**As i sit here and write this. Ive been so deep into no man’s land in this point in time in my life. Everything that i know, every person that i know, that i believe to be true - has been tested. Love, relationships, friendships. People that say they care. It’s as if people you meet for the first time care deeper, in that first meeting. My beliefs have been tested. This prism that defines how we are wired to think, wired to behave - has shaken… loosening from the hinges. No one or nothing has been correct, rather it has been corrected. I’m in the middle passage of finding an obvious truth. But truth is unique to the individual. To find a rich and deep understanding of something, means to be void of other people’s perspective, opinion, history. It’a also un-doing past programming and letting go of detrimental habits. First being able to identify what those are. In order to - give way to a calling. It may not be your first calling - it also could’ve been the FIRST calling you ever had. When you were young. When you were just a kid. What does it mean to go after something you care about and put your whole self into?
That’s art. That’s love. That’s God.
Define your dashboard of excellence. Are you even aware you even have one? Re-invent it, or dare I say - start picking up the pieces of what that looked like - when you were your truest self. I’m on a mission of excellence. This unknown entity if you will. That’s still forming. But what I am certain about is my family. My father and my mother. There is an energy that goes unmatched (in human form) that transcends from them to me. This is what has been true all along. How they have paved the way. They either may literally enter heaven first or they have a more complex inkling on what they may need to accomplish before they leave this earth. 90% of the war is what goes on in the mind and rescuing, recovering from battle. Every day is a blessing and every day is a suffering. The surface is still super murky but “Me” and “We” are going through a correction. It’s a never ending inquiry. But the end differs. The end forms the beginning. The energy follows. And what transpires is completion. Completion is an unknown entity. Completion looks, feels, thinks different from one to another. Don’t feel terrified. For what completion is - is what God has known. Therefore, your completion, your spirit will rest easy before God.
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