the mid of the weekend, the time you cant decide what to do, to go out with friends? be crazy or just this weekend, find somebody new

my Saturdays arent that crazy, just sleeping around one at night, just alone, with these storms of thoughts in my mind yet it all changed, on a day, I didnt plan for anyway

everything has a back story, so this does too, not going to do dwell too much into it, the gist is, a bar, a ride to the station, and a beautiful face that i wont ever forget, and the chats that followed, lasting till now and maybe for all the days i got left

there were no plans to change my life, just walking under the sun, bored of wasting my time, scrolling through my messenger, Looking for someone to talk, randomly messaged the person who gave me the ride, not really hoping for anything, not even a reply

but the reply came, and a confusing one at that, i wondered and worried where she is at, but the confusion got cleared, nothing but a difference of language was that.

but the difference of language, and distance didnt affect the times that followed, the chats never ceased for anything except for the sleep that came at every night’s corner.

days went by, weeks even, with the same thing that followed questioning reality of what is happening? where were you for the times before? and what about the times that will follow?

will this come to an end? will the talks just end and we will forget? the questions on the mind never ended a whimsical happening? or something the gods ordained?

still we knew our distance, we knew that, a future together wasnt a thing and yet there was a hole in the story that we had, something we couldnt really point out just felt, in between times, and swallowed it back

till, that one night that probably changed our life, nothing really crazy happened, nothing normal did either too.. playing games on text, the next day is free, no plans to sleep, no plans to let the other person go

our thoughts left our mind at some point inhibitions just running away like its holiday, so with just us and our talks, we continued for a while, a question came to my mind? can we date, with an added conditon, this will just be fake

not trying to be too crazy or courageous, looking to be on safe side, cause to lose her would make one of the worst moments of my life not really expecting much of answer, i was ready to continue the games, with not daing, only friends, with limits pretty clear too

but her thoughts had left her even before mine, she said sure, lets go with whatever happens lets flow with the night.. and then i did, cause i was ready i felt like i have been ready for this, probably for all of my life

so I started, the date, the kissing and the peck, and i was just going to fly, when the message came to say , wait my heart stopped beating, my hands started to sweat, laughing at my own self, so stupid of me

this dream will come to an end she said she was remembering something of the past, the person i was trying to portray, she didnt want something like that anymore no more in her just too awesome, life.

so, I said sure, its alright, I understand my heart burning inside, what have u done? she wont reply from tomorrow u fucked it up big this time

but then we continued to chat, sometimes funny sometimes witty, the night slowly began to take control, the numbness growing inside our souls, yet our eyes and hands not growing weak or old.

for a while, the thoughts swirled inside my mind, I want her, to be mine. yet i get it, that its too much to ask I cant have it all, she cant risk this, and I cant too

the numbness took over me, and i said hey, if its not too weird, can i ask you something?? just dont judge me or block me, dont let me go

she was like, haha, sure lets see what u got brimming in ur mind lets see what u will ask, for the rest, it will depend, no promises, though

so i asked, I cant have it all, but can i have you for tonight? and not just for tonight, but every night

on this middle of the weekend, for as long as possible, for as long as we can count on each other and just have you , for the night

the sleep would then separate, the start of dreams would mark our end but ever mid of the weekend, the spell would be cast again i would take your hand and, hold it call you my everything, love you till it ends

it seemed so funny, a sorcery impossible to commence yet, her mind had left her, her reason gone down the drain, she said alright, if its just for the night, if the dreams would mark the end, You can have me for all the weekend nights that follow, just that, and no day else

for a second, I was like, what just happened Am I already asleep? just dreams that continue reality? or just so tired, that hallucinating, did something i want just happened? is she just stupid and didnt get me? or did she know everything and said yes?!

but she did understand, and she did give me her hand, no idea why though, but i will never let that hand hurt, never hold it too tight to leave a mark, that wont go neither would i just hold it too lightly,

i will feel her every corner, and hope she feels mine too. I will hold it every weekend night, show it to the world, cause im proud to be beside her, and i will make her proud of me too not really,a fantasy, this is no fairy tale a reality full of magic, a spell cast, with no end, would it last forever till both of us take our last breath or would we end it ourselves, to give way to make an end for new beginnings? no idea, no plans, no rules, no guidelines, just me and her, nobody else to care, lets just how will it all fair.

#poetry