The Beginning…

Keep in mind I'm doing this on a phone.

Hi my name is Andrew, I'm an alcoholic piece of shit crackhead who must have been dropped as a kid because whole fuck am I retarded. As I tell my story of the last 4 months you will come to agree with me.

I am married, and not to my girlfriend, but to a wonderful woman I pushed too far. Drugs, drinking, cheating, fights and jail slowly pushed a woman that was so in love with me she put up with the blatant disrespect mentioned. I am hated and cursed…. Rightfully so. I will burn if there is a hell. But I can't change the past i can only chose to better in the future.

So I was spun out up for days finally coming down when I tried to go home… door was locked… phone calls ignored… finally when she does answer I could feel the disgust and hatred spewing out of the phone. Tension so thick I dare not speak…. (Who the fuck am I kidding I was so selfish I didn't hesitate to ask “bitch why did I have to call more than once.”)

So imagine where I'm at now. High enough to make a fool out of myself but know I need to sleep. Angry I'm being treated exactly the way I deserve. Cold, broke, pathetic, spoiled, enabled, and entitled.

I manipulated her into letting me sleep in the garage after sleeping outside for a night. (January in North Dakota BTW blows really big balls… im not kidding look it up. And after a week or so of going back and forth between mh garage and my grandma who lived in the small town as well I finally ventured Off to the city!! Or what fargo has for a city.

There I lived happily ever after with all the light hearted people whom opened doors and greeted you. Nothing can ruin this not even a fuck up like me right?

Wrong. I did and I did and I did. I'm being a better human and treating people accordingly But boy did it get hairy and weird fast. I'll tell you that in the next Entry.

This is my first time doing This, so I'm going to get a feel for it. And I'm going to break it up. Cause it's a lot of story.

It's the hell of a story so I'm going to get a feel for it And break it up.

Until next, The Crackhead Trying To Pay It Forward.

All donations will go towards putting my new family in a home with food and clothing. Thank you for reading, I appreciate it.

“Life sucks and then you die” soso true but along the way you meet some people who are weird in all the right ways. Those people who you know want to put a bullet in their own head still find the courage and energy to put a smile on someone else's face. The world needs more people like you kitty kat!