How often, and in part cuz it’s because I am in #Goa.. and let’s be honest, people want pretty people at the party. I know, cuz it was my job.

People tell me about these parties like “yeah bro” cuz that’s a thing.. it’s so cool, or it’s going to be.. and I’m thinking to myself, that’s not cool. What’s cool is helping humanity…

How many times, I’ve been to parties and you can’t even speak, mute in my own world.. maybe I am realizing more and more I’m an anti socialist deep down but really “bro…”

We could die tomorrow. And I would rather know that I have had a positive impact, and felt good than only washed the world a way by celebrating its.. lack of existence.

What’s everything to me these days is the smile from the child next to me as I wake by, or the waiter feeding my dog, or laughing with the ladies making clothes for @shopalizahscloset about love and relationships. my heart is full just thinking of it.

I remember my mom saying once when I was frustrated with a mother from the Bahai community whose children I was teaching say I was a little too sexy or dressed so at the Bahai Center (when this happened I thought to myself but I’m not going to dress differently here than put in public as everywhere is a place of worship and I’m comfortable in my own skin) I was a bit perplexed also because, as a woman, I appreciate and want to embrace this part of myself because I blocked it for so long thinking it was unholy and my mother’s comment, “The sexiest thing about you is your intelligence and capacity to connect with people.”

I don’t want to waste another day with after parties (that suck) cuz if I do, it means I am not living and impacting this world to make it better and myself brighter.

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