and Nils was listening to their song and to his son&apos;s merry prattle, when he caught sight of the twenty lumbermen marching up the hillside. He rose, with some astonishment, and went to meet them. Inga, hearing their voices, came to the door, and seeing the many men, snatched up little Hans, and with a wildly palpitating heart ran into the cottage, bolting the door behind her. She had a vague foreboding that this unusual visit meant something hostile to herself, and she guessed that Nils had been only the spokesman of his comrades in demanding so eagerly the return of the boy to the river. She believed all their talk about his luck to be idle nonsense; but she knew that Nils had unwittingly spread this belief, and that the lumbermen were convinced that little Hans was their good genius, whose presence averted disaster. Distracted with fear and anxiety, she stood pressing her ear against the crack in the door, and sometimes peeping out to see what measures she must take for the child&apos;s safety. Would Nils stand by her, or would he desert her? But surely--what was Nils thinking about? He was extending his hand to each of the men, and receiving them kindly.</p><p>Next he would be inviting them to come in and take little Hans. She saw one of the men--Stubby Mons by name--step forward, and she plainly heard him say:</p><p>&quot;We miss the little chap down at the river, Nils. The luck has been against us since he left.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, Mons,&quot; Nils answered, &quot;I miss the little chap as much as any of you; perhaps more. But my wife--she&apos;s got a sort of crooked notion that the boy won&apos;t come home alive if she lets him go to the river. She got a bad scare last time, and it isn&apos;t any use arguing with her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But won&apos;t you let us talk to her, Nils?&quot; one of the lumbermen proposed. &quot;It is a tangled skein, and I don&apos;t pretend to say that I can straighten it out. But two men have been killed and one crippled since the little chap was taken away. And in the three years he was with us no untoward thing happened. Now that speaks for itself, Nils, doesn&apos;t it?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It does, indeed,&quot; said Nils, with an air of conviction.</p><p>&quot;And you&apos;ll let us talk to your wife, and see if we can&apos;t make her listen to reason,&quot; the man urged.</p><p>&quot;You are welcome to talk to her as much as you like,&quot; Nils replied, knocking out his pipe on the heel of his boot; &quot;but I warn you that she&apos;s mighty cantankerous.&quot;</p><p>He rose slowly, and tried to open the door. It was locked. &quot;Open, Inga,&quot; he said, a trifle impatiently; &quot;there are some men here who want to see you.&quot;</p><p>II.</p><p>Inga sat crouching on the hearth, hugging little Hans to her bosom. She shook and trembled with fear, let her eyes wander around the walls, and now and then moaned at the thought that now they would take little Hans away from her.</p><p>&quot;Why don&apos;t you open the door for papa?&quot; asked little Hans, wonderingly.</p><p>Ah, he too was against her! All the world was against her! And her husband was in league with her enemies!</p><p>&quot;Open, I say!&quot; cried Nils, vehemently. &quot;What do you mean by locking the door when decent people come to call upon us?&quot;</p><p>Should she open the door or should she not? Holding little Hans in her arms, she rose hesitatingly, and stretched out her hand toward the bolt. But all of a sudden, in a paroxysm of fear, she withdrew her hand, turned about, and fled with the child through the back door. The alder bushes grew close up to the walls of the cottage, and by stooping a little she managed to remain unobserved. Her greatest difficulty was to keep little Hans from shouting to his father, and she had to put her hand over his mouth to keep him quiet; for the boy, who had heard the voices without, could not understand why he should not be permitted to go out and converse with his friends the lumbermen. The wild eyes and agitated face of his mother distressed him, and the little showers of last night&apos;s rain which the trees shook down upon him made him shiver.</p><p>&quot;Why do you run so, mamma?&quot; he asked, when she removed her hand from his mouth.</p><p>&quot;Because the bad men want to take you away from me, Hans,&quot; she answered, panting.</p><p>&quot;Those were not bad men, mamma,&quot; the boy ejaculated. &quot;That was Stubby Mons and Stuttering Peter and Lars Skin-breeches. They don&apos;t, want to hurt me.&quot;</p><p>He expected that his mamma would be much relieved at receiving this valuable information, and return home without delay. But she still pressed on, flushed and panting, and cast the same anxious glances behind her.</p><p>In the meanwhile Nils and his guests had entirely lost their patience. Finding his persuasions of no avail, the former began to thump at the door with the handle of his axe, and receiving no response, he climbed up to the window and looked in. To his amazement there was no one in the room. Thinking that Inga might have gone to the cow-stable, he ran to the rear of the cottage, and called her name. Still no answer.</p><p>&quot;Hans,&quot; he cried, &quot;where are you?&quot;</p><p>But Hans, too, was as if spirited away. It scarcely occurred to Nils, until he had searched the cow- stable and the house in vain, that his wife had fled from the harmless lumbermen. Then the thought shot through his brain that possibly she was not quite right in her head; that this fixed idea that everybody wanted to take her child away from her had unsettled her reason. Nils grew hot and cold in the same moment as this dreadful apprehension took lodgement in his mind. Might she not, in her confused effort to save little Hans, do him harm? In the blind and feverish terror which possessed her might she not rush into the water, or leap over a precipice? Visions of little Hans drowning, or whirled into the abyss in his mother&apos;s arms, crowded his fancy as he walked back to the lumbermen, and told them that neither his wife nor child was anywhere to be found.</p><p>&quot;I would ask ye this, lads,&quot; he said, finally: &quot;if you would help me search for them. For Inga--I reckon she is a little touched in the upper story--she has gone off with the boy, and I can&apos;t get on without little Hans any more than you can.&quot;</p><p>The men understood the situation at a glance, and promised their aid. They had all looked upon Inga as &quot;high-strung&quot; and &quot;queer,&quot; and it did not surprise them to hear that she had been frightened out of her wits at their request for the loan of little Hans. Forming a line, with a space of twenty feet between each man, they began to beat the bush, climbing the steep slope toward the mountains. Inga, pausing for an instant, and peering out between the tree trunks, saw the alder bushes wave as they broke through the underbrush. She knew now that she was pursued. Tired she was, too, and the boy grew heavier for every step that she advanced. And yet if she made him walk, he might run away from her. If he heard his father&apos;s voice, he would be certain to answer. Much perplexed, she looked about her for a hiding-place.</p><p>For, as the men would be sure to overtake her, her only safety was in hiding. With tottering knees she stumbled along, carrying the heavy child, grabbing hold of the saplings for support, and yet scarcely keeping from falling. The cold perspiration broke from her brow and a strange faintness overcame her.</p><p>&quot;You will have to walk, little Hans,&quot; she said, at last. &quot;But if you run away from me, dear, I shall lie down here and die.&quot;</p><p>Little Hans promised that he would not run away, and for five minutes they walked up a stony path which looked like the abandoned bed of a brook.</p><p>&quot;You hurt my hand, mamma,&quot; whimpered the boy, &quot;you squeeze so hard.&quot;</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[as she stood quaking at the sight of him, had never seemed to herself so dainty, frail, and delicate as she seemed in this moment. She felt herself so entirely at his mercy; she was no match for him surely. Shag, anxious as ever to take his cue from her, had stationed himself at her side, and shook his head and whisked his tail in a non-committal manner. Now Valders-Roan had cleared the fence where the men had broken it down; then on he came again, tramp, tramp, tramp, until he was within hal...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>as she stood quaking at the sight of him, had never seemed to herself so dainty, frail, and delicate as she seemed in this moment. She felt herself so entirely at his mercy; she was no match for him surely. Shag, anxious as ever to take his cue from her, had stationed himself at her side, and shook his head and whisked his tail in a non-committal manner. Now Valders-Roan had cleared the fence where the men had broken it down; then on he came again, tramp, tramp, tramp, until he was within half a dozen paces from Lady Clare. There he stopped, for back went Lady Clare&apos;s pretty ears, while she threw herself upon her haunches in an attitude of defence. She was dimly aware that this was a foolish thing to do, but her inbred disdain and horror of everything rough made her act on instinct instead of reason. Valders-Roan, irritated by this uncalled-for action, now threw ceremony to the winds, and without further ado trotted up and rubbed his nose against hers. That was more than Lady Clare could stand. With an hysterical snort she flung herself about, and up flew her heels straight into the offending nose, inflicting considerable damage. Shag, being now quite clear that the programme was fight, whisked about in exactly the same manner, with as close an imitation of Lady Clare&apos;s snort as he could produce, and a second pair of steel-shod heels came within a hair of reducing the enemy&apos;s left nostril to the same condition as the right. But alas for the generous folly of youth! Shag had to pay dearly for that exhibition of devotion. Valders-Roan, enraged by this wanton insult, made a dash at Shag, and by the mere impetus of his huge bulk nearly knocked him senseless. The colt rolled over, flung all his four legs into the air, and as soon as he could recover his footing reeled sideways like a drunken man and made haste to retire to a safe distance.</p><p>Valders-Roan had now a clear field and could turn his undivided attention to Lady Clare. I am not sure that he had not made an example of Shag merely to frighten her. Bounding forward with his mighty chest expanded and the blood dripping from his nostrils, he struck out with a tremendous hind leg and would have returned Lady Clare&apos;s blow with interest if she had not leaped high into the air. She had just managed by her superior alertness to dodge that deadly hoof, and was perhaps not prepared for an instant renewal of the attack. But she had barely gotten her four feet in contact with the sod when two rows of terrific teeth plunged into her withers. The pain was frightful, and with a long, pitiful scream Lady Clare sank down upon the ground, and, writhing with agony, beat the air with her hoofs. Shag, who had by this time recovered his senses, heard the noise of the battle, and, plucking up his courage, trotted bravely forward against the victorious Valders-Roan. He was so frightened that his heart shot up into his throat. But there lay Lady Clare mangled and bleeding. He could not leave her in the lurch, so forward he came, trembling, just as Lady Clare was trying to scramble to her feet. Led away by his sympathy Shag bent his head down toward her and thereby prevented her from rising. And in the same instant a stunning blow hit him straight in the forehead, a shower of sparks danced before his eyes, and then Shag saw and heard no more. A convulsive quiver ran through his body, then he stretched out his neck on the bloody grass, heaved a sigh, and died.</p><p>Lady Clare, seeing Shag killed by the blow which had been intended for herself, felt her blood run cold. She was strongly inclined to run, for she could easily beat the heavy Valders-Roan at a race, and her fleet legs might yet save her. I cannot say whether it was a generous wrath at the killing of her humble champion or a mere blind fury which overcame this inclination. But she knew now neither pain nor fear. With a shrill scream she rushed at Valders-Roan, and for five minutes a whirling cloud of earth and grass and lumps of sod moved irregularly over the field, and tails, heads, and legs were seen flung and tossed madly about, while an occasional shriek of rage or of pain startled the night, and re-echoed with a weird resonance between the mountains.</p><p>It was about five o&apos;clock in the morning of July 11th, that Erik awoke, with a vague sense that something terrible had happened. His groom was standing at his bedside with a terrified face, doubtful whether to arouse his young master or allow him to sleep.</p><p>&quot;What has happened, Anders?&quot; cried Erik, tumbling out of bed.</p><p>&quot;Lady Clare, sir----&quot;</p><p>&quot;Lady Clare!&quot; shouted the boy. &quot;What about her? Has she been stolen?&quot;</p><p>&quot;No, I reckon not,&quot; drawled Anders.</p><p>&quot;Then she&apos;s dead! Quick, tell me what you know or I shall go crazy!&quot;</p><p>&quot;No; I can&apos;t say for sure she&apos;s dead either,&quot; the groom stammered, helplessly.</p><p>Erik, being too stunned with grief and pain, tumbled in a dazed fashion about the room, and scarcely knew how he managed to dress. He felt cold, shivery, and benumbed; and the daylight had a cruel glare in it which hurt his eyes. Accompanied by his groom, he hastened to the home pasture, and saw there the evidence of the fierce battle which had raged during the night. A long, black, serpentine track, where the sod had been torn up by furious hoof-beats, started from the dead carcass of the faithful Shag and moved with irregular breaks and curves up toward the gate that connected the pasture with the underbrush of birch and alder. Here the fence had been broken down, and the track of the fight suddenly ceased. A pool of blood had soaked into the ground, showing that one of the horses, and probably the victor, must have stood still for a while, allowing the vanquished to escape.</p><p>Erik had no need of being told that the horse which had attacked Lady Clare was Valders-Roan; and though he would scarcely have been able to prove it, he felt positive that John Garvestad had arranged and probably watched the fight. Having a wholesome dread of jail, he had not dared to steal Lady Clare; but he had chosen this contemptible method to satisfy his senseless jealousy. It was all so cunningly devised as to baffle legal inquiry. Valders-Roan had gotten astray, and being a heavy beast, had broken into a neighbor&apos;s field and fought with his filly, chasing her away into the mountains. That was the story he would tell, of course, and as there had been no witnesses present, there was no way of disproving it.</p><p>Abandoning, however, for the time being all thought of revenge, Erik determined to bend all his energies to the recovery of Lady Clare. He felt confident that she had run away from her assailant, and was now roaming about in the mountains. He therefore organized a search party of all the male servants on the estate, besides a couple of volunteers, making in all nine. On the evening of the first day&apos;s search they put up at a saeter or mountain chalet. Here they met a young man named Tollef Morud, who had once been a groom at John Garvestad&apos;s. This man had a bad reputation; and as the idea occurred to some of them that he might know something about Lady Clare&apos;s disappearance, they questioned him at great length, without, however, eliciting a single crumb of information.</p><p>For a week the search was continued, but had finally to be given up. Weary, footsore, and heavy hearted, Erik returned home. His grief at the loss of Lady Clare began to tell on his health; and his perpetual plans for getting even with John Garvestad amounted almost to a mania, and caused his father both trouble and anxiety. It was therefore determined to send him to the military academy in the capital.</p><p>Four or five years passed and Erik became a lieutenant. It was during the first year after his graduation from the military academy that he was invited to spend the Christmas holidays with a friend, whose parents lived on a fine estate about twenty miles from the city. Seated in their narrow sleighs, which were drawn by brisk horses, they drove merrily along, shouting to each other to make their voices heard above the jingling of the bells. About eight o&apos;clock in the evening, when the moon was shining brightly and the snow sparkling, they turned in at a wayside tavern to order their supper. Here a great crowd of lumbermen had congregated, and all along the fences their overworked, half- broken-down horses stood, shaking their nose-bags. The air in the public room was so filled with the fumes of damp clothes and bad tobacco that Erik and his friend, while waiting for their meal, preferred to spend the time under the radiant sky. They were sauntering about, talking in a desultory fashion, when all of a sudden a wild, joyous whinny rang out upon the startled air.</p><p>It came from a rusty, black, decrepit-looking mare hitched to a lumber sleigh which they had just passed. Erik, growing very serious, paused abruptly.</p><p>A second whinny, lower than the first, but almost alluring and cajoling, was so directly addressed to Erik that he could not help stepping up to the mare and patting her on the nose.</p><p>&quot;You once had a horse you cared a great deal for, didn&apos;t you?&quot; his friend remarked, casually.</p><p>&quot;Oh, don&apos;t speak about it,&quot; answered Erik, in a voice that shook with emotion; &quot;I loved Lady Clare as I never loved any creature in this world--except my father, of course,&quot; he added, reflectively.</p><p>But what was the matter with the old lumber nag? At the sound of the name Lady Clare she pricked up her ears, and lifted her head with a pathetic attempt at alertness. With a low, insinuating neighing she rubbed her nose against the lieutenant&apos;s cheek. He had let his hand glide over her long, thin neck, when quite suddenly his fingers slid into a deep scar in the withers.</p><p>&quot;My God!&quot; he cried, while the tears started to his eyes, &quot;am I awake, or am I dreaming?&quot;</p><p>&quot;What in the world is the matter?&quot; inquired his comrade, anxiously.</p><p>&quot;It is Lady Clare! By the heavens, it is Lady Clare!&quot;</p><p>&quot;That old ramshackle of a lumber nag whose every rib you can count through her skin is your beautiful thoroughbred?&quot; ejaculated his friend, incredulously. &quot;Come now, don&apos;t be a goose.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I&apos;ll tell you of it some other time,&quot; said Erik, quietly; &quot;but there&apos;s not a shadow of a doubt that this is Lady Clare.&quot;</p><p>Yes, strange as it may seem, it was indeed Lady Clare. But oh, who would have recognized in this skeleton, covered with a rusty-black skin and tousled mane and forelock in which chaff and dirt were entangled--who would have recognized in this drooping and rickety creature the proud, the dainty, the exquisite Lady Clare? Her beautiful tail, which had once been her pride, was now a mere scanty wisp; and a sharp, gnarled ridge running along the entire length of her back showed every vertebra of her spine through the notched and scarred skin. Poor Lady Clare, she had seen hard usage. But now the days of her tribulations are at an end. It did not take Erik long to find the half-tipsy lumberman who was Lady Clare&apos;s owner; nor to agree with him on the price for which he was willing to part with her.</p><p>There is but little more to relate. By interviews and correspondence with the different parties through whose hands the mare had passed, Erik succeeded in tracing her to Tollef Morud, the ex-groom of John Garvestad. On being promised immunity from prosecution, he was induced to confess that he had been hired by his former master to arrange the nocturnal fight between Lady Clare and Valders-Roan, and had been paid ten dollars for stealing the mare when she had been sufficiently damaged. John Garvestad had himself watched the fight from behind the fence, and had laughed fit to split his sides, until Valders-Roan seemed on the point of being worsted. Then he had interfered to separate them, and Tollef had led Lady Clare away, bleeding from a dozen wounds, and had hidden her in a deserted lumberman&apos;s shed near the saeter where the searchers had overtaken him.</p><p>Having obtained these facts, Erik took pains to let John Garvestad know that the chain of evidence against him was complete, and if he had had his own way he would not have rested until his enemy had suffered the full penalty of the law. But John Garvestad, suspecting what was in the young man&apos;s mind, suddenly divested himself of his pride, and cringing dike a whipped dog, came and asked Erik&apos;s pardon, entreating him not to prosecute.</p><p>As for Lady Clare, she never recovered her lost beauty. A pretty fair-looking mare she became, to be sure, when good feeding and careful grooming had made her fat and glossy once more. A long and contented old age is, no doubt, in store for her. Having known evil days, she appreciates the blessings which the change in her fate has brought her. The captain declares she is the best-tempered and steadiest horse in his stable.</p><p>BONNYBOY</p><p>I.</p><p>&quot;Oh, you never will amount to anything, Bonnyboy!&quot; said Bonnyboy&apos;s father, when he had vainly tried to show him how to use a gouge; for Bonnyboy had just succeeded in gouging a piece out of his hand, and was standing helplessly, letting his blood drop on an engraving of Napoleon at Austerlitz, which had been sent to his father for framing. The trouble with Bonnyboy was that he was not only awkward--left-handed in everything he undertook, as his father put it--but he was so very good-natured that it was impossible to get angry with him. His large blue innocent eyes had a childlike wonder in them, when he had done anything particularly stupid, and he was so willing and anxious to learn, that his ill-success seemed a reason for pity rather than for wrath. Grim Norvold, Bonnyboy&apos;s father, was by trade a carpenter, and handy as he was at all kinds of tinkering, he found it particularly exasperating to have a son who was so left-handed. There was scarcely anything Grim could not do. He could take a watch apart and put it together again; he could mend a harness if necessary; he could make a wagon; nay, he could even doctor a horse when it got spavin or glanders. He was a sort of jack-of-all-trades, and a very useful man in a valley where mechanics were few and transportation difficult. He loved work for its own sake, and was ill at ease when he had not a tool in his hand. The exercise of his skill gave him a pleasure akin to that which the fish feels in swimming, the eagle in soaring, and the lark in singing. A finless fish, a wingless eagle, or a dumb lark could not have been more miserable than Grim was when a succession of holidays, like Easter or Christmas, compelled him to be idle.</p><p>When his son was born his chief delight was to think of the time when he should be old enough to handle a tool, and learn the secrets of his father&apos;s trade. Therefore, from the time the boy was old enough to sit or to crawl in the shavings without getting his mouth and eyes full of sawdust, he gave him a place under the turning bench, and talked or sang to him while he worked. And Bonnyboy, in the meanwhile amused himself by getting into all sorts of mischief. If it had not been for the belief that a good workman must grow up in the atmosphere of the shop, Grim would have lost patience with his son and sent him back to his mother, who had better facilities for taking care of him. But the fact was he was too fond of the boy to be able to dispense with him, and he would rather bear the loss resulting from his mischief than miss his prattle and his pretty dimpled face.</p><p>It was when the child was eighteen or nineteen months old that he acquired the name Bonnyboy. A woman of the neighborhood, who had called at the shop with some article of furniture which she wanted to have mended, discovered the infant in the act of investigating a pot of blue paint, with a part of which he had accidentally decorated his face.</p><p>&quot;Good gracious! what is that ugly thing you have got under your turning bench?&quot; she cried, staring at the child in amazement.</p><p>&quot;No, he is not an ugly thing,&quot; replied the father, with resentment; &quot;he is a bonny boy, that&apos;s what he is.&quot;</p><p>The woman, in order to mollify Grim, turned to the boy, and asked, with her sweetest manner, &quot;What is your name, child?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Bonny boy,&quot; murmured the child, with a vaguely offended air--&quot;bonny boy.&quot;</p><p>And from that day the name Bonnyboy clung to him.</p><p>II.</p><p>To teach Bonnyboy the trade of a carpenter was a task which would have exhausted the patience of all the saints in the calendar. If there was any possible way of doing a thing wrong, Bonnyboy would be sure to hit upon that way. When he was eleven years old he chopped off the third joint of the ring-finger on his right hand with a cutting tool while working the turning-lathe; and by the time he was fourteen it seemed a marvel to his father that he had any fingers left at all. But Bonnyboy persevered in spite of all difficulties, was always cheerful and of good courage, and when his father, in despair, exclaimed: &quot;Well, you will never amount to anything, Bonnyboy,&quot; he would look up with his slow, winning smile and say:</p><p>&quot;Don&apos;t worry, father. Better luck next time.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But, my dear boy, how can I help worrying, when you don&apos;t learn anything by which you can make your living?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, well, father,&quot; said Bonnyboy, soothingly (for he was beginning to feel sorry on his father&apos;s account rather than on his own), &quot;I wouldn&apos;t bother about that if I were you. I don&apos;t worry a bit. Something will turn up for me to do, sooner or later.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But you&apos;ll do it badly, Bonnyboy, and then you won&apos;t get a second chance. And then, who knows but you may starve to death. You&apos;ll chop off the fingers you have left; and when I am dead and can no longer look after you, I am very much afraid you&apos;ll manage to chop off your head too.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well,&quot; observed Bonnyboy, cheerfully, &quot;in that case I shall not starve to death.&quot;</p><p>Grim had to laugh in spite of himself at the paternal way in which his son comforted him, as if he were the party to be pitied. Bonnyboy&apos;s unfailing cheerfulness, which had its great charm, began to cause him uneasiness, because he feared it was but another form of stupidity. A cleverer boy would have been sorry for his mistakes and anxious about his own future. But Bonnyboy looked into the future with the serene confidence of a child, and nothing under the sun ever troubled him, except his father&apos;s tendency to worry. For he was very fond of his father, and praised him as a paragon of skill and excellence. He lavished an abject admiration on everything he did and said. His dexterity in the use of tools, and his varied accomplishments as a watch-maker and a horse-doctor, filled Bonnyboy with ungrudging amazement. He knew it was a hopeless thing for him to aspire to rival such genius, and he took the thing philosophically, and did not aspire.</p><p>It occurred to Grim one day, when Bonnyboy had made a most discouraging exhibition of his awkwardness, that it might be a good thing to ask the pastor&apos;s advice in regard to him. The pastor had had a long experience in educating children, and his own, though they were not all clever, promised to turn out well. Accordingly Grim called at the parsonage, was well received, and returned home charged to the muzzle with good advice. The pastor lent him a book full of stories, and recommended him to read them to his son, and afterward question him about every single fact which each story contained. This the pastor had found to be a good way to develop the intellect of a backward boy.</p><p>III.</p><p>When Bonnyboy had been confirmed, the question again rose what was to become of him. He was now a tall young fellow, red-checked, broad-shouldered, and strong, and rather nice-looking. A slow, good-natured smile spread over his face when anyone spoke to him, and he had a way of flinging his head back, when the tuft of yellow hair which usually hung down over his forehead obscured his sight. Most people liked him, even though they laughed at him behind his back; but to his face nobody laughed, because his strength inspired respect. Nor did he know what fear was when he was roused; but that was probably, as people thought, because he did not know much of anything. At any rate, on a certain occasion he showed that there was a limit to his good-nature, and when that limit was reached, he was not as harmless a fellow as he looked.</p><p>On the neighboring farm of Gimlehaug there was a wedding to which Grim and his son were invited. On the afternoon of the second wedding day--for peasant weddings in Norway are often celebrated for three days--a notorious bully named Ola Klemmerud took it into his head to have some sport with the big good-natured simpleton. So, by way of pleasantry, he pulled the tuft of hair which hung down upon Bonnyboy&apos;s forehead.</p><p>&quot;Don&apos;t do that,&quot; said Bonnyboy.</p><p>Ola Klemmerud chuckled, and the next time he passed Bonnyboy, pinched his ear.</p><p>&quot;If you do that again I sha&apos;n&apos;t like you,&quot; cried Bonnyboy.</p><p>The innocence of that remark made the people laugh, and the bully, seeing that their sympathy was on his side, was encouraged to continue his teasing. Taking a few dancing steps across the floor, he managed to touch Bonnyboy&apos;s nose with the toe of his boot, which feat again was rewarded with a burst of laughter. The poor lad quietly blew his nose, wiped the perspiration off his brow with a red handkerchief, and said, &quot;Don&apos;t make me mad, Ola, or I might hurt you.&quot;</p><p>This speech struck the company as being immensely funny, and they laughed till the tears ran down their cheeks. At this moment Grim entered, and perceived at once that Ola Klemmerud was amusing the company at his son&apos;s expense. He grew hot about his ears, clinched his teeth, and stared challengingly at the bully. The latter began to feel uncomfortable, but he could not stop at this point without turning the laugh against himself, and that he had not the courage to do. So in order to avoid rousing the father&apos;s wrath, and yet preserving his own dignity, he went over to Bonnyboy, rumpled his hair with both his hands, and tweaked his nose. This appeared such innocent sport, according to his notion, that no rational creature could take offence at it. But Grim, whose sense of humor was probably defective, failed to see it in that light.</p><p>&quot;Let the boy alone,&quot; he thundered.</p><p>&quot;Well, don&apos;t bite my head off, old man,&quot; replied Ola. &quot;I haven&apos;t hurt your fool of a boy. I have only been joking with him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t think you are troubled with overmuch wit yourself, judging by the style of your jokes,&quot; was Grim&apos;s cool retort.</p><p>The company, who plainly saw that Ola was trying to wriggle out of his difficulty, but were anxious not to lose an exciting scene, screamed with laughter again; but this time at the bully&apos;s expense. The blood mounted to his head, and his anger got the better of his natural cowardice. Instead of sneaking off, as he had intended, he wheeled about on his heel and stood for a moment irresolute, clinching his fist in his pocket.</p><p>&quot;Why don&apos;t you take your lunkhead of a son home to his mother, if he isn&apos;t bright enough to understand fun!&quot; he shouted.</p><p>&quot;Now let me see if you are bright enough to understand the same kind of fun,&quot; cried Grim. Whereupon he knocked off Ola&apos;s cap, rumpled his hair, and gave his nose such a pull that it was a wonder it did not come off.</p><p>The bully, taken by surprise, tumbled a step backward, but recovering himself, struck Grim in the face with his clinched fist. At this moment. Bonnyboy, who had scarcely taken in the situation; jumped up and screamed, &quot;Sit down, Ola Klemmerud, sit down!&quot;</p><p>The effect of this abrupt exclamation was so comical, that people nearly fell from their benches as they writhed and roared with laughter.