I’ve had myself a bit of a revelation…

I have come to believe that grace comes from my ability to make peace with my own suffering.

When I heal my wounded parts people will not be able to ruffle my feathers. I have become aware of another way I can take more responsibility for my emotions. I can proactively tend my wounded parts in an effort to continue to cultivate my own resiliency.

Mostly I’ve just been aware of all of my Trauma, but now I can go back and lick the wounds clean instead of just staring at open sores going “yeah I know how that got there”.

The reason why I still take offense to certain things people say or do is because I have not healed certain parts of my being. There are parts of my identity and belief system that I am not yet fully grounded in. I have a responsibility to myself, others and my environments to invest in this critical social and emotional labor.

I want to be able to correct moments without projecting my unhealed parts outwardly. **Everytime I am unable to manage my own energy…transformation struggles to take root. **I am acutely aware that I am not managing my energy in an efficient manner.

I will be deepening the intentionality for which I am holding in my work with specific parts, allowing them to become my primary personal development points of focus…

* My range and expression // feminine to masculine [getting grounded in them both as well as the spaces between]

* Indigeneity, continuing to retrace my lineage // Allowing myself to be influenced by elders of the good mind // Deepening embodiment practices and rituals following the guidance of the seasons

* My survivorship // resentments towards resiliency

* Self worth // Sense of pride

* Financial stability // Mutualism

* Covid — Host covid conscious events

* Ecosystem & Food sovereignty // Hydroponics experiments & wetland restoration efforts

I fancy myself a South African and Indigenous Descendant. I am a Life Giver and a Land Steward. I am A Queer, Polyamorous, Autigender and Disabled Anti-War Veteran of Color who is also AUTISTIC AS FVCK (even if you can’t visibly notice) That’s an ever growing mouthful I’m feeling pretty comfortable leaning into and I trust it to evolve as I continue to learn more about myself.

Naturally, like most folx these days, I am a trauma Survivor. There isn’t a day that goes by where I am not whole-heartedly practicing liberating myself and others beyond our experiences of oppression, marginalization and the colonization of our minds. Healing is possible.

Thank you for witnessing me! ❤️

- Aloysious