Eclipse update:
I view eclipse from ridge in Taos with ███████. She then shows me the beautiful retreat center.
great evening of jiu jitsu in Santa Fe. But ██████ (los alamos chemist) tells me that she would NEVER LIVE IN ABQ. Interesting data point. I tell her about my vision fund idea bc she's amateur trader. Idea is sound.
I got a speeding ticket, $250 I have to pay to ohkay reservation.
I lose my house key somehow.
███████ has spare but she's out of town
mom has spare also out of town -everything is closed except taco Bell and chipotle.
will go sleep at moms bc I have garage code.
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Eclipse update:
Slept in late because I stayed up texting the night before
Took a morning walk and talked to God and asked him to bring me an emotional breakthrough during eclipse
Went to weird wignat wedding, felt chaotic, didn’t cry while watching eclipse but was moved
At wedding reception met ██ year old ███████ new yorker based man straight out of ████████ who has ███████ show. father of the groom. talked to him for █ hours about deep state, flat earth, the jews, free speech. didn’t tell him about my ███████. I posted his ███████ ███████ on my ███████ in hopes he gains more followers because of it. a genuine beautiful synchronicity of a connection. he was really funny.
had bonfire and played uno
Eclipse update:
Eclipse was a visual aporia. Light dimmed and made everything look the way it does w. THC
i didn’t have the special glasses and risked it to see the golden moon slipping crescent in front of the sun. This left me with a crescent sun-moon sun spot in my vision every time I closed my eyes for about three minutes. I was briefly afraid. But then it went away
Spent the afternoon with Galileo and Lobschevsky and I think I finally know how to write the ████-████████ book. What format to give it
really want ████ to go the moon so I can escape samsara
Want a boat. Sometimes want to delete everything and start over again
I did decide that I’m going to put all my evergreen stuff on ██████.███ from now on and forget about money and subs
realized I probably have more books than hours in life and I’m probably going to leave many things unread to just focus on time and beauty
I need to learn leglocks
I do think the eclipse was a filter tho
Would really like to know peace
Am praying for you guys
Eclipse update:
woke up with ████ and had breakfast, walked around ████ █████ for a bit
this place is devoid of culture, affluent neighborhoods, but spiritual wasteland, I complain about the lack of bookstores here, I’m content though
we got to my airbnb where my BiL and sister are to see eclipse, ████ is an excellent conversationalist and talks to my family about EVERYTHING but politics
totality starts and there’s a school nearby and the kids are SCREAMING giddy with excitement it’s so cool
████ is grilling during totality lol and I look at it with no glasses, I am incredibly moved and stunned, never saw anything like it
totality ends and the rooster next door starts crowing as though this morning
we eat burgers and ████ slips and mentions something he heard on Joe Rogan and the mood sours from my siblings lmao
████ and I leave to go get showered and get ready for dinner
my sister and BiL ditch us for dinner so we eat at a restaurant in a beautiful mid century modern building, they’ve got their beef agers in the center of the room with the raw meat on display, hostess brings me individual coat/purse rack to the table for my purse, excellent margarita
████ and I talk a little about Serious Things, he tells me realistically he sees himself in ████ for the next 3 years, he hints at coming to ██ this summer when he’s finished with █████ ██████ book tour he’s on for ███████
I feel complicated emotions, I like ████, there’s no way this works out
████ and I planned to go dancing but a HUGE thunderstorm passed through, we just sat on the back deck and watched the rain and lightning
we go to couch and I end up falling asleep head in ████’█ lap for an HOUR and he never got up or moved till I did 🥺
go to sleep at like 10 lmao
wake up to missed texts from ████ seeking shelter and feel bad I still have his key and don’t have a spare to my house