</p><p>Bonnyboy, who had risen to go to his father&apos;s assistance, paused in astonishment in the middle of the floor. He could not comprehend, poor boy, why everything he said provoked such uncontrollable mirth. He surely had no intention of being funny.</p><p>So, taken aback a little, he repeated to himself, half wonderingly, with an abrupt pause after each word, &quot;Sit--down--Ola--Klemmerud--sit--down!&quot;</p><p>But Ola Klemmerud, instead of sitting down, hit Grim repeatedly about the face and head, and it was evident that the elder man, in spite of his strength, was not a match for him in alertness. This dawned presently upon Bonnyboy&apos;s slow comprehension, and his good-natured smile gave way to a flush of excitement. He took two long strides across the floor, pushed his father gently aside, and stood facing his antagonist. He repeated once more his invitation to sit down; to which the latter responded with a slap which made the sparks dance before Bonnyboy&apos;s eyes. Now Bonnyboy became really angry. Instead of returning the slap, he seized his enemy with a sudden and mighty grab by both his shoulders, lifted him up as if he were a bag of hay, and put him down on a chair with such force that it broke into splinters under him.</p><p>&quot;Will you now sit down?&quot; said Bonnyboy.</p><p>Nobody laughed this time, and the bully, not daring to rise, remained seated on the floor among the ruins of the chair. Thereupon, with imperturbable composure, Bonnyboy turned to his father, brushed off his coat with his hands and smoothed his disordered hair. &quot;Now let us go home, father,&quot; he said, and taking the old man&apos;s arm he walked out of the room. But hardly had he crossed the threshold before the astonished company broke into cheering.</p><p>&quot;Good for you, Bonnyboy!&quot; &quot;Well done, Bonnyboy!&quot; &quot;You are a bully boy, Bonnyboy!&quot; they cried after him.</p><p>But Bonnyboy strode calmly along, quite unconscious of his triumph, and only happy to have gotten his father out of the room safe and sound. For a good while they walked on in silence. Then, when the effect of the excitement had begun to wear away, Grim stopped in the path, gazed admiringly at his son, and said, &quot;Well, Bonnyboy, you are a queer fellow.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, yes,&quot; answered Bonnyboy, blushing with embarrassment (for though he did not comprehend the remark, he felt the approving gaze); &quot;but then, you know, I asked him to sit down, and he wouldn&apos;t.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Bless your innocent heart!&quot; murmured his father, as he gazed at Bonnyboy&apos;s honest face with a mingling of affection and pity.</p><p>IV.</p><p>When Bonnyboy was twenty years old his father gave up, once for all, his attempt to make a carpenter of him. A number of saw-mills had been built during the last years along the river down in the valley, and the old rapids had been broken up into a succession of mill-dams, one above the other. At one of these saw-mills Bonnyboy sought work, and was engaged with many others as a mill hand. His business was to roll the logs on to the little trucks that ran on rails, and to push them up to the saws, where they were taken in charge by another set of men, who fastened and watched them while they were cut up into planks. Very little art was, indeed, required for this simple task; but strength was required, and of this Bonnyboy had enough and to spare. He worked with a will from early morn till dewy eve, and was happy in the thought that he had at last found something that he could do. It made the simple-hearted fellow proud to observe that he was actually gaining his father&apos;s regard; or, at all events, softening the disappointment which, in a vague way, he knew that his dulness must have caused him. If, occasionally, he was hurt by a rolling log, he never let any one know it; but even though his foot was a mass of agony every time he stepped on it, he would march along as stiffly as a soldier. It was as if he felt his father&apos;s eye upon him long before he saw him.</p><p>There was a curious kind of sympathy between them which expressed itself, on the father&apos;s part, in a need to be near his son. But he feared to avow any such weakness, knowing that Bonnyboy would interpret it as distrust of his ability to take care of himself, and a desire to help him if he got into trouble. Grim, therefore, invented all kinds of transparent pretexts for paying visits to the saw-mills. And when he saw Bonnyboy, conscious that his eye was resting upon him, swinging his axe so that the chips flew about his ears, and the perspiration rained from his brow, a dim anxiety often took possession of him, though he could give no reason for it. That big brawny fellow, with the frame of a man and the brain of a child, with his guileless face and his guileless heart, strangely moved his compassion. There was something almost beautiful about him, his father thought; but he could not have told what it was; nor would he probably have found any one else that shared his opinion. That frank and genial gaze of Bonnyboy&apos;s, which expressed goodness of heart but nothing else, seemed to Grim an &quot;open sesame&quot; to all hearts; and that unawakened something which goes so well with childhood, but not with adult age, filled him with tenderness and a vague anxiety. &quot;My poor lad,&quot; he would murmur to himself, as he caught sight of Bonnyboy&apos;s big perspiring face, with the yellow tuft of hair hanging down over his forehead, &quot;clever you are not; but you have that which the cleverest of us often lack.&quot;</p><p>V.</p><p>There were sixteen saw-mills in all, and the one at which Bonnyboy was employed was the last of the series. They were built on little terraces on both banks of the river, and every four of them were supplied with power from an artificial dam, in which the water was stored in time of drought, and from which it escaped in a mill-race when required for use. These four dams were built of big stones, earthwork, and lumber, faced with smooth planks, over which a small quantity of water usually drizzled into the shallow river-bed. Formerly, before the power was utilized, this slope had been covered with seething and swirling rapids--a favorite resort of the salmon, which leaped high in the spring, and were caught in the box-traps that hung on long beams over the water. Now the salmon had small chance of shedding their spawn in the cool, bright mountain pools, for they could not leap the dams, and if by chance one got into the mill- race, it had a hopeless struggle against a current that would have carried an elephant off his feet. Bonnyboy, who more than once had seen the beautiful silvery fish spring right on to the millwheel, and be flung upon the rocks, had wished that he had understood the language of the fishes, so that he might tell them how foolish such proceedings were. But merciful though he was, he had been much discouraged when, after having put them back into the river, they had promptly repeated the experiment.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA["All right!" and with the words he was already at her side, taking long strides over the elastic turf. "I will go on with my mowing," said she, when they reached the horses, "and you can rake and load with my father. What name shall I call you by?" "Everybody calls me Jake." "`Jake!&apos; Jacob is better. Well, Jacob, I hope you&apos;ll give us all the help you can." With a nod and a light laugh she sprang upon the machine. There was a sweet throb in Jacob&apos;s heart, which, if he could hav...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>&quot;All right!&quot; and with the words he was already at her side, taking long strides over the elastic turf.</p><p>&quot;I will go on with my mowing,&quot; said she, when they reached the horses, &quot;and you can rake and load with my father. What name shall I call you by?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Everybody calls me Jake.&quot;</p><p>&quot;`Jake!&apos; Jacob is better. Well, Jacob, I hope you&apos;ll give us all the help you can.&quot;</p><p>With a nod and a light laugh she sprang upon the machine. There was a sweet throb in Jacob&apos;s heart, which, if he could have expressed it, would have been a triumphant shout of &quot;I&apos;m not afraid of her! I&apos;m not afraid of her!&quot;</p><p>The farmer was a kindly, depressed man, with whose quiet ways Jacob instantly felt himself at home. They worked steadily until sunset, when the girl, detaching her horses from the machine, mounted one of them and led the other to the barn. At the supper-table, the farmer&apos;s wife said: &quot;Susan, you must be very tired.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not now, mother!&quot; she cheerily answered. &quot;I was, I think, but after I picked up Jacob I felt sure we should get our hay in.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It was a good thing,&quot; said the farmer; &quot;Jacob don&apos;t need to be told how to work.&quot;</p><p>Poor Jacob! He was so happy he could have cried. He sat and listened, and blushed a little, with a smile on his face which it was a pleasure to see. The honest people did not seem to regard him in the least as a stranger; they discussed their family interests and troubles and hopes before him, and in a little while it seemed as if he had known them always.</p><p>How faithfully he worked! How glad and tired he felt when night came, and the hay-mow was filled, and the great stacks grew beside the barn! But ah! the haying came to an end, and on the last evening, at supper, everybody was constrained and silent. Even Susan looked grave and thoughtful.</p><p>&quot;Jacob,&quot; said the farmer, finally, &quot;I wish we could keep you until wheat harvest; but you know we are poor, and can&apos;t afford it. Perhaps you could--&quot;</p><p>He hesitated; but Jacob, catching at the chance and obeying his own unselfish impulse, cried: &quot;Oh, yes, I can; I&apos;ll be satisfied with my board, till the wheat&apos;s ripe.&quot;</p><p>Susan looked at him quickly, with a bright, speaking face. &quot;It&apos;s hardly fair to you,&quot; said the farmer.</p><p>&quot;But I like to be here so much!&quot; Jacob cried. &quot;I like--all of you!&quot;</p><p>&quot;We DO seem to suit,&quot; said the farmer, &quot;like as one family. And that reminds me, we&apos;ve not heard your family name yet.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Flint.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Jacob FLINT!&quot; exclaimed the farmer&apos;s wife, with sudden agitation.</p><p>Jacob was scared and troubled. They had heard of him, he thought, and who knew what ridiculous stories? Susan noticed an anxiety on his face which she could not understand, but she unknowingly came to his relief.</p><p>&quot;Why, mother,&quot; she asked, &quot;do you know Jacob&apos;s family?&quot;</p><p>&quot;No, I think not,&quot; said her mother, &quot;only somebody of the name, long ago.&quot;</p><p>His offer, however, was gratefully accepted. The bright, hot summer days came and went, but no flower of July ever opened as rapidly and richly and warmly as his chilled, retarded nature. New thoughts and instincts came with every morning&apos;s sun, and new conclusions were reached with every evening&apos;s twilight. Yet as the wheat harvest drew towards the end, he felt that he must leave the place. The month of absence had gone by, he scarce knew how. He was free to return home, and, though he might offer to bridge over the gap between wheat and oats, as he had already done between hay and wheat, he imagined the family might hesitate to accept such an offer. Moreover, this life at Susan&apos;s side was fast growing to be a pain, unless he could assure himself that it would be so forever.</p><p>They were in the wheat-field, busy with the last sheaves; she raking and he binding. The farmer and younger children had gone to the barn with a load. Jacob was working silently and steadily, but when they had reached the end of a row, he stopped, wiped his wet brow, and suddenly said, &quot;Susan, I suppose to-day finishes my work here.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yes,&quot; she answered very slowly.</p><p>&quot;And yet I&apos;m very sorry to go.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I--WE don&apos;t want you to go, if we could help it.&quot;</p><p>Jacob appeared to struggle with himself. He attempted to speak. &quot;If I could--&quot; he brought out, and then paused. &quot;Susan, would you be glad if I came back?&quot;</p><p>His eyes implored her to read his meaning. No doubt she read it correctly, for her face flushed, her eyelids fell, and she barely murmured, &quot;Yes, Jacob.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then I&apos;ll come!&quot; he cried; &quot;I&apos;ll come and help you with the oats. Don&apos;t talk of pay! Only tell me I&apos;ll be welcome! Susan, don&apos;t you believe I&apos;ll keep my word?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I do indeed,&quot; said she, looking him firmly in the face.</p><p>That was all that was said at the time; but the two understood each other tolerably well.</p><p>On the afternoon of the second day, Jacob saw again the lonely house of his father. His journey was made, yet, if any of the neighbors had seen him, they would never have believed that he had come back rich.</p><p>Samuel Flint turned away to hide a peculiar smile when he saw his son; but little was said until late that evening, after Harry and Sally had left. Then he required and received an exact account of Jacob&apos;s experience during his absence. After hearing the story to the end, he said, &quot;And so you love this Susan Meadows?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I&apos;d--I&apos;d do any thing to be with her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Are you afraid of her?&quot;</p><p>&quot;No!&quot; Jacob uttered the word so emphatically that it rang through the house.</p><p>&quot;Ah, well!&quot; said the old man, lifting his eyes, and speaking in the air, &quot;all the harm may be mended yet. But there must be another test.&quot; Then he was silent for some time.</p><p>&quot;I have it!&quot; he finally exclaimed. &quot;Jacob, you must go back for the oats harvest. You must ask Susan to be your wife, and ask her parents to let you have her. But,--pay attention to my words!--you must tell her that you are a poor, hired man on this place, and that she can be engaged as housekeeper. Don&apos;t speak of me as your father, but as the owner of the farm. Bring her here in that belief, and let me see how honest and willing she is. I can easily arrange matters with Harry and Sally while you are away; and I&apos;ll only ask you to keep up the appearance of the thing for a month or so.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But, father,&quot;--Jacob began.</p><p>&quot;Not a word! Are you not willing to do that much for the sake of having her all your life, and this farm after me? Suppose it is covered with a mortgage, if she is all you say, you two can work it off. Not a word more! It is no lie, after all, that you will tell her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I am afraid,&quot; said Jacob, &quot;that she could not leave her home now. She is too useful there, and the family is so poor.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Tell them that both your wages, for the first year, shall go to them. It&apos;ll be my business to rake and scrape the money together somehow. Say, too, that the housekeeper&apos;s place can&apos;t be kept for her--must be filled at once. Push matters like a man, if you mean to be a complete one, and bring her here, if she carries no more with her than the clothes on her back!&quot;</p><p>During the following days Jacob had time to familiarize his mind with this startling proposal. He knew his father&apos;s stubborn will too well to suppose that it could be changed; but the inevitable soon converted itself into the possible and desirable. The sweet face of Susan as she had stood before him in the wheat-field was continually present to his eyes, and ere long, he began to place her, in his thoughts, in the old rooms at home, in the garden, among the thickets by the brook, and in Ann Pardon&apos;s pleasant parlor. Enough; his father&apos;s plan became his own long before the time was out.</p><p>On his second journey everybody seemed to be an old acquaintance and an intimate friend. It was evening as he approached the Meadows farm, but the younger children recognized him in the dusk, and their cry of, &quot;Oh, here&apos;s Jacob!&quot; brought out the farmer and his wife and Susan, with the heartiest of welcomes. They had all missed him, they said--even the horses and oxen had looked for him, and they were wondering how they should get the oats harvested without him.</p><p>Jacob looked at Susan as the farmer said this, and her eyes seemed to answer, &quot;I said nothing, but I knew you would come.&quot; Then, first, he felt sufficient courage for the task before him.</p><p>He rose the next morning, before any one was stirring, and waited until she should come down stairs. The sun had not risen when she appeared, with a milk-pail in each hand, walking unsuspectingly to the cow-yard. He waylaid her, took the pails in his hand and said in nervous haste, &quot;Susan, will you be my wife?&quot;</p><p>She stopped as if she had received a sudden blow; then a shy, sweet consent seemed to run through her heart. &quot;O Jacob!&quot; was all she could say.</p><p>&quot;But you will, Susan?&quot; he urged; and then (neither of them exactly knew how it happened) all at once his arms were around her, and they had kissed each other.</p><p>&quot;Susan,&quot; he said, presently, &quot;I am a poor man--only a farm hand, and must work for my living. You could look for a better husband.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I could never find a better than you, Jacob.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Would you work with me, too, at the same place?&quot;</p><p>&quot;You know I am not afraid of work,&quot; she answered, &quot;and I could never want any other lot than yours.&quot;</p><p>Then he told her the story which his father had prompted. Her face grew bright and happy as she listened, and he saw how from her very heart she accepted the humble fortune. Only the thought of her parents threw a cloud over the new and astonishing vision. Jacob, however, grew bolder as he saw fulfilment of his hope so near. They took the pails and seated themselves beside neighbor cows, one raising objections or misgivings which the other manfully combated. Jacob&apos;s earnestness unconsciously ran into his hands, as he discovered when the impatient cow began to snort and kick.</p><p>The harvesting of the oats was not commenced that morning. The children were sent away, and there was a council of four persons held in the parlor. The result of mutual protestations and much weeping was, that the farmer and his wife agreed to receive Jacob as a son-in-law; the offer of the wages was four times refused by them, and then accepted; and the chance of their being able to live and labor together was finally decided to be too fortunate to let slip. When the shock and surprise was over all gradually became cheerful, and, as the matter was more calmly discussed, the first conjectured difficulties somehow resolved themselves into trifles.</p><p>It was the simplest and quietest wedding,--at home, on an August morning. Farmer Meadows then drove the bridal pair half-way on their journey, to the old country tavern, where a fresh conveyance had been engaged for them. The same evening they reached the farm- house in the valley, and Jacob&apos;s happy mood gave place to an anxious uncertainty as he remembered the period of deception upon which Susan was entering. He keenly watched his father&apos;s face when they arrived, and was a little relieved when he saw that his wife had made a good first impression.</p><p>&quot;So, this is my new housekeeper,&quot; said the old man. &quot;I hope you will suit me as well as your husband does.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I&apos;ll do my best, sir,&quot; said she; &quot;but you must have patience with me for a few days, until I know your ways and wishes.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Mr. Flint,&quot; said Sally, &quot;shall I get supper ready?&quot; Susan looked up in astonishment at hearing the name.</p><p>&quot;Yes,&quot; the old man remarked, &quot;we both have the same name. The fact is, Jacob and I are a sort of relations.&quot;</p><p>Jacob, in spite of his new happiness, continued ill at ease, although he could not help seeing how his father brightened under Susan&apos;s genial influence, how satisfied he was with her quick, neat, exact ways and the cheerfulness with which she fulfilled her duties. At the end of a week, the old man counted out the wages agreed upon for both, and his delight culminated at the frank simplicity with which Susan took what she supposed she had fairly earned.</p><p>&quot;Jacob,&quot; he whispered when she had left the room, &quot;keep quiet one more week, and then I&apos;ll let her know.&quot;</p><p>He had scarcely spoken, when Susan burst into the room again, crying, &quot;Jacob, they are coming, they have come!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Who?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Father and mother; and we didn&apos;t expect them, you know, for a week yet.&quot;</p><p>All three went to the door as the visitors made their appearance on the veranda. Two of the party stood as if thunderstruck, and two exclamations came together:</p><p>&quot;Samuel Flint!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Lucy Wheeler!&quot;</p><p>There was a moment&apos;s silence; then the farmer&apos;s wife, with a visible effort to compose herself, said, &quot;Lucy Meadows, now.&quot;</p><p>The tears came into Samuel Flint&apos;s eyes. &quot;Let us shake hands, Lucy,&quot; he said: &quot;my son has married your daughter.&quot;</p><p>All but Jacob were freshly startled at these words. The two shook hands, and then Samuel, turning to Susan&apos;s father, said: &quot;And this is your husband, Lucy. I am glad to make his acquaintance.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Your father, Jacob!&quot; Susan cried; &quot;what does it all mean?&quot;</p><p>Jacob&apos;s face grew red, and the old habit of hanging his head nearly came back upon him. He knew not what to say, and looked wistfully at his father.</p><p>&quot;Come into the house and sit down,&quot; said the latter. &quot;I think we shall all feel better when we have quietly and comfortably talked the matter over.&quot;</p><p>They went into the quaint, old-fashioned parlor, which had already been transformed by Susan&apos;s care, so that much of its shabbiness was hidden. When all were seated, and Samuel Flint perceived that none of the others knew what to say, he took a resolution which, for a man of his mood and habit of life, required some courage.</p><p>&quot;Three of us here are old people,&quot; he began, &quot;and the two young ones love each other. It was so long ago, Lucy, that it cannot be laid to my blame if I speak of it now. Your husband, I see, has an honest heart, and will not misunderstand either of us. The same thing often turns up in life; it is one of those secrets that everybody knows, and that everybody talks about except the persons concerned. When I was a young man, Lucy, I loved you truly, and I faithfully meant to make you my wife.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I thought so too, for a while,&quot; said she, very calmly.</p><p>Farmer Meadows looked at his wife, and no face was ever more beautiful than his, with that expression of generous pity shining through it.</p><p>&quot;You know how I acted,&quot; Samuel Flint continued, &quot;but our children must also know that I broke off from you without giving any reason.</p><p>A woman came between us and made all the mischief. I was considered rich then, and she wanted to secure my money for her daughter. I was an innocent and unsuspecting young man, who believed that everybody else was as good as myself; and the woman never rested until she had turned me from my first love, and fastened me for life to another. Little by little I discovered the truth; I kept the knowledge of the injury to myself; I quickly got rid of the money which had so cursed me, and brought my wife to this, the loneliest and dreariest place in the neighborhood, where I forced upon her a life of poverty. I thought it was a just revenge, but I was unjust. She really loved me: she was, if not quite without blame in the matter, ignorant of the worst that had been done (I learned all that too late), and she never complained, though the change in me slowly wore out her life. I know now that I was cruel; but at the same time I punished myself, and was innocently punishing my son. But to HIM there was one way to make amends. <code>I will help him to a wife,&apos; I said, </code>who will gladly take poverty with him and for his sake.&apos; I forced him, against his will, to say that he was a hired hand on this place, and that Susan must be content to be a hired housekeeper. Now that I know Susan, I see that this proof might have been left out; but I guess it has done no harm. The place is not so heavily mortgaged as people think, and it will be Jacob&apos;s after I am gone. And now forgive me, all of you,--Lucy first, for she has most cause; Jacob next; and Susan,--that will be easier; and you, Friend Meadows, if what I have said has been hard for you to hear.&quot;</p><p>The farmer stood up like a man, took Samuel&apos;s hand and his wife&apos;s, and said, in a broken voice: &quot;Lucy, I ask you, too, to forgive him, and I ask you both to be good friends to each other.&quot;</p><p>Susan, dissolved in tears, kissed all of them in turn; but the happiest heart there was Jacob&apos;s.</p><p>It was now easy for him to confide to his wife the complete story of his troubles, and to find his growing self-reliance strengthened by her quick, intelligent sympathy. The Pardons were better friends than ever, and the fact, which at first created great astonishment in the neighborhood, that Jacob Flint had really gone upon a journey and brought home a handsome wife, began to change the attitude of the people towards him. The old place was no longer so lonely; the nearest neighbors began to drop in and insist on return visits. Now that Jacob kept his head up, and they got a fair view of his face, they discovered that he was not lacking, after all, in sense or social qualities.</p><p>In October, the Whitney place, which had been leased for several years, was advertised to be sold at public sale. The owner had gone to the city and become a successful merchant, had outlived his local attachments, and now took advantage of a rise in real estate to disburden himself of a property which he could not profitably control.</p><p>Everybody from far and wide attended the sale, and, when Jacob Flint and his father arrived, everybody said to the former: &quot;Of course you&apos;ve come to buy, Jacob.&quot; But each man laughed at his own smartness, and considered the remark original with himself.</p><p>Jacob was no longer annoyed. He laughed, too, and answered: &quot;I&apos;m afraid I can&apos;t do that; but I&apos;ve kept half my word, which is more than most men do.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Jake&apos;s no fool, after all,&quot; was whispered behind him.</p><p>The bidding commenced, at first very spirited, and then gradually slacking off, as the price mounted above the means of the neighboring farmers. The chief aspirant was a stranger, a well- dressed man with a lawyer&apos;s air, whom nobody knew. After the usual long pauses and passionate exhortations, the hammer fell, and the auctioneer, turning to the stranger, asked, &quot;What name?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Jacob Flint!&quot;</p><p>There was a general cry of surprise. All looked at Jacob, whose eyes and mouth showed that he was as dumbfoundered as the rest.</p><p>The stranger walked coolly through the midst of the crowd to Samuel Flint, and said, &quot;When shall I have the papers drawn up?&quot;</p><p>&quot;As soon as you can,&quot; the old man replied; then seizing Jacob by the arm, with the words, &quot;Let&apos;s go home now!&quot; he hurried him on.</p><p>The explanation soon leaked out. Samuel Flint had not thrown away his wealth, but had put it out of his own hands. It was given privately to trustees, to be held for his son, and returned when the latter should have married with his father&apos;s consent. There was more than enough to buy the Whitney place.</p><p>Jacob and Susan are happy in their stately home, and good as they are happy. If any person in the neighborhood ever makes use of the phrase &quot;Jacob Flint&apos;s Journey,&quot; he intends thereby to symbolize the good fortune which sometimes follows honesty, reticence, and shrewdness.</p><p>CAN A LIFE HIDE ITSELF?</p><p>I had been reading, as is my wont from time to time, one of the many volumes of &quot;The New Pitaval,&quot; that singular record of human crime and human cunning, and also of the inevitable fatality which, in every case, leaves a gate open for detection. Were it not for the latter fact, indeed, one would turn with loathing from such endless chronicles of wickedness. Yet these may be safely contemplated, when one has discovered the incredible fatuity of crime, the certain weak mesh in a network of devilish texture; or is it rather the agency of a power outside of man, a subtile protecting principle, which allows the operation of the evil element only that the latter may finally betray itself? Whatever explanation we may choose, the fact is there, like a tonic medicine distilled from poisonous plants, to brace our faith in the ascendancy of Good in the government of the world.</p><p>Laying aside the book, I fell into a speculation concerning the mixture of the two elements in man&apos;s nature. The life of an individual is usually, it seemed to me, a series of RESULTS, the processes leading to which are not often visible, or observed when they are so. Each act is the precipitation of a number of mixed influences, more or less unconsciously felt; the qualities of good and evil are so blended therein that they defy the keenest moral analysis; and how shall we, then, pretend to judge of any one? Perhaps the surest indication of evil (I further reflected) is that it always tries to conceal itself, and the strongest incitement to good is that evil cannot be concealed. The crime, or the vice, or even the self-acknowledged weakness, becomes a part of the individual consciousness; it cannot be forgotten or outgrown. It follows a life through all experiences and to the uttermost ends of the earth, pressing towards the light with a terrible, demoniac power. There are noteless lives, of course-- lives that accept obscurity, mechanically run their narrow round of circumstance, and are lost; but when a life endeavors to lose itself,--to hide some conscious guilt or failure,--can it succeed? Is it not thereby lifted above the level of common experience, compelling attention to itself by the very endeavor to escape it?</p><p>I turned these questions over in my mind, without approaching, or indeed expecting, any solution,--since I knew, from habit, the labyrinths into which they would certainly lead me,--when a visitor was announced. It was one of the directors of our county almshouse, who came on an errand to which he attached no great importance. I owed the visit, apparently, to the circumstance that my home lay in his way, and he could at once relieve his conscience of a very trifling pressure and his pocket of a small package, by calling upon me. His story was told in a few words; the package was placed upon my table, and I was again left to my meditations.</p><p>Two or three days before, a man who had the appearance of a &quot;tramp&quot; had been observed by the people of a small village in the neighborhood. He stopped and looked at the houses in a vacant way, walked back and forth once or twice as if uncertain which of the cross-roads to take, and presently went on without begging or even speaking to any one. Towards sunset a farmer, on his way to the village store, found him sitting at the roadside, his head resting against a fence-post. The man&apos;s face was so worn and exhausted that the farmer kindly stopped and addressed him; but he gave no other reply than a shake of the head.