Just started working

My mind is already torn

Is this what I’ve been working towards these past years?

Reading, writing and agitating the theoretical brain cells all throughout university

Five years of this, for this?

37 hours of desk staring on datasheets to satisfy the higher-ups

It might come with an average salary that should make anyone happy

Money to spend on holidays and eating out

But I’m not happy

Were my expectations too high?

Should I just suck it up?

Maybe find another job?

I’m not hallucinating. I can’t endure this long term.

Wage-slaving is all I see, in meeting rooms I don’t care about

Shitty canteen food, day-in-day-out - might even be the worst of it.

Overhearing colleagues speaking about the their stupid kids, the rat race and their recent travels

Wilted souls of routine, flatline life

Will this be me in a few years?

It might already be…

Breaking the meta will be my saviour.