ADSeptember 15th, 2022 “Ginny”
a girl crying to a woman, fancy industrial style office, photo realistic, interior design shot, very high detailed, cinematic lightingToday one of the designers reached out and wanted to talk to me, I immediately felt it must be something bad, and I was right. She complains about another team member, let’s call her Ginny. Yeah it’s Ginny again, everyone knows about her, every company has a Ginny. So Ginny’s not supporting her work and arbitrarily decided to cancel her project. While I feel it...
ADAugust 31st, 2022 “Semi-Holiday”
Interior of a fancy office, industrial style, a girl sitting at a corner, laptop, stationary, very high detailed, cinematic lighting, hyperrealistic, 8kDespite the unwillingness I worked 12 hours. Cancelled my yoga class and eye doctor appointment. I thought I’m taking care of myself, but I just can’t stand seeing my tasks piling up and overdue. Should I have a “Semi-Holiday”? Recently my genius colleague invented a “semi holiday” thingy. She’s travelling to Europe and claims she will work re...
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ADSeptember 15th, 2022 “Ginny”
a girl crying to a woman, fancy industrial style office, photo realistic, interior design shot, very high detailed, cinematic lightingToday one of the designers reached out and wanted to talk to me, I immediately felt it must be something bad, and I was right. She complains about another team member, let’s call her Ginny. Yeah it’s Ginny again, everyone knows about her, every company has a Ginny. So Ginny’s not supporting her work and arbitrarily decided to cancel her project. While I feel it...
ADAugust 31st, 2022 “Semi-Holiday”
Interior of a fancy office, industrial style, a girl sitting at a corner, laptop, stationary, very high detailed, cinematic lighting, hyperrealistic, 8kDespite the unwillingness I worked 12 hours. Cancelled my yoga class and eye doctor appointment. I thought I’m taking care of myself, but I just can’t stand seeing my tasks piling up and overdue. Should I have a “Semi-Holiday”? Recently my genius colleague invented a “semi holiday” thingy. She’s travelling to Europe and claims she will work re...
Hi I'm AD, I want to log my daily feelings and thoughts to the cyber space.
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Today I woke up at 9:15am with 6 hours of sleep. I rush to the office and start the first meeting at 10am. Now let me work you through my itinerary and you will get an idea of how I get burnt out.
10am - OKR Check-In
It's a weekly company meeting where we share everyone's work status with an OKR chart.
11am - Sprint Review
We run scrum, as a product designer I have to join it and demonstrate my work from the last 2 weeks.
1:30pm - HR Meeting
Talk to HR about why so many people are burnt out, we listed some reasons. Crypto space changes too fast, everyone is anxious, too many last-minute calls and emergencies.
2:30pm - Sprint Refinement
Before sprint planning we need to discuss the priority with the product owner.
3:00pm - Sprint Planning
We discuss the list of tasks and milestones with the product owner, claim the tasks and points, and confirm my work for the next 2 weeks.
5:30pm - Prep for the Community Call
I attend the weekly community call because the company thinks community is so important that every department needs to send someone to attend.
8:00pm - Community Call
The call is hosted on Discord where we share the recent updates for our product where most of the audience just come for the POAP.
10:00pm - User Interview with a community member in EST timezone
I've been assigned to do user interviews to improve the product. As much as I love the task, I hate to do this cross-time-zone meeting.
Off at 12am.
It's my day. And it's only the meeting, I still need to work before and after the meetings. Of course it's not like this every day, and maybe you will think it's my fault that not pushing back some tasks, but I am a corporate slave.
When I was on the toilet (the only time I can think) I was doing soul searching - the reason I do so much work might be from my imposter syndrome. Deep down I don't think I'm good enough for the company, I don't worth anyone paying me.
I don't think they will fire me even if I turn down some works, because there will be some trouble for the company. But I can't help work my butt off, because I hardly get recognition, even a little feeling of accomplishment makes me happy, and I've been hungry for too long time so I need to work double to get a little bit of affirmation, or empathy.
Hence the death spiral to the burnt out trip.
Prompt: A girl working in an office late night, fire, depressive, computer, ultra realistic, trading, cyberpunk, cinematic lighting, 8k
Diary day: 5
Depression level: 7
Gut health level: 5
Exercise level: 2
Today I woke up at 9:15am with 6 hours of sleep. I rush to the office and start the first meeting at 10am. Now let me work you through my itinerary and you will get an idea of how I get burnt out.
10am - OKR Check-In
It's a weekly company meeting where we share everyone's work status with an OKR chart.
11am - Sprint Review
We run scrum, as a product designer I have to join it and demonstrate my work from the last 2 weeks.
1:30pm - HR Meeting
Talk to HR about why so many people are burnt out, we listed some reasons. Crypto space changes too fast, everyone is anxious, too many last-minute calls and emergencies.
2:30pm - Sprint Refinement
Before sprint planning we need to discuss the priority with the product owner.
3:00pm - Sprint Planning
We discuss the list of tasks and milestones with the product owner, claim the tasks and points, and confirm my work for the next 2 weeks.
5:30pm - Prep for the Community Call
I attend the weekly community call because the company thinks community is so important that every department needs to send someone to attend.
8:00pm - Community Call
The call is hosted on Discord where we share the recent updates for our product where most of the audience just come for the POAP.
10:00pm - User Interview with a community member in EST timezone
I've been assigned to do user interviews to improve the product. As much as I love the task, I hate to do this cross-time-zone meeting.
Off at 12am.
It's my day. And it's only the meeting, I still need to work before and after the meetings. Of course it's not like this every day, and maybe you will think it's my fault that not pushing back some tasks, but I am a corporate slave.
When I was on the toilet (the only time I can think) I was doing soul searching - the reason I do so much work might be from my imposter syndrome. Deep down I don't think I'm good enough for the company, I don't worth anyone paying me.
I don't think they will fire me even if I turn down some works, because there will be some trouble for the company. But I can't help work my butt off, because I hardly get recognition, even a little feeling of accomplishment makes me happy, and I've been hungry for too long time so I need to work double to get a little bit of affirmation, or empathy.
Hence the death spiral to the burnt out trip.
Prompt: A girl working in an office late night, fire, depressive, computer, ultra realistic, trading, cyberpunk, cinematic lighting, 8k
Diary day: 5
Depression level: 7
Gut health level: 5
Exercise level: 2
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