</p><p>The farmer thereupon lifted him into his light country-wagon, the man offering no resistance, and drove to the tavern, where, his exhaustion being so evident, a glass of whiskey was administered to him. He afterwards spoke a few words in German, which no one understood. At the almshouse, to which he was transported the same evening, he refused to answer the customary questions, although he appeared to understand them. The physician was obliged to use a slight degree of force in administering nourishment and medicine, but neither was of any avail. The man died within twenty-four hours after being received. His pockets were empty, but two small leathern wallets were found under his pillow; and these formed the package which the director left in my charge. They were full of papers in a foreign language, he said, and he supposed I might be able to ascertain the stranger&apos;s name and home from them.</p><p>I took up the wallets, which were worn and greasy from long service, opened them, and saw that they were filled with scraps, fragments, and folded pieces of paper, nearly every one of which had been carried for a long time loose in the pocket. Some were written in pen and ink, and some in pencil, but all were equally brown, worn, and unsavory in appearance. In turning them over, however, my eye was caught by some slips in the Russian character, and three or four notes in French; the rest were German. I laid aside &quot;Pitaval&quot; at once, emptied all the leathern pockets carefully, and set about examining the pile of material.</p><p>I first ran rapidly through the papers to ascertain the dead man&apos;s name, but it was nowhere to be found. There were half a dozen letters, written on sheets folded and addressed in the fashion which prevailed before envelopes were invented; but the name was cut out of the address in every case. There was an official permit to embark on board a Bremen steamer, mutilated in the same way; there was a card photograph, from which the face had been scratched by a penknife. There were Latin sentences; accounts of expenses; a list of New York addresses, covering eight pages; and a number of notes, written either in Warsaw or Breslau. A more incongruous collection I never saw, and I am sure that had it not been for the train of thought I was pursuing when the director called upon me, I should have returned the papers to him without troubling my head with any attempt to unravel the man&apos;s story.</p><p>The evidence, however, that he had endeavored to hide his life, had been revealed by my first superficial examination; and here, I reflected, was a singular opportunity to test both his degree of success and my own power of constructing a coherent history out of the detached fragments. Unpromising as is the matter, said I, let me see whether he can conceal his secret from even such unpractised eyes as mine.</p><p>I went through the papers again, read each one rapidly, and arranged them in separate files, according to the character of their contents. Then I rearranged these latter in the order of time, so far as it was indicated; and afterwards commenced the work of picking out and threading together whatever facts might be noted. The first thing I ascertained, or rather conjectured, was that the man&apos;s life might be divided into three very distinct phases, the first ending in Breslau, the second in Poland, and the third and final one in America. Thereupon I once again rearranged the material, and attacked that which related to the first phase.</p><p>It consisted of the following papers: Three letters, in a female hand, commencing &quot;My dear brother,&quot; and terminating with &quot;Thy loving sister, Elise;&quot; part of a diploma from a gymnasium, or high school, certifying that [here the name was cut out] had successfully passed his examination, and was competent to teach,--and here again, whether by accident or design, the paper was torn off; a note, apparently to a jeweller, ordering a certain gold ring to be delivered to &quot;Otto,&quot; and signed &quot; B. V. H.;&quot; a receipt from the package-post for a box forwarded to Warsaw, to the address of Count Ladislas Kasincsky; and finally a washing-list, at the bottom of which was written, in pencil, in a trembling hand: &quot;May God protect thee! But do not stay away so very long.&quot;</p><p>In the second collection, relating to Poland, I found the following: Six orders in Russian and three in French, requesting somebody to send by &quot;Jean&quot; sums of money, varying from two to eight hundred rubles. These orders were in the same hand, and all signed &quot;Y.&quot; A charming letter in French, addressed &quot;cher ami,&quot; and declining, in the most delicate and tender way, an offer of marriage made to the sister of the writer, of whose signature only &quot;Amelie de&quot; remained, the family name having been torn off. A few memoranda of expenses, one of which was curious: &quot;Dinner with Jean, 58 rubles;&quot; and immediately after it: &quot;Doctor, 10 rubles.&quot; There were, moreover, a leaf torn out of a journal, and half of a note which had been torn down the middle, both implicating &quot;Jean&quot; in some way with the fortunes of the dead man.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[and was bound to the family by the closest ties of interest and affection. When the estates became so encumbered that either an immediate change or a catastrophe was inevitable, he had been taken into his master&apos;s confidence concerning the plan which had first been proposed in jest, and afterwards adopted in earnest. The family must leave Dunleigh Castle for a period of probably eight or ten years, and seek some part of the world where their expenses could be reduced to the lowest possib...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>and was bound to the family by the closest ties of interest and affection. When the estates became so encumbered that either an immediate change or a catastrophe was inevitable, he had been taken into his master&apos;s confidence concerning the plan which had first been proposed in jest, and afterwards adopted in earnest.</p><p>The family must leave Dunleigh Castle for a period of probably eight or ten years, and seek some part of the world where their expenses could be reduced to the lowest possible figure. In Germany or Italy there would be the annoyance of a foreign race and language, of meeting of tourists belonging to the circle in which they had moved, a dangerous idleness for their sons, and embarrassing restrictions for their daughters. On the other hand, the suggestion to emigrate to America and become Quakers during their exile offered more advantages the more they considered it. It was original in character; it offered them economy, seclusion, entire liberty of action inside the limits of the sect, the best moral atmosphere for their children, and an occupation which would not deteriorate what was best in their blood and breeding.</p><p>How Lord Dunleigh obtained admission into the sect as plain Henry Donnelly is a matter of conjecture with the Londongrove Friends. The deception which had been practised upon them-- although it was perhaps less complete than they imagined--left a soreness of feeling behind it. The matter was hushed up after the departure of the family, and one might now live for years in the neighborhood without hearing the story. How the shrewd plan was carried out by Lord Dunleigh and his family, we have already learned. O&apos;Neil, left on the estate, in the north of Ireland, did his part with equal fidelity. He not only filled up the gaps made by his master&apos;s early profuseness, but found means to move the sympathies of a cousin of the latter--a rich, eccentric old bachelor, who had long been estranged by a family quarrel. To this cousin he finally confided the character of the exile, and at a lucky time; for the cousin&apos;s will was altered in Lord Dunleigh&apos;s favor, and he died before his mood of reconciliation passed away. Now, the estate was not only unencumbered, but there was a handsome surplus in the hands of the Dublin bankers. The family might return whenever they chose, and there would be a festival to welcome them, O&apos;Neil said, such as Dunleigh Castle had never known since its foundations were laid.</p><p>&quot;Let us go at once!&quot; said Sylvia, when he had concluded his tale. &quot;No more masquerading,--I never knew until to-day how much I have hated it! I will not say that your plan was not a sensible one, father; but I wish it might have been carried out with more honor to ourselves. Since De Courcy&apos;s death I have begun to appreciate our neighbors: I was resigned to become one of these people had our luck gone the other way. Will they give us any credit for goodness and truth, I wonder? Yes, in mother&apos;s case, and Alice&apos;s; and I believe both of them would give up Dunleigh Castle for this little farm.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then,&quot; her father exclaimed, &quot;it IS time that we should return, and without delay. But thee wrongs us somewhat, Sylvia: it has not all been masquerading. We have become the servants, rather than the masters, of our own parts, and shall live a painful and divided life until we get back in our old place. I fear me it will always be divided for thee, wife, and Alice and Henry. If I am subdued by the element which I only meant to asssume, how much more deeply must it have wrought in your natures! Yes, Sylvia is right, we must get away at once. To-morrow we must leave Londongrove forever!&quot;</p><p>He had scarcely spoken, when a new surprise fell upon the family. Joel Bradbury arose and walked forward, as if thrust by an emotion so powerful that it transformed his whole being. He seemed to forget every thing but Alice Donnelly&apos;s presence. His soft brown eyes were fixed on her face with an expression of unutterable tenderness and longing. He caught her by the hands. &quot;Alice, O, Alice!&quot; burst from his lips; &quot;you are not going to leave me?&quot;</p><p>The flush in the girl&apos;s sweet face faded into a deadly paleness. A moan came from her lips; her head dropped, and she would have fallen, swooning, from the chair had not Joel knelt at her feet and caught her upon his breast.</p><p>For a moment there was silence in the room.</p><p>Presently, Sylvia, all her haughtiness gone, knelt beside the young man, and took her sister from his arms. &quot;Joel, my poor, dear friend,&quot; she said, &quot;I am sorry that the last, worst mischief we have done must fall upon you.&quot;</p><p>Joel covered his face with his hands, and convulsively uttered the words, &quot;MUST she go?&quot;</p><p>Then Henry Donnelly--or, rather, Lord Dunleigh, as we must now call him--took the young man&apos;s hand. He was profoundly moved; his strong voice trembled, and his words came slowly. &quot;I will not appeal to thy heart, Joel,&quot; he said, &quot;for it would not hear me now.</p><p>But thou hast heard all our story, and knowest that we must leave these parts, never to return. We belong to another station and another mode of life than yours, and it must come to us as a good fortune that our time of probation is at an end. Bethink thee, could we leave our darling Alice behind us, parted as if by the grave? Nay, could we rob her of the life to which she is born--of her share in our lives? On the other hand, could we take thee with us into relations where thee would always be a stranger, and in which a nature like thine has no place? This is a case where duty speaks clearly, though so hard, so very hard, to follow.&quot;</p><p>He spoke tenderly, but inflexibly, and Joel felt that his fate was pronounced. When Alice had somewhat revived, and was taken to another room, he stumbled blindly out of the house, made his way to the barn, and there flung himself upon the harvest-sheaves which, three days before, he had bound with such a timid, delicious hope working in his arm.</p><p>The day which brought such great fortune had thus a sad and troubled termination. It was proposed that the family should start for Philadelphia on the morrow, leaving O&apos;Neil to pack up and remove such furniture as they wished to retain; but Susan, Lady Dunleigh, could not forsake the neighborhood without a parting visit to the good friends who had mourned with her over her firstborn; and Sylvia was with her in this wish. So two more days elapsed, and then the Dunleighs passed down the Street Road, and the plain farm-house was gone from their eyes forever. Two grieved over the loss of their happy home; one was almost broken-hearted; and the remaining two felt that the trouble of the present clouded all their happiness in the return to rank and fortune.</p><p>They went, and they never came again. An account of the great festival at Dunleigh Castle reached Londongrove two years later, through an Irish laborer, who brought to Joel Bradbury a letter of recommendation signed &quot;Dunleigh.&quot; Joel kept the man upon his farm, and the two preserved the memory of the family long after the neighborhood had ceased to speak of it. Joel never married; he still lives in the house where the great sorrow of his life befell.</p><p>His head is gray, and his face deeply wrinkled; but when he lifts the shy lids of his soft brown eyes, I fancy I can see in their tremulous depths the lingering memory of his love for Alice Dunleigh.</p><p>JACOB FLINT&apos;S JOURNEY.</p><p>If there ever was a man crushed out of all courage, all self- reliance, all comfort in life, it was Jacob Flint. Why this should have been, neither he nor any one else could have explained; but so it was. On the day that he first went to school, his shy, frightened face marked him as fair game for the rougher and stronger boys, and they subjected him to all those exquisite refinements of torture which boys seem to get by the direct inspiration of the Devil. There was no form of their bullying meanness or the cowardice of their brutal strength which he did not experience. He was born under a fading or falling star,--the inheritor of some anxious or unhappy mood of his parents, which gave its fast color to the threads out of which his innocent being was woven.</p><p>Even the good people of the neighborhood, never accustomed to look below the externals of appearance and manner, saw in his shrinking face and awkward motions only the signs of a cringing, abject soul.</p><p>&quot;You&apos;ll be no more of a man than Jake Flint!&quot; was the reproach which many a farmer addressed to his dilatory boy; and thus the parents, one and all, came to repeat the sins of the children.</p><p>If, therefore, at school and &quot;before folks,&quot; Jacob&apos;s position was always uncomfortable and depressing, it was little more cheering at home. His parents, as all the neighbors believed, had been unhappily married, and, though the mother died in his early childhood, his father remained a moody, unsocial man, who rarely left his farm except on the 1st of April every year, when he went to the county town for the purpose of paying the interest upon a mortgage. The farm lay in a hollow between two hills, separated from the road by a thick wood, and the chimneys of the lonely old house looked in vain for a neighbor-smoke when they began to grow warm of a morning.</p><p>Beyond the barn and under the northern hill there was a log tenant- house, in which dwelt a negro couple, who, in the course of years had become fixtures on the place and almost partners in it. Harry, the man, was the medium by which Samuel Flint kept up his necessary intercourse with the world beyond the valley; he took the horses to the blacksmith, the grain to the mill, the turkeys to market, and through his hands passed all the incomings and outgoings of the farm, except the annual interest on the mortgage. Sally, his wife, took care of the household, which, indeed, was a light and comfortable task, since the table was well supplied for her own sake, and there was no sharp eye to criticise her sweeping, dusting, and bed-making. The place had a forlorn, tumble-down aspect, quite in keeping with its lonely situation; but perhaps this very circumstance flattered the mood of its silent, melancholy owner and his unhappy son.</p><p>In all the neighborhood there was but one person with whom Jacob felt completely at ease--but one who never joined in the general habit of making his name the butt of ridicule or contempt. This was Mrs. Ann Pardon, the hearty, active wife of Farmer Robert Pardon, who lived nearly a mile farther down the brook. Jacob had won her good-will by some neighborly services, something so trifling, indeed, that the thought of a favor conferred never entered his mind. Ann Pardon saw that it did not; she detected a streak of most unconscious goodness under his uncouth, embarrassed ways, and she determined to cultivate it. No little tact was required, however, to coax the wild, forlorn creature into so much confidence as she desired to establish; but tact is a native quality of the heart no less than a social acquirement, and so she did the very thing necessary without thinking much about it.</p><p>Robert Pardon discovered by and by that Jacob was a steady, faithful hand in the harvest-field at husking-time, or whenever any extra labor was required, and Jacob&apos;s father made no objection to his earning a penny in this way; and so he fell into the habit of spending his Saturday evenings at the Pardon farm-house, at first to talk over matters of work, and finally because it had become a welcome relief from his dreary life at home.</p><p>Now it happened that on a Saturday in the beginning of haying-time, the village tailor sent home by Harry a new suit of light summer clothes, for which Jacob had been measured a month before. After supper he tried them on, the day&apos;s work being over, and Sally&apos;s admiration was so loud and emphatic that he felt himself growing red even to the small of his back.</p><p>&quot;Now, don&apos;t go for to take &apos;em off, Mr. Jake,&quot; said she. &quot;I spec&apos; you&apos;re gwine down to Pardon&apos;s, and so you jist keep &apos;em on to show &apos;em all how nice you KIN look.&quot;</p><p>The same thought had already entered Jacob&apos;s mind. Poor fellow! It was the highest form of pleasure of which he had ever allowed himself to conceive. If he had been called upon to pass through the village on first assuming the new clothes, every stitch would have pricked him as if the needle remained in it; but a quiet walk down the brookside, by the pleasant path through the thickets and over the fragrant meadows, with a consciousness of his own neatness and freshness at every step, and with kind Ann Pardon&apos;s commendation at the close, and the flattering curiosity of the children,--the only ones who never made fun of him,--all that was a delightful prospect. He could never, NEVER forget himself, as he had seen other young fellows do; but to remember himself agreeably was certainly the next best thing.</p><p>Jacob was already a well-grown man of twenty-three, and would have made a good enough appearance but for the stoop in his shoulders, and the drooping, uneasy way in which he carried his head. Many a time when he was alone in the fields or woods he had straightened himself, and looked courageously at the buts of the oak-trees or in the very eyes of the indifferent oxen; but, when a human face drew near, some spring in his neck seemed to snap, some buckle around his shoulders to be drawn three holes tighter, and he found himself in the old posture. The ever-present thought of this weakness was the only drop of bitterness in his cup, as he followed the lonely path through the thickets.</p><p>Some spirit in the sweet, delicious freshness of the air, some voice in the mellow babble of the stream, leaping in and out of sight between the alders, some smile of light, lingering on the rising corn-fields beyond the meadow and the melting purple of a distant hill, reached to the seclusion of his heart. He was soothed and cheered; his head lifted itself in the presentiment of a future less lonely than the past, and the everlasting trouble vanished from his eyes.</p><p>Suddenly, at a turn of the path, two mowers from the meadow, with their scythes upon their shoulders, came upon him. He had not heard their feet on the deep turf. His chest relaxed, and his head began to sink; then, with the most desperate effort in his life, he lifted it again, and, darting a rapid side glance at the men, hastened by. They could not understand the mixed defiance and supplication of his face; to them he only looked &quot;queer.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Been committin&apos; a murder, have you?&quot; asked one of them, grinning.</p><p>&quot;Startin&apos; off on his journey, I guess,&quot; said the other.</p><p>The next instant they were gone, and Jacob, with set teeth and clinched hands, smothered something that would have been a howl if he had given it voice. Sharp lines of pain were marked on his face, and, for the first time, the idea of resistance took fierce and bitter possession of his heart. But the mood was too unusual to last; presently he shook his head, and walked on towards Pardon&apos;s farm-house.</p><p>Ann wore a smart gingham dress, and her first exclamation was: &quot;Why, Jake! how nice you look. And so you know all about it, too?&quot;</p><p>&quot;About what?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I see you don&apos;t,&quot; said she. &quot;I was too fast; but it makes no difference. I know you are willing to lend me a helping hand.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, to be sure,&quot; Jacob answered.</p><p>&quot;And not mind a little company?&quot;</p><p>Jacob&apos;s face suddenly clouded; but he said, though with an effort: &quot;No--not much--if I can be of any help.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It&apos;s rather a joke, after all,&quot; Ann Pardon continued, speaking rapidly; &quot;they meant a surprise, a few of the young people; but sister Becky found a way to send me word, or I might have been caught like Meribah Johnson last week, in the middle of my work; eight or ten, she said, but more may drop in: and it&apos;s moonlight and warm, so they&apos;ll be mostly under the trees; and Robert won&apos;t be home till late, and I DO want help in carrying chairs, and getting up some ice, and handing around; and, though I know you don&apos;t care for merry makings, you CAN help me out, you see-- &quot;</p><p>Here she paused. Jacob looked perplexed, but said nothing.</p><p>&quot;Becky will help what she can, and while I&apos;m in the kitchen she&apos;ll have an eye to things outside,&quot; she said.</p><p>Jacob&apos;s head was down again, and, moreover, turned on one side, but his ear betrayed the mounting blood. Finally he answered, in a quick, husky voice: &quot;Well, I&apos;ll do what I can. What&apos;s first?&quot;</p><p>Thereupon he began to carry some benches from the veranda to a grassy bank beside the sycamore-tree. Ann Pardon wisely said no more of the coming surprise-party, but kept him so employed that, as the visitors arrived by twos and threes, the merriment was in full play almost before he was aware of it. Moreover, the night was a protecting presence: the moonlight poured splendidly upon the open turf beyond the sycamore, but every lilac-bush or trellis of woodbine made a nook of shade, wherein he could pause a moment and take courage for his duties. Becky Morton, Ann Pardon&apos;s youngest sister, frightened him a little every time she came to consult about the arrangement of seats or the distribution of refreshments; but it was a delightful, fascinating fear, such as he had never felt before in his life. He knew Becky, but he had never seen her in white and pink, with floating tresses, until now. In fact, he had hardly looked at her fairly, but now, as she glided into the moonlight and he paused in the shadow, his eyes took note of her exceeding beauty. Some sweet, confusing influence, he knew not what, passed into his blood.</p><p>The young men had brought a fiddler from the village, and it was not long before most of the company were treading the measures of reels or cotillons on the grass. How merry and happy they all were! How freely and unembarrassedly they moved and talked! By and by all became involved in the dance, and Jacob, left alone and unnoticed, drew nearer and nearer to the gay and beautiful life from which he was expelled.</p><p>With a long-drawn scream of the fiddle the dance came to an end, and the dancers, laughing, chattering, panting, and fanning themselves, broke into groups and scattered over the enclosure before the house. Jacob was surrounded before he could escape. Becky, with two lively girls in her wake, came up to him and said: &quot;Oh Mr. Flint, why don&apos;t you dance?&quot;</p><p>If he had stopped to consider, he would no doubt have replied very differently. But a hundred questions, stirred by what he had seen, were clamoring for light, and they threw the desperate impulse to his lips.</p><p>&quot;If I COULD dance, would you dance with me?&quot;</p><p>The two lively girls heard the words, and looked at Becky with roguish faces.</p><p>&quot;Oh yes, take him for your next partner!&quot; cried one.</p><p>&quot;I will,&quot; said Becky, &quot;after he comes back from his journey.&quot;</p><p>Then all three laughed. Jacob leaned against the tree, his eyes fixed on the ground.</p><p>&quot;Is it a bargain?&quot; asked one of the girls.</p><p>&quot;No,&quot; said he, and walked rapidly away.</p><p>He went to the house, and, finding that Robert had arrived, took his hat, and left by the rear door. There was a grassy alley between the orchard and garden, from which it was divided by a high hawthorn hedge. He had scarcely taken three paces on his way to the meadow, when the sound of the voice he had last heard, on the other side of the hedge, arrested his feet.</p><p>&quot;Becky, I think you rather hurt Jake Flint,&quot; said the girl.</p><p>&quot;Hardly,&quot; answered Becky; &quot;he&apos;s used to that.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not if he likes you; and you might go further and fare worse.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, I MUST say!&quot; Becky exclaimed, with a laugh; &quot;you&apos;d like to see me stuck in that hollow, out of your way!&quot;</p><p>&quot;It&apos;s a good farm, I&apos;ve heard,&quot; said the other.</p><p>&quot;Yes, and covered with as much as it&apos;ll bear!&quot;</p><p>Here the girls were called away to the dance. Jacob slowly walked up the dewy meadow, the sounds of fiddling, singing, and laughter growing fainter behind him.</p><p>&quot;My journey!&quot; he repeated to himself,--&quot; my journey! why shouldn&apos;t I start on it now? Start off, and never come back?&quot;</p><p>It was a very little thing, after all, which annoyed him, but the mention of it always touched a sore nerve of his nature. A dozen years before, when a boy at school, he had made a temporary friendship with another boy of his age, and had one day said to the latter, in the warmth of his first generous confidence: &quot;When I am a little older, I shall make a great journey, and come back rich, and buy Whitney&apos;s place!&quot;</p><p>Now, Whitney&apos;s place, with its stately old brick mansion, its avenue of silver firs, and its two hundred acres of clean, warm- lying land, was the finest, the most aristocratic property in all the neighborhood, and the boy-friend could not resist the temptation of repeating Jacob&apos;s grand design, for the endless amusement of the school. The betrayal hurt Jacob more keenly than the ridicule. It left a wound that never ceased to rankle; yet, with the inconceivable perversity of unthinking natures, precisely this joke (as the people supposed it to be) had been perpetuated, until &quot;Jake Flint&apos;s Journey&quot; was a synonyme for any absurd or extravagant expectation. Perhaps no one imagined how much pain he was keeping alive; for almost any other man than Jacob would have joined in the laugh against himself and thus good-naturedly buried the joke in time. &quot;He&apos;s used to that,&quot; the people said, like Becky Morton, and they really supposed there was nothing unkind in the remark!</p><p>After Jacob had passed the thickets and entered the lonely hollow in which his father&apos;s house lay, his pace became slower and slower.</p><p>He looked at the shabby old building, just touched by the moonlight behind the swaying shadows of the weeping-willow, stopped, looked again, and finally seated himself on a stump beside the path.</p><p>&quot;If I knew what to do!&quot; he said to himself, rocking backwards and forwards, with his hands clasped over his knees,--&quot;if I knew what to do!&quot;</p><p>The spiritual tension of the evening reached its climax: he could bear no more. With a strong bodily shudder his tears burst forth, and the passion of his weeping filled him from head to foot. How long he wept he knew not; it seemed as if the hot fountains would never run dry. Suddenly and startlingly a hand fell upon his shoulder.</p><p>&quot;Boy, what does this mean?&quot;</p><p>It was his father who stood before him.</p><p>Jacob looked up like some shy animal brought to bay, his eyes full of a feeling mixed of fierceness and terror; but he said nothing.</p><p>His father seated himself on one of the roots of the old stump, laid one hand upon Jacob&apos;s knee, and said with an unusual gentleness of manner, &quot;I&apos;d like to know what it is that troubles you so much.&quot;</p><p>After a pause, Jacob suddenly burst forth with: &quot;Is there any reason why I should tell you? Do you care any more for me than the rest of &apos;em?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I didn&apos;t know as you wanted me to care for you particularly,&quot; said the father, almost deprecatingly. &quot;I always thought you had friends of your own age.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Friends? Devils!&quot; exclaimed Jacob. &quot;Oh, what have I done--what is there so dreadful about me that I should always be laughed at, and despised, and trampled upon? You are a great deal older than I am, father: what do you see in me? Tell me what it is, and how to get over it!&quot;</p><p>The eyes of the two men met. Jacob saw his father&apos;s face grow pale in the moonlight, while he pressed his hand involuntarily upon his heart, as if struggling with some physical pain. At last he spoke, but his words were strange and incoherent.</p><p>&quot;I couldn&apos;t sleep,&quot; he said; &quot;I got up again and came out o&apos; doors.</p><p>The white ox had broken down the fence at the corner, and would soon have been in the cornfield. I thought it was that, maybe, but still your--your mother would come into my head. I was coming down the edge of the wood when I saw you, and I don&apos;t know why it was that you seemed so different, all at once--&quot;</p><p>Here he paused, and was silent for a minute. Then he said, in a grave, commanding tone: &quot;Just let me know the whole story. I have that much right yet.&quot;</p><p>Jacob related the history of the evening, somewhat awkwardly and confusedly, it is true; but his father&apos;s brief, pointed questions kept him to the narrative, and forced him to explain the full significance of the expressions he repeated. At the mention of &quot;Whitney&apos;s place,&quot; a singular expression of malice touched the old man&apos;s face.</p><p>&quot;Do you love Becky Morton?&quot; he asked bluntly, when all had been told.</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t know,&quot; Jacob stammered; &quot;I think not; because when I seem to like her most, I feel afraid of her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It&apos;s lucky that you&apos;re not sure of it!&quot; exclaimed the old man with energy; &quot;because you should never have her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;No,&quot; said Jacob, with a mournful acquiescence, &quot;I can never have her, or any other one.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But you shall--and will I when I help you. It&apos;s true I&apos;ve not seemed to care much about you, and I suppose you&apos;re free to think as you like; but this I say: I&apos;ll not stand by and see you spit upon! `Covered with as much as it&apos;ll bear!&apos; THAT&apos;S a piece o&apos; luck anyhow. If we&apos;re poor, your wife must take your poverty with you, or she don&apos;t come into MY doors. But first of all you must make your journey!&quot;</p><p>&quot;My journey!&quot; repeated Jacob.</p><p>&quot;Weren&apos;t you thinking of it this night, before you took your seat on that stump? A little more, and you&apos;d have gone clean off, I reckon.&quot;</p><p>Jacob was silent, and hung his head.</p><p>&quot;Never mind! I&apos;ve no right to think hard of it. In a week we&apos;ll have finished our haying, and then it&apos;s a fortnight to wheat; but, for that matter, Harry and I can manage the wheat by ourselves. You may take a month, two months, if any thing comes of it. Under a month I don&apos;t mean that you shall come back. I&apos;ll give you twenty dollars for a start; if you want more you must earn it on the road, any way you please. And, mark you, Jacob! since you ARE poor, don&apos;t let anybody suppose you are rich. For my part, I shall not expect you to buy Whitney&apos;s place; all I ask is that you&apos;ll tell me, fair and square, just what things and what people you&apos;ve got acquainted with. Get to bed now--the matter&apos;s settled; I will have it so.