The headache continues in the morning and I almost thought it was a false negative yesterday. It is finally alleviated, and I’m getting ready for tomorrow’s work.

I also updated my personal investment spreadsheet.

So I have a spreadsheet, which I believe everyone has one. It’s where I export and paste all my trading and holding activities in CEX and DEX and use some formulas and scripts to calculate my profit and loss. And my current loss is 49%.

Actually it’s 49.55% so it’s almost half. And it’s 90% of all my assets, my almost everything. I used to be proud of putting 90% in crypto, which shows I’m a believer, but now I look like a fool. I know many people are in worse situations, but it’s my first time losing so much. The number of PnL has been like this since the market crash in May and luckily it’s not getting worse (yet?). Some of my friends think the real bear hasn’t come, some say it will end. Who knows?

Anyway I’m… getting better at handling the pain now. Yet it still hurts. Sometimes I feel it’s so hard simply to live in the world. The rent is crazily high in London, let alone buying your own house. And the daily grocery is getting more and more expensive but no boss is raising the salary. Just to survive takes a lot of work, you need to find a job and work for a month to get paid, and if you get fired, you have no income to buy food. Most of my friends don’t have much savings for emergencies, it’s like living your ass on the line. Elderlies might think it’s us not planning this ahead, not doing well in personal financial management. But no, it’s what it is, it’s too hard to survive in this world.

However, sometimes when I imagine the bull market comes back and my assets get double, I’d go straight to browse rightmove. I’d think it’s so easy and my life’s gonna be so great. I’d love everything in the world. The outlook of my personal life is like someone with bipolar disorder, sometimes deep in the end sometimes high as the sky.

I almost forget what’s the most important thing for me, it used to be my dream and my ambition, now it’s only the money. Because I know money can buy my dream and ambition, I didn’t know before.

My place has a beautiful window with a London city view, I haven’t been wanting to jump for a while since I started looking after myself. Hope I can keep it like this.

https://opensea.io/assets/ethereum/0x495f947276749ce646f68ac8c248420045cb7b5e/19289043477987981042814920477202086135675567400894939442083619838636175917057/

The headache continues in the morning and I almost thought it was a false negative yesterday. It is finally alleviated, and I’m getting ready for tomorrow’s work.

I also updated my personal investment spreadsheet.

So I have a spreadsheet, which I believe everyone has one. It’s where I export and paste all my trading and holding activities in CEX and DEX and use some formulas and scripts to calculate my profit and loss. And my current loss is 49%.

Actually it’s 49.55% so it’s almost half. And it’s 90% of all my assets, my almost everything. I used to be proud of putting 90% in crypto, which shows I’m a believer, but now I look like a fool. I know many people are in worse situations, but it’s my first time losing so much. The number of PnL has been like this since the market crash in May and luckily it’s not getting worse (yet?). Some of my friends think the real bear hasn’t come, some say it will end. Who knows?

Anyway I’m… getting better at handling the pain now. Yet it still hurts. Sometimes I feel it’s so hard simply to live in the world. The rent is crazily high in London, let alone buying your own house. And the daily grocery is getting more and more expensive but no boss is raising the salary. Just to survive takes a lot of work, you need to find a job and work for a month to get paid, and if you get fired, you have no income to buy food. Most of my friends don’t have much savings for emergencies, it’s like living your ass on the line. Elderlies might think it’s us not planning this ahead, not doing well in personal financial management. But no, it’s what it is, it’s too hard to survive in this world.

However, sometimes when I imagine the bull market comes back and my assets get double, I’d go straight to browse rightmove. I’d think it’s so easy and my life’s gonna be so great. I’d love everything in the world. The outlook of my personal life is like someone with bipolar disorder, sometimes deep in the end sometimes high as the sky.

I almost forget what’s the most important thing for me, it used to be my dream and my ambition, now it’s only the money. Because I know money can buy my dream and ambition, I didn’t know before.

My place has a beautiful window with a London city view, I haven’t been wanting to jump for a while since I started looking after myself. Hope I can keep it like this.

https://opensea.io/assets/ethereum/0x495f947276749ce646f68ac8c248420045cb7b5e/19289043477987981042814920477202086135675567400894939442083619838636175917057/