The skies have cleared and the sun is shining. Last night I tried using marijuana for the first time this year. I’ve been crushed by my symptoms for these last few weeks. My writing habit has suffered and my productivity has reach near zero.

Today I woke up and the sun is shining. My mind is alert and my thinking is much more clear than it has been. I feel good. Days like these are few and far between. When they arrive I want to capitalize on them. This one seems to have arrived as a result of whatever the marijuana did to my body. The only other difference I made last night was eating 4 slices of white bread smothered with butter and Nutella. I woke up with a slight stomach ache—likely caused by the gluten. But I still feel much better than usual.

A couple weeks ago I took an Everlywell Cortisol, Cortisone, and Melatonin test. My morning cortisol levels at 9am (before coffee) we off the charts. I allowed myself to sleep in that day to see if they would be lower but they are cripplingly high. It’s affecting my entire body.

I had an EEG and an MRI this week too. Slowly starting to tackle the things that could be wrong with me.

My bank account is down to zero. Literally zero.