I want a beautiful family, with a minimum of three kids. Have I met the women that I will do that with?

no.

Who is she?

Loving and beautiful. Sophisticated in conversation, but privately is mine.

I think I need to go for women that I think would be much harder to get, it's tough here not knowing Spanish and going for that type of girl. The apps have not beening working for that caliber of girl.

In all fairness, I'm not sure I'm the caliber of man that can hold on of them down at the moment.

I don't know why the person I'm with is so important, people always say to no worry about it and the right thing will happen when it does and that is probably true.

I have definitely gotten more obsessed with women this year. It's been a main focus. My thinking mind does not love it, but i have been loving it. It's honestly been great, I feel that I'm in a much better place emotionally and confidence wise on that front to meet the right person than I was before. God seems to be blessing me and I'm gratfull for the positive experiences that I have had and hope to keep them that way. I will keep them that way.

You have been being more honest and you need to be with mic more. Okay this is my personal mission to be 100% honest. I'm disappointed that I forgot how important this is and honestly it's not for them, well obvisouly it is, but I forgot how it's so important to me.

I lose sync with myself if I'm telling lies. I started when I couldn't be honest with amrita, she just didn't care about what I thought and then I had to tell her what she wanted to hear.

Rather I thought that I had to tell her what she wanted to hear to keep her happy but all I was doing was pushing the problem back and adding them all together until it became unbearable.

okay that's all on this today