My first (baby) step in web3 - I salute you!

Why The Start?

2023 is the first year that I will not be “busy”. Had this problem of not leaving time for me to think, I was always engaging in activities, going to university courses, working at the same time to pay my studies, having a toxic friend environment grabbing my energy and optimismt completely for more than 2 years.

So I decided this needed to stop.

Graduating from university was the first step.. and done. I remember pain at the begining, realising an engineering degree was more difficult than I expected.

I stopped volunteering after more than 6 years doing stuff for others.

Finished the toxicity with some people by distancing myself.

I needed it.

Everything had to be put aside and closed before january. I needed to get back my mental wellbeing and physical health. I had forgotten about me.

After 3 months, how am I?

Starting to feel better, remembering I can do this and fighting against distractions.

Today is 20/01/2023 - 3 days ago I again started using too much my phone and had the need to download Instagram again, twice. I forced myself not to do it, I was so bored my body asked for more distractions.

I am proud I didn’t downloaded it back.

I ate some rubbish food as in my worse mental health periods. But stopped too after some minutes when I realized I am fightning against all of that.

The next day I scrolled through Linkedin and found this quote:

“ You are not bored. You are just distracted. “

It hitted me.

Threw the phone and got my shit together - (again).

Efficient work, gym, pauses to be with myself etc. Now I am in search of the energy the apps take from me, in search of who I am, in search of who i want to become, in search of how to stop people pleasing and be myself completely.

I didn’t even know writing this would make me feel so relieved, I have never written a blog post before.

I am feeling so many things lately, I want myself not to stop the feeling from flowing, i want to be a whole conscious human and experience life. Improve, be ambitious and take care of me.

Me. me. me… I know i can sound an egoistic person, but I promise I am not.

I am fed up of taking too much care of everybody except of me.

This is it. The Start. My Start. My Self.

At the end if I am whole I will be able to be better for the rest , maybe?

We will see and I will try to update. Not promising anything.

Take care.

Karol