&quot;</p><p>They rose and walked across the meadow to the house. Jacob had quite forgotten the events of the evening in the new prospect suddenly opened to him, which filled him with a wonderful confusion of fear and desire. His father said nothing more. They entered the lonely house together at midnight, and went to their beds; but Jacob slept very little.</p><p>Six days afterwards he left home, on a sparkling June morning, with a small bundle tied in a yellow silk handkerchief under his arm. His father had furnished him with the promised money, but had positively refused to tell him what road he should take, or what plan of action he should adopt. The only stipulation was that his absence from home should not be less than a month.</p><p>After he had passed the wood and reached the highway which followed the course of the brook, he paused to consider which course to take. Southward the road led past Pardon&apos;s, and he longed to see his only friends once more before encountering untried hazards; but the village was beyond, and he had no courage to walk through its one long street with a bundle, denoting a journey, under his arm. Northward he would have to pass the mill and blacksmith&apos;s shop at the cross-roads. Then he remembered that he might easily wade the stream at a point where it was shallow, and keep in the shelter of the woods on the opposite hill until he struck the road farther on, and in that direction two or three miles would take him into a neighborhood where he was not known.</p><p>Once in the woods, an exquisite sense of freedom came upon him. There was nothing mocking in the soft, graceful stir of the expanded foliage, in the twittering of the unfrightened birds, or the scampering of the squirrels, over the rustling carpet of dead leaves. He lay down upon the moss under a spreading beech- tree and tried to think; but the thoughts would not come. He could not even clearly recall the keen troubles and mortifications he had endured: all things were so peaceful and beautiful that a portion of their peace and beauty fell upon men and invested them with a more kindly character.</p><p>Towards noon Jacob found himself beyond the limited geography of his life. The first man he encountered was a stranger, who greeted him with a hearty and respectful &quot;How do you do, sir?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Perhaps,&quot; thought Jacob, &quot;I am not so very different from other people, if I only thought so myself.&quot;</p><p>At noon, he stopped at a farm-house by the roadside to get a drink of water. A pleasant woman, who came from the door at that moment with a pitcher, allowed him to lower the bucket and haul it up dripping with precious coolness. She looked upon him with good- will, for he had allowed her to see his eyes, and something in their honest, appealing expression went to her heart.</p><p>&quot;We&apos;re going to have dinner in five minutes,&quot; said she; &quot;won&apos;t you stay and have something?&quot;</p><p>Jacob stayed and brake bread with the plain, hospitable family. Their kindly attention to him during the meal gave him the lacking nerve; for a moment he resolved to offer his services to the farmer, but he presently saw that they were not really needed, and, besides, the place was still too near home.</p><p>Towards night he reached an old country tavern, lording it over an incipient village of six houses. The landlord and hostler were inspecting a drooping-looking horse in front of the stables. Now, if there was any thing which Jacob understood, to the extent of his limited experience, it was horse nature. He drew near, listened to the views of the two men, examined the animal with his eyes, and was ready to answer, &quot;Yes, I guess so,&quot; when the landlord said, &quot;Perhaps, sir, you can tell what is the matter with him.&quot;</p><p>His prompt detection of the ailment, and prescription of a remedy which in an hour showed its good effects, installed him in the landlord&apos;s best graces. The latter said, &quot;Well, it shall cost you nothing to-night,&quot; as he led the way to the supper-room. When Jacob went to bed he was surprised on reflecting that he had not only been talking for a full hour in the bar-room, but had been looking people in the face.</p><p>Resisting an offer of good wages if he would stay and help look after the stables, he set forward the next morning with a new and most delightful confidence in himself. The knowledge that now nobody knew him as &quot;Jake Flint&quot; quite removed his tortured self- consciousness. When he met a person who was glum and ungracious of speech, he saw, nevertheless, that he was not its special object. He was sometimes asked questions, to be sure, which a little embarrassed him, but he soon hit upon answers which were sufficiently true without betraying his purpose.</p><p>Wandering sometimes to the right and sometimes to the left, he slowly made his way into the land, until, on the afternoon of the fourth day after leaving home, he found himself in a rougher region--a rocky, hilly tract, with small and not very flourishing farms in the valleys. Here the season appeared to be more backward than in the open country; the hay harvest was not yet over.</p><p>Jacob&apos;s taste for scenery was not particularly cultivated, but something in the loneliness and quiet of the farms reminded him of his own home; and he looked at one house after another, deliberating with himself whether it would not be a good place to spend the remainder of his month of probation. He seemed to be very far from home--about forty miles, in fact,--and was beginning to feel a little tired of wandering.</p><p>Finally the road climbed a low pass of the hills, and dropped into a valley on the opposite side. There was but one house in view--a two-story building of logs and plaster, with a garden and orchard on the hillside in the rear. A large meadow stretched in front, and when the whole of it lay clear before him, as the road issued from a wood, his eye was caught by an unusual harvest picture.</p><p>Directly before him, a woman, whose face was concealed by a huge, flapping sun-bonnet, was seated upon a mowing machine, guiding a span of horses around the great tract of thick grass which was still uncut. A little distance off, a boy and girl were raking the drier swaths together, and a hay-cart, drawn by oxen and driven by a man, was just entering the meadow from the side next the barn.</p><p>Jacob hung his bundle upon a stake, threw his coat and waistcoat over the rail, and, resting his chin on his shirted arms, leaned on the fence, and watched the hay-makers. As the woman came down the nearer side she appeared to notice him, for her head was turned from time to time in his direction. When she had made the round, she stopped the horses at the corner, sprang lightly from her seat and called to the man, who, leaving his team, met her half-way. They were nearly a furlong distant, but Jacob was quite sure that she pointed to him, and that the man looked in the same direction. Presently she set off across the meadow, directly towards him.</p><p>When within a few paces of the fence, she stopped, threw back the flaps of her sun-bonnet, and said, &quot;Good day to you!&quot; Jacob was so amazed to see a bright, fresh, girlish face, that he stared at her with all his eyes, forgetting to drop his head. Indeed, he could not have done so, for his chin was propped upon the top rail of the fence.</p><p>&quot;You are a stranger, I see,&quot; she added.</p><p>&quot;Yes, in these parts,&quot; he replied.</p><p>&quot;Looking for work?&quot;</p><p>He hardly knew what answer to make, so he said, at a venture, &quot;That&apos;s as it happens.&quot; Then he colored a little, for the words seemed foolish to his ears.</p><p>&quot;Time&apos;s precious,&quot; said the girl, &quot;so I&apos;ll tell you at once we want help. Our hay MUST be got in while the fine weather lasts.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I&apos;ll help you!&quot; Jacob exclaimed, taking his arms from the rail, and looking as willing as he felt.</p><p>&quot;I&apos;m so glad! But I must tell you, at first, that we&apos;re not rich, and the hands are asking a great deal now. How much do you expect?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Whatever you please?&quot; said he, climbing the fence.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[Susan Donnelly was a still blooming woman of forty; her dress, of the plainest color, was yet of the richest texture; and her round, gentle, almost timid face looked forth like a girl&apos;s from the shadow of her scoop bonnet. While she was greeting Abraham Bradbury, the two daughters, Sylvia and Alice, who had been standing shyly by themselves on the edge of the group of women, came forward. The latter was a model of the demure Quaker maiden; but Abraham experienced as much surprise as was ...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Susan Donnelly was a still blooming woman of forty; her dress, of the plainest color, was yet of the richest texture; and her round, gentle, almost timid face looked forth like a girl&apos;s from the shadow of her scoop bonnet. While she was greeting Abraham Bradbury, the two daughters, Sylvia and Alice, who had been standing shyly by themselves on the edge of the group of women, came forward. The latter was a model of the demure Quaker maiden; but Abraham experienced as much surprise as was possible to his nature on observing Sylvia&apos;s costume. A light-blue dress, a dark-blue cloak, a hat with ribbons, and hair in curls-- what Friend of good standing ever allowed his daughter thus to array herself in the fashion of the world?</p><p>Henry read the question in Abraham&apos;s face, and preferred not to answer it at that moment. Saying, &quot;Thee must make me acquainted with the rest of our brethren,&quot; he led the way back to the men&apos;s end. When he had been presented to the older members, it was time for them to assemble in meeting.</p><p>The people were again quietly startled when Henry Donnelly deliberately mounted to the third and highest bench facing them, and sat down beside Abraham and Simon. These two retained, possibly with some little inward exertion, the composure of their faces, and the strange Friend became like unto them. His hands were clasped firmly in his lap; his full, decided lips were set together, and his eyes gazed into vacancy from under the broad brim. De Courcy had removed his hat on entering the house, but, meeting his father&apos;s eyes, replaced it suddenly, with a slight blush.</p><p>When Simon Pennock and Ruth Treadwell had spoken the thoughts which had come to them in the stillness, the strange Friend arose. Slowly, with frequent pauses, as if waiting for the guidance of the Spirit, and with that inward voice which falls so naturally into the measure of a chant, he urged upon his hearers the necessity of seeking the Light and walking therein. He did not always employ the customary phrases, but neither did he seem to speak the lower language of logic and reason; while his tones were so full and mellow that they gave, with every slowly modulated sentence, a fresh satisfaction to the ear. Even his broad a&apos;s and the strong roll of his r&apos;s verified the rumor of his foreign birth, did not detract from the authority of his words. The doubts which had preceded him somehow melted away in his presence, and he came forth, after the meeting had been dissolved by the shaking of hands, an accepted tenant of the high seat.</p><p>That evening, the family were alone in their new home. The plain rush-bottomed chairs and sober carpet, in contrast with the dark, solid mahogany table, and the silver branched candle-stick which stood upon it, hinted of former wealth and present loss; and something of the same contrast was reflected in the habits of the inmates. While the father, seated in a stately arm-chair, read aloud to his wife and children, Sylvia&apos;s eyes rested on a guitar- case in the corner, and her fingers absently adjusted themselves to the imaginary frets. De Courcy twisted his neck as if the straight collar of his coat were a bad fit, and Henry, the youngest boy, nodded drowsily from time to time.</p><p>&quot;There, my lads and lasses!&quot; said Henry Donnelly, as he closed the book, &quot;now we&apos;re plain farmers at last,--and the plainer the better, since it must be. There&apos;s only one thing wanting--&quot;</p><p>He paused; and Sylvia, looking up with a bright, arch determination, answered: &quot;It&apos;s too late now, father,--they have seen me as one of the world&apos;s people, as I meant they should. When it is once settled as something not to be helped, it will give us no trouble.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Faith, Sylvia!&quot; exclaimed De Courcy, &quot;I almost wish I had kept you company.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Don&apos;t be impatient, my boy,&quot; said the mother, gently. &quot;Think of the vexations we have had, and what a rest this life will be!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Think, also,&quot; the father added, &quot;that I have the heaviest work to do, and that thou&apos;lt reap the most of what may come of it. Don&apos;t carry the old life to a land where it&apos;s out of place. We must be what we seem to be, every one of us!&quot;</p><p>&quot;So we will!&quot; said Sylvia, rising from her seat,--&quot; I, as well as the rest. It was what I said in the beginning, you--no, THEE knows, father. Somebody must be interpreter when the time comes; somebody must remember while the rest of you are forgetting. Oh, I shall be talked about, and set upon, and called hard names; it won&apos;t be so easy. Stay where you are, De Courcy; that coat will fit sooner than you think.&quot;</p><p>Her brother lifted his shoulders and made a grimace. &quot;I&apos;ve an unlucky name, it seems,&quot; said he. &quot;The old fellow--I mean Friend Simon--pronounced it outlandish. Couldn&apos;t I change it to Ezra or Adonijah?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Boy, boy--&quot;</p><p>&quot;Don&apos;t be alarmed, father. It will soon be as Sylvia says; thee&apos;s right, and mother is right. I&apos;ll let Sylvia keep my memory, and start fresh from here. We must into the field to-morrow, Hal and I. There&apos;s no need of a collar at the plough-tail.&quot;</p><p>They went to rest, and on the morrow not only the boys, but their father were in the field. Shrewd, quick, and strong, they made available what they knew of farming operations, and disguised much of their ignorance, while they learned. Henry Donnelly&apos;s first public appearance had made a strong public impression in his favor, which the voice of the older Friends soon stamped as a settled opinion. His sons did their share, by the amiable, yielding temper they exhibited, in accommodating themselves to the manners and ways of the people. The graces which came from a better education, possibly, more refined associations, gave them an attraction, which was none the less felt because it was not understood, to the simple-minded young men who worked with the hired hands in their fathers&apos; fields. If the Donnelly family had not been accustomed, in former days, to sit at the same table with laborers in shirt-sleeves, and be addressed by the latter in fraternal phrase, no little awkwardnesses or hesitations betrayed the fact. They were anxious to make their naturalization complete, and it soon became so.</p><p>The &quot;strange Friend&quot; was now known in Londongrove by the familiar name of &quot;Henry.&quot; He was a constant attendant at meeting, not only on First-days, but also on Fourth-days, and whenever he spoke his words were listened to with the reverence due to one who was truly led towards the Light. This respect kept at bay the curiosity that might still have lingered in some minds concerning his antecedent life. It was known that he answered Simon Pennock, who had ventured to approach him with a direct question, in these words:</p><p>&quot;Thee knows, Friend Simon, that sometimes a seal is put upon our mouths for a wise purpose. I have learned not to value the outer life except in so far as it is made the manifestation of the inner life, and I only date my own from the time when I was brought to a knowledge of the truth. It is not pleasant to me to look upon what went before; but a season may come when it shall be lawful for me to declare all things--nay, when it shall be put upon me as a duty.</p><p>Thee must suffer me to wait the call.&quot;</p><p>After this there was nothing more to be said. The family was on terms of quiet intimacy with the neighbors; and even Sylvia, in spite of her defiant eyes and worldly ways, became popular among the young men and maidens. She touched her beloved guitar with a skill which seemed marvellous to the latter; and when it was known that her refusal to enter the sect arose from her fondness for the prohibited instrument, she found many apologists among them. She was not set upon, and called hard names, as she had anticipated. It is true that her father, when appealed to by the elders, shook his head and said, &quot;It is a cross to us!&quot;--but he had been known to remain in the room while she sang &quot;Full high in Kilbride,&quot; and the keen light which arose in his eyes was neither that of sorrow nor anger.</p><p>At the end of their first year of residence the farm presented evidences of much more orderly and intelligent management than at first, although the adjoining neighbors were of the opinion that the Donnellys had hardly made their living out of it. Friend Henry, nevertheless, was ready with the advance rent, and his bills were promptly paid. He was close at a bargain, which was considered rather a merit than otherwise,--and almost painfully exact in observing the strict letter of it, when made.</p><p>As time passed by, and the family became a permanent part and parcel of the remote community, wearing its peaceful color and breathing its untroubled atmosphere, nothing occurred to disturb the esteem and respect which its members enjoyed. From time to time the postmaster at the corner delivered to Henry Donnelly a letter from New York, always addressed in the same hand. The first which arrived had an &quot;Esq.&quot; added to the name, but this &quot;compliment&quot; (as the Friends termed it) soon ceased. Perhaps the official may have vaguely wondered whether there was any connection between the occasional absence of Friend Henry--not at Yearly-Meeting time--and these letters. If he had been a visitor at the farm-house he might have noticed variations in the moods of its inmates, which must have arisen from some other cause than the price of stock or the condition of the crops. Outside of the family circle, however, they were serenely reticent.</p><p>In five or six years, when De Courcy had grown to be a hale, handsome man of twenty-four, and as capable of conducting a farm as any to the township born, certain aberrations from the strict line of discipline began to be rumored. He rode a gallant horse, dressed a little more elegantly than his membership prescribed, and his unusually high, straight collar took a knack of falling over. Moreover, he was frequently seen to ride up the Street Road, in the direction of Fagg&apos;s Manor, towards those valleys where the brick Presbyterian church displaces the whitewashed Quaker meeting-house.</p><p>Had Henry Donnelly not occupied so high a seat, and exercised such an acknowledged authority in the sect, he might sooner have received counsel, or proffers of sympathy, as the case might be; but he heard nothing until the rumors of De Courcy&apos;s excursions took a more definite form.</p><p>But one day, Abraham Bradbury, after discussing some Monthly- Meeting matters, suddenly asked: &quot;Is this true that I hear, Henry,--that thy son De Courcy keeps company with one of the Alison girls?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Who says that?&quot; Henry asked, in a sharp voice.</p><p>&quot;Why, it&apos;s the common talk! Surely, thee&apos;s heard of it before?&quot;</p><p>&quot;No!&quot;</p><p>Henry set his lips together in a manner which Abraham understood. Considering that he had fully performed his duty, he said no more.</p><p>That evening, Sylvia, who had been gently thrumming to herself at the window, began singing &quot;Bonnie Peggie Alison.&quot; Her father looked at De Courcy, who caught his glance, then lowered his eyes, and turned to leave the room.</p><p>&quot;Stop, De Courcy,&quot; said the former; &quot;I&apos;ve heard a piece of news about thee to-day, which I want thee to make clear.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Shall I go, father?&quot; asked Sylvia.</p><p>&quot;No; thee may stay to give De Courcy his memory. I think he is beginning to need it. I&apos;ve learned which way he rides on Seventh- day evenings.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Father, I am old enough to choose my way,&quot; said De Courcy.</p><p>&quot;But no such ways NOW, boy! Has thee clean forgotten? This was among the things upon which we agreed, and you all promised to keep watch and guard over yourselves. I had my misgivings then, but for five years I&apos;ve trusted you, and now, when the time of probation is so nearly over--&quot;</p><p>He hesitated, and De Courcy, plucking up courage, spoke again. With a strong effort the young man threw off the yoke of a self-taught restraint, and asserted his true nature. &quot;Has O&apos;Neil written?&quot; he asked.</p><p>&quot;Not yet.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then, father,&quot; he continued, &quot;I prefer the certainty of my present life to the uncertainty of the old. I will not dissolve my connection with the Friends by a shock which might give thee trouble; but I will slowly work away from them. Notice will be taken of my ways; there will be family visitations, warnings, and the usual routine of discipline, so that when I marry Margaret Alison, nobody will be surprised at my being read out of meeting. I shall soon be twenty-five, father, and this thing has gone on about as long as I can bear it. I must decide to be either a man or a milksop.&quot;</p><p>The color rose to Henry Donnelly&apos;s cheeks, and his eyes flashed, but he showed no signs of anger. He moved to De Courcy&apos;s side and laid his hand upon his shoulder.</p><p>&quot;Patience, my boy!&quot; he said. &quot;It&apos;s the old blood, and I might have known it would proclaim itself. Suppose I were to shut my eyes to thy ridings, and thy merry-makings, and thy worldly company. So far I might go; but the girl is no mate for thee. If O&apos;Neil is alive, we are sure to hear from him soon; and in three years, at the utmost, if the Lord favors us, the end will come. How far has it gone with thy courting? Surely, surely, not too far to withdraw, at least under the plea of my prohibition?&quot;</p><p>De Courcy blushed, but firmly met his father&apos;s eyes. &quot;I have spoken to her,&quot; he replied, &quot;and it is not the custom of our family to break plighted faith.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Thou art our cross, not Sylvia. Go thy ways now. I will endeavor to seek for guidance.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Sylvia,&quot; said the father, when De Courcy had left the room, &quot;what is to be the end of this?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Unless we hear from O&apos;Neil, father, I am afraid it cannot be prevented. De Courcy has been changing for a year past; I am only surprised that you did not sooner notice it. What I said in jest has become serious truth; he has already half forgotten. We might have expected, in the beginning, that one of two things would happen: either he would become a plodding Quaker farmer or take to his present courses. Which would be worse, when this life is over,--if that time ever comes?&quot;</p><p>Sylvia sighed, and there was a weariness in her voice which did not escape her father&apos;s ear. He walked up and down the room with a troubled air. She sat down, took the guitar upon her lap, and began to sing the verse, commencing, &quot;Erin, my country, though sad and forsaken,&quot; when--perhaps opportunely--Susan Donnelly entered the room.</p><p>&quot;Eh, lass!&quot; said Henry, slipping his arm around his wife&apos;s waist, &quot;art thou tired yet? Have I been trying thy patience, as I have that of the children? Have there been longings kept from me, little rebellions crushed, battles fought that I supposed were over?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not by me, Henry,&quot; was her cheerful answer. &quot;I have never have been happier than in these quiet ways with thee. I&apos;ve been thinking, what if something has happened, and the letters cease to come? And it has seemed to me--now that the boys are as good farmers as any, and Alice is such a tidy housekeeper--that we could manage very well without help. Only for thy sake, Henry: I fear it would be a terrible disappointment to thee. Or is thee as accustomed to the high seat as I to my place on the women&apos;s side?&quot;</p><p>&quot;No!&quot; he answered emphatically. &quot;The talk with De Courcy has set my quiet Quaker blood in motion. The boy is more than half right; I am sure Sylvia thinks so too. What could I expect? He has no birthright, and didn&apos;t begin his task, as I did, after the bravery of youth was over. It took six generations to establish the serenity and content of our brethren here, and the dress we wear don&apos;t give us the nature. De Courcy is tired of the masquerade, and Sylvia is tired of seeing it. Thou, my little Susan, who wert so timid at first, puttest us all to shame now!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I think I was meant for it,--Alice, and Henry, and I,&quot; said she.</p><p>No outward change in Henry Donnelly&apos;s demeanor betrayed this or any other disturbance at home. There were repeated consultations between the father and son, but they led to no satisfactory conclusion. De Courcy was sincerely attached to the pretty Presbyterian maiden, and found livelier society in her brothers and cousins than among the grave, awkward Quaker youths of Londongrove.</p><p>With the occasional freedom from restraint there awoke in him a desire for independence--a thirst for the suppressed license of youth. His new acquaintances were accustomed to a rigid domestic regime, but of a different character, and they met on a common ground of rebellion. Their aberrations, it is true, were not of a very formidable character, and need not have been guarded but for the severe conventionalities of both sects. An occasional fox- chase, horse-race, or a &quot;stag party&quot; at some outlying tavern, formed the sum of their dissipation; they sang, danced reels, and sometimes ran into little excesses through the stimulating sense of the trespass they were committing.</p><p>By and by reports of certain of these performances were brought to the notice of the Londongrove Friends, and, with the consent of Henry Donnelly himself, De Courcy received a visit of warning and remonstrance. He had foreseen the probability of such a visit and was prepared. He denied none of the charges brought against him, and accepted the grave counsel offered, simply stating that his nature was not yet purified and chastened; he was aware he was not walking in the Light; he believed it to be a troubled season through which he must needs pass. His frankness, as he was shrewd enough to guess, was a scource of perplexity to the elders; it prevented them from excommunicating him without further probation, while it left him free to indulge in further recreations.</p><p>Some months passed away, and the absence from which Henry Donnelly always returned with a good supply of ready money did not take place. The knowledge of farming which his sons had acquired now came into play. It was necessary to exercise both skill and thrift in order to keep up the liberal footing upon which the family had lived; for each member of it was too proud to allow the community to suspect the change in their circumstances. De Courcy, retained more than ever at home, and bound to steady labor, was man enough to subdue his impatient spirit for the time; but he secretly determined that with the first change for the better he would follow the fate he had chosen for himself.</p><p>Late in the fall came the opportunity for which he had longed. One evening he brought home a letter, in the well-known handwriting. His father opened and read it in silence.</p><p>&quot;Well, father?&quot; he said.</p><p>&quot;A former letter was lost, it seems. This should have come in the spring; it is only the missing sum.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Does O&apos;Neil fix any time?&quot;</p><p>&quot;No; but he hopes to make a better report next year.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then, father,&quot; said De Courcy, &quot;it is useless for me to wait longer; I am satisfied as it is. I should not have given up Margaret in any case; but now, since thee can live with Henry&apos;s help, I shall claim her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;MUST it be, De Courcy?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It must.&quot;</p><p>But it was not to be. A day or two afterwards the young man, on his mettled horse, set off up the Street Road, feeling at last that the fortune and the freedom of his life were approaching. He had become, in habits and in feelings, one of the people, and the relinquishment of the hope in which his father still indulged brought him a firmer courage, a more settled content. His sweetheart&apos;s family was in good circumstances; but, had she been poor, he felt confident of his power to make and secure for her a farmer&apos;s home. To the past--whatever it might have been--he said farewell, and went carolling some cheerful ditty, to look upon the face of his future.</p><p>That night a country wagon slowly drove up to Henry Donnelly&apos;s door. The three men who accompanied it hesitated before they knocked, and, when the door was opened, looked at each other with pale, sad faces, before either spoke. No cries followed the few words that were said, but silently, swiftly, a room was made ready, while the men lifted from the straw and carried up stairs an unconscious figure, the arms of which hung down with a horrible significance as they moved. He was not dead, for the heart beat feebly and slowly; but all efforts to restore his consciousness were in vain. There was concussion of the brain the physician said. He had been thrown from his horse, probably alighting upon his head, as there were neither fractures nor external wounds. All that night and next day the tenderest, the most unwearied care was exerted to call back the flickering gleam of life. The shock had been too great; his deadly torpor deepened into death.</p><p>In their time of trial and sorrow the family received the fullest sympathy, the kindliest help, from the whole neighborhood. They had never before so fully appreciated the fraternal character of the society whereof they were members. The plain, plodding people living on the adjoining farms became virtually their relatives and fellow-mourners. All the external offices demanded by the sad occasion were performed for them, and other eyes than their own shed tears of honest grief over De Courcy&apos;s coffin. All came to the funeral, and even Simon Pennock, in the plain yet touching words which he spoke beside the grave, forgot the young man&apos;s wandering from the Light, in the recollection of his frank, generous, truthful nature.</p><p>If the Donnellys had sometimes found the practical equality of life in Londongrove a little repellent they were now gratefully moved by the delicate and refined ways in which the sympathy of the people sought to express itself. The better qualities of human nature always develop a temporary good-breeding. Wherever any of the family went, they saw the reflection of their own sorrow; and a new spirit informed to their eyes the quiet pastoral landscapes.</p><p>In their life at home there was little change. Abraham Bradbury had insisted on sending his favorite grandson, Joel, a youth of twenty-two, to take De Courcy&apos;s place for a few months. He was a shy quiet creature, with large brown eyes like a fawn&apos;s, and young Henry Donnelly and he became friends at once. It was believed that he would inherit the farm at his grandfather&apos;s death; but he was as subservient to Friend Donnelly&apos;s wishes in regard to the farming operations as if the latter held the fee of the property. His coming did not fill the terrible gap which De Courcy&apos;s death had made, but seemed to make it less constantly and painfully evident.