As I was wandering in my mind during this trying times, I could recall that all I thought I didn't knew, indeed I used to knew it. So you may think, why didn't you realized it early? That one is an easy one: for so many, the obvious is not that much obvious sometimes. Let me explain it to you a little bit.

I am now in my 30s, but everything started in my early 20s, when I started to structure myself as a TradFi guy (even though, I am still kinda one of those). The stock market, the financial risks, the banking and above all, the money, was the most important concepts I wanted to know for sure.

So, the internship in a brokerage I got by winning a kind-of-a-nerd-writing-contest for a well known regulator institution in my country, just gave the perfect opportunity to start with the knowing of those delicious financial concepts.

Bonds, stocks, investments, pricing, interest rates, were the first glares of knowledge I started to absorb. And of course, those concepts were addicting. The job enviroment was not the best, but of course I was young and that didn’t matter at all (now I know that indeed does).

As little I knew back then was the most important things that could ever happened to me. Why? Because the unknowns knowns of that time were the source of the curiosity I used to absorb everything.

Then, 2 years later, the thirsty curiosity for new unknowns knowns was the main reason I dare to quit. But, of course, I didn’t quit at random. There was another kind-of-a-nerd-writing-contest from where, once again, I won an intership. This time in a risk assessment firm. Touché.

Those new juicy financial risk concepts were the new mainstream in my life. The way that those unknowns knowns were filling my not-so-much-shy knwoledge, let me introduce to myself to a new understanding of the human behavior: we are not that much good at finance and overall, at using money.

By that time, the now well-known book The Psychology of Money: Timeless lessons on wealth, greed, and happiness was not even thought to be published (as far as I know). So, I didn’t have a broad understanding of why we do the things we do with our money. What a shame.

Wrapping up my thoughts and meaningful chatter inside my head, I was able to notice that I might know something that could be useful for my sorrounding people. So, I started to ask questions. Some questions not well received, some others very smile answered.

Then, I knew it. I was meant to be the “learner” but in a different way. The good old way: learning-by-teaching way. So I decided to begin to teach some of the core concepts of what I was ripping my head off these last couple of years.

But as you might already realized by yourselves in your own life, the also well-well-know Impostor Syndrome came to action. And yes, it was so much devasteting as yours maybe. So, I did quit. But this time it was a resounding quit.

I didn’t want to know about sharing anything to anybody. Why? Simple because I was ashamed of myself and my lack of encourage. So, a couple of years must have to passed to enlight to myself the last piece I needed to know.

After all the effort, all the thirst for knowledge for financial concepts and all the experience gathered during my starting days, the concept finale was missing.

And it was so easy to realize about it.

A self, non centralized, type of money was the answer for it: bitcoin. And as simple as that all the crypto-bro world came to me. Bitcoin at first, Etherium second and all the crypto ecosystem was the last knowing I did want to know. I was hopping down the rabbit hole.

It was scaring to start learning about what was missing in my knowing path. Because, of course you are scared of stuff. Even more if that matter is what you like the most. You want to nail it. But, how? (I think I already answered that, but here it comes).

So, yes, I am learning. I will keep doing it. I already know so much enough than the common individual using fiat. And I am grateful for that. I will come back to teach to my people once again.

As I write these words, I am scared, but decided. I will come back like never before, knowing I know my unknowns, thirsty for new knowledge, but now focused on DeFi concepts and all the crypto ecosystem.

With crypto, all my desires for knowledge are being fulfilled. And becoming a cliché learner-by-teaching individual is the way.

I am decided now to teach about crypto and DeFi. And I think I made that clear… right?