Peace & Blessings, once again.

Alright, so you see the lil guy up there? I'd like to introduce you to him. That is who I refer to as my "Emoji of Introspection", affectionately known as "Lil W"!

Familiar with the term, introspection? The Oxford Dictionary defines it as follows:

in·tro·spec·tion

intrəˈspekSH(ə)n/

noun

"The examination or observation of one's own mental & emotional processes."

It must've been an evening in the late summer of 2013... I found myself in deep turmoil; intoxicated with drugs, up for 30+ hrs., having difficulty breathing, & thinking that I would remain damaged forever (can neither confirm nor deny this point, but I speak into existence that my healing knows no bounds).

Face to face with myself in the mirror, I saw the darkest aspects — so much so to the point that I shuttered at the realization…

I didn’t recognize who I saw staring back at me in my reflection. It was almost as though this shadow reflection began to wear a different expression than the one I felt on my face, not seeing the usual glint in my eye that reminded me of my spirit, as it's often represented metaphorically. This was the shadow, for certain.

At first glance I looked away, but I returned to look from a silent, stoic sense of responsibility to do so. With haggard breath, I observed. I did so in stillness. I did so with earnest. I did so absolving shame & disgust, transmuting it to grace & ownership.

I vowed to begin loving myself. I stepped outside of that bathroom, that house and into the open, and talked to God earnestly for the most sincere moment of communion with the Most High I have had up until that point.

Relevant context for what you’re seeing in Lil W.

The big, open eyes represented the deep gaze I fixed upon myself, venturing further and further inward into the reality & multiplicity of my being. The fuzzy yet un-furrowed eyebrows, in its default depiction, to emphasize a sense of grace for myself even within recognizing the unrecognizable.

This "Emoji of Introspection" that you see above manifested itself in my artwork, first during a personal design exploration & then later refined during a college course I was taking on Printmaking in that same semester of turmoil.

I was ready for change. I was committed to observing my mental & emotional processes; to learn how to overwrite my own miseries. To introspect, to self-reflect, to grow. That's why Lil W remains.

It has been a slow & gradual process — one that is not linear, one that I am still working on — but from that moment forward, I started to live with grace & deeper consideration for myself; remaining mindful of the things I voluntarily spent my time on & learning to ease away from the things I do not truly enjoy (or that no longer beneficially serve me).

Since its inception, Lil W has made its mark as an iconic part of my brand. Appearing across various designs, art pieces, tape, stickers & being embellished as one of the two prominent logos for the Wildenfree. It is a constant reminder to myself, as well as all of you who are finding your way into this growing community — to continue looking inward.

All the best,
Sean aka Mr. Wildenfree®️ 🐺🍵🎵

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