</p><p>Susan Donnelly soon remarked a change, which she could neither clearly define nor explain to herself, both in her husband and in their daughter Sylvia. The former, although in public he preserved the same grave, stately face,--its lines, perhaps, a little more deeply marked,--seemed to be devoured by an internal unrest. His dreams were of the old times: words and names long unused came from his lips as he slept by her side. Although he bore his grief with more strength than she had hoped, he grew nervous and excitable,-- sometimes unreasonably petulant, sometimes gay to a pitch which impressed her with pain. When the spring came around, and the mysterious correspondence again failed, as in the previous year, his uneasiness increased. He took his place on the high seat on First-days, as usual, but spoke no more.</p><p>Sylvia, on the other hand, seemed to have wholly lost her proud, impatient character. She went to meeting much more frequently than formerly, busied herself more actively about household matters, and ceased to speak of the uncertain contingency which had been so constantly present in her thoughts. In fact, she and her father had changed places. She was now the one who preached patience, who held before them all the bright side of their lot, who brought Margaret Alison to the house and justified her dead brother&apos;s heart to his father&apos;s, and who repeated to the latter, in his restless moods, &quot;De Courcy foresaw the truth, and we must all in the end decide as he did.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Can THEE do it, Sylvia?&quot; her father would ask.</p><p>&quot;I believe I have done it already,&quot; she said. &quot;If it seems difficult, pray consider how much later I begin my work. I have had all your memories in charge, and now I must not only forget for myself, but for you as well.&quot;</p><p>Indeed, as the spring and summer months came and went, Sylvia evidently grew stronger in her determination. The fret of her idle force was allayed, and her content increased as she saw and performed the possible duties of her life. Perhaps her father might have caught something of her spirit, but for his anxiety in regard to the suspended correspondence. He wearied himself in guesses, which all ended in the simple fact that, to escape embarrassment, the rent must again be saved from the earnings of the farm.</p><p>The harvests that year were bountiful; wheat, barley, and oats stood thick and heavy in the fields. No one showed more careful thrift or more cheerful industry than young Joel Bradbury, and the family felt that much of the fortune of their harvest was owing to him.</p><p>On the first day after the crops had been securely housed, all went to meeting, except Sylvia. In the walled graveyard the sod was already green over De Courcy&apos;s unmarked mound, but Alice had planted a little rose-tree at the head, and she and her mother always visited the spot before taking their seats on the women&apos;s side. The meeting-house was very full that day, as the busy season of the summer was over, and the horses of those who lived at a distance had no longer such need of rest.</p><p>It was a sultry forenoon, and the windows and doors of the building were open. The humming of insects was heard in the silence, and broken lights and shadows of the poplar-leaves were sprinkled upon the steps and sills. Outside there were glimpses of quiet groves and orchards, and blue fragments of sky,--no more semblance of life in the external landscape than there was in the silent meeting within. Some quarter of an hour before the shaking of hands took place, the hoofs of a horse were heard in the meeting-house yard-- the noise of a smart trot on the turf, suddenly arrested.</p><p>The boys pricked up their ears at this unusual sound, and stole glances at each other when they imagined themselves unseen by the awful faces in the gallery. Presently those nearest the door saw a broader shadow fall over those flickering upon the stone. A red face appeared for a moment, and was then drawn back out of sight. The shadow advanced and receded, in a state of peculiar restlessness. Sometimes the end of a riding-whip was visible, sometimes the corner of a coarse gray coat. The boys who noticed these apparitions were burning with impatience, but they dared not leave their seats until Abraham Bradbury had reached his hand to Henry Donnelly.</p><p>Then they rushed out. The mysterious personage was still beside the door, leaning against the wall. He was a short, thick-set man of fifty, with red hair, round gray eyes, a broad pug nose, and projecting mouth. He wore a heavy gray coat, despite the heat, and a waistcoat with many brass buttons; also corduroy breeches and riding boots. When they appeared, he started forward with open mouth and eyes, and stared wildly in their faces. They gathered around the poplar-trunks, and waited with some uneasiness to see what would follow.</p><p>Slowly and gravely, with the half-broken ban of silence still hanging over them, the people issued from the house. The strange man stood, leaning forward, and seemed to devour each, in turn, with his eager eyes. After the young men came the fathers of families, and lastly the old men from the gallery seats. Last of these came Henry Donnelly. In the meantime, all had seen and wondered at the waiting figure; its attitude was too intense and self-forgetting to be misinterpreted. The greetings and remarks were suspended until the people had seen for whom the man waited, and why.</p><p>Henry Donnelly had no sooner set his foot upon the door-step than, with something between a shout and a howl, the stranger darted forward, seized his hand, and fell upon one knee, crying: &quot;O my lord! my lord! Glory be to God that I&apos;ve found ye at last!&quot;</p><p>If these words burst like a bomb on the ears of the people, what was their consternation when Henry Donnelly exclaimed, &quot;The Divel! Jack O&apos;Neil, can that be you?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It&apos;s me, meself, my lord! When we heard the letters went wrong last year, I said `I&apos;ll trust no such good news to their blasted mail-posts: I&apos;ll go meself and carry it to his lordship,--if it is t&apos;other side o&apos; the say. Him and my lady and all the children went, and sure I can go too. And as I was the one that went with you from Dunleigh Castle, I&apos;ll go back with you to that same, for it stands awaitin&apos;, and blessed be the day that sees you back in your ould place!&quot;</p><p>&quot;All clear, Jack? All mine again?&quot;</p><p>&quot;You may believe it, my lord! And money in the chest beside. But where&apos;s my lady, bless her sweet face! Among yon women, belike, and you&apos;ll help me to find her, for it&apos;s herself must have the news next, and then the young master--&quot;</p><p>With that word Henry Donnelly awoke to a sense of time and place. He found himself within a ring of staring, wondering, scandalized eyes. He met them boldly, with a proud, though rather grim smile, took hold of O&apos;Neil&apos;s arm and led him towards the women&apos;s end of the house, where the sight of Susan in her scoop bonnet so moved the servant&apos;s heart that he melted into tears. Both husband and wife were eager to get home and hear O&apos;Neil&apos;s news in private; so they set out at once in their plain carriage, followed by the latter on horseback. As for the Friends, they went home in a state of bewilderment.</p><p>Alice Donnelly, with her brother Henry and Joel Bradbury, returned on foot. The two former remembered O&apos;Neil, and, although they had not witnessed his first interview with their father, they knew enough of the family history to surmise his errand. Joel was silent and troubled.</p><p>&quot;Alice, I hope it doesn&apos;t mean that we are going back, don&apos;t you?&quot; said Henry.</p><p>&quot;Yes,&quot; she answered, and said no more.</p><p>They took a foot-path across the fields, and reached the farm-house at the same time with the first party. As they opened the door Sylvia descended the staircase dressed in a rich shimmering brocade, with a necklace of amethysts around her throat. To their eyes, so long accustomed to the absence of positive color, she was completely dazzling. There was a new color on her cheeks, and her eyes seemed larger and brighter. She made a stately courtesy, and held open the parlor door.</p><p>&quot;Welcome, Lord Henry Dunleigh, of Dunleigh Castle!&quot; she cried; &quot;welcome, Lady Dunleigh!&quot;</p><p>Her father kissed her on the forehead. &quot;Now give us back our memories, Sylvia!&quot; he said, exultingly.</p><p>Susan Donnelly sank into a chair, overcome by the mixed emotions of the moment.</p><p>&quot;Come in, my faithful Jack! Unpack thy portmanteau of news, for I see thou art bursting to show it; let us have every thing from the beginning. Wife, it&apos;s a little too much for thee, coming so unexpectedly. Set out the wine, Alice!&quot;</p><p>The decanter was placed upon the table. O&apos;Neil filled a tumbler to the brim, lifted it high, made two or three hoarse efforts to speak, and then walked away to the window, where he drank in silence. This little incident touched the family more than the announcement of their good fortune. Henry Donnelly&apos;s feverish exultation subsided: he sat down with a grave, thoughtful face, while his wife wept quietly beside him. Sylvia stood waiting with an abstracted air; Alice removed her mother&apos;s bonnet and shawl; and Henry and Joel, seated together at the farther end of the room, looked on in silent anticipation.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[he could ask about money. Indeed, I had no secret from him on any subject. But when he subjected me to cross-examination, forcing me into a bathos of poverty, as he thought, I broke down. "Not five hundred a year!" "Not four!!" "Not three!!!" "Oh, heavens! and you propose to take a wife!" You will understand how I writhed and wriggled under the scorn. And then there came something worse than this -- or rather, if I remember rightly, the worst thing came first. You were over in my studio, and ...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>he could ask about money. Indeed, I had no secret from him on any subject. But when he subjected me to cross-examination, forcing me into a bathos of poverty, as he thought, I broke down. &quot;Not five hundred a year!&quot; &quot;Not four!!&quot; &quot;Not three!!!&quot; &quot;Oh, heavens! and you propose to take a wife!&quot; You will understand how I writhed and wriggled under the scorn.</p><p>And then there came something worse than this -- or rather, if I remember rightly, the worst thing came first. You were over in my studio, and will remember, perhaps, some of my own abortive treasures, those melancholy but soul-inspiring creations of which I have thought so much, and others have thought so little? That no one else should value them is natural, but to me it seems unnatural, almost cruel, that anyone should tell me to my face that they were valueless. Your uncle, of course, had never seen them, but he knew that sculptors are generally burdened with these &apos;wares,&apos; as he called them; and he suggested that I should sell them by auction for what they might fetch -- in order that the corners which they occupy might be vacant. He thought that, perhaps, they might do for country gentlemen to stick about among their shrubs. You, knowing my foolish soreness on the subject, will understand how well I must have been prepared by this to endure your uncle&apos;s cross-examination.</p><p>Then he asked me as to my ideas -- not art ideas, but ideas as to bread and cheese for the future. I told him as exactly as I could. I explained to him that if you were left in possession of a comfortable home, such as would have been that of your father, I should think it best for your sake to delay our marriage till I should be prepared to do something better for you than I can at present; but that I hold myself ready to give you all that I have to give at a moment&apos;s notice, should you be required to leave his house. And, Lucy, speaking in your name, I said something further, and declared my belief that you, for my sake, would bear the inconveniences of so poor a home without complaining. Then there arose anger both on his side and on mine; and I must say, insult on his. He told me that I had no business to suggest that you would be expelled from his house. I replied that the threat had come, if not from him, then from Lady Tringle. Upon this he accused me of positive falsehood, asserting that your aunt had said nothing of the kind. I then referred him to Lady Tringle herself, but refused to stay any longer in the room with him, because he had insulted me.</p><p>So you will see that I did less than nothing by my embassy. I told myself that it would be so as I descended into the underground cavern at the Gloucester Road Station. You are not to suppose that I blame him more, or, indeed, so much as I do myself. It was not to be expected that he should behave as a gentleman of fine feeling. But, perhaps, it ought to have been expected that I should behave like a man of common sense. I ought to have taken his advice about the auction, apparently, in good part. I ought not to have writhed when he scorned my poor earnings. When he asked as to my ideas, I should not have alluded to your aunt&apos;s threat as to turning you out. I should have been placid and humble; and then his want of generous feeling would have mattered nothing. But spilt milk and broken eggs are past saving. Whatever good things may have come from your uncle&apos;s generosity had I brushed his hair for him aright, are now clean gone, seeing that I scrubbed him altogether the wrong way.</p><p>For myself, I do not know that I should regret it very much. I have an idea that no money should be sweet to a man except that which he earns. And I have enough belief in myself to be confident that sooner or later I shall earn a sufficiency. But, dearest, I own that I feel disgusted with myself when I think that I have diminished your present comfort, or perhaps lessened for the future resources which would have been yours rather than mine. But the milk has been spilt, and now we must only think what we can best do without it. It seems to me that only two homes are possible for you -- one with Sir Thomas as his niece, and the other with me as my wife. I am conceited enough to think that you will prefer the latter even with many inconveniences. Neither can your uncle or your aunt prevent you from marrying at a very early day, should you choose to do so. There would be some preliminary ceremony, of the nature of which I am thoroughly ignorant, but which could, I suppose, be achieved in a month. I would advise you to ask your aunt boldly whether she wishes you to go or to stay with her, explaining, of course, that you intend to hold to your engagement, and explaining at the same time that you are quite ready to be married at once if she is anxious to be quit of you. That is my advice.</p><p>And now, dear, one word of something softer! For did any lover ever write to the lady of his heart so long a letter so abominably stuffed with matters of business? How shall I best tell you how dearly I love you? Perhaps I may do it by showing you that as far as I myself am concerned I long to hear that your Aunt Emmeline and your Uncle Tom are more hardhearted and obdurate than were ever uncle and aunt before them. I long to hear that you have been turned out into the cold, because I know that then you must come to me, though it be even less than three hundred a year. I wish you could have seen your uncle&apos;s face as those terribly mean figures reached his ears. I do not for a moment fear that we should want. Orders come slow enough, but they come a little quicker than they did. I have never for a moment doubted my own ultimate success, and if you were with me I should be more confident than ever. Nevertheless, should your aunt bid you to stay, and should you think it right to comply with her desire, I will not complain.</p><p>Adieu! This comes from one who is altogether happy in his confidence that at any rate before long you will have become his wife.</p><p>ISADORE HAMEL</p><p>&quot;I quite expect to be scolded for my awkwardness. Indeed I shall be disappointed if I am not.&quot;</p><p>The same post which brought Hamel&apos;s long letter to Lucy brought also a short but very angry scrawl from Sir Thomas to his wife. No eyes but those of Lady Tringle saw this epistle, and no other eyes shall see it. But the few words which it contained were full of marital wrath. Why had she threatened to turn her own niece out of his doors? Why had she subjected him to the necessity of defending her by a false assertion? Those Dormer nieces of hers were giving him an amount of trouble and annoyance which he certainly had not deserved. Lucy, though not a word was said to her of this angry letter, was conscious that something had been added to her aunt&apos;s acerbity. Indeed for the last day or two her aunt&apos;s acerbity towards her had been much diminished. Lady Tringle had known that her husband intended to do something by which the Hamel marriage would be rendered possible; and she, though she altogether disapproved of the Hamel marriage, would be obliged to accede to it if Sir Thomas acceded to it and encouraged it by his money. Let them be married, and then, as far as the Tringles were concerned, let there be an end of these Dormer troubles for ever. To that idea Lady Tringle had reconciled herself as soon as Sir Thomas had declared his purpose, but now -- as she declared to herself -- &quot;all the fat was again in the fire&quot;. She received Lucy&apos;s salutations on that morning with a very bad grace.</p><p>But she had been desired to give no message, and therefore she was silent on the subject to Lucy. To the Honourable Mrs Traffick she said a few words. &quot;After all Ayala was not half as bad as Lucy,&quot; said Lady Tringle.</p><p>&quot;There, mamma, I think you are wrong,&quot; said the Honourable Mrs Traffick. &quot;Of all the upsetting things I ever knew Ayala was the worst. Think of her conduct with Septimus.&quot; Lady Tringle made a little grimace, which, however, her daughter did not see. &quot;And then with that Marchesa!&quot;</p><p>&quot;That was the Marchesa&apos;s fault.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And with Tom!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t think she was so much to blame with Tom. If she were, why doesn&apos;t she take him now she can have him? He is just as foolish about her as ever. Upon my word I think Tom will make himself ill about it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You haven&apos;t heard it all, mamma.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What haven&apos;t I heard?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ayala has been down with the Alburys at Stalham.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I did hear that.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And another man has turned up. What on earth they see in her is what I can&apos;t understand.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Another man has offered to her! Who is he?&quot;</p><p>&quot;There was a Colonel Stubbs down there. Septimus heard it all from young Batsby at the club. She got this man to ride about the country with her everywhere, going to the meets with him and coming home. And in this way she got him to propose to her. I don&apos;t suppose he means anything; but that is why she won&apos;t have anything to do with Tom now. Do you mean to say she didn&apos;t do all she could to catch Tom down at Glenbogie, and then at Rome? Everybody saw it. I don&apos;t think Lucy has ever been so bad as that.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It&apos;s quite different, my dear.&quot;</p><p>&quot;She has come from a low father,&quot; said the Honourable Mrs Traffick, proudly, &quot;and therefore she has naturally attached herself to a low young man. There is nothing to be wondered at in that. I suppose they are fond of each other, and the sooner they are married the better.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But he can&apos;t marry her because he has got nothing.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Papa will do something.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s just what your papa won&apos;t. The man has been to your father in the City and there has been ever such a row. He spoke ill of me because I endeavoured to do my duty by the ungrateful girl. I am sure I have got a lesson as to taking up other people&apos;s children. I endeavoured to do an act of charity, and see what has come of it. I don&apos;t believe in charity.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That is wicked, mamma. Faith, Hope, and Charity! But you&apos;ve got to be charitable before you begin the others.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t think it is wicked. People would do best if they were made to go along on what they&apos;ve got of their own.&quot; This seemed to Augusta to be a direct blow at Septimus and herself. &quot;Of course I know what you mean, mamma.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I didn&apos;t mean anything.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But, if people can&apos;t stay for a few weeks in their own parents&apos; houses, I don&apos;t know where they are to stay.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It isn&apos;t weeks, Augusta; it&apos;s months. And as to parents, Lord Boardotrade is Mr Traffick&apos;s parent. Why doesn&apos;t he go and stay with Lord Boardotrade?&quot; Then Augusta got up and marched with stately step out of the room. After this it was not possible that Lucy would find much immediate grace in her aunt&apos;s eyes. From the moment that Lucy had received her letter there came upon her the great burden of answering it. She was very anxious to do exactly as Hamel had counselled her. She was quite alive to the fact that Hamel had been imprudent in Lombard Street; but not the less was she desirous to do as he bade her -- thinking it right that a woman should obey someone, and that her obedience could be due only to him. But in order to obey him she must consult her aunt. &quot;Aunt Emmeline,&quot; she said that afternoon, &quot;I want to ask you something.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What is it now?&quot; said Aunt Emmeline, crossly.</p><p>&quot;About Mr Hamel.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t want to hear any more about Mr Hamel. I have heard quite enough of Mr Hamel.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Of course I am engaged to him, Aunt Emmeline.&quot;</p><p>&quot;So I hear you say. I do not think it very dutiful of you to come and talk to me about him, knowing as you do what I think about him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What I want to ask is this. Ought I to stay here or ought I to go away?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I never heard such a girl! Where are you to go to? What makes you ask the question?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Because you said that I ought to go if I did not give him up.&quot; &quot;You ought to give him up.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I cannot do that, aunt.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then you had better hold your tongue and say nothing further about it. I don&apos;t believe he earns enough to give you bread to eat and decent clothes to wear. What would you do if children were to come year after year? If you really love him I wonder how you can think of being such a millstone round a man&apos;s neck!&quot; This was very hard to bear. It was so different from the delicious comfort of his letter. &quot;I do not for a moment believe that we should want.&quot; &quot;I have never for one moment doubted my own ultimate success.&quot; But after all was there not more of truth in her aunt&apos;s words, hard and cruel as they were? And on these words, such as they were, she must found her answer to her lover; for he had bade her ask her aunt what she was to do as to staying or preparing herself for an immediate marriage. Then, before the afternoon was over, she wrote to Hamel as follows:</p><p>DEAR ISADORE,</p><p>I have got ever so much to say, but I shall begin by doing as you told me in your postscript. I won&apos;t quite scold you, but I do think you might have been a little gentler with poor Uncle Tom. I do not say this because I at all regret anything which perhaps he might have done for us. If you do not want assistance from him certainly I do not. But I do think that he meant to be kind; and, though he may not be quite what you call a gentleman of fine feeling, yet he has taken me into his house when I had no other to go to, and in many respects has been generous to me. When he said that you were to go to him in Lombard Street, I am sure that he meant to be generous. And, though it has not ended well, yet he meant to be kind to both of us.</p><p>There is what you will call my scolding; though, indeed, dearest, I do not intend to scold at all. Nor am I in the least disappointed except in regard to you. This morning I have been to Aunt Emmeline, as you desired, and I must say that she was very cross. Of course I know that it is because she is my own aunt that Uncle Tom has me here at all; and I feel that I ought to be very grateful to her. But, in spite of all that you say, laughing at Uncle Tom because he wants you to sell your grand work by auction, he is much more good-natured than Aunt Emmeline. I am quite sure my aunt never liked me, and that she will not be comfortable till I am gone. But when I asked her whether I ought to stay, or to go, she told me to hold my tongue, and say nothing further about it. Of course, by this, she meant that I was to remain, at any rate for the present.</p><p>My own dearest, I do think this will be best, though I need not tell you how I look forward to leaving this, and being always with you. For myself I am not a bit afraid, though Aunt Emmeline said dreadful things about food and clothes, and all the rest of it. But I believe much more in what you say, that success will be sure to come. But still will it not be wise to wait a little longer? Whatever I may have to bear here, I shall think that I am bearing it for your dear sake; and then I shall be happy.</p><p>Believe me to be always and always your own</p><p>LUCY</p><p>This was written and sent on a Wednesday, and nothing further was said either by Lucy herself, or by her aunt, as to the lover, till Sir Thomas came down to Merle Park on the Saturday evening. On his arrival he seemed inclined to be gracious to the whole household, even including Mr Traffick, who received any attention of that kind exactly as though the most amicable arrangements were always existing between him and his father-in-law. Aunt Emmeline, when it seemed that she was to encounter no further anger on account of the revelation which Hamel had made in Lombard Street, also recovered her temper, and the evening was spent as though there were no causes for serious family discord. In this spirit, on the following morning, they all went to church, and it was delightful to hear the flattering words with which Mr Traffick praised Merle Park, and everything belonging to it, during the hour of lunch. He went so far as to make some delicately laudatory hints in praise of hospitality in general, and especially as to that so nobly exercised by London merchant princes. Sir Thomas smiled as he heard him, and, as he smiled, he resolved that, as soon as the Christmas festivities should be over, the Honourable Septimus Traffick should certainly be turned out of that house.</p><p>After lunch there came a message to Lucy by a page-boy, who was supposed to attend generally to the personal wants of Aunt Emmeline, saying that her uncle would be glad of her attendance for a walk. &quot;My dear,&quot; said he, &quot;have you got your thick boots on? Then go and put &apos;em on. We will go down to the Lodge, and then come home round by Windover Hill.&quot; She did as she was bade, and then they started. &quot;I want to tell you&quot;, said he, &quot;that this Mr Hamel of yours came to me in Lombard Street.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I know that, Uncle Tom.&quot;</p><p>&quot;He has written to you, then, and told you all about it?&quot;</p><p>&quot;He has written to me, certainly, and I have answered him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;No doubt. Well, Lucy, I had intended to be kind to your Mr Hamel, but, as you are probably aware, I was not enabled to carry out my intentions. He seems to be a very independent sort of young man.&quot;</p><p>&quot;He is independent, I think.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I have not a word to say against it. If a man can be independent it is so much the better. If a man can do everything for himself, so as to require neither to beg nor to borrow, it will be much better for him. But, my dear, you must understand that a man cannot be independent with one hand, and accept assistance with the other, at one and the same time.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That is not his character, I am sure,&quot; said Lucy, striving to hide her indignation while she defended her lover&apos;s character. &quot;I do not think it is. Therefore he must remain independent, and I can do nothing for him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;He knows that, Uncle Tom.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Very well. Then there&apos;s an end of it. I only want to make you understand that I was willing to assist him, but that he was unwilling to be assisted. I like him all the better for it, but there must be an end of it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I quite understand, Uncle Tom.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then there&apos;s one other thing I&apos;ve got to say. He accused me of having threatened to turn you out of my house. Now, my dear -- &quot; Hereupon Lucy struggled to say a word, hardly knowing what word she ought to say, but he interrupted her -- &quot;Just hear me out till I&apos;ve done, and then there need not be another word about it. I never threatened to turn you out.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not you, Uncle Tom,&quot; she said, endeavouring to press his arm with her hand.</p><p>&quot;If your aunt said a word in her anger you should not have made enough of it to write and tell him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I thought she meant me to go, and then I didn&apos;t know whom else to ask.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Neither I nor she, nor anybody else, ever intended bo turn you out. I have meant to be kind to you both -- to you and Ayala; and if things have gone wrong I cannot say that it has been my fault. Now, you had better stay here, and not say a word more about it till he is ready to take you. That can&apos;t be yet for a long time. He is making, at present, not more than two hundred a year. And I am sure it must be quite as much as he can do to keep a coat on his back with such an income as that. You must make up your mind to wait -- probably for some years. As I told you before, if a man chooses to have the glory of independence he must also bear the inconvenience. Now, my dear, let there be an end of this, and never say again that I want to turn you out of my house.&quot;</p><p>CHAPTER 35 TOM TRINGLE SENDS A CHALLENGE</p><p>The next six weeks went on tranquilly at Merle Park without a word spoken about Hamel. Sir Thomas, who was in the country as little as possible, showed his scorn to his son-in-law simply by the paucity of his words, speaking to him, when he did speak to him, with a deliberate courtesy which Mr Traffick perfectly understood. It was that dangerous serenity which so often presages a storm. &quot;There is something going to be up with your father,&quot; he said to Augusta. Augusta replied that she had never seen her father so civil before. &quot;It would be a great convenience&quot;, continued the Member of Parliament, &quot;if he could be made to hold his tongue till Parliament meets; but I&apos;m afraid that&apos;s too good to expect.