In my spare time, I always like to type on the keyboard in front of the computer, writing novels that others think are not novels. Even so, I still enjoy writing.

I especially enjoy writing when I'm feeling down. Because at that time, my sense of touch was the most sensitive, my thinking was also very active, and my thinking ability would also be enhanced. Even the editing and expression of words were far better than usual. I was able to get into the state of writing very well, I might even say it was a good state.

At that time, I could travel from this real life to another virtual world. There, I was like a god, a god who could overturn clouds and rain, and be omnipotent. I control the fate of all people, whether happy or sad, fortunate or unfortunate. I immersed myself in it and enjoyed it happily.

In this real life, I always like to observe every person around me in detail and everything that happens to them. When I am alone, I slowly crumble them, reshape them, and sneak them into my novels.

Whenever I see them dazed, confused, hesitant, helpless, tangled... irritable, my thoughts will become clearer and more organized.

I thought to myself, how would I be if he (she) was. After empathy, I will deal with it rationally in my novel, and then arrange various plots, scenes and later changes.

At that moment, I forgot my true self. Even in real life, I have the same troubles as the storyteller, but at that time, I put them all aside. At that time, all my attention and energy were placed on the people and events in the story.

A friend once talked to me about it, and he said, "This state is called obsession."

In fact, I don't know myself, is this state of obsession or an escape?

Perhaps, in this real life, I am a person who is melancholy and carries a lot of troubles. Entry to me is probably a way of getting out and getting away. Only in this way can I ignore the present moment and gain a temporary relief.

A friend said: "If this state is escapism, it is too narrow; if it is selflessness, it is very admirable; if it is obsession, then it is even more worthy of appreciation and praise."

Listening to his words, I laughed and teased him: "It is very likely that I am still transforming in these states. These should be the process of my evolution..."

After chatting with him, I suddenly came to a realization.

Perhaps, many times, we can see ourselves as other people, both inside and outside the story. In the face of all the complicated and tricky things, we might as well step aside and be a quiet bystander emotionally and seriously, just like watching a movie or TV show. Finally, we combine objective vision, use rational thinking and the most effective way to solve problems.

Then I think that when we have such thoughts, mentality and ability, we should be able to calmly face all the difficulties and various tests in life at any time.

Therefore, the four words "clouds and winds are light", it no longer belongs to some people, we can also have it.