D bottom of d bullet in d cloud gun is so rough it knocks me breathless 2 d terrace floor. D smoke is thin but unfiltered, wat am I lukin 4? here? in life? El Salvadore? Is dis wat a last breathe feels liek wen der is no moar air?
My dad said mb it wudnt b liek I membered it cumin back 2 Antigua. D jungle eats everytin. I cud c it on der faces.  
        ”Hay dos tipos d extraneros q viene aqui va vos, ellos con un sueno y los locos, y la majoria es los dos va vos”, I said 2 Duglas hanging on d bars in a park in San Salvadore. He didn’t know Antigua liek I do, not many ppl do. It’s a colonial dream, vulcanos puffin smoke in the sunset. D old center 4 Mesoamerica. A magical valley full of trauma n run by ignorance.
     We’ve been stuck wit my in-laws 4 almost a month. I told mi esposa dat it was a bad idea, bad jungle math. I’m allergic 2 d six cats. D birds maek it so u have 2 wer shoes indoors n my bb can’t b on d floor. D 2 dogs dey don’t get out, dey just bark n poop in d back. I don’t know wer d poop goes. It’s hard 2 even understand wer d trash goes. Dey told me 2 leave it in d garage by d porton n den mi suegro wud taek it 2 d hotel. Oke.      Mi cunado was hit by a drunk driver drivin a motorbike w/o a helmet. Mi suegro didn’t have insurance, so it cost him everytin 2 save his son’s lajf.
     He was dragged behind d car 4 10m. D medics called d family 2 hs after d accident, wen dey got der sum1 had stolen all his clothes. Dey had 2 get him in ambulance 2 G-city. Dey had 2 taek out a piece of his skull, d surgeon was cheap wit d material n flattened it out. Eventually it broke n left him wit d side of his head sunk in.
     ”El no es lo mismo,” says mi esposa. No fr fr, who wud b?
So w/o even liftin anymoar on d lid of problems we landed in let me just say d 1st ting I wanted 2 do was get out of dat hus. Der is no toilet paper 4 d non-funcional toilets, dey still blv in d China virus, der is no food in d never clean kitchen. Dey never throw anytin awei. Broken vaccum cleaners have turned in2 flower pots on d terrace. D 2 gardens downstairs meanwhile r dirtpatches of neglect. Lights never get in2 dis hus. D walls r 2 high, d windows in d wrong places, d corridors n roofs all @ odd angles. 2 get from 1st 2 2nd floor u sumhow go in 3 set of stairs. 4get lockin ur door. We can’t even close our door.
     Christmas lights dat r never turned on hang up all y around. My nose constantly itchin from d cat’s who eat in d kitchen, stick der paws in d drawers. D 1 green bird in d garden whistlin thru d hus. Small black flyin bugs in d shower, fleas in d sheets, doors need 2 b always closed indoors bc rly indoors is outdoors n mosquitos cum in.

D Watery coffee, no water in d tap, water sumtiems but not always hot. Toys everywer, mb dey were d bb’s, mb it was d rotweilers. My gf left me last week, 4 like a day.