&quot; In other respects things were comfortable at Merle Park, though they were not always comfortable up in London. Tom, as the reader knows, was misbehaving himself sadly at the Mountaineers. This was the period of unlimited champagne, and of almost total absence from Lombard Street. It was seldom that Sir Thomas could get hold of his son, and when he did that broken-hearted youth would reply to his expostulations simply by asserting that if his father would induce Ayala to marry him everything should go straight in Lombard Street. Then came the final blow. Tom was of course expected at Merle Park on Christmas Eve, but did not make his appearance either then or on Christmas Day. Christmas fell on a Wednesday, and it was intended that the family should remain in the country till the following Monday. On the Thursday Sir Thomas went up to town to make inquiries respecting his heir, as to whom Lady Tringle had then become absolutely unhappy. In London he heard the disastrous truth. Tom, in his sportive mood, had caused serious inconvenience to a most respectable policeman, and was destined to remain another week in the hands of the Philistines. Then, for a time, all the other Tringle troubles were buried and forgotten in this great trouble respecting Tom. Lady Tringle was unable to leave her room during the period of incarceration. Mr Traffick promised to have the victim liberated by the direct interference of the Secretary of State, but failed to get anything of the kind accomplished. The girls were completely cowed by the enormity of the misfortune; so that Tom&apos;s name was hardly mentioned except in sad and confidential whispers. But of all the sufferers Sir Thomas suffered the most. To him it was a positive disgrace, weighing down every moment of his life. At Travers and Treason he could not hold up his head boldly and open his mouth loudly as had always been his wont. At Travers and Treason there was not a clerk who did not know that &quot;the governor&quot; was an altered man since this misfortune had happened to the hope of the firm. What passed between Sir Thomas and his son on the occasion has already been told in a previous chapter. That Sir Thomas, on the whole, behaved with indulgence must be acknowledged; but he felt that his son must in truth absent himself from Lombard Street for a time.</p><p>Tom had been advised by his father to go forth and see the world. A prolonged tour had been proposed to him which to most young men might seem to have great attraction. To him it would have had attraction enough, had it not been for Ayala. There would have been hardly any limit to the allowance made to him, and he would have gone forth armed with introductions, which would have made every port a happy home to him. But as soon as the tour was suggested he resolved at once that he could not move himself to a distance from Ayala. What he expected -- what he even hoped -- he could not tell himself. But while Ayala was in London, and Ayala was unmarried, he could not be made to take himself far away.</p><p>He was thoroughly ashamed of himself. He was not at all the man who could bear a week of imprisonment and not think himself disgraced. For a day or two he shut himself up altogether in his lodgings, and never once showed himself at the Mountaineers. Faddle came to him, but he snubbed Faddle at first, remembering all the severe things his father had said about the Faddles in general. But he soon allowed that feeling to die away when the choice seemed to be between Faddle and solitude. Then he crept out in the dark and ate his dinners with Faddle at some tavern, generally paying the bill for both of them. After dinner he would play half a dozen games of billiards with his friend at some unknown billiard-room, and then creep home to his lodgings -- a blighted human being! At last, about the end of the first week in January, he was induced to go down to Merle Park. There Mr and Mrs Traffick were still sojourning, the real grief which had afflicted Sir Thomas having caused him to postpone his intention in regard to his son-in-law. At Merle Park Tom was cosseted and spoilt by the women very injudiciously. It was not perhaps the fact that they regarded him as a hero simply because he had punched a policeman in the stomach and then been locked up in vindication of the injured laws of his country; but that incident in combination with his unhappy love did seem to make him heroic. Even Lucy regarded him with favour because of his constancy to her sister; whereas the other ladies measured their admiration for his persistency by the warmth of their anger against the silly girl who was causing so much trouble. His mother told him over and over again that his cousin was not worth his regard; but then, when he would throw himself on the sofa in an agony of despair -- weakened perhaps as much by the course of champagne as by the course of his love -- then she, too, would bid him hope, and at last promised that she herself would endeavour to persuade Ayala to look at the matter in a more favourable light. &quot;It would all be right if it were not for that accursed Stubbs,&quot; poor Tom would say to his mother. &quot;The man whom I called my friend! The man I lent a horse to when he couldn&apos;t get one anywhere else! The man to whom I confided everything, even about the necklace! If it hadn&apos;t been for Stubbs I never should have hurt that policeman! When I was striking him I thought that it was Stubbs!&quot; Then the mother would heap feminine maledictions on the poor Colonel&apos;s head, and so together they would weep and think of revenge.</p><p>From the moment Tom had heard Colonel Stubbs&apos;s name mentioned as that of his rival he had meditated revenge. It was quite true when he said that he had been thinking of Stubbs when he struck the policeman. He had consumed the period of his confinement in gnashing his teeth, all in regard to our poor friend Jonathan. He told his father that he could not go upon his long tour because of Ayala. But in truth his love was now so mixed up with ideas of vengeance that he did not himself know which prevailed. If he could first have slaughtered Stubbs then perhaps he might have started! But how was he to slaughter Stubbs? Various ideas occurred to his mind. At first he thought that he would go down to Aldershot with the biggest cutting-whip he could find in any shop in Piccadilly; but then it occurred to him that at Aldershot he would have all the British army against him, and that the British army might do something to him worse even than the London magistrate. Then he would wait till the Colonel could be met elsewhere. He ascertained that the Colonel was still at Stalham, where he had passed the Christmas, and he thought how it might be if he were to attack the Colonel in the presence of his friends, the Alburys. He assured himself that, as far as personal injury went, he feared nothing. He had no disinclination to be hit over the head himself, if he could be sure of hitting the Colonel over the head. If it could be managed that they two should fly at each other with their fists, and be allowed to do the worst they could to each other for an hour, without interference, he would be quite satisfied. But down at Stalham that would not be allowed. All the world would be against him, and nobody there to see that he got fair play. If he could encounter the man in the streets of London it would be better; but were he to seek the man down at Stalham he would probably find himself in the County Lunatic Asylum. What must he do for his revenge? He was surely entitled to it. By all the laws of chivalry, as to which he had his own ideas, he had a right to inflict an injury upon a successful -- even upon an unsuccessful -- rival. Was it not a shame that so excellent an institution as duelling should have been stamped out? Wandering about the lawns and shrubberies at Merle Park he thought of all this, and at last he came to a resolution. The institution had been stamped out, as far as Great Britain was concerned. He was aware of that. But it seemed to him that it had not been stamped out in other more generous countries. He had happened to notice that a certain enthusiastic politician in France had enjoyed many duels, and had never been severely repressed by the laws of his country. Newspaper writers were always fighting in France, and were never guillotined. The idea of being hanged was horrible to him -- so distasteful that he saw at a glance that a duel in England was out of the question. But to have his head cut off, even if it should come to that, would be a much less affair. But in Belgium, in Italy, in Germany, they never did cut off the heads of the very numerous gentlemen who fought duels. And there were the Southern States of the American Union, where he fancied that men might fight duels as they pleased. He would be ready to go even to New Orleans at a day&apos;s notice if only he could induce Colonel Stubbs to meet him there. And he thought that, if Colonel Stubbs really possessed half the spirit which seemed to be attributed to him by the British army generally, he would come, if properly invoked, and fight such a duel as this, whether at New Orleans or at some other well-chosen blood-allowing spot on the world&apos;s surface. Tom was prepared to go anywhere for blood.</p><p>But the invocation must be properly made. When he had wanted another letter of another kind to be written for him, the Colonel himself was the man to whom he had gone for assistance. And, had his present enemy been any other than the Colonel himself, he would have gone to the Colonel in preference to anyone else for aid in this matter. There was no one, in truth, in whom he believed so thoroughly as in the Colonel. But that was out of the question. Then he reflected what friend might now stand him in stead. He would have gone to Houston, who wanted to marry his sister; but Houston seemed to have disappeared, and he did not know where he might be found. There was his brother-in-law, Traffick -- but he feared lest Traffick might give him over once more into the hands of the police. He thought of Hamel, as being in a way connected with the family; but he had seen so little of Hamel, and had so much disliked what he had seen, that he was obliged to let that hope go by. There was no one left but Faddle whom he could trust. Faddle would do anything he was told to do. Faddle would carry the letter, no doubt, or allow himself to be named as a proposed second. But Faddle could not write the letter. He felt that he could write the letter himself better than Faddle.</p><p>He went up to town, having sent a mysterious letter to Faddle, bidding his friend attend him in his lodgings. He did not yet dare to go to the Mountaineers, where Faddle would have been found. But Faddle came, true to the appointment. &quot;What is it, now?&quot; said the faithful friend. &quot;I hope you are going back to Travers and Treasons&apos;. That is what I should do, and walk in just as though nothing had happened.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not if you were me, you wouldn&apos;t.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That makes a difference, of course.&quot;</p><p>&quot;There is something else to be done before I can again darken the doors of Travers and Treason -- if I should ever do so!&quot; &quot;Something particular?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Something very particular. Faddle, I do think you are a true friend.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You may say that. I have stuck to you always -- though you don&apos;t know the kind of things my people say to me about it. They say I am going to ruin myself because of you. The governor threatened to put me out of the business altogether. But I&apos;m a man who will be true to my friend, whatever happens. I think you have been a little cool to me, lately; but even that don&apos;t matter.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Cool! If you knew the state that I&apos;m in you wouldn&apos;t talk of a fellow being cool! I&apos;m so knocked about it all that I don&apos;t know what I&apos;m doing.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I do take that into consideration.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Now, I&apos;ll tell you what I&apos;m going to do.&quot; Then he stood still, and looked Faddle full in the face. Faddle, sitting awe-struck on his chair, returned the gaze. He knew that a moment of supreme importance was at hand. &quot;Faddle, I&apos;ll shoot that fellow down like a dog.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Will you, indeed?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Like a dog -- if I can get at him. I should have no more compunction in taking his life than a mere worm. Why should I, when I know that he has sapped the very juice of my existence?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Do you mean -- do you mean -- that you would -- murder him?&quot; &quot;It would not be murder. Of course it might be that he would shoot me instead. Upon the whole, I think I should like that best.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh; a duel!&quot; said Faddle.</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s what I mean. Murder him! Certainly not. Though I should like nothing half so well as to thrash him within an inch of his life. I would not murder him. My plan is this -- I shall write to him a letter inviting him to meet me in any corner of the globe that he may select. Torrid zone or Arctic circle will be all the same to me. You will have to accompany me as my second.&quot; Faddle shivered with excitement and dread of coming events. Among other ideas there came the thought that it might be difficult to get back from the Arctic circle without money if his friend Tom should happen to be shot dead in that locality. &quot;But first of all&quot;, continued Tom, &quot;you will have to carry a letter.&quot;</p><p>&quot;To the Colonel?&quot; suggested Faddle.</p><p>&quot;Of course. The man is now staying with friends of his named Albury at a place called Stalham. From what I hear they are howling swells. Sir Harry Albury is Master of the Hounds, and Lady Albury when she is up in London has all the Royal Family constantly at her parties. Stubbs is a cousin of his; but you must go right away up to him among &apos;em all, and deliver the letter into his hands without minding &apos;em a bit.</p><p>&quot;Couldn&apos;t it go by post?&quot;</p><p>&quot;No; this kind of letter mustn&apos;t go by post. You have to be able to swear that you delivered it yourself into his own hands. And then you must wait for an answer. Even though he should want a day to think of it, you must wait.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Where am I to stay, Tom?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well; it may be they&apos;ll ask you to the house, because, though you carry the letter for me, you are not supposed to be his enemy. If so, put a jolly face on it, and enjoy yourself as well as you can. You must seem, you know, to be just as big a swell as anybody there. But if they don&apos;t ask you, you must go to the nearest inn. I&apos;ll pay the bill.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Shall I go today?&quot; asked Faddle.</p><p>&quot;I&apos;ve got to write the letter first. It&apos;ll take a little time, so that you&apos;d better put it off till tomorrow. If you will leave me now I&apos;ll write it, and if you will come back at six we&apos;ll go and have a bit of dinner at Bolivia&apos;s.&quot; This was an eating-house in the neighbourhood of Leicester Square, to which the friends had become partial during this troubled period of their existence. &quot;Why not come to the Mountaineers, old boy?&quot; Tom shook his head, showing that he was not yet up to such festivity as that; and then Faddle took his departure.</p><p>Tom at once got out his pen and paper, and began to write his letter. It may be imagined that it was not written off-hand, or without many struggles. When it was written it ran as follows: SIR,</p><p>You will not, I think, be surprised to hear from me in anything but a friendly spirit. I went down to you at Aldershot as to a friend whom I could trust with my bosom&apos;s dearest secret, and you have betrayed me. I told you of my love, a love which has long burned in my heart, and you received my confidence with a smile, knowing all the time that you were my rival. I leave it to you to say what reply you can make as to conduct so damning, so unmanly, so dastardly -- and so very unlike a friend as this! However, there is no place here for words. You have offered me the greatest insult and the greatest injury which one man can inflict upon another! There is no possibility of an apology, unless you are inclined to say that you will renounce for ever your claim upon the hand of Miss Ayala Dormer. This I do not expect, and, therefore, I call upon you to give me that satisfaction which is all that one gentleman can offer to another. After the injury you have done me I think it quite impossible that you should refuse.</p><p>Of course, I know that duels cannot be fought in England because of the law. I am sorry that the law should have been altered, because it allows so many cowards to escape the punishment they deserve. [Tom, as he wrote this, was very proud of the keenness of the allusion.] I am quite sure, however, that a man who bears the colours of a colonel in the British army will not try to get off by such a pretext. [He was proud, too, about the colours.] France, Belgium, Italy, the United States, and all the world, are open! I will meet you wherever you may choose to arrange a meeting. I presume that you will prefer pistols.</p><p>I send this by the hands of my friend, Mr Faddle, who will be prepared to make arrangements with you or with any friend on your behalf. He will bring back your reply, which no doubt will be satisfactory.</p><p>I am, Sir, your most obedient servant,</p><p>THOMAS TRINGLE, junior</p><p>When, after making various copies, Tom at last read the letter as finally prepared, he was much pleased with it, doubting whether the Colonel himself could have written it better, had the task been confided to his hands. When Faddle came, he read it to him with much pride, and then committed it to his custody. After that they went out and ate their dinner at Bolivia&apos;s with much satisfaction, but still with a bearing of deep melancholy, as was proper on such an occasion.</p><p>CHAPTER 36 TOM TRINGLE GETS AN ANSWER</p><p>Faddle as he went down into the country made up his mind that the law which required such letters to be delivered by hand was an absurd law. The post would have done just as well, and would have saved a great deal of trouble. These gloomy thoughts were occasioned by a conviction that he could not carry himself easily or make himself happy among such &quot;howling swells&quot; as these Alburys. If they should invite him to the house the matter would be worse that way than the other. He had no confidence in his dress coat, which he was aware had been damaged by nocturnal orgies. It is all very well to tell a fellow to be as &quot;big a swell&quot; as anybody else, as Tom had told him. But Faddle acknowledged to himself the difficulty of acting up to such advice. Even the eyes of Colonel Stubbs turned upon him after receipt of the letter would oppress him.</p><p>Nevertheless he must do his best, and he took a gig at the station nearest to Albury. He was careful to carry his bag with him, but still he lived in hope that he would be able to return to London the same day. When he found himself within the lodges of Stalham Park he could hardly keep himself from shivering and, when he asked the footman at the door whether Colonel Stubbs was there, he longed to be told that Colonel Stubbs had gone away on the previous day to some -- he did not care what -- distant part of the globe. But Colonel Stubbs had not gone away. Colonel Stubbs was in the house.</p><p>Our friend the Colonel had not suffered as Tom had suffered since his rejection -- but nevertheless he had been much concerned. He had set his heart upon Ayala before he had asked her, and could not bring himself to change his heart because she had refused him. He had gone down to Aldershot and had performed his duties, abstaining for the present from repeating his offer. The offer of course must be repeated, but as to the when, the where, and the how, he had not as yet made up his mind. Then Tom Tringle had come to him at Aldershot communicating to him the fact that he had a rival -- and also the other fact that the other rival like himself had hitherto been unsuccessful. It seemed improbable to him that such a girl as Ayala should attach herself to such a man as her cousin Tom. But nevertheless he was uneasy. He regarded Tom Tringle as a miracle of wealth, and felt certain that the united efforts of the whole family would be used to arrange the match. Ayala had refused him also, and therefore, up to the present moment, the chances of the other man were no better than his own. When Tom left him at Aldershot he hardly remembered that Tom knew nothing of his secret, whereas Tom had communicated to him his own. It never for a moment occurred to him that Tom would quarrel with him; although he had seen that the poor fellow had been disgusted because he had refused to write the letter. On Christmas Eve he had gone down to Stalham, and there he had remained discussing the matter of his love with Lady Albury. To no one else in the house had the affair been mentioned, and by Sir Harry he was supposed to remain there only for the sake of the hunting. With Sir Harry he was of all guests the most popular, and thus it came to pass that his prolonged presence at Stalham was not matter of special remark. Much of his time he did devote to hunting, but there were half hours devoted in company with Lady Albury to Ayala&apos;s perfection and Ayala&apos;s obstinacy. Lady Albury was almost inclined to think that Ayala should be given up. Married ladies seldom estimate even the girls they like best at their full value. It seems to such a one as Lady Albury almost a pity that such a one as Colonel Stubbs should waste his energy upon anything so insignificant as Ayala Dormer. The speciality of the attraction is of course absent to the woman, and unless she has considered the matter so far as to be able to clothe her thoughts in male vestments, as some women do, she cannot understand the longing that is felt for so small a treasure. Lady Albury thought that young ladies were very well, and that Ayala was very well among young ladies; but Ayala in getting Colonel Stubbs for a husband would, as Lady Albury thought, have received so much more than her desert that she was now almost inclined to be angry with the Colonel. &quot;My dear friend,&quot; he said to her one day, &quot;you might as well take it for granted. I shall go after my princess with all the energy which a princess merits.&quot; &quot;The question is whether she be a princess,&quot; said Lady Albury. &quot;Allow me to say that that is a point on which I cannot admit a doubt. She is a princess to me, and just at present I must be regarded as the only judge in the matter.&quot;</p><p>&quot;She shall be a goddess, if you please,&quot; said Lady Albury.</p><p>&quot;Goddess, princess, pink, or pearl -- any name you please supposed to convey perfection shall be the same to me. It may be that she is in truth no better, or more lovely, or divine, than many another young lady who is at the present moment exercising the heart of many another gentleman. You know enough of the world to be aware that every Jack has his Gill. She is my Gill, and that&apos;s an end of it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I hope then that she may be your Gill.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And, in order that she may, you must have her here again. I should absolutely not know how to go to work were I to find myself in the presence of Aunt Dosett in Kingsbury Crescent.&quot; In answer to this Lady Albury assured him that she would be quite willing to have the girl again at Stalham if it could be managed. She was reminding him, however, how difficult it had been on a previous occasion to overcome the scruples of Mrs Dosett, when a servant brought in word to Colonel Stubbs that there was a man in the hall desirous of seeing him immediately on particular business. Then the servant presented our friend Faddle&apos;s card.</p><p>MR SAMUEL FADDLE, 1, Badminton Gardens.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[If she will, she will, you may depend on&apos;t. And if she won&apos;t, she won&apos;t; and there&apos;s an end on&apos;t.&apos; You ought to be a man and pluck up your spirits. Are you going to allow a little girl to knock you about in that way?" Tom only shook his head, and looked as if he was very ill. In truth, the champagne, and the imprisonment, and Ayala together, had altogether altered his appearance. "We&apos;ve done what we could about it, and now it is time to give it over. Let me ...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>If she will, she will, you may depend on&apos;t. And if she won&apos;t, she won&apos;t; and there&apos;s an end on&apos;t.&apos; You ought to be a man and pluck up your spirits. Are you going to allow a little girl to knock you about in that way?&quot; Tom only shook his head, and looked as if he was very ill. In truth, the champagne, and the imprisonment, and Ayala together, had altogether altered his appearance. &quot;We&apos;ve done what we could about it, and now it is time to give it over. Let me hear you say that you will give it over.&quot; Tom stood speechless before his father. &quot;Speak the word, and the thing will be done,&quot; continued Sir Thomas, endeavouring to encourage the young man.</p><p>&quot;I can&apos;t,&quot; said Tom, sighing.</p><p>&quot;Nonsense!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I have tried, and I can&apos;t.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Tom, do you mean to say that you are going to lose everything because a chit of a girl like that turns up her nose at you?&quot; &quot;It&apos;s no use my going while things are like this,&quot; said Tom. &quot;If I were to get to New York, I should come back by the next ship. As for letters about business, I couldn&apos;t settle my mind to anything of the kind.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then you&apos;re not the man I took you to be,&quot; said the father. &quot;I could be man enough&quot;, said Tom, clenching his fist, &quot;if I could get hold of Colonel Stubbs.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Colonel who?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Stubbs! Jonathan Stubbs! I know what I&apos;m talking about. I&apos;m not going to America, nor China, nor anything else, till I&apos;ve polished him off. It&apos;s all very well your abusing me, but you don&apos;t know what it is I have suffered. As for being called a man I don&apos;t care about it. What I should like best would be to get Ayala on one side and Stubbs on the other, and then all three to go off the Duke of York&apos;s Column together. It&apos;s no good talking about Travers and Treason. I don&apos;t care for Travers and Treason as I am now. If you&apos;ll get Ayala to say that she&apos;ll have me, I&apos;ll go to the shop every morning at eight and stay till nine; and as for the Mountaineers it may all go to the d -- for me.&quot; Then he rushed out of the room, banging the door after him.</p><p>Sir Thomas, when he was thus left, stood for a while with his hands in his trousers&apos; pockets, contemplating the condition of his son. It was wonderful to him that a boy of his should be afflicted in this manner. When he had been struck by the juvenile beauties of Emmeline Dosett he had at once asked the young lady to share his fortunes with him, and the young lady had speedily acceded to his request. Then he had been married, and that was all he had ever known of the troubles of love. He could not but think, looking back at it as he did now from a distance, that had Emmeline been hardhearted he would have endured the repulse and have passed on speedily to some other charmer. But Tom had been wounded after a fashion which seemed to him to have been very uncommon. It might be possible that he should recover in time, but while undergoing recovery he would be ruined -- so great were the young man&apos;s sufferings! Now Sir Thomas, though he had spoken to Tom with all the severity which he had been able to assume, though he had abused Faddle, and had vindicated the injured dignity of Travers and Treason with all his eloquence; though he had told Tom it was unmanly to give way to his love, yet, of living creatures, Tom was at this moment the dearest to his heart. He had never for an instant entertained the idea of expelling Tom from Travers and Treason because of the policeman, or because of Faddle. What should he do for the poor boy now? Was there any argument, any means of persuasion, by which he could induce that foolish little girl to accept all the good things which he was ready to do for her? Could he try yet once again himself, with any chance of success?</p><p>Thinking of all this, he stood there for an hour alone with his hands in his trousers&apos; pockets.</p><p>CHAPTER 33 ISADORE HAMEL IN LOMBARD STREET</p><p>In following the results of Tom&apos;s presentation of the necklace we have got beyond the period which our story is presumed to have reached. Tom was in durance during the Christmas week, but we must go back to the promise which had been made by her uncle, Sir Thomas, to Lucy about six weeks before that time. The promise had extended only to an undertaking on the part of Sir Thomas to see Isadore Hamel if he would call at the house in Lombard Street at a certain hour on a certain day. Lucy was overwhelmed with gratitude when the promise was made. A few moments previously she had been indignant because her uncle had appeared to speak of her and her lover as two beggars -- but Sir Thomas had explained and in some sort apologised, and then had come the promise which to Lucy seemed to contain an assurance of effectual aid. Sir Thomas would not have asked to see the lover had he intended to be hostile to the lover. Something would be done to solve the difficulty which had seemed to Lucy to be so grave. She would not any longer be made to think that she should give up either her lover or her home under her uncle&apos;s roof. This had been terribly distressing to her because she had been well aware that on leaving her uncle&apos;s house she could be taken in only by her lover, to whom an immediate marriage would be ruinous. And yet she could not undertake to give up her lover. Therefore her uncle&apos;s promise had made her very happy, and she forgave the ungenerous allusion to the two beggars.</p><p>The letter was written to Isadore in high spirits. &quot;I do not know what Uncle Tom intends, but he means to be kind. Of course you must go to him, and if I were you I would tell him everything about everything. He is not strict and hard like Aunt Emmeline. She means to be good too, but she is sometimes so very hard. I am happier now because I think something will be done to relieve you from the terrible weight which I am to you. I sometimes wish that you had never come to me in Kensington Gardens, because I have become such a burden to you.&quot;</p><p>There was much more in which Lucy no doubt went on to declare that, burden as she was, she intended to be persistent. Hamel, when he received this letter, was resolved to keep the appointment made for him, but his hopes were not very high. He had been angry with Lady Tringle -- in the first place, because of her treatment of himself at Glenbogie, and then much more strongly, because she had been cruel to Lucy. Nor did he conceive himself to be under any strong debt of gratitude to Sir Thomas, though he had been invited to lunch. He was aware that the Tringles had despised him, and he repaid the compliment with all his heart by despising the Tringles. They were to him samples of the sort of people which he thought to be of all the most despicable. They were not only vulgar and rich, but purse-proud and conceited as well. To his thinking there was nothing of which such people were entitled to be proud. Of course they make money -- money out of money, an employment which he regarded as vile -- creating nothing either useful or beautiful. To create something useful was, to his thinking, very good. To create something beautiful was almost divine. To manipulate millions till they should breed other millions was the meanest occupation for a life&apos;s energy. It was thus, I fear, that Mr Hamel looked at the business carried on in Lombard Street, being as yet very young in the world and seeing many things with distorted eyes.</p><p>He was aware that some plan would be proposed to him which might probably accelerate his marriage, but was aware also that he would be very unwilling to take advice from Sir Thomas. Sir Thomas, no doubt, would be coarse and rough, and might perhaps offer him pecuniary assistance in a manner which would make it impossible for him to accept it. He had told himself a score of times that, poor as he was, he did not want any of the Tringle money. His father&apos;s arbitrary conduct towards him had caused him great misery. He had been brought up in luxury, and had felt it hard enough to be deprived of his father&apos;s means because he would not abandon the mode of life that was congenial to him. But having been thus, as it were, cast off by his father, he had resolved that it behoved him to depend only on himself. In the matter of his love he was specially prone to be indignant and independent. No one had a right to dictate to him, and he would follow the dictation of none. To Lucy alone did he acknowledge any debt, and to her he owed everything. But even for her sake he could not condescend to accept Sir Thomas&apos;s money, and with his money his advice. Lucy had begged him in her letter to tell everything to her uncle. He would tell Sir Thomas everything as to his income, his prospects, and his intentions, because Sir Thomas as Lucy&apos;s uncle would be entitled to such information. But he thought it very improbable that he should accept any counsel from Sir Thomas.