Today is the office day. I set the alarm at 8am, but then I decided to turn it off and keep sleeping. Even with a gleam of guilt I still slept until noon. It was a 10 hour sleep yet I was still feeling heavy. Something wrong.

Was slightly better when I arrived in the office sitting on my desk, I got to work a bit. Yet still don’t feel achieved at all. My colleague suggested strangest ideas and I accepted it, my proposal got rejected and I was fine. I completed my assignments but still many left.

In a meeting with a colleague, she said I look pretty bad and she doesn’t know how to help. I’m just anti-social. Aren’t I? I can’t tell her that I’m depressed because nothing I do here is considered valuable because it might remind her the truth that she’s like this too.

She is the operations manager, in web3 it’s the least important job, because all projects are just looking for short term splash, blossom then retire. Our head of strategy only care about things within 2 months, even co-founders only care about one thing for the week.

It makes sense to some degree because web3 moves so fast that no one can really foresee the future hence the inevitable short sighted. However, they don’t want any long term plan for operations, HR, accounting or even treasury management.

After work we had a team dinner, I was at a table with other 5 team members. Two of the engineers was talking about her Korean idol and just couldn’t stop talking about it. They didn’t notice the other 4 weren’t interested, including me.

After dinner they pushed me to walk with them to a bar, in London they love pub hopping, I didn’t know how to say no, but in a traffic light I pretended I was too slow and can’t catch the light, called a cab and ran. This is my smartest move today.

Went home and listening to various Youtube artist singing Jazz. Even the least famous one sing better than me.

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Today is the office day. I set the alarm at 8am, but then I decided to turn it off and keep sleeping. Even with a gleam of guilt I still slept until noon. It was a 10 hour sleep yet I was still feeling heavy. Something wrong.

Was slightly better when I arrived in the office sitting on my desk, I got to work a bit. Yet still don’t feel achieved at all. My colleague suggested strangest ideas and I accepted it, my proposal got rejected and I was fine. I completed my assignments but still many left.

In a meeting with a colleague, she said I look pretty bad and she doesn’t know how to help. I’m just anti-social. Aren’t I? I can’t tell her that I’m depressed because nothing I do here is considered valuable because it might remind her the truth that she’s like this too.

She is the operations manager, in web3 it’s the least important job, because all projects are just looking for short term splash, blossom then retire. Our head of strategy only care about things within 2 months, even co-founders only care about one thing for the week.

It makes sense to some degree because web3 moves so fast that no one can really foresee the future hence the inevitable short sighted. However, they don’t want any long term plan for operations, HR, accounting or even treasury management.

After work we had a team dinner, I was at a table with other 5 team members. Two of the engineers was talking about her Korean idol and just couldn’t stop talking about it. They didn’t notice the other 4 weren’t interested, including me.

After dinner they pushed me to walk with them to a bar, in London they love pub hopping, I didn’t know how to say no, but in a traffic light I pretended I was too slow and can’t catch the light, called a cab and ran. This is my smartest move today.

Went home and listening to various Youtube artist singing Jazz. Even the least famous one sing better than me.

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