It's me again.

Days away from April Fool's Day. I have been a recent fool. At my grown age, I feel like I have accomplished so little, and there's so much to grasp in my world. I am thankful for my circle of love ones, but that's not a resource I cultivated for myself but of luck. Luck of finding that surrounding environment. I am so thankful for my partner, I look at them with envy, compassion, pure love, awe, competitiveness, adoration, and protectiveness. They are the ultimate person to me, and I am so happy they are on my team. I feel like ever since Feb 5 2023, my worst day, I have been slowly degrading. When my firm ass minted that first picture, it was my way of saying okay time to roll. But it is so hard. Growth isn't linear but comes rises and falls like a tidal wave. The important factor is growth being constant. And I need that. I want that. The reason why I'm being so vulnerable here is because I'm excited for the future moment. Where I had overcame obstacles and can look back upon my growth. But for that narrative to play out, I need to start. Picture this blog as a worn-out journal found at a thrift store. But instead, 1000 years from now. It is on the internet, and you found this after 3005. Cannot remain a fool.

Since July 2022 I have been treating my life as a game, a rpg. Since Feb 5 2023 I been punishing myself in this game. Didn't go to the gym, big deduction. Indulged myself heavily, big deduction. Not being present, big deduction. I used this tool to track my growth since July but it's a double edge sword and was also a tool to display my faults on full display. This is why it's a restart. Wipe the data, same goal as last entry.

Become the progress After 3005,

Joondustic