</p><p>Such being the condition of Hamel&apos;s mind it was to be feared that but little good would come from his visit to Lombard Street. Lucy had simply thought that her uncle, out of his enormous stores, would provide an adequate income. Hamel thought that Sir Thomas, out of his enormous impudence, would desire to dictate everything. Sir Thomas was, in truth, anxious to be good-natured, and to do a kindness to his niece; but was not willing to give his money without being sure that he was putting it into good hands.</p><p>&quot;Oh, you&apos;re Hamel,&quot; said a young man to him, speaking to him across the counter in the Lombard Street office. This was Tom, who, as the reader will remember, had not yet got into his trouble on account of the policeman.</p><p>Tom and Hamel had never met but once before, for a few moments in the Coliseum at Rome, and the artist, not remembering him, did not know by whom he was accosted in this familiar manner. &quot;That is my name, Sir,&quot; said Hamel. &quot;Here is my card. Perhaps you will do me the kindness to take it to Sir Thomas Tringle.&quot; &quot;All right, old fellow; I know all about it. He has got Puxley with him from the Bank of England just at this moment. Come through into this room. He&apos;ll soon have polished off old Puxley.&quot; Tom was no more to Hamel than any other clerk, and he felt himself to be aggrieved; but he followed Tom into the room as he was told, and then prepared to wait in patience for the convenience of the great man. &quot;So you and Lucy are going to make a match of it,&quot; said Tom.</p><p>This was terrible to Hamel. Could it be possible that all the clerks in Lombard Street talked of his Lucy in this way, because she was the niece of their senior partner? Were all the clerks, as a matter of course, instructed in the most private affairs of the Tringle family? &quot;I am here in obedience to directions from Sir Thomas,&quot; said Hamel, ignoring altogether the impudent allusion which the young man had made.</p><p>&quot;Of course you are. Perhaps you don&apos;t know who I am?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not in the least,&quot; said Hamel.</p><p>&quot;I am Thomas Tringle, junior,&quot; said Tom, with a little accession of dignity.</p><p>&quot;I beg your pardon; I did not know,&quot; said Hamel.</p><p>&quot;You and I ought to be thick&quot;, rejoined Tom, &quot;because I&apos;m going in for Ayala. Perhaps you&apos;ve heard that before?&quot;</p><p>Hamel had heard it and was well aware that Tom was to Ayala an intolerable burden, like the old man of the sea. He had heard of Tom as poor Ayala&apos;s pet aversion -- as a lover not to be shaken off though he had been refused a score of times. Ayala was to the sculptor only second in sacredness to Lucy. And now he was told by Tom himself that he was -- &quot;going in for Ayala&quot;. The expression was so distressing to his feelings that he shuddered when he heard it. Was it possible that anyone should say of him that he was &quot;going in&quot; for Lucy? At that moment Sir Thomas opened the door, and grasping Hamel by the hand led him away into his own sanctum.</p><p>&quot;And now, Mr Hamel,&quot; said Sir Thomas, in his cheeriest voice, &quot;how are you?&quot; Hamel declared that he was very well, and expressed a hope that Sir Thomas was the same. &quot;I am not so young as I was, Mr Hamel. My years are heavier and so is my work. That&apos;s the worst of it. When one is young and strong one very often hasn&apos;t enough to do. I daresay you find it so sometimes.&quot;</p><p>&quot;In our profession&quot;, said Hamel, &quot;we go on working though very often we do not sell what we do.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s bad,&quot; said Sir Thomas.</p><p>&quot;It is the case always with an artist before he has made a name for himself. It is the case with many up to the last day of a life of labour. An artist has to look for that, Sir Thomas.&quot; &quot;Dear me! That seems very sad. You are a sculptor, I believe?&quot; &quot;Yes, Sir Thomas.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And the things you make must take a deal of room and be very heavy.&quot; At this Mr Hamel only smiled. &quot;Don&apos;t you think if you were to call an auction you&apos;d get something for them?&quot; At this suggestion the sculptor frowned but condescended to make no reply. Sir Thomas went on with his suggestion. &quot;If you and half a dozen other beginners made a sort of gallery among you, people would buy them as they do those things in the Marylebone Road and stick them up somewhere about their grounds. It would be better than keeping them and getting nothing.&quot; Hamel had in his studio at home an allegorical figure of Italia United, and another of a Prostrate Roman Catholic Church, which in his mind&apos;s eye he saw for a moment stuck here or there about the gardens of some such place as Glenbogie! Into them had been infused all the poetry of his nature and all the conviction of his intelligence. He had never dreamed of selling them. He had never dared to think that any lover of Art would encourage him to put into marble those conceptions of his genius which now adorned his studio, standing there in plaster of Paris. But to him they were so valuable, they contained so much of his thoughts, so many of his aspirations, that even had the marble counterparts been ordered and paid for nothing would have induced him to part with the originals. Now he was advised to sell them by auction in order that he might rival those grotesque tradesmen whose business it is to populate the gardens of wealthy but tasteless Britons! It was thus that the idea represented itself to him. He simply smiled; but Sir Thomas did not fail to appreciate the smile.</p><p>&quot;And now about this young lady?&quot; said Sir Thomas, not altogether in so good a humour as he had been when he began his suggestion. &quot;It&apos;s a bad look out for her when, as you say, you cannot sell your work when you&apos;ve done it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I think you do not quite understand the matter, Sir Thomas.&quot; &quot;Perhaps not. It certainly does seem unintelligible that a man should lumber himself up with a lot of things which he cannot sell. A tradesman would know that he must get into the bankruptcy court if he were to go on like that. And what is sauce for the goose will be sauce for the gander also.&quot; Mr Hamel again smiled but held his tongue. &quot;If you can&apos;t sell your wares how can you keep a wife?&quot;</p><p>&quot;My wares, as you call them, are of two kinds. One, though no doubt made for sale, is hardly saleable. The other is done to order. Such income as I make comes from the latter.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Heads,&quot; suggested Sir Thomas.</p><p>&quot;Busts they are generally called.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Well, busts. I call them heads. They are heads. A bust, I take it, is -- well, never mind.&quot; Sir Thomas found a difficulty in defining his idea of a bust. &quot;A man wants to have something more or less like someone to put up in a church and then he pays you.&quot; &quot;Or perhaps in his library. But he can put it where he likes when he has bought it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Just so. But there ain&apos;t many of those come in your way, if I understand right.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not as many as I would wish.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What can you net at the end of the year? That&apos;s the question.&quot; Lucy had recommended him to tell Sir Thomas everything; and he had come there determined to tell at any rate everything referring to money. He had not the slightest desire to keep the amount of his income from Sir Thomas. But the questions were put to him in so distasteful a way that he could not bring himself to be confidential. &quot;It varies with various circumstances, but it is very small.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Very small? Five hundred a year?&quot; This was ill-natured, because Sir Thomas knew that Mr Hamel did not earn five hundred a year. But he was becoming acerbated by the young man&apos;s manner.</p><p>&quot;Oh dear, no,&quot; said Hamel.</p><p>&quot;Four hundred?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nor four hundred -- nor three. I have never netted three hundred in one year after paying the incidental expenses.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That seems to me to be uncommonly little for a man who is thinking of marrying. Don&apos;t you think you had better give it up?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I certainly think nothing of the kind.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Does your father do anything for you?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nothing at all.&quot;</p><p>&quot;He also makes heads?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Heads -- and other things.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And sells them when he has made them.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yes, Sir Thomas; he sells them. He had a hard time once, but now he is run after. He refuses more orders than he can accept.&quot; &quot;And he won&apos;t do anything for you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nothing. He has quarrelled with me.&quot;</p><p>&quot;That is very bad. Well now, Mr Hamel, would you mind telling me what your ideas are?&quot; Sir Thomas, when he asked the question, still intended to give assistance, was still minded that the young people should by his assistance be enabled to marry. But he was strongly of opinion that it was his duty, as a rich and protecting uncle, to say something about imprudence, and to magnify difficulties. It certainly would be wrong for an uncle, merely because he was rich, to give away his money to dependent relatives without any reference to those hard principles which a possessor of money always feels it to be his business to inculcate. And up to this point Hamel had done nothing to ingratiate himself. Sir Thomas was beginning to think that the sculptor was an impudent prig, and to declare to himself that, should the marriage ever take place, the young couple would not be made welcome at Glenbogie or Merle Park. But still he intended to go on with his purpose, for Lucy&apos;s sake. Therefore he asked the sculptor as to his ideas generally.</p><p>&quot;My idea is that I shall marry Miss Dormer, and support her on the earnings of my profession. My idea is that I shall do so before long, in comfort. My idea also is, that she will be the last to complain of any discomfort which may arise from my straitened circumstances at present. My idea is that I am preparing for myself a happy and independent life. My idea also is -- and I assure you that of all my ideas this is the one to which I cling with the fondest assurance -- that I will do my very best to make her life happy when she comes to grace my home.&quot;</p><p>There was a manliness in this which would have touched Sir Thomas had he been in a better humour, but, as it was, he had been so much irritated by the young man&apos;s manner, that he could not bring himself to be just. &quot;Am I to understand that you intend to marry on something under three hundred a year?</p><p>Hamel paused for a moment before he made his reply. &quot;How am I to answer such a question,&quot; he said, at last, &quot;seeing that Miss Dormer is in your hands, and that you are unlikely to be influenced by anything that I may say?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I shall be very much influenced,&quot; said Sir Thomas.</p><p>&quot;Were her father still alive, I think we should have put our heads together, and between us decided on what might have been best for Lucy&apos;s happiness.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Do you think that I&apos;m indifferent to her happiness?&quot; demanded Sir Thomas.</p><p>&quot;I should have suggested to him,&quot; continued Hamel, not noticing the last question, &quot;that she should remain in her own home till I could make one for her worthy of her acceptance. And then we should have arranged among us what would have been best for her happiness. I cannot do this with you. If you tell her tomorrow that she must give up either your protection or her engagement with me, then she must come to me, and make the best of all the little that I can do for her.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Who says that I&apos;m going to turn her out?&quot; said Sir Thomas, rising angrily from his chair.</p><p>&quot;I do not think that anyone has said this of you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then why do you throw it in my teeth?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Because your wife has threatened it.&quot;</p><p>Then Sir Thomas boiled over in his anger. &quot;No one has threatened it. It is untrue. You are guilty both of impertinence and untruth in saying so.&quot; Here Hamel rose from his chair, and took up his hat. &quot;Stop, young man, and hear what I have to say to you. I have done nothing but good to my niece.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nevertheless, it is true, Sir Thomas, that she has been told by your wife that she must either abandon me or the protection of your roof. I find no fault with Lady Tringle for saying so. It may have been the natural expression of a judicious opinion. But when you ask after my intentions in reference to your niece I am bound to tell you that I propose to subject her to the undoubted inconveniences of my poor home, simply because I find her to be threatened with the loss of another.&quot;</p><p>&quot;She has not been threatened, Sir.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You had better ask your wife, Sir Thomas. And, if you find that what I have said is true, I think you will own that I have been obliged to explain as I have done. As you have told me to my face that I have been guilty of untruth, I shall now leave you.&quot; With this he walked out of the room, and the words which Sir Thomas threw after him had no effect in recalling him.</p><p>It must be acknowledged that Hamel had been very foolish in referring to Aunt Emmeline&apos;s threat. Who does not know that words are constantly used which are intended to have no real effect? Who does not know that an angry woman will often talk after this fashion? But it was certainly the fact that Aunt Emmeline had more than once declared to Lucy that she could not be allowed to remain one of that family unless she would give up her lover. Lucy, in her loyal endeavours to explain to her lover her own position, had told him of the threat, and he, from that moment, had held himself prepared to find a home for his future wife should that threat be carried into execution. Sir Thomas was well aware that such words had been spoken, but he knew his wife, and knew how little such words signified. His wife, without his consent, would not have the power to turn a dog from Merle Park. The threat had simply been an argument intended to dissuade Lucy from her choice; and now it had been thrown in his teeth just when he had intended to make provision for this girl, who was not, in truth, related to him, in order that he might ratify her choice! He was very angry with the young prig who had thus rushed out of his presence. He was angry, too, with his wife, who had brought him into his difficulty by her foolish threat. But he was angry, also, with himself, knowing that he had been wrong to accuse the man of a falsehood.</p><p>CHAPTER 34 &quot;I NEVER THREATENED TO TURN YOU OUT&quot;</p><p>Then there were written the following letters, which were sent and received before Sir Thomas went to Merle Park, and therefore, also, before he again saw Lucy:</p><p>DEAREST, DEAREST LOVE,</p><p>I have been, as desired, to Lombard Street, but I fear that my embassy has not led to any good. I know myself to be about as bad an ambassador as anyone can send. An ambassador should be soft and gentle -- willing to make the best of everything, and never prone to take offence, nor should he be addicted specially to independence. I am ungentle, and apt to be suspicious -- especially if anything be said derogatory to my art. I am proud of being an artist, but I am often ashamed of myself because I exhibit my pride. I may say the same of my spirit of independence. 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            <description><![CDATA["I shall certainly go on with it," said Tom, stoutly. "After a certain time, you know, reiterated offers do, you know -- do -- do -- partake of the nature of persecution." "Reiterated refusals are the sort of persecution I don&apos;t like." "It seems to me that Ayala -- Miss Dormer, I mean -- should be protected by a sort of feeling -- feeling of -- of what I may perhaps call her dependent position. She is peculiarly -- peculiarly situated." "If she married me she would be much better situate...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>&quot;I shall certainly go on with it,&quot; said Tom, stoutly.</p><p>&quot;After a certain time, you know, reiterated offers do, you know -- do -- do -- partake of the nature of persecution.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Reiterated refusals are the sort of persecution I don&apos;t like.&quot; &quot;It seems to me that Ayala -- Miss Dormer, I mean -- should be protected by a sort of feeling -- feeling of -- of what I may perhaps call her dependent position. She is peculiarly -- peculiarly situated.&quot;</p><p>&quot;If she married me she would be much better situated. I could give her everything she wants.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It isn&apos;t an affair of money, Mr Tringle.&quot;</p><p>Tom felt, from the use of the word Mister, that he was in some way giving offence; but felt also that there was no true cause for offence. &quot;When a man offers everything,&quot; he said, &quot;and asks for nothing, I don&apos;t think he should be said to persecute.&quot;</p><p>&quot;After a time it becomes persecution. I am sure Ayala would feel it so.&quot;</p><p>&quot;My cousin can&apos;t suppose that I am ill-using her,&quot; said Tom, who disliked the &quot;Ayala&quot; quite as much as he did the &quot;Mister&quot;. &quot;Miss Dormer, I meant. I can have nothing further to say about it. I can&apos;t write the letter, and I should not imagine that Ayala -- Miss Dormer -- would be moved in the least by any present that could possibly be made to her. I must go out now, if you don&apos;t mind, for half an hour; but I shall be back in time for breakfast.&quot;</p><p>Then Tom was left alone with the necklace lying on the table before him. He knew that something was wrong with the Colonel, but could not in the least guess what it might be. He was quite aware that early in the interview the Colonel had encouraged him to persevere with the lady, and had then, suddenly, not only advised him to desist, but had told him in so many words that he was bound to desist out of consideration for the lady. And the Colonel had spoken of his cousin in a manner that was distasteful to him. He could not analyse his feelings. He did not exactly know why he was displeased, but he was displeased. The Colonel, when asked for his assistance, was, of course, bound to talk about the lady -- would be compelled, by the nature of the confidence, to mention the lady&apos;s name -- would even have been called on to write her Christian name. But this he should have done with a delicacy -- almost with a blush. Instead of that Ayala&apos;s name had been common on his tongue. Tom felt himself to be offended, but hardly knew why. And then, why had he been called Mister Tringle? The breakfast, which was eaten shortly afterwards in the company of three or four other men, was not eaten in comfort -- and then Tom hurried back to London and to Lombard Street. After this failure Tom felt it to be impossible to go to another friend for assistance. There had been annoyance in describing his love to Colonel Stubbs, and pain in the treatment he had received. Even had there been another friend to whom he could have confided the task, he could not have brought himself to encounter the repetition of such treatment. He was as firmly fixed as ever in his conviction that he could not write the letter himself. And, as he thought of the words with which he should accompany a personal presentation of the necklace, he reflected that in all probability he might not be able to force his way into Ayala&apos;s presence. Then a happy thought struck him. Mrs Dosett was altogether on his side. Everybody was on his side except Ayala herself, and that pigheaded Colonel. Would it not be an excellent thing to entrust the necklace to the hands of his Aunt Dosett, in order that she might give it over to Ayala with all the eloquence in her power? Satisfied with this project he at once wrote a note to Mrs Dosett.</p><p>MY DEAR AUNT,</p><p>I want to see you on most important business. If I shall not be troubling you, I will call upon you tomorrow at ten o&apos;clock, before I go to my place of business.</p><p>Yours affectionately,</p><p>T. TRINGLE, Junior</p><p>On the following morning he apparelled himself with all his rings. He was a good-hearted, well-intentioned young man, with excellent qualities; but he must have been slow of intellect when he had not as yet learnt the deleterious effect of all those rings. On this occasion he put on his rings, his chains, and his bright waistcoat, and made himself a thing disgusting to be looked at by any well-trained female. As far as his aunt was concerned he would have been altogether indifferent as to his appearance, but there was present to his mind some small hope that he might be allowed to see Ayala, as the immediate result of the necklace. Should he see Ayala, then how unfortunate it would be that he should present himself before the eyes of his mistress without those adornments which he did not doubt would be grateful to her. He had heard from Ayala&apos;s own lips that all things ought to be pretty. Therefore he endeavoured to make himself pretty. Of course he failed -- as do all men who endeavour to make themselves pretty -- but it was out of the question that he should understand the cause of his failure.</p><p>&quot;Aunt Dosett, I want you to do me a very great favour,&quot; he began, with a solemn voice.</p><p>&quot;Are you going to a party, Tom?&quot; she said.</p><p>&quot;A party! No -- who gives a party in London at this time of the day? Oh, you mean because I have just got a few things on. When I call anywhere I always do. I have got another lady to see, a lady of rank, and so I just made a change.&quot; But this was a fib.</p><p>&quot;What can I do for you, Tom?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I want you to look at that.&quot; Then he brought out the necklace, and, taking it out of the case, displayed the gems tastefully upon the table.</p><p>&quot;I do believe they are diamonds,&quot; said Mrs Dosett.</p><p>&quot;Yes; they are diamonds. I am not the sort of fellow to get anything sham. What do you think that little thing cost, Aunt Dosett?&quot; &quot;I haven&apos;t an idea. Sixty pounds, perhaps!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Sixty pounds! Do you go into a jeweller&apos;s shop and see what you could do among diamonds with sixty pounds!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I never go into jewellers&apos; shops, Tom.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Nor I, very often. It&apos;s a sort of place where a fellow can drop a lot of money. But I did go into one after this. It don&apos;t look much, does it?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It is very pretty.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I think it is pretty. Well, Aunt Dosett, the price for that little trifle was three -- hundred -- guineas!&quot; As he said this he looked into his aunt&apos;s face for increased admiration.</p><p>&quot;You gave three hundred guineas for it!&quot;</p><p>&quot;I went with ready money in my hand, when I tempted the man with a cheque to let me have it for two hundred and fifty pounds. In buying jewelry you should always do that.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I never buy jewelry,&quot; said Mrs Dosett, crossly.</p><p>&quot;If you should, I mean. Now, I&apos;ll tell you what I want you to do. This is for Ayala.&quot;</p><p>&quot;For Ayala!&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yes, indeed. I am not the fellow to stick at a trifle when I want to carry my purpose. I bought this the other day and gave ready money for it -- two hundred and fifty pounds -- on purpose to give it to Ayala. In naming the value -- of course you&apos;ll do that when you give it her -- you might as well say three hundred guineas. That was the price on the ticket. I saw it myself -- so there won&apos;t be any untruth you know.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Am I to give it her?&quot;</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s just what I want. When I talk to her she flares up, and, as likely as not, she&apos;d fling the necklace at my head.&quot;</p><p>&quot;She wouldn&apos;t do that, I hope.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It would depend upon how the thing went. When I do talk to her it always seems that nothing I say can be right. Now, if you will give it her you can put in all manner of pretty things.&quot; &quot;This itself will be the prettiest thing,&quot; said Mrs Dosett.</p><p>&quot;That&apos;s just what I was thinking. Everybody agrees that diamonds will go further with a girl than anything else. When I told the governor he quite jumped at the idea.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Sir Thomas knows you are giving it?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, dear, yes. I had to get the rhino from him. I don&apos;t go about with two hundred and fifty pounds always in my own pocket.&quot;</p><p>&quot;If he had sent the money to Ayala how much better it would have been,&quot; said poor Mrs Dosett.</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t think that at all. Who ever heard of making a present to a young lady in money? Ayala is romantic, and that would have been the most unromantic thing out. That would not have done me the least good in the world. It would simply have gone to buy boots and petticoats and such like. A girl would never be brought to think of her lover merely by putting on a pair of boots. When she fastens such a necklace as this round her throat he ought to have a chance. Don&apos;t you think so, Aunt Dosett?&quot; &quot;Tom, shall I tell you something?&quot; said the aunt.</p><p>&quot;What is it, Aunt Dosett?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I don&apos;t believe that you have a chance.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Do you mean that?&quot; he asked, sorrowfully.</p><p>&quot;I do.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You think that the necklace will do no good?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Not the least. Of course I will offer it to her if you wish it, because her uncle and I quite approve of you as a husband for Ayala. But I am bound to tell you the truth. I do not think the necklace will do you any good.&quot; Then he sat silent for a time, meditating upon his condition. It might be imprudent -- it might be a wrong done to his father to jeopardise the necklace. How would it be if Ayala were to take the necklace and not to take him? &quot;Am I to give it?&quot; she asked.</p><p>&quot;Yes,&quot; said he, bravely, but with a sigh; &quot;give it her all the same.&quot;</p><p>&quot;From you or from Sir Thomas?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Oh, from me -- from me. If she were told it came from the governor she&apos;d keep it whether or no. I am sure I hope she will keep it,&quot; he said, trying to remove the bad impression which his former words might perhaps have left.</p><p>&quot;You may be sure she will not keep it,&quot; said Mrs Dosett, &quot;unless she should intend to accept your hand. Of that I can hold out no hope to you. There is a matter, Tom, which I think I should tell you as you are so straightforward in your offer. Another gentleman has asked her to marry him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;She has accepted him!&quot; exclaimed Tom.</p><p>&quot;No, she has not accepted him. She has refused him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Then I&apos;m just where I was,&quot; said Tom.</p><p>&quot;She has refused him, but I think that she is in a sort of way attached to him; and though he too has been refused I imagine that his chance is better than yours.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And who the d -- is he?&quot; said Tom, jumping up from his seat in great excitement.</p><p>&quot;Tom!&quot; exclaimed Mrs Dosett.</p><p>&quot;I beg your pardon; but you see this is very important. Who is the fellow?&quot;</p><p>&quot;He is one Colonel Jonathan Stubbs.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Who?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Colonel Jonathan Stubbs.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Impossible! It can&apos;t be Colonel Stubbs. I know Colonel Stubbs.&quot; &quot;I can assure you it is true, Tom. I have had a letter from a lady -- a relative of Colonel Stubbs -- telling me the whole story.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Colonel Stubbs!&quot; he said. &quot;That passes anything I ever heard. She has refused him?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Yes, she has refused him.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And has not accepted him since?&quot;</p><p>&quot;She certainly has not accepted him yet.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You may give her the necklace all the same,&quot; said Tom, hurrying out of the room. That Colonel Stubbs should have made an offer to Ayala, and yet have accepted his, Tom Tringle&apos;s confidence!</p><p>CHAPTER 32 TOM&apos;S DESPAIR</p><p>The reader will understand that the fate of the necklace was very soon decided. Ayala declared that it was very beautiful. She had, indeed, a pretty taste for diamonds, and would have been proud enough to call this necklace her own; but, as she declared to her aunt, she would not accept Tom though he were made of diamonds from head to foot. Accept Tom, when she could not even bring herself to think of becoming the wife of Jonathan Stubbs! If Colonel Stubbs could not be received by her imagination as an Angel of Light, how immeasurably distant from anything angelic must be Tom Tringle! &quot;Of course it must go back,&quot; she said, when the question had to be decided as to the future fate of the necklace. As a consequence poor Mr Dosett was compelled to make a special journey into the City, and to deposit a well-sealed parcel in the hands of Tom Tringle himself. &quot;Your cousin sends her kind regards,&quot; he said, &quot;but cannot bring herself to accept your magnificent present.&quot;</p><p>Tom had been very much put about since his visit to the Crescent. Had his aunt merely told him that his present would be inefficacious, he would have taken that assurance as being simply her opinion, and would have still entertained some hopes in the diamonds. But these tidings as to another lover crushed him altogether. And such a lover! The very man whom he had asked to write his letter for him! Why had not Colonel Stubbs told him the truth when thus his own secret had become revealed by an accident? He understood it all now -- the &quot;Ayala&quot;, and the &quot;Mister&quot;, and the reason why the Colonel could not write the letter. Then he became very angry with the Colonel, whom he bitterly accused of falsehood and treason. What right had the Colonel to meddle with his cousin at all? And how false he had been to say nothing of what he himself had done when his rival had told him everything! In this way he made up his mind that it was his duty to hate Colonel Stubbs, and if possible to inflict some personal punishment upon him. He was reckless of himself now, and, if he could only get one good blow at the Colonel&apos;s head with a thick stick, would be indifferent as to what the law might do with him afterwards. Or perhaps he might be able to provoke Colonel Stubbs to fight with him. He had an idea that duels at present were not in fashion. But nevertheless, in such a case as this, a man ought to fight. He could at any rate have the gratification of calling the Colonel a coward if he should refuse to fight.</p><p>He was the more wretched because his spirit within him was cowed by the idea of the Colonel. He did acknowledge to himself that his chance could be but bad while such a rival as Colonel Stubbs stood in his way. He tried to argue with himself that it was not so. As far as he knew, Colonel Stubbs was and would remain a very much less rich man than himself. He doubted very much whether Colonel Stubbs could keep a carriage in London for his wife, while it had been already arranged that he was to be allowed to do so should he succeed in marrying Ayala. To be a partner in the house of Travers and Treason was a much greater thing than to be a Colonel. But, though he assured himself of all this again and again, still he was cowed. There was something about the Colonel which did more than redeem his red hair and ugly mouth. And of this something poor Tom was sensible. Nevertheless, if occasion should arise he thought that he could &quot;punch the Colonel&apos;s head&apos; -- not without evil consequence to himself -- but still that he could &quot;punch the Colonel&apos;s head&quot;, not minding the consequences.</p><p>Such had been his condition of mind when he left the Crescent, and it was not improved by the receipt of the parcel. He hardly said a word when his uncle put it into his hands, merely muttering something and consigning the diamonds to his desk. He did not tell himself that Ayala must now be abandoned. It would have been better for him if he could have done so. But all real, springing, hopeful hope departed from his bosom. This came from the Colonel, rather than from the rejected necklace.</p><p>&quot;Did you send that jewelry?&quot; his father asked him some days afterwards. &quot;Yes; I sent it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;And what has now become of it?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It is in my desk there.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Did she send it back again?&quot;</p><p>&quot;It came back. My Uncle Dosett brought it. I do not want to say anything more about it, if you please.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I am sorry for that, Tom -- very sorry. As you had set your heart upon it I wish it could have been as you would have it. But the necklace should not be left there.&quot; Tom shook his head in despair.</p><p>&quot;You had better let me have the necklace. It is not that I should grudge it to you, Tom, if it could do you any good.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You shall have it, Sir.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It will be better so. That was the understanding.&quot; Then the necklace was transferred to some receptacle belonging to Sir Thomas himself, the lock of which might probably be more secure than that of Tom&apos;s desk, and there it remained in its case, still folded in the various papers in which Mrs Dosett had encased it.</p><p>Then Tom found it necessary to adopt some other mode of life for his own consolation and support. He had told his father on one occasion that he had devoted himself for a fortnight to champagne and the theatres. But this had been taken as a joke. He had been fairly punctual at his place of business and had shown no symptoms of fast living. But now it occurred to him that fast living would be the only thing for him. He had been quite willing to apply himself to marriage and a steady life; but fortune had not favoured him. If he drank too much now, and lay in bed, and became idle, it was not his fault. There came into his head an idea that Ayala and Colonel Stubbs between them must look to that. Could he meet Ayala he would explain to her how his character as a moral man had been altogether destroyed by her conduct -- and should he meet Colonel Stubbs he would explain something to him also.</p><p>A new club had been established in London lately called the Mountaineers, which had secured for itself handsome lodgings in Piccadilly, and considered itself to be, among clubs, rather a comfortable institution than otherwise. It did not as yet affect much fashion, having hitherto secured among its members only two lords -- and they were lords by courtesy. But it was a pleasant, jovial place, in which the delights of young men were not impeded by the austerity of their elders. Its name would be excused only on the plea that all other names available for a club had already been appropriated in the metropolis. There was certainly nothing in the club peculiarly applicable to mountains. But then there are other clubs in London with names which might be open to similar criticism. It was the case that many young men engaged in the City had been enrolled among its members, and it was from this cause, no doubt, that Tom Tringle was regarded as being a leading light among the Mountaineers. It was here that the champagne had been drunk to which Tom had alluded when talking of his love to his father. Now, in his despair, it seemed good to him to pass a considerable portion of his time among the Mountaineers.</p><p>&quot;You&apos;ll dine here, Faddle?&quot; he said one evening to a special friend of his, a gentleman also from the City, with whom he had been dining a good deal during the last week.</p><p>&quot;I suppose I shall,&quot; said Faddle, &quot;but ain&apos;t we coming it a little strong? They want to know at the Gardens what the deuce it is I&apos;m about.&quot; The Gardens was a new row of houses, latterly christened Badminton Gardens, in which resided the father and mother of Faddle.</p><p>&quot;I&apos;ve given up all that kind of thing,&quot; said Tom.</p><p>&quot;Your people are not in London.&quot;</p><p>&quot;It will make no difference when they do come up. I call an evening in the bosom of one&apos;s family about the slowest thing there is. The bosom must do without me for the future.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Won&apos;t your governor cut up rough?&quot;</p><p>&quot;He must cut up as he pleases. But I rather fancy he knows all about it. I shan&apos;t spend half as much money this way as if I had a house and wife and family -- and what we may call a bosom of one&apos;s own.&quot; Then they had dinner and went to the theatre, and played billiards, and had supper, and spent the night in a manner very delightful, no doubt, to themselves, but of which their elder friends could hardly have approved.</p><p>There was a good deal of this following upon the episode of the necklace, and it must be told with regret that our young hero fell into certain exploits which were by no means creditable to him. More than one good-humoured policeman had helped him home to his lodgings; but alas, on Christmas Eve, he fell into the hands of some guardian of the peace who was not quite sufficiently good-natured, and Tom passed the night and the greater part of the following morning, recumbent, he in one cell, and his friend Faddle in the next, with an intimation that they would certainly be taken before a magistrate on the day after Christmas Day. Oh, Ayala! Ayala! It must be acknowledged that you were in a measure responsible -- and not only for the lamentable condition of your lover, but also of that of his friend. For, in his softer moments, Tom had told everything to Faddle, and Faddle had declared that he would be true to the death to a friend suffering such unmerited misfortune. Perhaps the fidelity of Faddle may have owed something to the fact that Tom&apos;s pecuniary allowances were more generous than those accorded to himself. To Ayala must be attributed the occurrence of these misfortunes. But Tom in his more fiery moments -- those moments which would come between the subsidence of actual sobriety and the commencement of intoxication -- attributed all his misfortunes to the Colonel. &quot;Faddle,&quot; he would say in these moments, &quot;of course I know that I&apos;m a ruined man. Of course I&apos;m aware that all this is only a prelude to some ignominious end. I have not sunk to this kind of thing without feeling it.&quot; &quot;You&apos;ll be right enough some day, old fellow,&quot; Faddle would reply. &quot;I shall live to be godfather to the first boy.&quot; &quot;Never, Faddle!&quot; Tom replied. &quot;All those hopes have vanished. You&apos;ll never live to see any child of mine. And I know well where to look for my enemy. Stubbs indeed! I&apos;ll Stubbs him. If I can only live to be revenged on that traitor then I shall die contented. Though he shot me through the heart, I should die contented.&quot; This had happened a little before that unfortunate Christmas Eve. Up to this time Sir Thomas, though he had known well that his son had not been living as he should do, had been mild in his remonstrances, and had said nothing at Merle Park to frighten Lady Tringle. But the affair of Christmas Eve came to his ears with all its horrors. A policeman whom Tom had struck with his fist in the pit of the stomach had not been civil enough to accept this mark of familiarity with good humour. He had been much inconvenienced by the blow, and had insisted upon giving testimony to this effect before the magistrate. There had been half an hour, he said, in which he had hung dubious between this world and the next, so great had been the violence of the blow and so deadly its direction! The magistrate was one of those just men who find a pleasure and a duty in protecting the police of the metropolis. It was no case, he declared, for a fine. What would be a fine to such a one as Thomas Tringle, junior! And Tom -- Tom Tringle, the only son of Sir Thomas Tringle, the senior partner in the great house of Travers and Treason -- was ignominiously locked up for a week. Faddle, who had not struck the blow, was allowed to depart with a fine and a warning. Oh, Ayala, Ayala, this was thy doing!</p><p>When the sentence was known Sir Thomas used all his influence to extricate his unfortunate son, but in vain. Tom went through his penalty, and, having no help from champagne, doubtless had a bad time of it. Ayala, Stubbs, the policeman, and the magistrate, seemed to have conspired to destroy him. But the week at last dragged itself out, and then Tom found himself confronted with his father in the back parlour of the house in Queen&apos;s Gate. &quot;Tom,&quot; he said, &quot;this is very bad!&quot;</p><p>&quot;It is bad, Sir,&quot; said Tom.</p><p>&quot;You have disgraced me, and your mother, and yourself. You have disgraced Travers and Treason!&quot; Poor Tom shook his head. &quot;It will be necessary, I fear, that you should leave the house altogether.&quot; Tom stood silent without a word. &quot;A young man who has been locked up in prison for a week for maltreating a policeman can hardly expect to be entrusted with such concerns as those of Travers and Treason. I and your poor mother cannot get rid of you and the disgrace which you have entailed upon us. Travers and Treason can easily get rid of you.&quot; Tom knew very well that his father was, in fact, Travers and Treason, but he did not yet feel that an opportunity had come in which he could wisely speak a word. &quot;What have you got to say for yourself, Sir?&quot; demanded Sir Thomas. &quot;Of course, I&apos;m very sorry,&quot; muttered Tom.</p><p>&quot;Sorry, Tom! A young man holding your position in Travers and Treason ought not to have to be sorry for having been locked up in prison for a week for maltreating a policeman! What do you think must be done, yourself?&quot;</p><p>&quot;The man had been hauling me about in the street.&quot;</p><p>&quot;You were drunk, no doubt.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I had been drinking. I am not going to tell a lie about it. But he needn&apos;t have done as he did. Faddle knows that, and can tell you.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What can have driven you to associate with such a young man as Faddle? That is the worst part of it. Do you know what Faddle and Company are -- stock jobbers, who ten years ago hadn&apos;t a thousand pounds in the way of capital among them! They&apos;ve been connected with a dozen companies, none of which are floating now, and have made money out of them all! Do you think that Travers and Treason will accept a young man as a partner who associates with such people as that?&quot;</p><p>&quot;I have seen old Faddle&apos;s name and yours on the same prospectus together, Sir.&quot;</p><p>&quot;What has that to do with it? You never saw him inside our counter. What a name to appear along with yours in such an affair as this! If it hadn&apos;t been for that, you might have got over it. Young men will be young men. Faddle! I think you will have to go abroad for a time, till it has been forgotten.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I should like to stay, just at present, Sir&quot; said Tom.</p><p>&quot;What good can you do?&quot;</p><p>&quot;All the same, I should like to stay, Sir.&quot;</p><p>&quot;I was thinking that, if you were to take a tour through the United States, go across to San Francisco, then up to Japan, and from thence through some of the Chinese cities down to Calcutta and Bombay, you might come back by the Euphrates Valley to Constantinople, see something of Bulgaria and those countries, and so home by Vienna and Paris. The Euphrates Valley Railway will be finished by that time, perhaps, and Bulgaria will be as settled as Hertfordshire. You&apos;d see something of the world, and I could let it be understood that you were travelling on behalf of Travers and Treason. By the time that you were back, people in the City would have forgotten the policeman, and if you could manage to write home three or four letters about our trade with Japan and China, they would be willing to forget Faddle.&quot;</p><p>&quot;But, Sir -- &quot;</p><p>&quot;Shouldn&apos;t you like a tour of that kind?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Very much indeed, Sir -- only -- &quot;</p><p>&quot;Only what, Tom?&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ayala!&quot; said Tom, hardly able to suppress a sob as he uttered the fatal name.</p><p>&quot;Tom, don&apos;t be a fool. You can&apos;t make a young woman have you if she doesn&apos;t choose. I have done all that I could for you, because I saw that you&apos;d set your heart upon it. I went to her myself, and then I gave two hundred and fifty pounds for that bauble. I am told I shall have to lose a third of the sum in getting rid of it.&quot;</p><p>&quot;Ricolay told me that he&apos;d take it back at two hundred and twenty,&quot; said Tom, whose mind, prostrate as it was, was still alive to consideration of profit and loss.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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            <description><![CDATA[and Dumeril cites a similar instance. Geoffroy-Saint-Hilaire presented to the Academie des Sciences in 1830 a child with four legs and feet who was in good health. Amman saw a girl with a large thigh attached to her nates. Below the thigh was a single leg made by the fusion of two legs. No patella was found and the knee was anchylosed. One of the feet of the supernumerary limb had six toes, while the other, which was merely an outgrowth, had two toes on it. According to Jules Guerin, the chil...]]></description>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>and Dumeril cites a similar instance. Geoffroy-Saint-Hilaire presented to the Academie des Sciences in 1830 a child with four legs and feet who was in good health. Amman saw a girl with a large thigh attached to her nates. Below the thigh was a single leg made by the fusion of two legs. No patella was found and the knee was anchylosed. One of the feet of the supernumerary limb had six toes, while the other, which was merely an outgrowth, had two toes on it.</p><p>According to Jules Guerin, the child named Gustav Evrard was born with a thigh ending in two legs and two imperfect feet depending from the left nates.</p><p>Tucker describes a baby born in the Sloane Maternity in New York, October 1, 1894, who had a third leg hanging from a bony and fleshy union attached to the dorsal spine. The supernumerary leg was well formed and had a left foot attached to it. Larkin and Jones mention the removal of a meningocele and a supernumerary limb from an infant of four months. This limb contained three fingers only, one of which did not have a bony skeleton.</p><p>Pare says that on the day the Venetians and the Genevois made peace a monster was born in Italy which had four legs of equal proportions, and besides had two supernumerary arms from the elbows of the normal limbs. This creature lived and was baptized.</p><p>Anomalies of the Feet.--Hatte has seen a woman who bore a child that had three feet. Bull gives a description of a female infant with the left foot double or cloven. There was only one heel, but the anterior portion consisted of an anterior and a posterior part. The anterior foot presented a great toe and four smaller ones, but deformed like an example of talipes equinovarus. Continuous with the outer edge of the anterior part and curving beneath it was a posterior part, looking not unlike a second foot, containing six well-formed toes situated directly beneath the other five. The eleven toes were all perfect and none of them were webbed.</p><p>There is a class of monsters called &quot;Sirens&quot; on account of their resemblance to the fabulous creatures of mythology of that name. Under the influence of compression exercised in the uterus during the early period of gestation fusion of the inferior extremities is effected. The accompanying illustration shows the appearance of these monsters, which are thought to resemble the enchantresses celebrated by Homer.</p><p>Anomalies of the Hand.--Blumenbach speaks of an officer who, having lost his right hand, was subsequently presented by his wife with infants of both sexes showing the same deformity. Murray cites the instance of a woman of thirty-eight, well developed, healthy, and the mother of normal children, who had a double hand. The left arm was abnormal, the flexion of the elbow imperfect, and the forearm terminated in a double hand with only rudimentary thumbs. In working as a charwoman she leaned on the back of the flexed carpus. The double hand could grasp firmly, though the maximum power was not so great as that of the right hand. Sensation was equally acute in all three of the hands. The middle and ring fingers of the supernumerary hand were webbed as far as the proximal joints, and the movements of this hand were stiff and imperfect. No single finger of the two hands could be extended while the other seven were flexed. Giraldes saw an infant in 1864 with somewhat the same deformity, but in which the disposition of the muscles and tendons permitted the ordinary movements.</p><p>Absence of Digits.--Maygrier describes a woman of twenty-four who instead of having a hand on each arm had only one finger, and each foot had but two toes. She was delivered of two female children in 1827 and one in 1829, each having exactly the same deformities. Her mother was perfectly formed, but the father had but one toe on his foot and one finger on his left hand.</p><p>Kohler gives photographs of quite a remarkable case of suppression and deformity of the digits of both the fingers and toes.</p><p>Figure 123 shows a man who was recently exhibited in Philadelphia. He had but two fingers on each hand and two toes on each foot, and resembles Kohler&apos;s case in the anomalous digital conformation.</p><p>Figure 124 represents an exhibitionist with congenital suppression of four digits on each hand.</p><p>Tubby has seen a boy of three in whom the first, second, and third toes of each foot were suppressed, the great toe and the little toe being so overgrown that they could be opposed. In this family for four generations 15 individuals out of 22 presented this defect of the lower extremity. The patient&apos;s brothers and a sister had exactly the same deformity, which has been called &quot;lobster-claw foot.&quot;</p><p>Falla of Jedburgh speaks of an infant who was born without forearms or hands; at the elbow there was a single finger attached by a thin string of tissue. This was the sixth child, and it presented no other deformity. Falla also says that instances of intrauterine digital amputation are occasionally seen.</p><p>According to Annandale, supernumerary digits may be classified as follows:--</p><p>(1) A deficient organ, loosely attached by a narrow pedicle to the hand or foot (or to another digit).</p><p>(2) A more or less developed organ, free at its extremity, and articulating with the head or sides of a metacarpal, metatarsal, or phalangeal bone.</p><p>(3) A fully developed separate digit.</p><p>(4) A digit intimately united along its whole length with another digit, and having either an additional metacarpal or metatarsal bone of its own, or articulating with the head of one which is common to it and another digit.</p><p>Superstitions relative to supernumerary fingers have long been prevalent. In the days of the ancient Chaldeans it was for those of royal birth especially that divinations relative to extra digits were cast. Among the ancients we also occasionally see illustrations emblematic of wisdom in an individual with many fingers, or rather double hands, on each arm.</p><p>Hutchinson, in his comments on a short-limbed, polydactylous dwarf which was dissected by Ruysch, the celebrated Amsterdam anatomist, writes as follows.--</p><p>&quot;This quaint figure is copied from Theodore Kerckring&apos;s &apos;Spicilegium Anatomicum,&apos; published in Amsterdam in 1670. The description states that the body was that of an infant found drowned in the river on October 16, 1668. It was dissected by the renowned Ruysch. A detailed description of the skeleton is given. My reason for now reproducing the plate is that it offers an important item of evidence in reference to the development of short-limbed dwarfs. Although we must not place too much reliance on the accuracy of the draughtsman, since he has figured some superfluous lumbar vertebrae, yet there can be no doubt that the limbs are much too short for the trunk and head. This remark especially applies to the lower limbs and pelvis. These are exactly like those of the Norwich dwarf and of the skeleton in the Heidelberg Museum which I described in a recent number of the &apos;Archives.&apos; The point of extreme interest in the present case is that this dwarfing of the limbs is associated with polydactylism. Both the hands have seven digits. The right foot has eight and the left nine. The conditions are not exactly symmetrical, since in some instances a metacarpal or metatarsal bone is wanting; or, to put it otherwise, two are welded together. It will be seen that the upper extremities are so short that the tips of the digits will only just touch the iliac crests.</p><p>&quot;This occurrence of short limbs with polydactylism seems to prove conclusively that the condition may be due to a modification of development of a totally different nature from rickets. It is probable that the infant was not at full term. Among the points which the author has noticed in his description are that the fontanelle was double its usual size; that the orbits were somewhat deformed; that the two halves of the lower jaw were already united; and that the ribs were short and badly formed. He also, of course, draws attention to the shortness of the limbs, the stoutness of the long bones, and the supernumerary digits. I find no statement that the skeleton was deposited in any museum, but it is very possible that it is still in existence in Amsterdam, and if so it is very desirable that it should be more exactly described,&quot;</p><p>In Figure 126, A represents division of thumb after Guyot-Daubes, shows a typical case of supernumerary fingers, and C pictures Morand&apos;s case of duplication of several toes.</p><p>Forster gives a sketch of a hand with nine fingers and a foot with nine toes. Voight records an instance of 13 fingers on each hand and 12 toes on each foot. Saviard saw an infant at the Hotel-Dieu in Paris in 1687 which had 40 digits, ten on each member. Annandale relates the history of a woman who had six fingers and two thumbs on each hand, and another who had eight toes on one foot.</p><p>Meckel tells of a case in which a man had 12 fingers and 12 toes, all well formed, and whose children and grandchildren inherited the deformity. Mason has seen nine toes on the left foot. There is recorded the account of a child who had 12 toes and six fingers on each hand, one fractured. Braid describes talipes varus in a child of a few months who had ten toes. There is also on record a collection of cases of from seven to ten fingers on each hand and from seven to ten toes on each foot. Scherer gives an illustration of a female infant, otherwise normally formed, with seven fingers on each hand, all united and bearing claw-like nails. On each foot there was a double halux and five other digits, some of which were webbed.</p><p>The influence of heredity on this anomaly is well demonstrated. Reaumur was one of the first to prove this, as shown by the Kelleia family of Malta, and there have been many corroboratory instances reported; it is shown to last for three, four, and even five generations; intermarriage with normal persons finally eradicates it.</p><p>It is particularly in places where consanguineous marriages are prevalent that supernumerary digits persist in a family. The family of Foldi in the tribe of Hyabites living in Arabia are very numerous and confine their marriages to their tribe. They all have 24 digits, and infants born with the normal number are sacrificed as being the offspring of adultery. The inhabitants of the village of Eycaux in France, at the end of the last century, had nearly all supernumerary digits either on the hands or feet. Being isolated in an inaccessible and mountainous region, they had for many years intermarried and thus perpetuated the anomaly. Communication being opened, they emigrated or married strangers and the sexdigitism vanished. Maupertuis recalls the history of a family living in Berlin whose members had 24 digits for many generations. One of them being presented with a normal infant refused to acknowledge it. There is an instance in the Western United States in which supernumerary digits have lasted through five generations. Cameron speaks of two children in the same family who were polydactylic, though not having the same number of supernumerary fingers.</p><p>Smith and Norwell report the case of a boy of fifteen both of whose hands showed webbing of the middle and ring fingers and accessory nodules of bone between the metacarpals, and six toes on each foot. The boy&apos;s father showed similar malformations, and in five generations 21 out of 28 individuals were thus malformed, ten females and 11 males. The deformity was especially transmitted in the female line.</p><p>Instances of supernumerary thumbs are cited by Panaroli, Ephemerides, Munconys, as well as in numerous journals since. This anomaly is not confined to man alone; apes, dogs, and other lower animals possess it. Bucephalus, the celebrated horse of Alexander, and the horse of Caesar were said to have been cloven-hoofed.</p><p>Hypertrophy of the digits is the result of many different processes, and true hypertrophy or gigantism must be differentiated from acromegaly, elephantiasis, leontiasis, and arthritis deformans, for which distinction the reader is referred to an article by Park. Park also calls attention to the difference between acquired gigantism, particularly of the finger and toes, and another condition of congenital gigantism, in which either after or before birth there is a relatively disproportionate, sometimes enormous, overgrowth of perhaps one finger or two, perhaps of a limited portion of a hand or foot, or possibly of a part of one of the limbs. The best collection of this kind of specimens is in the College of Surgeons in London.</p><p>Curling quotes a most peculiar instance of hypertrophy of the fingers in a sickly girl. The middle and ring fingers of the right hand were of unusual size, the middle finger measuring 5 1/2 inches in length four inches in circumference. On the left hand the thumb and middle fingers were hypertrophied and the index finger was as long as the middle one of the right hand. The middle finger had a lateral curvature outward, due to a displacement of the extensor tendon. This affection resembled acromegaly. Curling cites similar cases, one in a Spanish gentleman, Governor of Luzon, in the Philippine Islands, in 1850, who had an extraordinary middle finger, which he concealed by carrying it in the breast of his coat.</p><p>Hutchinson exhibited a photograph showing the absence of the radius and thumb, with shortening of the forearm. Conditions more or less approaching this had occurred in several members of the same family. In some they were associated with defects of development in the lower extremities also.</p><p>The varieties of club-foot--talipes varus, valgus, equinus, equino-varus, etc.--are so well known that they will be passed with mention only of a few persons who have been noted for their activity despite their deformity. Tyrtee, Parini, Byron, and Scott are among the poets who were club-footed; some writers say that Shakespeare suffered in a slight degree from this deformity. Agesilas, Genserie, Robert II, Duke of Normandy, Henry II, Emperor of the West, Otto II, Duke of Brunswick, Charles II, King of Naples, and Tamerlane were victims of deformed feet. Mlle. Valliere, the mistress of Louis XIV, was supposed to have both club-foot and hip-disease. Genu valgum and genu varum are ordinary deformities and quite common in all classes.</p><p>Transpositions of the character of the vertebrae are sometimes seen. In man the lumbar vertebrae have sometimes assumed the character of the sacral vertebrae, the sacral vertebrae presenting the aspect of lumbar vertebrae, etc. It is quite common to see the first lumbar vertebra presenting certain characteristics of the dorsal.</p><p>Numerical anomalies of the vertebrae are quite common, generally in the lumbar and dorsal regions, being quite rare in the cervical, although there have been instances of six or eight cervical vertebrae. In the lower animals the vertebrae are prolonged into a tail, which, however, is sometimes absent, particularly when hereditary influence exists. It has been noticed in the class of dogs whose tails are habitually amputated to improve their appearance that the tail gradually decreases in length. Some breeders deny this fact.</p><p>Human Tails.--The prolongation of the coccyx sometimes takes the shape of a caudal extremity in man. Broca and others claim that the sacrum and the coccyx represent the normal tail of man, but examples are not infrequent in which there has been a fleshy or bony tail appended to the coccygeal region. Traditions of tailed men are old and widespread, and tailed races were supposed to reside in almost every country. There was at one time an ancient belief that all Cornishmen had tails, and certain men of Kent were said to have been afflicted with tails in retribution for their insults to Thomas a Becket. Struys, a Dutch traveler in Formosa in the seventeenth century, describes a wild man caught and tied for execution who had a tail more than a foot long, which was covered with red hair like that of a cow.</p><p>The Niam Niams of Central Africa are reported to have tails smooth and hairy and from two to ten inches long. Hubsch of Constantinople remarks that both men and women of this tribe have tails. Carpus, or Berengarius Carpensis, as he is called, in one of his Commentaries said that there were some people in Hibernia with long tails, but whether they were fleshy or cartilaginous could not be known, as the people could not be approached. Certain supposed tailed races which have been described by sea-captains and voyagers are really only examples of people who wear artificial appendages about the waists, such as palm-leaves and hair. A certain Wesleyan missionary, George Brown, in 1876 spoke of a formal breeding of a tailed race in Kali, off the coast of New Britain. Tailless children were slain at once, as they would be exposed to public ridicule. The tailed men of Borneo are people afflicted with hereditary malformation analogous to sexdigitism. A tailed race of princes have ruled Rajoopootana, and are fond of their ancestral mark. There are fabulous stories told of canoes in the East Indies which have holes in their benches made for the tails of the rowers. At one time in the East the presence of tails was taken as a sign of brute force.</p><p>There was reported from Caracas the discovery of a tribe of Indians in Paraguay who were provided with tails. The narrative reads somewhat after this manner: One day a number of workmen belonging to Tacura Tuyn while engaged in cutting grass had their mules attacked by some Guayacuyan Indians. The workmen pursued the Indians but only succeeded in capturing a boy of eight. He was taken to the house of Senor Francisco Galeochoa at Posedas, and was there discovered to have a tail ten inches long. On interrogation the boy stated that he had a brother who had a tail as long as his own, and that all the tribe had tails.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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